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Hi I’m just some idiot on the internet who’s bored and wants to write shit for myself and random people who want to see how I interpret their favourite characters!

I may not write the best or always have the best characterisation and will likely make headcannon posts for each character I write for to give y’all an idea of how I view the character and write them as such, I will not apologise for my interpretation or lack of skill :3

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Oh also I don’t reread my shit and am known for bad grammar, my bad hehe

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“Hey friend!” Damn that was loud.

“Uhh hi?”

Or

“Hey friend!” Damn that was loud.

You had only just hurried out of the red tent after the performance. Trying your best not to appear to rushed. The light outside felt to bright. The pounding of your heart. The sound of people. Its too strong. Too much.

You hide. You stand tucked away. Was that blood real? Fuck every is to much. Just breathe stop shaking please. How long have I been shaking. It’s probably just fear though I thought I was. I was normally a lot better with horror right? Maybe it was just a bit too real this circus is really good at being realistic perhaps.

A heavy hand lands on your shoulder.

You jolt back! Quickly you notice a familiar uniform. There he is your new friend Pierrot. he’s holding both hands up looking startled just like you. But his expression quickly softens looking at you with worry, you should probably say something.

”S-sorry I didn’t see you there, your very quiet-“ you tried to hide the remaining fear in you voice but to no avail.

He simply leans In closer, still clearly worried almost increasingly so.

”Are you alright my dear? Was my show to much for you?”

”I just- didn’t expect it to escalate so fast! It was great really, you’re very talented! Sorry I didn’t mean to leave like that…”

He smiles a little happy you thought well of his show however-

“Do you need anything? Im sorry I scared you with the suddenness.” He seemed to genuinely feel bad and want to make up for it.

”No no- Im fine promise! I just needed a moment. Sorry again I think I got a little overwhelmed it’s easily done, nothing you did wrong!”

”My dear- please stop apologising…”

”Sorry!”

He let out a sigh, soft expression seemingly contemplating something, maybe what to say. You had no reason to apologise.

His eyes scanned you quickly. But the mood shifts suddenly, his expression darkening as his eyes land on your new green heart pin.

”Oh right! Your college? gave it to me, he’s uhhhh- a little odd, NOT that thats bad!” You didn’t want to badmouth someone who might be his friend!

His expression only darkened further as he inched closer towards it, one hand reaching for it the other for what seems like a pocket.

”Pierrot?” Not friend?

He simply placed another pin on you, this one a yellow star, before backing away again. Smile returning to his face as the darkness disappears hidden behind it.

”OH! Thank you! Do you all have pins? Well guess I have a favourite now!”

You look up to see him beaming with his blush covered face clearly burning. But he seemed to try shaking himself out if whatever his thoughts had dug into before leaning in again to speak, granted that just made him blush more pausing a second almost to compose himself before he did.

”Are you feeling better?”

”Yeah, I think I am.” Honestly you knew the little scare you had been through added a weight to you mentally, like someone had pulled the plug in your energy and let it drain out, not fully but enough. He noticed you weren’t completely honest.

”Why don’t I show you around the circus? Take it slow, I’ll be here with you my dear. Theres nothing to be afraid of.”

You wanted to stay and spend more time with him, you enjoyed his company! But- you knew you didn’t have enough time left before you where socially drained…

“I think I should just go home for tonight, but thank you for offering-“

He stills almost apprehensive.

”May I see you again tomorrow?”

“Its best not…” as much as you wanted too a lot has happened these past few days, and since tomorrow was your day off work you really needed a day to yourself.

His face quickly shifted to something of dread? Fear? Panic? It seemed to have a dark undertone but it was hard to register all the emotions it conveyed.

“B- but, why? My dear did I scare you? I- apologise, I promise theres no reason to be afraid.”

“No no, I’m not afraid of you I jus-“

”Did I do something wrong?” He cut in

”No- Seriously its fine!” you backed away a bit seemingly getting nervous, not quite sure how to respond to the sudden intensity, honestly you considered running then and there while he stared at you. Everything had already been to much you didn’t know how much more issues you could handle and this was becoming one. You got ready to hurry away while he was still silent “So uhh- Good night!”

”Wait! … s-since I won’t get to see you tomorrow… may I give you a gift?”

”Well-“ seems you can’t leave yet.

”You must be starving! You haven’t eaten anything all day, have you my dear?”

”I guess…”

”I made this earlier, just for you. Please… try it and tell me if you like it.” He smiled hiding all that was his expression before, almost like it didn’t exist. Moving carefully he proceeded to pull out a cake he must have baked himself, it looked well made he must have put so much effort into it. Its a gift too, a gift made by himself just for you? You hated what you’d have to say next.

”I’m sorry, I can’t…”

He went completely still, expression darkening clearly. It was an apprehensive stare, and yet ready to strike, he looked like a predator stalking his prey, it practically destroyed your train of thought. Although their was still that undertone of dread seeping out if it.

He was silent for what felt like too long but he eventually broke that, starting with a voice you’ve never heard.

“Wh- … What?!” He quickly fought himself to hide that side. But his tone still sounded dark even without the voice. “I made this for you. I-“

”Oh! Wait! Sorry I didn’t mean-“

”mean what my dear?” His response was once again quick and cutting “you don’t want-“

“I do! I mean I would!” Your turn to cut into his sentence. But you paused quickly after trying to think of how to tell him after all his work.

”Then why…” his face turned sad but you could still see the remnants of that predatory expression in his posture.

”Pierrot… I’d love to try your cooking really… but- I’m allergic to gluten.” You actually looked disappointed you couldn’t try it. As for Pierrot his expression snapped to a more wide eyed expression.

”What?” The tension seemed to drop and he was scanning you now as if looking for something he had missed.

“Like allergic to flour and stuff. Id rather not die to a cake.” You joked. “Its not like you could have known that! Im sorry if I knew you wanted to cook something for me I would have told you…” You looked so upset about it he practically forgot what his attempt in giving it to you was for. How could he have missed that?

“My dear…” oh how could you be so fragile a very powder could take you away from him, and it would have been his fault! And now look at you upset you can’t enjoy his efforts despite them being lethal to you.

he stood their in looking at you contemplating something, all apprehension melted away into a more adoring gaze.

”Pierrot I-“ you wanted to say something but you couldn’t find the words. Or even read knew where to begin. Your starting to feel drained. You stood their both just thinking for a while before Pierrot seemed to remember something.

”Y- you… are-“ Now he can’t stop you from leaving. HOW DOES HE STOP YOU!

“Are-?” Your starting to sound drained too.

He said nothing.

Then suddenly he brightened up, dud he get an idea for something? He clasped his hands together and smiled.

