we'll all become stories

I slaved my heart and set it down for my soul...

I need time for myself and time to think about the future...

I loved/love him...

I lost my entire family but my brother...

My father, grandparents and uncle died years ago and my mom died just a few months ago...

Now I life with my brother again and my life starts trampling...

Aaanndd i broke up school the fourth time because of my hypochondriac...

Everything is falling down and I’m not strong enough to catch it...

My body

My mind

And my life

How is it possible that every step I do leads to another deep dark ground...

Yesterday was a good and happy day

I don’t have a job, my Family is splitting up from me, my bills are big as a mountain and my depression hit me in my face all the time.

My friends are awesome people and help me all the time but in the end I die alone and I know that and it feels awful...

At the moment? No.

How long does it go well?

Have you ever seen a tv show and you thought one of the characters was like you?

You watched the whole series and become more and more exactly this character?

And then... the show is over and you feel like one of your parts dying?

This show broke you and you swear this would never happen again?

Month later you watch it again because the next episodes came out and it change you again?

I hear all these love songs about heartbreak.

I wish I have a reason for hearing these... I don’t have a reason to hear love songs at all...

Why?