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Hii! How are you? Could you do a headcanon of The Freak Circus with a Artist!Reader who plays an instrument very well, but they would afraid to perform on stage because of insecurity and fear fear of being judged by others? (I found your blog interesting and I liked your writing style . If you don't like the topic, that's okay.) That's it, bye!! :)
The Freak Circus x MusicArtist!Reader (Headcannons)
18+ not nsfw but because the fandom is
Gn!Reader with all (Pierrot, Harlequin, Jester, Ticket Taker, Doctor, Columbina) and an instrument up to interpretation!
Word count: 4,270
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⢠The second he hears about you playing an instrument he instantly has to hear his dearest play! He would beg you with his puppy eyes if he has to!
⢠Should you not wish to play he gets concerned, why are you so nervous to play? Did someone say something bad about you?! is it him your nervous about disappointing, is that the impression heās been giving?! did he do something wrong? Your not pulling away are you?
⢠Anyway eventually heās getting you to play for him either out of concern for him clearly taking it badly that you would play for him (granted he quickly scrambled to hide it) or through his encouragement. He cant let you get away with hiding this from him!
⢠And yes he is very encouraging, your own biggest fan before heās even heard you. Will continually remind you that you are safe from judgment when its just you and him, he could never judge you, he adores you! Now PLEASE play for him dearā¦
⢠Once you do play he will sit there absolutely lovestruck and mesmerised by your music he had expected whatever you played to sound great but this? Is this what heaven sounds like? He could listen to this for eternity and spend every second of it happy, just look at you his love, his dream, HIS only want playing right here for HIM! He could die happy hear and now.
⢠You may have to snap him out of it even after you stop playing he can get so lost it may take him a minute to realise, still lost in the moment. Tends to be disappointed when you stop but quickly bounces back once he hears you speak giving you the biggest round of applause looking for that smile of yours.
⢠Should you seem nervous once you stop playing he is going on endlessly about how amazing you are, how HE gets to witness this. You should be on stage preforming to vast audiences! Sure he'd love to keep you all for himself but you deserve to be shown how amazing you are, how much the audience would love you! His dearest.
⢠Maybe you could assist in HIS performance! Its just music you could just stand to the side while he dances with his shadows for you, so long as youāre in an area you wonāt see anything you shouldnāt youāll be perfectly fine! A great duet, dancer and musician as one, each others muse perhaps!!
⢠Heās deviated once he finds out your terrified of being on stage. Of course you would be he knows how judgmental people can be, of course your afraid of them. It would crumble his fantasies in an instant, but maybe keeping you off stage is for the better.
⢠Thinking about it he canāt help but worry about how the audience would view you, if something could go wrong and the audience mistreat you? What if you somehow end up like him during his first performance? He couldnāt let that happen to you.
⢠As much as he wants you to be confident enough to go on stage, to break your insecurities bit by bit, and he wants to prove it to you that YOU are the greatest person he could possibly ask to do so. To gently break your fears and let you shine like you are clearly meant too. Heās to terrified of what could happen to you what THEY could DO to you. He canāt bring himself to put you in that situation.
⢠Will however often ask you to play for him while he practices or simply to enjoy dancing with you, maybe even just so he can listen to you play over and over again, doing whatever he can and saying whatever he can to improve your confidence and show you exactly how good you are.
⢠Oh you play an instrument do you? How fun~, and would you look at that he wonāt stop teasing you with little remarks about hearing you play. He gets more and more inpatient the longer he waits.
⢠However if you donāt wish to play for him? Heāll tease about being offended but reading your insecurities hits him in a way he doesnāt want to think about. Besides why would he care about that you being hesitant over a stupid instrument.
⢠Eventually youāll fall for one of his tactics get so annoyed by his teasing you cave and play for him, or was it the small gestures of odd kindness where that smile appears more genuine and he points out the music stating āI bet you could play thatā, and the few questions he has that arenāt poisoned by his teasing tone. Play this game long enough he may get inpatient and end up cornering you so evade him at your own risk.
⢠Heās going to continue to tease you although he will turn it down dependent on your current level of discomfort, reminding you that he doesnāt mean it, dear one. Will slip in a few kind words with a noticeably more gentle smile before continuing like it never happened and changing the subject if you bring it up by asking random questions.