”what if I make you something your not allergic to and bring you it tomorrow! I know you said you didn’t want to see me- BUT it gives me an opportunity to make something you can actually enjoy! I can find a recipe to suit you! Just for you! Please?!” His words came out excited but grew increasingly desperate and pleading.

”Or you could the day after?” You really needed to have a day to yourself your words are probably starting to come out strained.

he stilled again more shocked than anything but seemed to make a realisation. You weren’t pulling away? Where you? He wasn’t sure, after all you still didn’t want to see him tomorrow and he couldn’t bare the distance. But you still wanted to see him after?

“I just need a day to myself… but I’d love to see you again after and I could even help you with finding a recipe” you continued.

”Oh! That would be lovely my dear” there was that lovestruck expression of his, not to mention the way he said dear rolled off his tongue absolutely dripping with affection.

You still wanted him, if that’s the case then he could wait, wait for you no matter how much it hurt. And ohhh the recipes he could learn by your side, cooking together~ He could almost scoop you up and bring you with him to do so now. Restraint Pierrot, restraint! Not now! He may be repeating that to himself a lot.

”Great, I’ll see you then.” And with that you gave him a smile and turned to leave.

”I’ll see you soon!” He responded still lost in his own thoughts before adding a little extra something you couldn’t hear “sooner than you think~”

• YOUR PART MONSTER!? How did he not notice? You were hiding it? How much effort? We’re you afraid? Afraid of him? No? Yes? Maybe? You think he’s human? Thats why? What if… And he’s spiralling.

• I mean sure your mostly human was it diluted in your bloodline? But even so little caused you to hide this? Even from him? Was he not doing a good enough job protecting you? Did you not feel safe, did he need to make it more obvious that he’s protecting you and means no harm to you? Why are you hiding, have you been hurt for your features, treated as a freak for others entertainment? Why you… oh the things he will do once he finds THEM.

• You weren’t told he was a monster but since you knew they existed maybe you had picked up on it. You had to snap him out of his spiralling thoughts, mainly because he ended up pulling you into a protective embrace that was getting a bit too tight. But after he gently asked if you we’re afraid of either monsters or humans and why, he wants to support you, wants to show you he’s not as human as he pretends but as large and strong as he is he knows he’s a treat and you could be afraid. Should he hear you aren’t afraid of monsters he’d gently remove his hat wishing his horns where less threatening but wanting you to know your not alone without exposing too much.

• Your happy? Oh thank everything he could possibly thank. Your not afraid of him, or at least his horns, please don’t be afraid when you see how truly monstrous he is. Do you feel better knowing your not alone, don’t worry dearest you’ll never be alone again, but at least this he understands. Now he just needs to find out why you keep those beautiful parts of yourself hidden, he knows logically your doing it for your safety like him and his family but what if there’s something more.

• Oh my dear… your self conscious, who made you feel like that was necessary? Its ok you can tell him, they won’t cause you any problems again, nor will anyone do or say anything like them again. Your stunning both with or without your monster features and should anyone disagree they clearly have no idea the majesty before them! How could anyone or any standard make someone as perfect as you not see that? He wont stop finding ways to remind you of this until you understand that as much as he does.

• Still so weak, so much weaker than a full monster, so venerable. He’s still overly gentle with you afraid he’ll accidentally hurt you and now even more afraid that it would make you fear him if he slipped up. You already hide yourself he can’t have you hiding from him, not anymore, not when you could be targeted.

• Thinking about it your not only a target for humans to hurt or mistreat but you also have no strength to defend yourself! You really came to his aid the day you met putting yourself in danger for HIM the most well built and strongest monster of the circus! Your so kind, how could he ever repay that, as if he could possibly love you any more… He needs you and has to keep you safe, you are his he can’t let that go. He will protect your every move, your every secret, and care for every scar be it mental or physical, only for you.

• But let’s be honest how appealing you where to him never changed, he was always going to love you regardless if how human you actually ended up being. The only change was his fear for your safety, he couldn’t bare the thought of you being treated like him and his family. He was going to keep you safe no matter who tried to tear you down over your features.

• Being more monster would grant you more access to the circus if you where willing to let his family know, you could stay with them! He could cook for you and make sure you stayed out if the dangerous areas! The others could accept you right? and he wouldn’t have to worry about keeping you safe from them the humans he could take care of with his own claws, you would live the way you deserve with him by your side! Don’t worry about harlequin he has knifes for that one.

• Well aren’t you something~ and why have you been hiding your delightful little features so long? Well no reason hiding his “ropes” from you now, what a fun game this will be. No wonder you where so integrating.

• So what if your mostly human? He wasn’t going to stop toying with you even if you turned out to be full monster, your just too fun~ the only thing that really crosses his mind is how much more he can tease you, and how much more he can get away with revealing about himself and the circus. The stories he could tell about Pierrot, the more embarrassing the better.

• It doesn’t take long for him to decide to show more if his true self getting an ego boost from knowing you where more like him, he didn’t think twice about how diluted your features where it just mattered that you had them. That you must have some level of understanding of what he is, what you both where. It never crossed his mind you could react negatively before he takes off his mask giving you that sly grin of his, however had you responded disturbed in any way or afraid he would stumble over what to do next not knowing how to respond and kind of just freeze.

• Assuming you would be happy to see his face he would get even more of a boost once he sees it, your joy, happy to see what he is, happy to see him! You may end up pinned my “tentacles” so long as you don’t push back against him, lets just say you may have Pierrot asking to cover another mark later. He needs to get you showing those parts of yourself more often, he’d love to keep his “tentacles” on them after all something like that is wasted being hidden that way.

• Wait! Hold up, you dislike your monstrous features? Dear one they elevate your form perfectly! Your used to being around humans and don’t like feeling different? Well you’ve got him and the circus now so why does that bother you? Your not full monster? Who cares! Why must you be so complicated… Can’t he just toy with you without potentially seeing you down, he didn’t tease that hard about it did he? What if you just don’t like the way they look? As if any full humans got the privilege of such decorative features…

• Well just because your not fully human unfortunately doesn’t mean he can play more rough. You’re still fragile and he’d rather not hurt anyone else he cares about to badly. Wait what? Cares about? Surly he didn’t care that much about a little toy he’s trying to steal from that Pierrot, right? Fine he’ll play nice still…

• Thinking a lot it starts to bother him. How long have you been hiding? Your technically both monster and human, but you should still be afraid of humans, and your too weak to handle monsters so you should be afraid of them too. You could be shunned by both… maybe he acted to impulsive? Wow he really cares about something as stupid as this? No of course he doesn’t he’s not an empathetic monster he just doesn’t want people ruining his fun. Supposed he’ll just have to keep an eye on you anyway.

