Hi, I'm SolarSong, although people like to call me Solar for short!
I like to write Kanamafu on AO3. I'm a bit of a boomer with social media, and this is the only social media thing I own (unless you count Discord).
Since people seem to be interested in things aside from just my writing, I've finally decided to make this master post. Onto tags!
General:
#solarsong writes - anything related to my writing, includes chapter updates, extra content, deleted scenes, and sneak peeks
#solarsong rambles - me rambling about the meaning of life, why pouring milk before adding cereal is the superior option for non-soggy cereal, and everything else in between
#ask box - asks
#me - about me or my life
Fics:
#to walk where the light shines - a post-Farewell My Mask fic that is now canon divergence. Be prepared for eggs and gut punches.
#sinking into a summer night - a comfy melancholic general N25 fic inspired by the song Kimi No Yoru Wo Kure
#blend my song into nonexistent love - Kanamafu soulmate AU, a deconstruction of the trope. What happens when you have one person who believes in the whole soulmate schtick and the other doesn't?
#consume the shape of my dreams - Mizuena soulmate AU, set in the same universe. What happens if you're an aspiring artist and you can't see color until you meet your soulmate? :))))))
#amongst flowers without names - Kanamafu hanahaki AU, a deconstruction of hanahaki AUs and Mafuyu has no idea who she has hanahaki for :)
#lives etched on our palms - Kanamafu reincarnation AU examining Kanade and Mafuyu's relationship through different circumstances, roles, and time periods. Also uses all the 2024 Kanamafu week prompts cause I thought it would be funny.
#you with the stars you with the waves - a post-canon, post-some healing Kanamafu fic that's inspired by rockdrop's art piece
#finding eternity - Kanamafu Houseki no Kuni AU, my Kanamafu Week 2025 offering that looks at how Kanade and Mafuyu find meaning in immortality. Uses the DNA/Guilt prompt.
Asks:
Honestly, I'm open to pretty much any question. I just reserve the right to not answer them (or answer vaguely) if they get a little too personally identifying since I want some separation between my personal, professional, and writing life. If one of my students find me, I will perish.
If asked, I will ramble about any writing or worldbuilding aspect I've done in my fics. I will likely ramble about these regardless of whether or not I get an ask.
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Soooo it's been a long while since I've posted anything, and this is a very overdue life update.
Since my last chapter update in *checks notes* June 2025, I've been swamped with stuff related to the final year of my PhD. I've moved in with my partner (yay), I've passed my comprehensive exam, successfully defended my proposal, and am on the home stretch to graduate this summer (end of July)!!
Needless to say, I've been very busy, and it used to be that I wrote when my insomnia kept me up at night. Said insomnia of 20+ years went poof after I moved in with my partner. Being able to properly fall asleep is quite the novelty.
Anyway, I'm still committed to finishing my fics -- the prioritization is still the same, Finding Eternity and then Amongst Flowers Without Names. I also have some other Kanamafu fic ideas I want to write once those are finished too! The only thing is that any chapter updates will likely happen after I earn my PhD.
I appreciate everyone's patience and understanding, and I hope that future chapter updates deliver on expectations!
Tl;dr, been very busy, will eventually finish fics sometime after graduating.
Sometimes I forget I have a social media thing -- but as a quick life/writing update, I've been busy dealing with the fun combination of studying for comps (comprehensive exams) and also moving. So, writing for both Finding Eternity and Amongst Flowers Without Names have been on pause and will likely continue to be on hiatus until sometime after August 20th. The final chapter for Finding Eternity will be coming out before the hanahaki AU (still need to do Shizuku research for it!), and there is a slight possibility that I'll work on the fics between studying sessions, but don't count on it unfortunately. :(
Thank you for your patience and I'll try to get both fics updated when I can!
For most of my life, my writing has been both subjectively and objectively terrible. This is an anecdote that Iāve been wanting to tell for a while now, ever since I started posting on AO3. It just never really felt like the āright timeā to post about it, but I figured commemorating 100k words posted on AO3 would be fun. This is by no means self-derogatory, but more so a reflection on my own writing journey that I hope may inspire other people to start writing.Ā
Warning: This is long.Ā Ā
As Iāve mentioned, my writing was atrocious. Not that it was riddled with grammar or spelling mistakes ā that was easy enough for me, since itās following a set of rules. But, I couldnāt translate my ideas into words that flowed well or made much sense. I have a vivid memory from 6th grade, when we were put in groups to give peer feedback on the short stories weāve written. We were supposed to pair up within the group to give one-on-one feedback and then rotate partners. But it immediately devolved into the entire group giving me feedback, and then the teacher joined in too because of the whole commotion! I remember sitting there, feeling mortified that my writing was just so bad that everyone wanted to try and help me.Ā
But perhaps you think, āWait Solar! You couldāve just been bad at creative writing!!āĀ
Nope. This extended to all things writing. English historically was my worst subject, and nothing said this more than in high school when I had to write my very first AP (Advanced Placement) English essay. Since I was only a freshman at the time, the expectation for us was to score a four out of nine. Which is pretty low, and the grading rubric even defines a four as āinadequateā and it means that an important idea was misread or missing and that the writing was āimmatureā.