⢠Finally when you play for him heās absolutely dumbfounded, YOU play like THIS? And youāre afraid to show it?! The sheer idea of being so good at something and not showing it off? He really doesnāt understand you, but thatās what makes you so intriguing, so likeable? He doesnāt understand his feelings for you regarding this simply because he choses not to. What he does know is that he needs to hear you play more often.
⢠Once you stop heās giving you a round of applause flashing that mischievous grin of his and asking if maybe you could play something to set the mood next time, you know have a little fun. So long as Pierrot isnāt in earshot there shouldnāt be any knives involved.
⢠Your still nervous? Heās unsure what to say just kind of freezing for a second once he notices before blurting out something along the lines of āAre you serious? You just put on the show of the year right her and yourā¦ā before catching himself before making snarky remarks about how astonishing youāre talent is that are oddly kind for such a tone.
⢠Anyway before long heās attempting to convince you to join his performances even bribing with what he can. You two would be a dastardly duo and he would love to see Pierrots face once he sees. Background music for his stories, covered. Drama added to his stunts done. He could even sing along!
⢠Complains like a winy idiot once he finds out your to afraid to go on stage and takes it as a challenge to convince you to do so. Afraid of the public? Donāt worry about them just play for him like they arenāt there! Yeah yeah thats not how that works but come on you two would make an amazing duo! Pleaseeeeee?
⢠Anyway the more he thinks about it the more it bothers him, not because your not willing to duet him in some form, but because deep down heās concerned about you. He doesnāt want you to have so much fear over something you clearly enjoy doing, after all you wouldnāt be so good at it if it wasnāt something you enjoyed right?
⢠He wants to break whateverās holding you back and the thought will pester him endlessly and he wonāt admit it hurts to see you so afraid of judgment. As if their opinions actually matter, that those toys on the streets harassment had gotten to you and caused you to fear it. They mean nothing compared to what you could do and yet they still soil that talent.
⢠This results in him getting you to play for him when you two are alone, making those naturally gentle comments he refuses to admit to in hopes you get used to playing more in the presence of others. Some day youāll open up, you have too, you deserve too. Besides he does enjoy listening to you play, almost like a place to rest and find peace for those moments amongst the chaos if the circus; a time to finally relax and just listen. He wonāt admit how much he truly enjoys it though.
⢠Probably found out from the others that you play an instrument unless you told him, I have a feeling heād catch Pierrot looking at stuff such as accessories or maintenance for your instrument. That or Harle let it slip after he clocked his annoyance at you not performing in front of others. He doesnāt care much for hearing you play but heāll admit heās curious what got the others riled up.
⢠Would probably ask you to play out of curiosity and to see how willing you are to follow along, if you decline to heās probably reiterating it and telling you it wasnāt a question. It didnāt take long for him to asses your body language and look in your eyes to know it was simply fear of his judgment.
⢠Heās not letting this go now, he doesnāt exactly like being evaded and having things hidden from him, in this case its your talent. However to avoid upsetting a certain guard dog he needs to be nice about this, more of a gentle push, oh and heāll keep pushing even if he canāt push you fully right now heāll simply come back later to continue. Like training a pet, they wonāt always obey the first time.
⢠He pushes by asking questions, maybe how long youāve played, how often. Heāll invite you to play even briefly, these invites do not stop or even slow for that matter. Heāll typically wait for when you appear most at ease talking about your instrument before each invite, making a mental note of improvement and giving himself feedback on the best approach.
⢠Once he manages to convince you to play he takes more pleasure in the victory of his in successfully breaking you in. However he will admit you sounded way better than he imagined. Its a shame it took so long to accomplish this, but the time he took āconvincingā you was worth it.
⢠When you stop he thinks about how maybe you would make a nice little song bird, a cute little pet with music to listen to, preferably well trained. He wonders how many songs you could play. However that may disturb the circus too much, its a pity but heād rather keep things as they are without the interruption.
⢠If he noticed your anxious after youāve played heās quick to tell you that you simply have no reason to be, your performance was great its a shame the circus is yet to master that talent. You must have spent a lot of time on it which is saying something for someone with such a small life span, he canāt help but respect the passion.
