Regarding chapter 217, seeing Suo, the child who is the leader and the one who talks to the adults who should know how to behave, have adult attitudes, and especially be an example for the children and the city, is sad and depressing. A 15-year-old boy, taking on so many responsibilities, worries, and financial difficulties, really can't sleep or eat properly when everything weighs on him; it's even hard to breathe. And yet, he still manages to smile at them, apologize for not having enough food, and emphasize that it's important for them to study, something he's not allowed to do, forcing him to give up or fulfill some obligation. Remember, he's just a boy. Children and teenagers like to connect with their friends; they don't think about obligations like those mentioned above. They simply go to school, play games, fight with each other (in a good way), tease each other, and are silly. If Suo doesn't eat, it's because he can't sit with his friends, share meals, and connect, knowing that in Bangkok-gai, children face restrictions due to a lack of sufficient food, and even those who have homes still come to eat and even take food home if they can. It's beautiful to see a child share the little they have with another. How would he feel eating while remembering them, seeing Nirei and especially Sakura eat with such gusto?
And all of this, a 15-year-old boy has to carry, it's revolting. He carries it because there's probably a system with high-ranking, imbecile adults in charge, and corruption and embezzlement are rampant, and it's a child who has to carry all of this? Well, he's going to try to end it, yes, he'll put himself in danger, that's why he needed to physically hurt his friend and break him emotionally, to leave a message: I'm good for nothing, so forget about me. How painful this is, he's visibly suffering because his true "self" is that silly, happy, provocative boy who also likes to ensure peace for his friends and protect them. He needs to keep them away, at any cost, so that he's even remembered as a villain and all that. Imagine seeing your friends right there, in the center of the chaos, the one you tried to push away, the one you did. He really needs to repress the repressible to stand out again as the one who has to be hated, and seeing the stubbornness and determination of everyone, as his main opponent, this will break him and suffocate him emotionally. He wants to act alone, and seeing himself unable to achieve that, we will cry for him, for his friends, and for ourselves too. Abandonment, loneliness, and protecting friends are a shared and parallel feeling between them; both know the pain of being left behind. And that must be why he said his seal will break, a fury will be unleashed, we will see him being relentlessly cold, for something greater. If we have a bird in a cage, and it feels the need to break free, once the door opens, it will fly quickly and feel free. Suo wants to free his people because he will also be freeing himself, and he will do whatever it takes. He will return to his friends, be a happy, mischievous fool, and have meals with his friends, play games, go swimming, and who knows, maybe Bacchus and Rakta will come to Makochi. I want it to be like that. Okay, I want to cry. This isn't right, it's sad.