Guess what I scored?
A one.Ā
Do you know how to score a one on an AP essay? You score a 0 only if you leave your paper entirely blank. You can repeat the prompt and add a single relevant sentence to score a one. I wrote an entire essay and scored a one. I was essentially tasked to reach inadequacy and failed. Thatās where I was at with my writing for the longest time.Ā
But then how did I even get to where I am today?Ā
The short answer? Hard work.
The longer answer? Lots of hard work and constantly striving to be better.Ā Ā
What kick-started this whole process was a good friend who was morbidly curious on how anyone could earn a one on the AP English essay and asked to see my writing. The best I could give her was the two I had written on the next essay as I couldnāt find where my one went ā perhaps itās for the best that itās lost to time. She coached me on how to organize my writing and make sure that itās clear. That every sentence served a relevant, overall purpose. That they logically flowed from one sentence to the next. These were things that didnāt require me to wax poetic at all. It just required me to arrange and rearrange my words and sentences in a way that was easy to understand. And by the middle of my sophomore year, I started writing 6s, which was on par where I was supposed to be.Ā
After my writing was at least understandable by others, I tried my hand at creative writing again. In my junior year of high school, I participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), a challenge where you try to write 50k words in the month of November. I had always loved reading and I admired the people who wrote fanfic and posted it for the world to see, so I thought why not try it too? I made it to 24.5k words written, but the very act of going through the motions of writing, brainstorming, and writing more was eye-opening for how I should tackle future fics (aka figure out my plot beforehand lol).Ā
By my senior year, I was writing 8s and my writing assignments started being praised more than anything. It was also around this time when I started engaging in forum roleplay, where you conjure up a character, plop them in the specified setting, and interact with other peopleās characters. Forum roleplaying requires you (unless you use a self-insert) to really think about a characterās past, their personality, their motives, and how these all combine to influence their behavior in the present. I learned how to characterize through it, and then challenged myself to roleplay characters that were very unlike me so that I can get into their headspaces. I looked at how other people would describe their environment and then started practicing how to write more descriptively.Ā
Even now, Iām still looking to improve. My dialogue tags have gotten better since I wrote To Walk Where the Light Shines. After being forced to worldbuild six completely different settings and convey it in a concise manner for Lives Etched on Our Palms, I think Iāve gotten better and more efficient at inserting that kind of detail.Ā
I think a lot of the time, especially when it comes to creative endeavors, itās easy for other people to believe that the reason why weāre āgoodā at it is because we are born talented. That thereās this intrinsic trait we have to make us good. But most of the time, thatās not true. Itās a matter of hard work and deliberate practice. Iām constantly looking to improve and I see differences in my writing from when I first started posting on AO3 compared to now.Ā
I also donāt believe that itās ever ātoo lateā to improve or learn a skill. From my own experiences, life is a journey, and even if you move the needle a little bit today ā thatās something and the only person you ever should compare yourself to isā¦yourself. Does it matter if other people are better? Thatās saying you canāt ever be happy about your own accomplishments because someone out there has done all of these things but better. Which is absurd, in my opinion. Of course thereās someone out there better than me. That doesnāt matter because that never has or will diminish what Iāve accomplished for myself. I went from writing flaming dumpster fires to actually posting on AO3 and getting my research published. I did something I thought Iād never be able to do, and that holds meaning in it of itself ā even if my fics didnāt take off like they have.Ā Ā
Speaking of which, the reception to my fics has been especially heartwarming. Everyone has been kind and it always puts a smile on my face to read how my writing has been received. If not for the complete outpouring of support for To Walk Where the Light Shines ā Iām honestly not sure how much Kanamafu I wouldāve written afterwards (if you listen closely, you can hear my P5 WIPs gasping for air in the background). But genuinely, if you had asked 16-year-old me if I would ever write and post a fanfic, I would say āNo. I donāt have the ability to. And that sounds way too scary.ā If you told me that I would write a fairly popular fic for a ship I adore, I would say that you were delusional.Ā