⢠Although you shouldnāt get any ideas about joining them. He knows how easy it would be for you to slip somewhere you donāt belong should the others let you try. But maybe if they insist they could put you somewhere else, with a well thought out plan of course, maybe you could add ambiance to the food stalls. As long as you donāt find out whats in the food.
⢠Oh your unable to perform on a stage? Makes sense since you couldnāt even perform in front of him. Better to keep it that way since it would cause the circus less trouble, humans can be quite troublesome after all so he understands where the insecurity is coming from. Its a shame humans donāt have the capacity to understand talent when they hear it, this place would be a whole lot nicer without them. At least youāre stage fright should help you behave well, he knows he likes that about you.
⢠He wonāt dwell much on the thought but heāll remember how well you played. Although heās going to have to keep an eye out for the other circus members breaking or bending the rules for you to play. Heāll have to keep an eye on that after all with talent like that Iām sure theyāll want you playing more.
⢠Maybe he himself should ask you to play again when it wouldnāt inconvenience the circus? Besides it may give him a chance to catch up with his little mouse, make sure they continue to behave like a good pet. Despite everything so long as you stay in line your company isnāt exactly bad.
⢠Should you find yourself playing for him again it may be after a particularly hard day, giving him a chance to unwind a little, after all he does enjoy the music. You are quite a good little pet for obliging although he can tell it was done out of care or concern, he doesnāt like to think about that though. You are after all just a human, just a pet, pets donāt last as long as they do so thereās no point getting attached. Even if he may end up concerned about having a choice in that.
⢠Oh great you āplayā an instrument. Congratulations your insecurity is now warranted. Heās a perfectionist so assuming you donāt play to his standards he dreads having to listen too it.
⢠Heās relieved if he finds out you donāt want to play in front of him, heād rather not waste his time judging that when heās already busy with the circus. However should he hear about your playing from the others he will become curious. Especially if jester is the one to say something nice heās quite hard to please with human stunts.
⢠Eventually heāll try to get you to play to ease his curiosity, heāll be reassuring and do his best to make you feel comfortable enough to play, lying about being judgmental if he has to, claiming he would not be bothered by such a trivial thing.
⢠However heās not asking, and it would be good of you to obey and stay in line right? As much as that āillusionā behind you seems to dislike his methods its for the better of the circus that he can go back to focusing on his work. Your pretty much cornered until you at least try to play.
⢠Finally getting you to play heās honestly surprised, you meet his standards maybe even succeed them. It really took that much to pry it out of you? Oh well, he doesnāt ponder long, heās already enjoying the music. Its a nice difference from the chaos of the circus, kind of like a grounding symphony amongst the chaos. Heās very impressed.
⢠Once you stop heās quick to ask you to continue stating it as a nice break from work and thanking you for your time and obedience, even if it took some pushing. Heās glad he chose to listen too you despise his expectations.
⢠Wait are you nervous? After that performance? Heās very quick to highlight every little perfection you appear to be blatantly glossing over. Honestly itās painful for him to hear such negativity about something to well done.
⢠Maybe he can convince Jester to let you play for the daytime performances, those rowdy streets could use something to make his presence seem less agonising amongst those messy animals. However that would probably be difficult so he shouldnāt get his hopes up. Its a shame, he could really use something to look forward to out there.
⢠What?! Your afraid to perform still? It irks him that talent like that is wasted on the judgment of fools who donāt know better, donāt understand the true perfection of what they hear. As much as he knows Jester wouldnāt let you perform anyway it just makes him want to send you out more to prove them and you wrong, even if it meant agonisingly explaining it in simple terms for those too simple minded!If only it wouldnāt cause issues for the circus!!
⢠Thinking about it starts to bother him where that fear of judgment has came from, I mean he is insanely judgmental when it comes to things like this. What made you so anxious? He knows he feels bad for you but also that he canāt change anything that happened before, but that wonāt stop him thinking about it regardless if he wants to or not.
⢠Heāll accept you not wanting to play for others, after all it would be better for the circus, however he will not accept whatever caused this fear. He doesnāt care if its just a natural anxiety or something that happened, heās getting to the root of it and gently pushing you to be more confident at mostly your own pace, he canāt let such talent go to waste after all. You get complemented on the little things you donāt even think about much anymore let alone expect to be recognised for with him around.