• This has never changed anything sure he’s happy he can show more of himself around you, he doesn’t exactly have anyone around the circus like you and being accepted by you? He can’t explain the feeling it gives him, and he doesn’t want to try. Not now not ever. He doesn’t deserve it.

• Well now he can drag you around the circus more, wonder how many restricted areas he can drag you into? He doesn’t have to risk the others taking you away because of that now right? How fun maybe you could visit the pink tent again~ and it gives more places to hide and evade Pierrot too. He can’t wait to use this to his advantage.

• Well would you look at that, the little pet wasn’t fully pest after all. Although he questions why or how this happened, a monster in a mostly human blood line? Why on earth would they want that?

• The traits being diluted enough to be a great grandparent or more are clear to him and he wonders if their still around. He wonders what they would think about their little circus keeping one of their odd choice of descendants as pets, it would definitely be a situation he’d rather not lead to trouble. You are very good at being troublesome it seems.

• Where you aware of them being monsters? Did someone let it slip and thats what lead to your own features revealed? Well thats a problem for later, he may have to remind people of the rules. For now he chooses to reveal his horns in a display of intimidation both showing you that you are not alone however he doesn’t take you any less of a threat, you better keep quiet about this dear visitor.

• Are you happy? It was supposed to be a threat. Well it’s understandable you’d be happy to be less alone but still, do you really trust that shadow of yours so much you aren’t afraid? Or are you to oblivious to notice the danger? He can’t help but feel ever so slight comfortable with your reaction regardless if he admits it, after all to be looked at like that despite what he is and what you are is… different.

• Are you self conscious about your features little pet? Now that won’t do, after all their your best aspects. He has a habit of making back handed compliments about them that jab at your human features, but having seen you actually upset by one of them he will attempt to affirm that your human features aren’t bad by human standards, in fact your seemingly pretty for one (well mostly one)

• It’s obvious your basically as weak as a human but the slight boost to probable durability and strength don’t really make you any more threatening and neither do your features. You are still simply a pet created from a curious decision in mating. I mean maybe it wasn’t even intentional.

• It does get him thinking though, I mean how highly unlikely for them to conceive aside, he’s more curious about why. Did they actually fall in love? Why would a monster choose a human, after all all they’ve done is hurt monsters over and over, not to mention someone with such a short lifespan? What if members of the circus get ideas about this little love interest actually working since there’s been a monster in your bloodline before.

• He’ll admit he finds you more appealing now and slightly less of a threat, although not by much, since in a way you are one of them. He wonders if it expands your lifespan too, he supposed it would be nice to have you around longer, although he tells himself it’s for the sake of the others who show more interest in you. You’ve grown on him overtime regardless of him wanting you around.

• Well since you are somewhat one of them he’ll let you in on a bit more of the circus willingly, not that they eat humans since he doubts your a fan of that, but you are part monster and should be allowed to see more of the good part of your heritage. He’ll be more complacent about you seeing the circus out of costumes when out of public view. He’ll even teach you about any monster cultures that weren’t passed down through your family, after all it’s been a mostly human family a long enough time for things to be forgotten.

• Part monster? It’s clearly not enough for it to be within a couple generations if you, three or four at absolute least. Is this why those two are drawn to you? That could be a problem.

• Its very obvious your features have been dulled, their not the problem. The problem is that just gives the rest of the cast more reason to like you. Don’t get him wrong its not because of you, but unfortunately the disorder you bring with you. I mean it didn’t take long for Pierrot to break his no speaking rule, not to mention the fights you’ve caused. In reality it didn’t matter how human or monster you where, but the extra leverage you had being part monster, well he could feel the stress from maintaining order already.

• If the others had shown you their true form he has no issue casting aside his disguise since you probably already knew he was a monster too. After all he didn’t care much about it the whole point of it was to protect him and his family, if you already know theirs nothing to hide and therefore no reason to. Although he wishes their secret hadn’t been revealed, he really can’t stand the chaos you’ve caused but at least you yourself where tolerable when you were staying in line.

• You seem happy? Have you been alone? Surely you have other family with features, he’s nothing special aside from how well groomed and organised he is. He’s busy trying to figure out why you would care. For probably the first time since you started causing trouble he’s more focused on you. Right now you’re not causing disorder your just… huh maybe this is why the others like you. But why?

• Within his internal questioning he asks about your features noticing you self conscious response. Are you ashamed of your features? He begins questioning more to find the source, not taking likely to you not responding properly and pulling the truth out of you. Do you dislike monster features, no you wouldn’t have looked so happy. Treated poorly for having them? Afraid of what humans will do? Or did you just dislike how yours look?

• You really are a curious addition to the circus madness, yet you are still so weak despite your features. You know you where in danger right? How long had you known they where monsters, was this all simply a way to feel less alone? Just please stop causing disorder, he’ll have to see to Jester getting you your own set of rules, you should not be isolated but you also weren’t trustworthy, not to mention the headaches your disruption was causing him.

• He ends up thinking about it a lot, he can’t just allow you into the circus your still mostly human regardless of being part monster. You could still have the circus burned to the ground should you be threatened by what a full monster is capable of, so he must maintain the order. You must follow whatever rules are put in place for you. Its for their safety, and yours should you need to take refuge among them. After all humans turn on even their own kind for being different. He can’t help but want to aid you to not suffer like him and his family.

• Growing fonder of you due to said understanding of the need to hide is something he somewhat detests but he can’t help it, your still such a liability and magnet for disorder but you as a person? He couldn’t hate that, just the cards you where dealt. Its a shame really, you could have made a good addition to the family, you are quite decent of a person all things considered. If only things where different, but maybe over time he’ll care less about the cards.

• Of course you would gain more access to the circus, just more trouble you can cause, more he has to monitor. You may notice an eye twitch while using said ability, its best not to cause him any issues he’s already stressed enough Jester allowed this, although he’s not against it the terms are reasonable. He’s just nervous, he’ll grow less intense over time, for now he’s monitoring you.

• A HYBRID! Now this is an opportunity he can’t pass up! Would you be so kind as to let him examine you? Run a few tests? Don’t worry nothing dangerous you aren’t an experiment, simply a curious case for examination.

• Well would you look at that the genes even been diluted throughout generations! He just has to know what was inherited by each family member, is there any chance he could get samples from them? He has to know what traits are dominant and recessive when combined with a human. How many physical, instinctive, or nature based aspects are inherited. What kind of monster was it? They must be genetically similar enough to produce offspring!

• Oh you know he’s not human. Good although he wasn’t really thinking about that part, well not he can examine you better! He casts aside his attire simply to easier examine you throughly cleaned and ungloved claws are better for examinations. And if you’re already seeing them he may as well release his wings from the lining hidden in is cloak to let them breath, taking off his mask to however detaching the google bit suggesting he likely needs them as glasses.

