soft and broken

I'm putting on my princess pants and slaying the dragon myself

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH rips my own throat out :3

I do everything right and still my body is fallin apart like wuh huh wbym I need exercise to be happy and feel good about myself but when I do so much as a brisk walk for my own well being my joints go x.x and when I do silks my innards attempt to be outtards and my fingers feel full of sandpaper every morning like I'm an 80 yo and when I eat healthy I feel like shit and when I eat bad I feel like shit and when I don't eat I feel like shit and all the sleep and no sleep doesn't matter still tired and I can't secure a job and I can't stop spending money and I pay too much and not enough attention to politics and school and the meaning of life and how many doctors visits can I take and nothings good except doing nothing like wuh huh