⢠Heāll get you to play for him when he could use some time away from the chaos typically not giving you no as an option, after all your in their circus so you play by their rules. And honestly he needs this, heās grown fond of your playing and your company like a small sanctuary from every responsibility and little detail he gets too stuck into. After all he is the most stressed within the circus.
⢠His patient plays music? Can you play metal? He doesnāt care wether or not your instrument sounds metal, it could always be modified to sound that way. But can you? Heād ask you to try even on an otamatone.
⢠You wont play for him? Whatās wrong? Afraid heāll breach patient confidentiality? You shouldnāt keep secrets from your doctor sweetie, you could end up in worse condition, lets not let that happen.
⢠Eventually with some convincing heās sure to get you to play besides heās a doctor not a musician your the expert in that field, heās quick to analyse the anxiety realising heās not the problem but people in general.
⢠Heās reassuring and factual in his approach stating very clearly he does not care how you play, if you have the capacity to play for yourself then you clearly werenāt doing it for anyone else. What matters is you find joy in it, thatās what heās looking for. Not some performance of the year. And if you arenāt that good then youāre simply still improving thatās how it works. He didnāt become a doctor over night after all (well at least a good one).
⢠When he eventually gets to hear you play heās studying you, he doesnāt care what you play although he would prefer metal. But right now he has a patient to assist. Your great talent was just another factor. Donāt get him wrong he is listening to you and enjoying the music but he has priorities.
⢠Once your done he gathers the facts, how nervous you where, how much more talented you where then you let on out of anxiety, how much you still seemed to enjoy playing despite everything. You may need to wait a minute before he responds. Interesting arenāt you? And yet unbelievably talented.
⢠Noticing immediately the heightened anxiety if present heās ensuring you know how well you played and that you should be proud of your efforts in gaining that skill. You have no need to be nervous and you should know as your doctor its his job to help you relieve said ails that stop you from reaching your full potential.
⢠Your free to come play in his tent any time, just be careful of his medical instruments, we wouldnāt want you getting hurt now. Although heās going to do everything logical to convince you to play metal for him, it is calming for him after all.
⢠Ah right his patients, of course you wonāt play in front of them, even if its not as bad as a stage or any performance like the others would invite you to its still people listening. Oh well its only until your more confident, patience is key in situations like these.
⢠He spends a lot of time thinking about it, ways to help you overcome thus fear. Medications, exposure therapy, diving into potential trauma, maybe itās genetic insecurity? Heāll figure out why you canāt play in front of others and cure it. Thatās what doctors are for and the better health be it mental or physical the tastier the result.
⢠You should be confident and be allowed to show of your skill free of fear regardless of judgment, you do it for joy and should not be held back from a passion. It may take time but heās breaking whatever restrains you, he wouldnāt be a good doctor if he didnāt. Besides he wants you to find as much joy in your music as he finds joy in being a doctor.
⢠Getting asked to come play for him while he sets up or packs away becomes a regular occurrence in his attempt to study your improvement and get you used to playing in front of others, besides he does enjoy your music. Soon you should be able to play around his other patients too, it just needs time.
⢠Someone told her you like playing an instrument. Sheās not overly inclined towards you but the others like you so next time she sees you sheāll ask about it, even though humans make her nervous.
⢠Your too insecure to play? Shes very understanding and wonāt push however sheāll invite you to play with her. She picked up an ocarina along their travels, along with other little hobbies she found neat, shes not really musically inclined and canāt play well telling you this in advance.
⢠Sheāll get you to play by providing you peace and quiet. She offers to play first and her skill makes you feel more welcome, she even stated you could probably do better but you both where here for comfort not skill, and yeah you can definitely play better than that.
⢠Knowingly very sympathetic sheās letting you do things at your own pace with no rush, letting you know theres no reason to be nervous. I guess it also helps seeing sheās nervous too, but thatās just how she is around you, shes very untrusting. But despite that she still let you stay, still wants you to feel welcome, feel comfortable even. If only it was so easy to do the same for her.
⢠Surprised to hear how well you play she gets distracted by it, she wasnāt expecting this even though the overs spoke of you so highly. Shes a bit embarrassed by her own skill now but that doesnāt matter long to her, what matters is you seem so happy, itās practically contagious. It eases her slightly until she notices it and the reminder that your a human just like them kicks in.