• Why sweetie you appear to be fond of his true form. Not seen an avian monster before? He supposes its a fair reaction since although you’ve likely seen the others he’s quite impressive, at least in his books. Will show off features like his sharp toothed beak or wings and let you examine them, in hopes of you allowing him to examine you more. He’s quite prideful if his features and hopes you can be if yours too.

• Whats that? You feel negatively about your features? Now that just wont do. You are an extraordinary specimen! You should see that, the sheer rarity of what you are should be something to be marvelled at. Its understandable to hide it from humans for safety but aside that you should be flaunting them! Well he is a doctor and if psychiatry is what his patient needs then that he’ll do! He wont stop until your fully confident.

• It takes no time at all for him to accurately measure your strengths and venerability’s, asking you to do multiple quick tests even including grip strength. He confirms that you are indeed much weaker than a monster but not quite as strong as a human. The only thing he can’t gage is your lifespan but he can make an estimate based on the lifespans of your family members if you are aware of how long they’ve lasted.

• He has a lot to think about, a lot to analyse but he enjoys every second of it, safe to say your on his mind a lot. Even when working on his experiments he’s thinking about the difference in your anatomy and theirs. Although it does lead him to wondering what a human monster hybrid would taste like, although your not quite livestock to him like they are. He finds it odd having a hybrid thats like them but extremely similar to what he considerers livestock.

• For now It’s almost like having a favourite sheep, you know that one sheep that was too different to not get attached to. Your not quite monster enough for him to consider you one if them but he’ll think of you more like one of them over time. For now your still basically a pet, not eligible for slaughter but you do provide benefits not sheep wool but an insanely rare study opportunity he never dreamed of getting. Besides he’s sure their are tastier patients not tainted with meat of their own.

• Regardless how much access to the circus you got you would be given full range to show up at the doctors at any time, just ask the fool before you walk in who may make you wait a second, can’t have you walking in on his ongoing experiments. The last thing he needs is to scare such an opportunity away not to mention he’s grown quite fond of you. Consider him your 24 hour doctor if you need.

• You’re like them? You’re not fully human? Huh… well your welcome here. Humans probably reject you too, or even find your features attractive reducing you to your appearance like her…

• She’s still nervous of you after all you’re not part of her little family and still mostly human she won’t sugar coat that, but it does make her feel a bit better knowing your more like them. She hopes you haven’t had to many issues for your features and would take you with her to hide amongst the circus if you needed, despite her distrust of you nobody deserves what she’s been through. Besides the others seem to like you so she’ll push down her fears for them.

• Did you know she was a monster too? Shes very precarious so she doubts you noticed anything, and the idea of the others telling you creates a sense of dread but they would never do that if they didn’t fully believe it was right. She doesn’t wish to show you any of her true form, but for the sake of you feeling welcome she reveals one of her small features before quickly covering it up and stating she’s hiding from the public not you.

• Your happy to see her one of her features? That makes her insanely anxious, but she just keeps telling herself your probably just curious, OR you’ve just not had anyone with features to keep you company until the circus, yeah that must be right! That doesn’t stop the fear of you viewing her like a pretty little doll and nothing more like she still to this day deals with from the public…

• You don’t like how you are? Honestly sometimes she doesn’t either, she responds with a whole hearted understanding, even if you aren’t happy with them for different reasons you both still share that feeling. In a way it’s quite bonding to understand someone like that and she grows more comfortable about you. Maybe if you where both simply humans you would be respected like anyone else in the streets. She will start to tell you you’re both in this together now.

• Wow she thought she was a weak monster but you… sometimes she forgets your mostly human. Shes no longer the weakest one, bit that doesn’t change the fact she registers you as a threat no matter how dulled that feeling could become. Shes glad you have a chance to find sanctuary within the circus even if shes unsure if you. She’ll often ask the others how your doing since she’s worried about your weaknesses and spends a lot if time hidden so she doesn’t get to see for herself how your doing outside.

• When she does think of you it in a way reminds her of herself, weak, vulnerable, Hiding from the world. Maybe she’s just projecting, hopefully she is… But if shes not. As much as she’s anxious of you her family cares for you for a reason, and you won’t be allowed to go whatever your put through alone! Even if she has to force herself beyond her confront zone in therms if talking to people. You must be different from those who mistreated her. You have to be! She can’t be doing all this just to be hurt, please don’t let that happen…

• Admittedly she’s much more inclined to you since not only are you not fully human, but you could be used like them. Its not enough to get rid of her fears of you after all that ones drilled deep, but it’s enough for her to accept you among them. Granted she still has to get used to you and may take a very long time to do so, but your one of them to her even though she’s anxious how you view her.

• You may get more access to the circus but her hideous are off limits if shes in them unless your invited, their are plenty of spots and she’ll need a break from you and time to mentally prepare to approach you due to her pushing herself to help you. You’ll have to knock on her hiding spots if you want to use them, although shes sure the others would also let you in their tents. Should she walk into a spot you’re already in she’ll simply wave and hurry off to another one.

Sorry about the delay for this one y’all, life has been life-ing but I’m still working on fics and any more requests at whatever rate I can!

Gotta love the yearly chronic condition slap whenever a heatwave happens since heat makes it worse and it will continue to be ready to fight me properly through summer but hey we march on! Oh right works had issues too but I’m not stopping for nothin!

• The second he hears about you playing an instrument he instantly has to hear his dearest play! He would beg you with his puppy eyes if he has to!

• Should you not wish to play he gets concerned, why are you so nervous to play? Did someone say something bad about you?! is it him your nervous about disappointing, is that the impression he’s been giving?! did he do something wrong? Your not pulling away are you?

• Anyway eventually he’s getting you to play for him either out of concern for him clearly taking it badly that you would play for him (granted he quickly scrambled to hide it) or through his encouragement. He cant let you get away with hiding this from him!

• And yes he is very encouraging, your own biggest fan before he’s even heard you. Will continually remind you that you are safe from judgment when its just you and him, he could never judge you, he adores you! Now PLEASE play for him dear…

• Once you do play he will sit there absolutely lovestruck and mesmerised by your music he had expected whatever you played to sound great but this? Is this what heaven sounds like? He could listen to this for eternity and spend every second of it happy, just look at you his love, his dream, HIS only want playing right here for HIM! He could die happy hear and now.

• You may have to snap him out of it even after you stop playing he can get so lost it may take him a minute to realise, still lost in the moment. Tends to be disappointed when you stop but quickly bounces back once he hears you speak giving you the biggest round of applause looking for that smile of yours.

• Should you seem nervous once you stop playing he is going on endlessly about how amazing you are, how HE gets to witness this. You should be on stage preforming to vast audiences! Sure he'd love to keep you all for himself but you deserve to be shown how amazing you are, how much the audience would love you! His dearest.

