some depressed guy

“E a gente sofre, porque gostaria que fosse de outro jeito.”

Tonight is one of those nights where I am missing you like crazy, so much that I feel sick because that’s how much I crave you. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want you. Not in a sexual way. I can’t stop thinking about your wavy hair and your beautiful brown eyes, I want to tell you how unbelievably beautiful you are. I can’t stop thinking about how badly I want to cuddle with you, I feel so safe in your arms. And how I want you to tell me about all the things you’ve been up to, it doesn’t matter if it’s nothing new. And when you laugh unexpectedly at something I say? It’s one of the best feelings ever, I can’t believe I made you smile. I hate clicking photos but I want to click silly and cute photos with you. I want to take you to my favorite place in the city and kiss you there. I want to send you memes and random messages, no thinking a hundred times before sending a hi. I want to buy you cute gifts, write you love letters, go stargazing, watch the sunset, oh god the list is never ending. I want to play with your hair, I want to hold hands and I want to do every one of those corny romantic things from romcoms. And most of all, I want you to want me too.