⢠Shes quick to congratulate you once you finish and even asks you to teach her, she could always use another little hobby to distract herself after all. And you dose enjoy bonding with you although sometimes she forces herself to much for the sake of the others.
⢠Wait your still nervous? But you played so well is it her your nervous of? Where you this nervous with the others? Its not because sheās pretty is it? Shes quick to jump conclusions and assume things she expects from humans in general, but with either reassurance or the realisation its not just her will put her mind at ease and sheāll start to realise you are simply afraid of the judgment of others.
⢠Have the others offered you a role performing yet? It would be nice to see you get to show off your skill if you feel like it. Your music truly is something after all, she could offer to help you set up too. Maybe help convince them to let you on stage if your feeling confident enough.
⢠Its not surprising to her when you say you donāt want to be on stage, instead she offers you to play along in her little hide aways where the public cant judge you. It doesnāt matter if they would think your bad or even too good in there you get to be alone whenever you please.
⢠Sure she wants you to be confident enough to go on stage but humans can be terrible regardless if your better or worse. She gets harassed a for her beauty and wonders what attention you would draw to yourself with you playing. Maybe its for the best you stay away from them, but sheāll still encourage you to play for other members of the circus, after all she trusts them unlike you or the public.
⢠Sheāll still offer for you to play music with her giving her a chance to practice the ocarina asking you tips and tricks about getting better at music in general. She may even ask you to find something simple you can both learn to play together. Just for the small moments away from everything and everyone else.
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-General monsters
⢠They bare there teeth aggressively like open mouth pointed teeth style as if showing their ready to strike.
⢠The chanceās of a human having a child with a monster are so low that taking precautions against it are basically considered unnecessary, and having a child impossible regardless of how much either may want one.
⢠Not only bite mark but have a habit of rubbing their scent un their mate like a cat rubbing against someones leg. It shows their mate already have someone regardless if their ready to bite mark. Its more if an early relationship thing however is still typically done throughout. Pretty much the equivalent of holding hands in public.
⢠Monsters typically have no idea how humans cort each other, and would have to research it they typically find a mate and grow their relationship with different degrees of marketing they have no idea of human traditions such as official dating, engagement, wedding ceremonyās. Even even typical expressions of love are such as bringing bouquets of flowers without activity witnessing it enough times to realise its some kind of tradition or having read or heard about it somewhere.
⢠They donāt require human flesh but its more nutritious to them since humans have learned to maintain their own health it makes them better for consumption, its harder to get the required nutrients otherwise and can be expensive after all they are large and are mostly carnivorous. So a monster abstaining would effectively be like that one vegan of the group.
⢠Will bring you things he finds cool as gifts, sometimes the gifts are things that remind him if you but most of those he keeps for himself.
⢠He gets nervous about you liking his gifts a lot so he hesitates and sometimes ends up not giving them like the flower he can give.
⢠He would completely bury his face in your pillow after you woke up and left the room, just to smell you and hope its still warm.
⢠Definitely found wherever that plaster went and kept it as one of his most precious keep sakes, the only thing that could rival it would be something he got from someone who as passed (his parents or Columbina).
⢠This man adores physical touch like heās deviated if his love pulls away, he wants to keep them there as long as possible, to know their safe, to know their still there, and also because heās heavily touch starved and he can never get enough of his loves heart melting touch.
⢠This man also absolutely adores seeing his love happy, be it him listening them go on about something their enthusiastic about or just simply doing something they enjoy. Oh how he could watch them endlessly with that love struck smile of his like the rest of the world no longer existed.
⢠Heās scared of hurting his dearest after all if he has sharp claws while they have weak skin it would be so easy even a slight touch could be harmful.
⢠Losing control is another thing heās scared of as if he would snap only to find himself covered in blood again like his first performance, after all theres a reason his clothes hide blood and heās not allowed to speak.
⢠Heās afraid of his love fearing him sure, but heās afraid of what he could do to them if he doesnāt keep himself in check causing him to meticulously judge his own actions and any hint of fear from his love can send him spiralling although heāll cover it up as fast and much as possible in fear if scaring them more.