• Maybe you could assist in HIS performance! Its just music you could just stand to the side while he dances with his shadows for you, so long as you’re in an area you won’t see anything you shouldn’t you’ll be perfectly fine! A great duet, dancer and musician as one, each others muse perhaps!!

• He’s deviated once he finds out your terrified of being on stage. Of course you would be he knows how judgmental people can be, of course your afraid of them. It would crumble his fantasies in an instant, but maybe keeping you off stage is for the better.

• Thinking about it he can’t help but worry about how the audience would view you, if something could go wrong and the audience mistreat you? What if you somehow end up like him during his first performance? He couldn’t let that happen to you.

• As much as he wants you to be confident enough to go on stage, to break your insecurities bit by bit, and he wants to prove it to you that YOU are the greatest person he could possibly ask to do so. To gently break your fears and let you shine like you are clearly meant too. He’s to terrified of what could happen to you what THEY could DO to you. He can’t bring himself to put you in that situation.

• Will however often ask you to play for him while he practices or simply to enjoy dancing with you, maybe even just so he can listen to you play over and over again, doing whatever he can and saying whatever he can to improve your confidence and show you exactly how good you are.

• Oh you play an instrument do you? How fun~, and would you look at that he won’t stop teasing you with little remarks about hearing you play. He gets more and more inpatient the longer he waits.

• However if you don’t wish to play for him? He’ll tease about being offended but reading your insecurities hits him in a way he doesn’t want to think about. Besides why would he care about that you being hesitant over a stupid instrument.

• Eventually you’ll fall for one of his tactics get so annoyed by his teasing you cave and play for him, or was it the small gestures of odd kindness where that smile appears more genuine and he points out the music stating “I bet you could play that”, and the few questions he has that aren’t poisoned by his teasing tone. Play this game long enough he may get inpatient and end up cornering you so evade him at your own risk.

• He’s going to continue to tease you although he will turn it down dependent on your current level of discomfort, reminding you that he doesn’t mean it, dear one. Will slip in a few kind words with a noticeably more gentle smile before continuing like it never happened and changing the subject if you bring it up by asking random questions.

• Finally when you play for him he’s absolutely dumbfounded, YOU play like THIS? And you’re afraid to show it?! The sheer idea of being so good at something and not showing it off? He really doesn’t understand you, but that’s what makes you so intriguing, so likeable? He doesn’t understand his feelings for you regarding this simply because he choses not to. What he does know is that he needs to hear you play more often.

• Once you stop he’s giving you a round of applause flashing that mischievous grin of his and asking if maybe you could play something to set the mood next time, you know have a little fun. So long as Pierrot isn’t in earshot there shouldn’t be any knives involved.

• Your still nervous? He’s unsure what to say just kind of freezing for a second once he notices before blurting out something along the lines of “Are you serious? You just put on the show of the year right her and your…” before catching himself before making snarky remarks about how astonishing you’re talent is that are oddly kind for such a tone.

• Anyway before long he’s attempting to convince you to join his performances even bribing with what he can. You two would be a dastardly duo and he would love to see Pierrots face once he sees. Background music for his stories, covered. Drama added to his stunts done. He could even sing along!

• Complains like a winy idiot once he finds out your to afraid to go on stage and takes it as a challenge to convince you to do so. Afraid of the public? Don’t worry about them just play for him like they aren’t there! Yeah yeah thats not how that works but come on you two would make an amazing duo! Pleaseeeeee?

• Anyway the more he thinks about it the more it bothers him, not because your not willing to duet him in some form, but because deep down he’s concerned about you. He doesn’t want you to have so much fear over something you clearly enjoy doing, after all you wouldn’t be so good at it if it wasn’t something you enjoyed right?

• He wants to break whatever’s holding you back and the thought will pester him endlessly and he won’t admit it hurts to see you so afraid of judgment. As if their opinions actually matter, that those toys on the streets harassment had gotten to you and caused you to fear it. They mean nothing compared to what you could do and yet they still soil that talent.

• This results in him getting you to play for him when you two are alone, making those naturally gentle comments he refuses to admit to in hopes you get used to playing more in the presence of others. Some day you’ll open up, you have too, you deserve too. Besides he does enjoy listening to you play, almost like a place to rest and find peace for those moments amongst the chaos if the circus; a time to finally relax and just listen. He won’t admit how much he truly enjoys it though.

• Probably found out from the others that you play an instrument unless you told him, I have a feeling he’d catch Pierrot looking at stuff such as accessories or maintenance for your instrument. That or Harle let it slip after he clocked his annoyance at you not performing in front of others. He doesn’t care much for hearing you play but he’ll admit he’s curious what got the others riled up.

• Would probably ask you to play out of curiosity and to see how willing you are to follow along, if you decline to he’s probably reiterating it and telling you it wasn’t a question. It didn’t take long for him to asses your body language and look in your eyes to know it was simply fear of his judgment.

• He’s not letting this go now, he doesn’t exactly like being evaded and having things hidden from him, in this case its your talent. However to avoid upsetting a certain guard dog he needs to be nice about this, more of a gentle push, oh and he’ll keep pushing even if he can’t push you fully right now he’ll simply come back later to continue. Like training a pet, they won’t always obey the first time.

• He pushes by asking questions, maybe how long you’ve played, how often. He’ll invite you to play even briefly, these invites do not stop or even slow for that matter. He’ll typically wait for when you appear most at ease talking about your instrument before each invite, making a mental note of improvement and giving himself feedback on the best approach.

• Once he manages to convince you to play he takes more pleasure in the victory of his in successfully breaking you in. However he will admit you sounded way better than he imagined. Its a shame it took so long to accomplish this, but the time he took “convincing” you was worth it.

• When you stop he thinks about how maybe you would make a nice little song bird, a cute little pet with music to listen to, preferably well trained. He wonders how many songs you could play. However that may disturb the circus too much, its a pity but he’d rather keep things as they are without the interruption.

• If he noticed your anxious after you’ve played he’s quick to tell you that you simply have no reason to be, your performance was great its a shame the circus is yet to master that talent. You must have spent a lot of time on it which is saying something for someone with such a small life span, he can’t help but respect the passion.

• Although you shouldn’t get any ideas about joining them. He knows how easy it would be for you to slip somewhere you don’t belong should the others let you try. But maybe if they insist they could put you somewhere else, with a well thought out plan of course, maybe you could add ambiance to the food stalls. As long as you don’t find out whats in the food.

• Oh your unable to perform on a stage? Makes sense since you couldn’t even perform in front of him. Better to keep it that way since it would cause the circus less trouble, humans can be quite troublesome after all so he understands where the insecurity is coming from. Its a shame humans don’t have the capacity to understand talent when they hear it, this place would be a whole lot nicer without them. At least you’re stage fright should help you behave well, he knows he likes that about you.