What Iām trying to say with all of this is if you ever have looked at any of my writing and thought āthat was goodā ā you can do it too! I sincerely believe that you can. Iām not promising that itāll be easy or quick, but I believe everyone can. So if writing has ever interested you, I encourage you to try it! Kanamafu Week is also coming up soon. ;)Ā Ā
I hope this wasnāt too rambly or soapbox-y ā if youāve read this far, thank you! Happy 100k words to me, and I hope the next 100k words are even better! :)Ā Ā
I WAS SMILING THE WHOLE TIME READING THIS š„¹š„¹ With the way you write right now, it's hard to believe that you struggled with it before. But I'm happy to see how you put a realistic and hopeful perspective to it, and how the results are clearly shown with your increasing grades throughout the years + your boost in confidence that enabled you to post your works on AO3 š„³
Sometimes I wonder if it's a greater driving force to improve in the long run when you've been in the lowest spot compared to if you're always doing "good",, š¤ But yes thank you so much for sharing! Although I'm not a writer, it still inspires me with art, especially since I'd say I'm not really "creative," but now I know I can definitely get to where I wanna be eventually. And I only hope more aspiring writers will get to hear about this lovely journey :)
I'm happy to hear that it was inspiring! <3 I think it's easy for all of us to forget that we only really see the end product of people's efforts -- whether it be art, writing, or another endeavor. We don't get to see the many hours that people have put into it unless they tell or show us, so I'm glad that my anecdote can give a little peek into that!
There have been so many things in my life that I thought I'd never be able to accomplish (public speaking being another huge one), and it really came down to deliberate practice and picking myself back up whenever I 'failed'. Because as long as you keep at it, you haven't truly failed. I've also seen people who are 65+ years old try to pick up new things, and that really hammered in the idea that the only person I ever need to compare myself to is myself. We're all on our own little journeys through life, and that's beautiful in its own way. :)
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Here's a sneak peek of Chapter 2 of Finding Eternity, a Houseki no Kuni/Land of the Lustrous AU! It's been a while since I've written action scenes, but here we are. This chapter is about 50% finished, and I hope to complete it within the first week of July. :)
Sneak peek:
Mafuyu draws her bow back, aiming it at the growing sunspot, the black sharp edges slicing across the sky. āIām in position, Shizuku.āĀ
The aquamarine tilts her head in acknowledgement, eyes also trained at the golden cloud crossing over. Mafuyu can see Shizukuās hand tightens on her sword as they both tense for the moment the Lunarians land.Ā
The cloud stops a distance away, and Lunarians begin hopping off, dropping down onto the ground with lines trailing behind them.
āIāll be off now, Mafuyu.ā Shizuku darts forward, swiftly cutting down the closest Lunarian before it could react. Another Lunarian takes its place, swinging a sword that Shizuku bats aside with ease.Ā
An arrow sinks into a Lunarian trying to flank Shizuku, the golden figure dispersing into nothingness. Mafuyu rapidly shoots more Lunarians whenever they try to surround Shizuku or approach Mafuyu. Mafuyu is the last line of defense before they potentially catch less martially inclined gems unawares or worse, find their way into the sanctuary.Ā
There should be no risk of that though ā Shizuku is making good progress, rapidly slicing her way through the Lunarians to make her way up to the large Lunarian still standing on the cloud. Mafuyu on the other hand, provides supportive fire and sees the overall enemy formation in the backline.Ā
Itās a strategy theyāve refined over decades of partnership, and its effectiveness is only proven when only a scattering of Lunarians remains. Shizuku takes one great leap to the cloud, and with one clean slice dispatches the central Lunarian. It only takes a few more seconds for Mafuyu to finish off the stragglers.Ā
āGood work,ā Mafuyu says as Shizuku lands elegantly in front of her.Ā
āI couldnāt have done it without Mafuyu,ā Shizuku says happily, pressing a hand to her cheek.Ā
I barely made it in time, but the first chapter of Finding Eternity, my Kanamafu Week 2025 offering, is out! It's a Kanamafu Houseki no Kuni AU fic cause I wanted some more pizzazz in the DNA/Guilt prompt.
Chapter 2 will be...sometime later. Hopefully within Kanamafu Week, but I do need a bit to recover from writing 3k+ words in the last 24 hours.