⢠Honestly I think he treats his love like both the most fragile glassware, as well as the most valuable thing in his life the one thing he would take every step within his ability to keep them well looked after and happy.
⢠Would definitely decorate a letter with his little stars then sit there idly drawing hearts while his love struck mind thought about his love seeing and reading said letter. It ends up looking quite messy but so is his mess of love sick thoughts.
⢠Our little sexual harassment goblin *cough* red tent *cough* personal gonna tune him down a little in my writing.
⢠Has a habit of making subtle efforts to show he cares although he refuses to admit it. Be it a āsmallā tip at work, or offhandedly giving a gift saying oh he just happened to have it and he didnāt want it.
⢠Does follow people out of intrigue but typically only briefly, heās quite curious and loves sticking his nose in things he has no business in.
⢠Also its Harle of course he toys with people out of curiosity and sheer boredom, he loves to stir trouble to have something more interesting to look forward to in his life. I mean heās sick of the same old circus routine by this point.
⢠Professional question dodger good luck finding out anything about him, itās gonna be one hell of a moment for him to actually let anything slip.
⢠Does not take anything seriously or at least tries to, not very good at confronting reality like at all, would rather treat everything like a stupid game.
⢠However when he does end up having to view things seriously there is no way to off play somethings wrong, he really wonāt know what to do in that situation more likely freezing in place, even struggling to get his words out if he tried.
⢠This man cannot admit how much he actually cares not even to himself since that would mean he has something to lose, and he canāt lose right? Thereās no way!
⢠Did I mention heās egotistical? Of course he is. This is all his little game, his little toys, and he makes the rules. Said rules however only really exist in his head, hes not ready to think about that.
⢠Pathetic when it comes to actually allowing himself to feel his own feelings and being vulnerable even if he knows he looks pathetic, he hates it but despite that he canāt help feeling good when allowing himself to be vulnerable in front of someone he truly loves.
⢠Would decorated his letter with his hearts, after all he gave you his pin may as well keep the theme, then putting in effort to space them correctly not to much not to little. After all he DEFINITELY doesnāt care THAT much right? So thatās what it is the perfect amount right?
⢠This man views humans like raccoons in his trash and you canāt convince me otherwise.
⢠Has a habit of lurking after other members of the circus if he suspects somethings up however very discrete and more of an, ah their with that human again. Then he carries on having found what he wanted to know.
⢠Very good at telling what someone is thinking through their body language and look in their eyes, after all he likes to have control over everything, itās what keeps his family safe and the pests in their place.
⢠Still very confused why anyone would pick up a probably diseased racoon from the trash the way Pierrot did but who is he to judge him for wanting a pet, so long as he follows the rules and doesnāt compromise the circus with pests running them out.
⢠knows humans have a short life span compared to him so even if he did grow attached to one it would be against his will.
⢠Heād refuse to admit caring for a human even too himself, until he accepted they didnāt have long and if he was gonna feel this way about them he shouldnāt be wasting what little time he has with his pet.
⢠Would show proper affection and care in discrete ways but other than that would be the type to tell you to sit then call you a good pet for following orders.
⢠Pierrot and Harlequin seem to have decorated their letters with their pins? he didnāt put much thought into it so just grabbed some of his diamonds and threw them over it, they land wherever they land. He really doesnāt care much about the decoration he doubts the receiver will care, its just a stupid letter.
⢠Absolute neat freak, will sit there adjusting anything even slightly out of place, this includes peoples behaviour. I feel like he has an eye twitch when the mess starts to bother him to much.
⢠Hates anything remotely messed, should someone in the circus appear dirty heās immediately getting them to change into spare uniform he keeps prepared for them. However should it be a visitor trying to enter with their ticket well they may get swiftly lost in the mirrors until closing time.
⢠Keeps an eye on those who he believes will disturb the order of thingās, this includes Harlequin in general and Pierrot in his little obsession not to mention their fights. Its quite tiresome for him and he blames a certain human for making things worse. A slight grudge perhaps.
⢠Despite this he is a man of logic and knows a certain human is not responsible for whatever Harlequin and Pierrot have dragged them into and can only blame them for their own dumb snooping (black tent). However should they stay in place and follow the rules he may grow a liking to said human its rare to have one who doesnāt stir his annoyance.