• He won’t dwell much on the thought but he’ll remember how well you played. Although he’s going to have to keep an eye out for the other circus members breaking or bending the rules for you to play. He’ll have to keep an eye on that after all with talent like that I’m sure they’ll want you playing more.

• Maybe he himself should ask you to play again when it wouldn’t inconvenience the circus? Besides it may give him a chance to catch up with his little mouse, make sure they continue to behave like a good pet. Despite everything so long as you stay in line your company isn’t exactly bad.

• Should you find yourself playing for him again it may be after a particularly hard day, giving him a chance to unwind a little, after all he does enjoy the music. You are quite a good little pet for obliging although he can tell it was done out of care or concern, he doesn’t like to think about that though. You are after all just a human, just a pet, pets don’t last as long as they do so there’s no point getting attached. Even if he may end up concerned about having a choice in that.

• Oh great you “play” an instrument. Congratulations your insecurity is now warranted. He’s a perfectionist so assuming you don’t play to his standards he dreads having to listen too it.

• He’s relieved if he finds out you don’t want to play in front of him, he’d rather not waste his time judging that when he’s already busy with the circus. However should he hear about your playing from the others he will become curious. Especially if jester is the one to say something nice he’s quite hard to please with human stunts.

• Eventually he’ll try to get you to play to ease his curiosity, he’ll be reassuring and do his best to make you feel comfortable enough to play, lying about being judgmental if he has to, claiming he would not be bothered by such a trivial thing.

• However he’s not asking, and it would be good of you to obey and stay in line right? As much as that “illusion” behind you seems to dislike his methods its for the better of the circus that he can go back to focusing on his work. Your pretty much cornered until you at least try to play.

• Finally getting you to play he’s honestly surprised, you meet his standards maybe even succeed them. It really took that much to pry it out of you? Oh well, he doesn’t ponder long, he’s already enjoying the music. Its a nice difference from the chaos of the circus, kind of like a grounding symphony amongst the chaos. He’s very impressed.

• Once you stop he’s quick to ask you to continue stating it as a nice break from work and thanking you for your time and obedience, even if it took some pushing. He’s glad he chose to listen too you despise his expectations.

• Wait are you nervous? After that performance? He’s very quick to highlight every little perfection you appear to be blatantly glossing over. Honestly it’s painful for him to hear such negativity about something to well done.

• Maybe he can convince Jester to let you play for the daytime performances, those rowdy streets could use something to make his presence seem less agonising amongst those messy animals. However that would probably be difficult so he shouldn’t get his hopes up. Its a shame, he could really use something to look forward to out there.

• What?! Your afraid to perform still? It irks him that talent like that is wasted on the judgment of fools who don’t know better, don’t understand the true perfection of what they hear. As much as he knows Jester wouldn’t let you perform anyway it just makes him want to send you out more to prove them and you wrong, even if it meant agonisingly explaining it in simple terms for those too simple minded!If only it wouldn’t cause issues for the circus!!

• Thinking about it starts to bother him where that fear of judgment has came from, I mean he is insanely judgmental when it comes to things like this. What made you so anxious? He knows he feels bad for you but also that he can’t change anything that happened before, but that won’t stop him thinking about it regardless if he wants to or not.

• He’ll accept you not wanting to play for others, after all it would be better for the circus, however he will not accept whatever caused this fear. He doesn’t care if its just a natural anxiety or something that happened, he’s getting to the root of it and gently pushing you to be more confident at mostly your own pace, he can’t let such talent go to waste after all. You get complemented on the little things you don’t even think about much anymore let alone expect to be recognised for with him around.

• He’ll get you to play for him when he could use some time away from the chaos typically not giving you no as an option, after all your in their circus so you play by their rules. And honestly he needs this, he’s grown fond of your playing and your company like a small sanctuary from every responsibility and little detail he gets too stuck into. After all he is the most stressed within the circus.

• His patient plays music? Can you play metal? He doesn’t care wether or not your instrument sounds metal, it could always be modified to sound that way. But can you? He’d ask you to try even on an otamatone.

• You wont play for him? What’s wrong? Afraid he’ll breach patient confidentiality? You shouldn’t keep secrets from your doctor sweetie, you could end up in worse condition, lets not let that happen.

• Eventually with some convincing he’s sure to get you to play besides he’s a doctor not a musician your the expert in that field, he’s quick to analyse the anxiety realising he’s not the problem but people in general.

• He’s reassuring and factual in his approach stating very clearly he does not care how you play, if you have the capacity to play for yourself then you clearly weren’t doing it for anyone else. What matters is you find joy in it, that’s what he’s looking for. Not some performance of the year. And if you aren’t that good then you’re simply still improving that’s how it works. He didn’t become a doctor over night after all (well at least a good one).

• When he eventually gets to hear you play he’s studying you, he doesn’t care what you play although he would prefer metal. But right now he has a patient to assist. Your great talent was just another factor. Don’t get him wrong he is listening to you and enjoying the music but he has priorities.

• Once your done he gathers the facts, how nervous you where, how much more talented you where then you let on out of anxiety, how much you still seemed to enjoy playing despite everything. You may need to wait a minute before he responds. Interesting aren’t you? And yet unbelievably talented.

• Noticing immediately the heightened anxiety if present he’s ensuring you know how well you played and that you should be proud of your efforts in gaining that skill. You have no need to be nervous and you should know as your doctor its his job to help you relieve said ails that stop you from reaching your full potential.

• Your free to come play in his tent any time, just be careful of his medical instruments, we wouldn’t want you getting hurt now. Although he’s going to do everything logical to convince you to play metal for him, it is calming for him after all.

• Ah right his patients, of course you won’t play in front of them, even if its not as bad as a stage or any performance like the others would invite you to its still people listening. Oh well its only until your more confident, patience is key in situations like these.

• He spends a lot of time thinking about it, ways to help you overcome thus fear. Medications, exposure therapy, diving into potential trauma, maybe it’s genetic insecurity? He’ll figure out why you can’t play in front of others and cure it. That’s what doctors are for and the better health be it mental or physical the tastier the result.

• You should be confident and be allowed to show of your skill free of fear regardless of judgment, you do it for joy and should not be held back from a passion. It may take time but he’s breaking whatever restrains you, he wouldn’t be a good doctor if he didn’t. Besides he wants you to find as much joy in your music as he finds joy in being a doctor.

• Getting asked to come play for him while he sets up or packs away becomes a regular occurrence in his attempt to study your improvement and get you used to playing in front of others, besides he does enjoy your music. Soon you should be able to play around his other patients too, it just needs time.

