somnubis

My "setup" hehe 🪰

May was tough.

I tried to learn by book/lessons, tried ink, got stuck in a loop of self-criticism twice, and almost broke my drawing pace...

But I'm still here! Mainly because of the people who show up sometimes. If you liked reblogged or commented on my work at least once, I want you to know that I value it very very much 🥹. Thank you.

My focus in June for now is just to get back to regularity and enjoy making art.

Then I asked around and met that guy, a photographer, who rented a small studio and agreed to help. He had a lot of gear, and so many shots printed on different paper. The whole place was in such chaos, as if it were abandoned, which caused even more curiosity of mine. Did I meet a fucking wizard or what?

The guy was like an open book. We had a very looong extremely boring philosophical conversation about art and capitalistic culture... He talked more, of course. The Unicue 99% of concentrated dull bullshit, none of which I can recall (I'm a fan, actually, just a bad one). But there was one thing, that still holds in my memory.

"I always do an exhibition," he said. "Not for the people, but for myself. The whole point is to take a look aside, see a bigger picture and the evolution behind it. To go further with better understanding yourself. How do you want to represent your works? Which do you pick and why? These are also very important questions to catch and develop your inner style."

I went home after that and thought: "You pathetic smartass, it's obvious. I also do a review for myself". However, I took out my old watercolors and put them on the wall with a sticky tape.

And something happened.

Remember that scene from Life is Strange, where Max's standing in front of her works?

Yeah. I saw more than I expected on that wall. My subconscious spoke to me. It's always been. The question is: am I listening? Since then, I do those mini-exhibitions sometimes.

My black and white shots came out awful, by the way. I never came back to analog photography :D

I went back to watercolor, though! Then I gave up and returned again (for now)... But this is a different story.

Supernatural 10.01

New wip, I guess🥴

Jodie Comer study

Something really quick to not forget how to use watercolor, while I'm trying to dig into basics😁

Rotating cubes

No ruler, just tried to imagine them and put on paper

I still need to understand space and shapes, though. So I decided to just draw and rotate cubes until something clicks in my head 😁