Shay 22

my favorite fictional characters and music

every person on this earth and their opinion of me

I’m fucked.

I’m not sure what that means, and I don’t want to know…

well i mean thats true i do have a lot of money (which im gonna spend on kpop albums and manga ANYWAYS)

PLS I LOVE IT IT HAS SUCH GREAT VIBES I hope this means I will have a peaceful and quiet year 🤞

haha i’m fucked but like the feelings in this song are nothing new

its a damn good song

WHAT THE FUCK.

Oh well i sure as hell hope so buddy

umm okay

Uhmmmm idk what this is supposed to meannnn-

Well then

huh.

wut

okay,, cool cool cool cool cool cool (the vibes are awesome tho so :D)

Forever and always tv

@yonkitybonkity @kri-the-swift13 @casuallycrueld @mentally-unstable-fangirl@clairelk6 @everything-is-bluuue @books-and-gardens7 @solar-eclipse

Nothing New... Oh noooo💀

And spit me out

I'm not your peppermint

Actually, I'm sensitive

(But you already knew that, didn't you?)

Treat me like your holiday re-treat

Suck out my energy

I feel defeated,

You win.

I lose,

my happiness.

that's because you taught me

I don't deserve it if

I'm on Santa's naughty list

Well I guess I am

Or at least that's what you tell me

Say I don't do enough

I'm not a good kid

No, not a good friend

Yeah I'm worthless

(and my love ain't shit)

would you care if the words you said

when you told me you missed me

were etched on my skin?

blue ink like the bruises that I feel within

got your office pen on my paper white skin

read me like a book with one look

cause you know my feelings

better than I know them

I hope you feel accomplished

Cause I definitely "lost" something

my mind, my time, my faith in you

I knew no one would say that to

A friend they knew was struggling

"I feel like you don't do enough"

I wonder how I can be enough?

your toughness doesn't feel like love

it feels like I've been roughed up

my mind is gone

my soul feels dead

no im not only heartbroken

(melodramatic, ugh!)

those words carved scars on my heart

made me avoidant

plenty missed me when I was detached

but only you asked for more than I could give

at my lowest

my friend can make their own decisions

they listened to me

considered my feelings

and said to be worthy

I just have to exist

Not constantly give

in that moment I felt like myself again

loved from within

I just wish I'd had the time to process shit

Proof of my love, not expected

I feel lost at sea, as if nowhere I will ever go will end up being the shore but just another mirage.

If u need someone to talk to I’ll always be there, even tho we might not know each other in person, but that doesn’t matter. If u feel down text me and we will go through this together. If u feel unmotivated than I can hype you up.