• Someone told her you like playing an instrument. She’s not overly inclined towards you but the others like you so next time she sees you she’ll ask about it, even though humans make her nervous.

• Your too insecure to play? Shes very understanding and won’t push however she’ll invite you to play with her. She picked up an ocarina along their travels, along with other little hobbies she found neat, shes not really musically inclined and can’t play well telling you this in advance.

• She’ll get you to play by providing you peace and quiet. She offers to play first and her skill makes you feel more welcome, she even stated you could probably do better but you both where here for comfort not skill, and yeah you can definitely play better than that.

• Knowingly very sympathetic she’s letting you do things at your own pace with no rush, letting you know theres no reason to be nervous. I guess it also helps seeing she’s nervous too, but that’s just how she is around you, shes very untrusting. But despite that she still let you stay, still wants you to feel welcome, feel comfortable even. If only it was so easy to do the same for her.

• Surprised to hear how well you play she gets distracted by it, she wasn’t expecting this even though the overs spoke of you so highly. Shes a bit embarrassed by her own skill now but that doesn’t matter long to her, what matters is you seem so happy, it’s practically contagious. It eases her slightly until she notices it and the reminder that your a human just like them kicks in.

• Shes quick to congratulate you once you finish and even asks you to teach her, she could always use another little hobby to distract herself after all. And you dose enjoy bonding with you although sometimes she forces herself to much for the sake of the others.

• Wait your still nervous? But you played so well is it her your nervous of? Where you this nervous with the others? Its not because she’s pretty is it? Shes quick to jump conclusions and assume things she expects from humans in general, but with either reassurance or the realisation its not just her will put her mind at ease and she’ll start to realise you are simply afraid of the judgment of others.

• Have the others offered you a role performing yet? It would be nice to see you get to show off your skill if you feel like it. Your music truly is something after all, she could offer to help you set up too. Maybe help convince them to let you on stage if your feeling confident enough.

• Its not surprising to her when you say you don’t want to be on stage, instead she offers you to play along in her little hide aways where the public cant judge you. It doesn’t matter if they would think your bad or even too good in there you get to be alone whenever you please.

• Sure she wants you to be confident enough to go on stage but humans can be terrible regardless if your better or worse. She gets harassed a for her beauty and wonders what attention you would draw to yourself with you playing. Maybe its for the best you stay away from them, but she’ll still encourage you to play for other members of the circus, after all she trusts them unlike you or the public.

• She’ll still offer for you to play music with her giving her a chance to practice the ocarina asking you tips and tricks about getting better at music in general. She may even ask you to find something simple you can both learn to play together. Just for the small moments away from everything and everyone else.

Thanks for the ask I’m glad you like my writing! Honestly I was already thinking about the cast and a Violinist!Reader so I already had plenty of ideas.

Honestly I may have just taken the idea and ran with it so sorry if I miss interpreted anything in my excitement.

-General monsters

• They bare there teeth aggressively like open mouth pointed teeth style as if showing their ready to strike.

• The chance’s of a human having a child with a monster are so low that taking precautions against it are basically considered unnecessary, and having a child impossible regardless of how much either may want one.

• Not only bite mark but have a habit of rubbing their scent un their mate like a cat rubbing against someones leg. It shows their mate already have someone regardless if their ready to bite mark. Its more if an early relationship thing however is still typically done throughout. Pretty much the equivalent of holding hands in public.

• Monsters typically have no idea how humans cort each other, and would have to research it they typically find a mate and grow their relationship with different degrees of marketing they have no idea of human traditions such as official dating, engagement, wedding ceremony’s. Even even typical expressions of love are such as bringing bouquets of flowers without activity witnessing it enough times to realise its some kind of tradition or having read or heard about it somewhere.

• They don’t require human flesh but its more nutritious to them since humans have learned to maintain their own health it makes them better for consumption, its harder to get the required nutrients otherwise and can be expensive after all they are large and are mostly carnivorous. So a monster abstaining would effectively be like that one vegan of the group.

• Will bring you things he finds cool as gifts, sometimes the gifts are things that remind him if you but most of those he keeps for himself.

• He gets nervous about you liking his gifts a lot so he hesitates and sometimes ends up not giving them like the flower he can give.

• He would completely bury his face in your pillow after you woke up and left the room, just to smell you and hope its still warm.

• Definitely found wherever that plaster went and kept it as one of his most precious keep sakes, the only thing that could rival it would be something he got from someone who as passed (his parents or Columbina).

• This man adores physical touch like he’s deviated if his love pulls away, he wants to keep them there as long as possible, to know their safe, to know their still there, and also because he’s heavily touch starved and he can never get enough of his loves heart melting touch.

• This man also absolutely adores seeing his love happy, be it him listening them go on about something their enthusiastic about or just simply doing something they enjoy. Oh how he could watch them endlessly with that love struck smile of his like the rest of the world no longer existed.

• He’s scared of hurting his dearest after all if he has sharp claws while they have weak skin it would be so easy even a slight touch could be harmful.

• Losing control is another thing he’s scared of as if he would snap only to find himself covered in blood again like his first performance, after all theres a reason his clothes hide blood and he’s not allowed to speak.

• He’s afraid of his love fearing him sure, but he’s afraid of what he could do to them if he doesn’t keep himself in check causing him to meticulously judge his own actions and any hint of fear from his love can send him spiralling although he’ll cover it up as fast and much as possible in fear if scaring them more.

• Honestly I think he treats his love like both the most fragile glassware, as well as the most valuable thing in his life the one thing he would take every step within his ability to keep them well looked after and happy.

• Would definitely decorate a letter with his little stars then sit there idly drawing hearts while his love struck mind thought about his love seeing and reading said letter. It ends up looking quite messy but so is his mess of love sick thoughts.

• Our little sexual harassment goblin *cough* red tent *cough* personal gonna tune him down a little in my writing.

• Has a habit of making subtle efforts to show he cares although he refuses to admit it. Be it a “small” tip at work, or offhandedly giving a gift saying oh he just happened to have it and he didn’t want it.

• Does follow people out of intrigue but typically only briefly, he’s quite curious and loves sticking his nose in things he has no business in.

• Also its Harle of course he toys with people out of curiosity and sheer boredom, he loves to stir trouble to have something more interesting to look forward to in his life. I mean he’s sick of the same old circus routine by this point.

• Professional question dodger good luck finding out anything about him, it’s gonna be one hell of a moment for him to actually let anything slip.

• Does not take anything seriously or at least tries to, not very good at confronting reality like at all, would rather treat everything like a stupid game.

• However when he does end up having to view things seriously there is no way to off play somethings wrong, he really won’t know what to do in that situation more likely freezing in place, even struggling to get his words out if he tried.