Tags: Houseki no Kuni AU, Fluff, Angst, Bittersweet Ending, Existentialism, Ship of Theseus
Summary:
āThereās an old tale recorded about how in the long distant past, there were creatures called humans. But after five meteor strikes shattered the land, followed by a sixth one ā they fled to the sea. And so they became split into Bones, Flesh, and Spirit,ā Mafuyu explains.
āWhat happened to them afterwards?ā Kanade asks.
āWe, the gems, are the immortal bones."
Or
A Houseki no Kuni AU in which both Kanade and Mafuyu search for meaning in their infinite lifespan.
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As a fun hint for my Kanamafu Week 2025 offering: I know way too much about gemstones now. The first chapter will be up for Day 3: DNA/Guilt on the 23rd sometime if all goes according to plan!
For most of my life, my writing has been both subjectively and objectively terrible. This is an anecdote that Iāve been wanting to tell for a while now, ever since I started posting on AO3. It just never really felt like the āright timeā to post about it, but I figured commemorating 100k words posted on AO3 would be fun. This is by no means self-derogatory, but more so a reflection on my own writing journey that I hope may inspire other people to start writing.Ā
Warning: This is long.Ā Ā
As Iāve mentioned, my writing was atrocious. Not that it was riddled with grammar or spelling mistakes ā that was easy enough for me, since itās following a set of rules. But, I couldnāt translate my ideas into words that flowed well or made much sense. I have a vivid memory from 6th grade, when we were put in groups to give peer feedback on the short stories weāve written. We were supposed to pair up within the group to give one-on-one feedback and then rotate partners. But it immediately devolved into the entire group giving me feedback, and then the teacher joined in too because of the whole commotion! I remember sitting there, feeling mortified that my writing was just so bad that everyone wanted to try and help me.Ā
But perhaps you think, āWait Solar! You couldāve just been bad at creative writing!!āĀ
Nope. This extended to all things writing. English historically was my worst subject, and nothing said this more than in high school when I had to write my very first AP (Advanced Placement) English essay. Since I was only a freshman at the time, the expectation for us was to score a four out of nine. Which is pretty low, and the grading rubric even defines a four as āinadequateā and it means that an important idea was misread or missing and that the writing was āimmatureā.
Guess what I scored?
A one.Ā
Do you know how to score a one on an AP essay? You score a 0 only if you leave your paper entirely blank. You can repeat the prompt and add a single relevant sentence to score a one. I wrote an entire essay and scored a one. I was essentially tasked to reach inadequacy and failed. Thatās where I was at with my writing for the longest time.Ā
But then how did I even get to where I am today?Ā
The short answer? Hard work.
The longer answer? Lots of hard work and constantly striving to be better.Ā Ā
What kick-started this whole process was a good friend who was morbidly curious on how anyone could earn a one on the AP English essay and asked to see my writing. The best I could give her was the two I had written on the next essay as I couldnāt find where my one went ā perhaps itās for the best that itās lost to time. She coached me on how to organize my writing and make sure that itās clear. That every sentence served a relevant, overall purpose. That they logically flowed from one sentence to the next. These were things that didnāt require me to wax poetic at all. It just required me to arrange and rearrange my words and sentences in a way that was easy to understand. And by the middle of my sophomore year, I started writing 6s, which was on par where I was supposed to be.Ā
After my writing was at least understandable by others, I tried my hand at creative writing again. In my junior year of high school, I participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), a challenge where you try to write 50k words in the month of November. I had always loved reading and I admired the people who wrote fanfic and posted it for the world to see, so I thought why not try it too? I made it to 24.5k words written, but the very act of going through the motions of writing, brainstorming, and writing more was eye-opening for how I should tackle future fics (aka figure out my plot beforehand lol).Ā
By my senior year, I was writing 8s and my writing assignments started being praised more than anything. It was also around this time when I started engaging in forum roleplay, where you conjure up a character, plop them in the specified setting, and interact with other peopleās characters. Forum roleplaying requires you (unless you use a self-insert) to really think about a characterās past, their personality, their motives, and how these all combine to influence their behavior in the present. I learned how to characterize through it, and then challenged myself to roleplay characters that were very unlike me so that I can get into their headspaces. I looked at how other people would describe their environment and then started practicing how to write more descriptively.Ā
Even now, Iām still looking to improve. My dialogue tags have gotten better since I wrote To Walk Where the Light Shines. After being forced to worldbuild six completely different settings and convey it in a concise manner for Lives Etched on Our Palms, I think Iāve gotten better and more efficient at inserting that kind of detail.Ā
