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The voices have been bad this month too and I haven't really told anyone. I don't want to get admitted again but I don't feel great. I shared something about the voices with my dad and he seemed concerned. Maybe I should be too? I don't know. My head is no fun to be in atm.

I've been struggling mentally the last few days with voices and bad thoughts. Making losing weight and not binging more challenging.

I'm seeing my grandmother on sunday together with my siblings. I have a weird relationship with her. I hope it goes well!

I had fun with my friend yesterday. We drank soda and knitted in the library. She feels really close/connected to me, but I still feel like we are strangers. But I like her. I met her while I was inpatient and currently she's my only not-online friend so I do appreciate someone I can meet up with in person.

Now I'm gonna drink iced coffee and play video games.

I feel so lost and alone.

But I just wanna stay inside and do nothing :(

Plans for today is going to a gaming club with a recovery mentor. Other than that, no plans. I hope the gaming club is fun. I'm bringing my steam deck.