• This man cannot admit how much he actually cares not even to himself since that would mean he has something to lose, and he can’t lose right? There’s no way!

• Did I mention he’s egotistical? Of course he is. This is all his little game, his little toys, and he makes the rules. Said rules however only really exist in his head, hes not ready to think about that.

• Pathetic when it comes to actually allowing himself to feel his own feelings and being vulnerable even if he knows he looks pathetic, he hates it but despite that he can’t help feeling good when allowing himself to be vulnerable in front of someone he truly loves.

• Would decorated his letter with his hearts, after all he gave you his pin may as well keep the theme, then putting in effort to space them correctly not to much not to little. After all he DEFINITELY doesn’t care THAT much right? So that’s what it is the perfect amount right?

• This man views humans like raccoons in his trash and you can’t convince me otherwise.

• Has a habit of lurking after other members of the circus if he suspects somethings up however very discrete and more of an, ah their with that human again. Then he carries on having found what he wanted to know.

• Very good at telling what someone is thinking through their body language and look in their eyes, after all he likes to have control over everything, it’s what keeps his family safe and the pests in their place.

• Still very confused why anyone would pick up a probably diseased racoon from the trash the way Pierrot did but who is he to judge him for wanting a pet, so long as he follows the rules and doesn’t compromise the circus with pests running them out.

• knows humans have a short life span compared to him so even if he did grow attached to one it would be against his will.

• He’d refuse to admit caring for a human even too himself, until he accepted they didn’t have long and if he was gonna feel this way about them he shouldn’t be wasting what little time he has with his pet.

• Would show proper affection and care in discrete ways but other than that would be the type to tell you to sit then call you a good pet for following orders.

• Pierrot and Harlequin seem to have decorated their letters with their pins? he didn’t put much thought into it so just grabbed some of his diamonds and threw them over it, they land wherever they land. He really doesn’t care much about the decoration he doubts the receiver will care, its just a stupid letter.

• Absolute neat freak, will sit there adjusting anything even slightly out of place, this includes peoples behaviour. I feel like he has an eye twitch when the mess starts to bother him to much.

• Hates anything remotely messed, should someone in the circus appear dirty he’s immediately getting them to change into spare uniform he keeps prepared for them. However should it be a visitor trying to enter with their ticket well they may get swiftly lost in the mirrors until closing time.

• Keeps an eye on those who he believes will disturb the order of thing’s, this includes Harlequin in general and Pierrot in his little obsession not to mention their fights. Its quite tiresome for him and he blames a certain human for making things worse. A slight grudge perhaps.

• Despite this he is a man of logic and knows a certain human is not responsible for whatever Harlequin and Pierrot have dragged them into and can only blame them for their own dumb snooping (black tent). However should they stay in place and follow the rules he may grow a liking to said human its rare to have one who doesn’t stir his annoyance.

• He’s always viewed humans like inconveniences, potentially harmful beings that know nothing about order and only their own shenanigans. However they are necessary after all they fund the circus so attempting to keep them managed is the way he must go about it besides Jester is good at keeping them under control.

• He relies a lot on Jester and doubts he’d remain sane trying to keep the visitors in line without him and follows Jesters orders and ways if maintaining them since it normally works and honestly Jesters better at dealing with people.

• He tends to be to busy analysing everything wrong with the person and every piece he notices makes him destain them more, continually bothering him. he’d forget how to properly deal with them lost in his own distain if he didn’t have Jesters methods in the back of his mind to use when necessary.

• Decided to decorate his letter with his mask markings instead, after all they look like eyes reminding you he’s watching. Not to mention it reminds you of your place, now be a good guest and don’t add to the disorder he’s working hard to manage. After all he already had to meticulously decorate this card he’s a neat freak after all.

• I don’t care if the bad ending where you don’t help Pierrot shows him with pointed teeth this man has a beak. (Said beak does have teeth tho).

• He also has wings concealed in the fabric of his cloak making it move abnormal and be oddly resistant to wind. Although he’s very good at keeping it looking natural all things considered and so the wings aren’t visible in the creases the cloak is also well lined. He has to stretch said wings every so often to avoid them becoming uncomfortable.

• Honestly he’s light considering he’s the largest of the circus, birds do be that way, which is why he’s weaker than Pierrot.

• Very curious and will analyse both physical health, and psyche of his patients, although he considers everyone his patients they may simply haven’t needed to visit him yet.

• Should a human have a medical condition especially one hard to diagnose or even still undiagnosed or even better incurable! congratulations their now his favourite test subject.

• Typically considers humans as nothing more than a tasty meal, like a well prepared chicken, the type of chicken that had its health meticulously maintained to ensure perfect taste when eaten.

• For him to consider a human as nothing but a hen being prepared for slaughter they must be truly something different, even farmers can grow to attached to their livestock sometimes.

• Yes he has chicken scratch doctors hand writing, yes he can read it. Didn’t put much effort into decorating his letter as he has patients and experiments to attend to after all he needs to have everything ready and who knows the recipient may be the next to require assistance, he can’t be to busy decorating paper to attend to them can he?

• Shes dead :/ but theoretically if she was alive have some hcs.

• Sweet, kind, but often nervous. I mean with the way humans treat her it’s understandable, like a doll pretty and perfect, they don’t care who she is and she gets catcalled quite frequently.

• Often spends her time out of sight or accompanying the others so shes less likely to be harassed, she absolutely hates how she looks simply because she doesn’t want to resort to this. To burden the others.

• Can’t stand up for herself or others resorting to slip away out if sight and help with the aftermath of what happened making her very different to the mc after all the reason Pierrot fell for them is because mc stood up for him. This is why his heart beat different for both.

• Likes to spend her time on comforting little hobbies and invites people to join her in her little comfort zone in hopes they can feel as comfortable as she is. She likes to make origami with Pierrot and will drag him into it if he looks sad.

• She will also drag Harlequin into whatever she’s doing knowing he really doesn’t care what shes doing, he’s more their for her comfortable company than the activity and shes yet to find something he enjoys.

• Views humans like traps, as if even the most innocent looking one hides a deadly secret or is only acting that way as a lure until they can have what they want and she hates it.

• For her to really let in a human it will take a long time gaining her trust and showing they have no ill intentions, and should said human break that trust there is no guarantee ever fixing it.

• However should her family grow a liking for a human she would be more inclined towards them, after all they must like them for a reason right? Sides a friend of her family is a friend of hers and she wouldn’t want them to feel unwelcome. Granted she would still be untrusting and likely push herself to act more comfortable with them then she is.

• Big angle wings decorate her letter a symbol of how she shall forever haunt the narrative, what else would she decorate with? Their neat and arranged the best she can, she almost thinks they look like flowers. She didn’t put to much thought into it just had fun with it and hopes the recipient likes it.