I think a lot of the time, especially when it comes to creative endeavors, itās easy for other people to believe that the reason why weāre āgoodā at it is because we are born talented. That thereās this intrinsic trait we have to make us good. But most of the time, thatās not true. Itās a matter of hard work and deliberate practice. Iām constantly looking to improve and I see differences in my writing from when I first started posting on AO3 compared to now.Ā
I also donāt believe that itās ever ātoo lateā to improve or learn a skill. From my own experiences, life is a journey, and even if you move the needle a little bit today ā thatās something and the only person you ever should compare yourself to isā¦yourself. Does it matter if other people are better? Thatās saying you canāt ever be happy about your own accomplishments because someone out there has done all of these things but better. Which is absurd, in my opinion. Of course thereās someone out there better than me. That doesnāt matter because that never has or will diminish what Iāve accomplished for myself. I went from writing flaming dumpster fires to actually posting on AO3 and getting my research published. I did something I thought Iād never be able to do, and that holds meaning in it of itself ā even if my fics didnāt take off like they have.Ā Ā
Speaking of which, the reception to my fics has been especially heartwarming. Everyone has been kind and it always puts a smile on my face to read how my writing has been received. If not for the complete outpouring of support for To Walk Where the Light Shines ā Iām honestly not sure how much Kanamafu I wouldāve written afterwards (if you listen closely, you can hear my P5 WIPs gasping for air in the background). But genuinely, if you had asked 16-year-old me if I would ever write and post a fanfic, I would say āNo. I donāt have the ability to. And that sounds way too scary.ā If you told me that I would write a fairly popular fic for a ship I adore, I would say that you were delusional.Ā
What Iām trying to say with all of this is if you ever have looked at any of my writing and thought āthat was goodā ā you can do it too! I sincerely believe that you can. Iām not promising that itāll be easy or quick, but I believe everyone can. So if writing has ever interested you, I encourage you to try it! Kanamafu Week is also coming up soon. ;)Ā Ā
I hope this wasnāt too rambly or soapbox-y ā if youāve read this far, thank you! Happy 100k words to me, and I hope the next 100k words are even better! :)Ā Ā
Chapter 6 of Amongst Flowers Without Names has been posted!!
I'll be taking a brief hiatus from this fic (approximately two weeks) to work on my Kanamafu Week offering, but after I will be refocusing on this fic. :)
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This is probably the most frequent I've posted on social media, but Chapter 6 of Amongst Flowers Without Names is about halfway done, meaning there's a sneak peek! Hopefully this helps uplift any spirits from Chapter 5:
The Hanahaki removal procedure is typically used as an emergency option. While it is highly effective in curing Hanahaki disease ā it is not without harmful side effects. The particular area of the brain that the disease flourishes in is the hippocampus, a key area for memory. Medical professionals and neurologists over the years have determined that the memory loss from the removal procedure is largely due to the damage to the hippocampus from the follow-up medication. But if only the surgery is performed, the disease will eventually re-infect the lungs and spawn a new plant. There are cases where only the surgery has been performed multiple times on a patient, but consecutive removal surgeries on the patient increases the risk of death and other complications during the procedure. Furthermore, the more the disease has progressed, the risk of the post-surgery medication additionally causing the patient to be unable to form new memories with the target of their unrequited love increases. Thus, if the removal procedure is deemed necessary, it is recommended to undergo it as early as possible to decrease this risk.Ā
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āJust so you know, because this is a date, youāre paying!ā Ena points her fork at Mafuyu.
āYou were the one that invited me here,ā Mafuyu responds. Ena had shown up earlier today at Kanadeās house and demanded Mafuyu āgo outā with her. When Mafuyu had asked why initially, Ena had retorted that it was ājust in caseā. Mafuyu had seen no reason to refuse, and Ena proceeded to aggressively drag her to this bakery.Ā Ā
āT-that doesnāt matter!ā Ena pouts and takes another bite of her cheesecake.Ā
āOn typical dates, it is societally expected that the male pays. However, as we would not be a traditional couple, it would be on the onus of the inviter, not the invitee.āĀ Ā
Ena stares at her. āAnd where did you learn that?ā
āMizuki lent me a book on dating etiquette.ā Mizuki had actually given her many books, ranging from flower symbolism to dating to romantic relationships.Ā
Chapter 5 of Amongst Flowers Without Names is out now! We're officially halfway through!!!
I'll still be prioritizing this fic through the month of June, even with Kanamafu Week coming up. I'd like to get this fic finished sooner rather than later, although it all depends on the amount of free time I'll have. Summer = time to catch up on research, unfortunately.
