SoberMan

I forgot to post that i have four and a half years sober! so proud of myself. AND we got a new car! what a present. 2015 honda civic. I cant believe this is my life now. who would of thought? a life free from heroin

Lena Slaughter (via cupcakes-n-butterflies)

Today, and every day, I have #hope. Life really does get better. #sobriety

Having a better day today. Forced myself to go for a walk outdoors & get my ass to a mtg. #health #hope #sobriety #life #anxiety #depression #bestoftheday #picoftheday #sobergirl #sober #mentalhealth #mentalillness #Selfie

99 days clean!! Ready for triple digits!

And I made it through detox!!!!!!!!!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

Every day I have to remind myself where I came from; reminisce on the times I wanted to die or almost actually died and the times I was strung out on the streets, homeless, on the literal opposite side of the country from the people who actually cared about me. And then remind myself of all I’ll be able to do in life if I stay clean. Addiction plays huge tricks on the mind even when you get clean, as well as for many years to follow. When I get strong cravings (which is definitely a lot less frequent now than it was the first month), I’ll really think I miss the excitement of the lifestyle and the highs and the shitty people due to euphoric recall blocking out memories of the hell. And I’ll wonder why it’s still so immensely hard sometimes even though I’m over 6 months clean. Well do the math. I spent over 4 years of my life in addict mode, so logically it should take about that long to be comfortable living normally without altering my brain chemistry and state of mind every day. So I’ll stay fighting, one day at a time, because I’m just a million times better than that life and I never want to be a slave again.