not only am i autistic but i also have perfect ivs

ive invented (note: dubious claim) something i call the bear diet which is mostly fruits and vegetables with fish as the main protein source and something like once a month you eat a few hyperprocessed foods of your liking because that is when you, the bear, raid a dumpster in the suburbs

fucked that you can’t fix other people especially when you really care about them. Oh so im just supposed to be there for you while you suffer. like a useless cunt gargoyle

*voice of someone craving even the tiniest sliver of control* i could make a spreadsheet,

a lot of ADHD behaviours and barriers feel like sims logic playing out in real time like i did my laundry but i had to pee and sleep so i stopped and i haven’t folded it yet except i can’t fold it yet because i need to eat but i can’t eat because the laundry basket is in front of the fridge. someone keeps queuing actions but they’re getting cancelled

actually, no, i do have something to add. if your work of fanfiction can be easily rebranded and sold as original fiction, then there’s a high possibility that it was never good fanfiction in the first place—and, in all probability, it won’t make for very good original (well, “original”) fiction either, instead remaining suspended between these two forms that each operate on a different paradigm. while i have a lot of love and respect for all kinds of derivative works (perhaps unsurprisingly, considering my perennial love affair with postmodernism), i also believe that the most rewarding fics are the ones that actively and continuously engage with their source material, therefore making it all but impossible for anyone—even the author—to simply file the serial numbers off and promote it as something else entirely; at least not without damaging the work’s internal integrity. something something mutualism (the derivative work deconstructing and expanding on the source material and so keeping it alive) as opposed to parasitism (thinking you can simply lift your blorbos wholesale and run but failing to realise that uprooting them from their respective stories will render them but a shadow of a reflection of their original selves).

normalize being dogshit amateur at your special interests and hyperfocuses. no more autistic savants. yes i am very into that topic no i am not good at it. we exist <3