⢠Heās always viewed humans like inconveniences, potentially harmful beings that know nothing about order and only their own shenanigans. However they are necessary after all they fund the circus so attempting to keep them managed is the way he must go about it besides Jester is good at keeping them under control.
⢠He relies a lot on Jester and doubts heād remain sane trying to keep the visitors in line without him and follows Jesters orders and ways if maintaining them since it normally works and honestly Jesters better at dealing with people.
⢠He tends to be to busy analysing everything wrong with the person and every piece he notices makes him destain them more, continually bothering him. heād forget how to properly deal with them lost in his own distain if he didnāt have Jesters methods in the back of his mind to use when necessary.
⢠Decided to decorate his letter with his mask markings instead, after all they look like eyes reminding you heās watching. Not to mention it reminds you of your place, now be a good guest and donāt add to the disorder heās working hard to manage. After all he already had to meticulously decorate this card heās a neat freak after all.
⢠I donāt care if the bad ending where you donāt help Pierrot shows him with pointed teeth this man has a beak. (Said beak does have teeth tho).
⢠He also has wings concealed in the fabric of his cloak making it move abnormal and be oddly resistant to wind. Although heās very good at keeping it looking natural all things considered and so the wings arenāt visible in the creases the cloak is also well lined. He has to stretch said wings every so often to avoid them becoming uncomfortable.
⢠Honestly heās light considering heās the largest of the circus, birds do be that way, which is why heās weaker than Pierrot.
⢠Very curious and will analyse both physical health, and psyche of his patients, although he considers everyone his patients they may simply havenāt needed to visit him yet.
⢠Should a human have a medical condition especially one hard to diagnose or even still undiagnosed or even better incurable! congratulations their now his favourite test subject.
⢠Typically considers humans as nothing more than a tasty meal, like a well prepared chicken, the type of chicken that had its health meticulously maintained to ensure perfect taste when eaten.
⢠For him to consider a human as nothing but a hen being prepared for slaughter they must be truly something different, even farmers can grow to attached to their livestock sometimes.
⢠Yes he has chicken scratch doctors hand writing, yes he can read it. Didnāt put much effort into decorating his letter as he has patients and experiments to attend to after all he needs to have everything ready and who knows the recipient may be the next to require assistance, he canāt be to busy decorating paper to attend to them can he?
⢠Shes dead :/ but theoretically if she was alive have some hcs.
⢠Sweet, kind, but often nervous. I mean with the way humans treat her itās understandable, like a doll pretty and perfect, they donāt care who she is and she gets catcalled quite frequently.
⢠Often spends her time out of sight or accompanying the others so shes less likely to be harassed, she absolutely hates how she looks simply because she doesnāt want to resort to this. To burden the others.
⢠Canāt stand up for herself or others resorting to slip away out if sight and help with the aftermath of what happened making her very different to the mc after all the reason Pierrot fell for them is because mc stood up for him. This is why his heart beat different for both.
⢠Likes to spend her time on comforting little hobbies and invites people to join her in her little comfort zone in hopes they can feel as comfortable as she is. She likes to make origami with Pierrot and will drag him into it if he looks sad.
⢠She will also drag Harlequin into whatever sheās doing knowing he really doesnāt care what shes doing, heās more their for her comfortable company than the activity and shes yet to find something he enjoys.
⢠Views humans like traps, as if even the most innocent looking one hides a deadly secret or is only acting that way as a lure until they can have what they want and she hates it.
⢠For her to really let in a human it will take a long time gaining her trust and showing they have no ill intentions, and should said human break that trust there is no guarantee ever fixing it.
⢠However should her family grow a liking for a human she would be more inclined towards them, after all they must like them for a reason right? Sides a friend of her family is a friend of hers and she wouldnāt want them to feel unwelcome. Granted she would still be untrusting and likely push herself to act more comfortable with them then she is.
⢠Big angle wings decorate her letter a symbol of how she shall forever haunt the narrative, what else would she decorate with? Their neat and arranged the best she can, she almost thinks they look like flowers. She didnāt put to much thought into it just had fun with it and hopes the recipient likes it.
Itās finally cool enough to think but I canāt lie I still aināt getting as high of a word count as I wanted so I may go back to add stuff per character
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