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“what didn’t he do! he always cheats off me in class every chance he gets. and not to mention that one time he stole my bracelet that was very precious to me by the way. and had the audacity to break it in front of me.”

“ it wasn’t even on purp-“ pink butted in but she couldn’t even finish her sentence as you interrupted her.

“and don’t you dare say it was an accident! he had such a smug look on his face when he did it too!” you kept rambling on but the other two just zoned you out.

“i’m starting to think that she’s obsessed with him at this point cause no real person who actually hates someone would ramble on for this long.” pink whispered to red. she nodded in agreement as she was still getting used to her having another sister and now your “rivalry” with max.

“guys, look we’re here! let’s go!!” pink exclaimed as she dragged both you and red.

as they entered the school, everything felt all new to red. before long she met up with chloe and she couldn’t even discuss it with her before two dudes came up to them. from what you told her, the buff one was luis, son of luisa. and the other guy was robbie, son of robin hood.

“this is all so weird.” red whispered to chloe but before she could mutter back she got interrupted.

“look if it isn’t little miss princess?” max came over with a smirk on his face.

“have you ever heard of personal space, hatter? and stop calling me that.” you said as you pushed him away from you.

“oh but aren’t you a princess? why should i call you anything else other then princess? plus i know how much you hate it and i like seeing that annoyed look on your face.” max teased as he still was all up in your face.

you were tempted to slap him but you knew that’s exactly what he wanted so you tried to hold back.

“guys! if you guys are done flirting with each other over there, then you should know there’s other problems at hand.” red called out which made you realize how close max was to you. and also how everyone else was surrounding red.

you scoffed before pushing him away from you before going over to red. “since you were so busy over there with max, mom sent a message saying that she was captured by maddox hatter.”

“mom was WHAT!” pink exclaimed as she ran over before fainting. both you and red looked at you with the same expression that screamed it was normal at this point.

you were reading in the courtyard before pink came over with both luis and robbie. “sis! we have to go with red and chloe.” pink babbled out before dragging you along with them.

“hey! can you please stop dragging me, i can walk you know. and where are we going.” you exclaimed in frustration.

by the time you caught up with red, you were out of breath. “gosh pink, did we really have to run all the way here.” you muttered out as you felt like you just ran a whole marathon.

“we’re coming with you red!” pink shouted out.

as you were fixing your breath, you looked to the left of you just to see the vks next to you. “why are they here!” you complained.

“don’t you want to save your mom? you need someone who knows my father’s trick so i’m coming whether you like it or not princess.” max smirked.

“guys stop flirting with each other and fine! all of you guys can come with us. just don’t be flirting with each other the whole time. i’m looking at the two of you.” red stated.

“i wasn’t even flirting with him! like hell i would ever like him.”

you watched as red and chloe went down first. “go on princess, ladies first.” max said as he pushed you towards the hole.

“quit it with the nickname and how about you go huh?”

“just shut the hell up and go. stop flirting, you both are pissing me off.” hazel called out before pushing both you and max down.

“what the hell, hazel! you're supposed to be on my side!” he yelled out in frustration.

“you scared, hatter? need someone to hold on too.” you teased with a smirk on your face.

“i think you're projecting onto me and in reality your the scaredy cat. Do you want to hold my hand? here.” he pointed out as he reached out his hand towards yours.

“get your sweaty hands away from me. i’m not scared and even if i was. i don’t need your help.”

you spent the entire time arguing with him and it wasn’t long until you reached wonderland. though before you could even get up, a heavy weight fell on top of you. “ow, what the hell? hatter, you're heavy as hell. get off me!” you huffed out as you pushed him off you.

“if you guys are done. then we can get moving along, we have a long journey ahead.” red said as she began moving along the path.

“chloe, would you help me up?” you muttered as you saw her held out her hand for you to grab. as chloe helped you, you dusted all the grass off your clothes before hurrying behind the rest of them.

they all continued to follow pink until they reached the croquet garden. “welcome to wonderland’s croquet garden!” pink exclaimed as she began explaining about the garden.

you started to wander around the garden and admire all the beautiful plants and flowers before you realized something was wrong.

“run!!” red screamed as the flamingo’s turned a dark purple before they started moving. “why is today basically just me running the entire day? I'm not made for running.” you huffed out as you continued running.

“look out!” you heard from behind you as they pushed you out of the way and whacked the flamingo that was behind you which you didn’t see. “you really need to watch where your going, princess. imagine i wasn’t here to help, so now what was it about that you didn’t need my help?” max nudged as he grabbed your hand to make yourself that you wouldn’t get yourself killed.

you were glad that his focus wasn’t on you otherwise he would have seen your ears turned a slight red. you didn’t know why your face was heating up, you hated him. you didn’t possibly like him right?

he led you into a house before directing the rest of them to follow into the house. as everyone was inside now, it felt more like a maze than a house. max began leading everyone deeper in the house but as they kept moving, it led to a dead end where the walls were closing in.

you thought that this was it until a trap door opened leading you to fall into a patch of pumpkins. instead of falling on the soft pumpkins, you instead fell on top of max. “what the hell.” he coughed out as he pushed you off his chest. “we gotta stop falling on top of each other.”

you stepped out of the pumpkin patch as you began looking around until you realized that many of them were not here. “pink, red, luis, robbie and felix are all gone. we have to find them.”

“huh?” she questioned before looking around. “You're right. ugh cmon we have to look for them.” you two began looking everywhere but yet no trace of them. it felt like it had been hours since you started looking.

“red!! where were you? we’ve been looking everywhere for you.” pink exclaimed which meant that she probably found red and the others.

after letting red and luis rest for a moment. it wasn’t long until you continued on your adventure to find mom. as time went on, you kept sneaking glances towards max. you didnt know why?

maybe after that moment where he saved you back there in the garden. for some reason his face had started popping up in your mind more often. though it didn’t change your opinion on him. while he was still annoying as ever, you couldn’t deny that his face wasn’t pleasant to look at.

it felt like you had been walking for ages but still you were nowhere near the castle. and it wasn’t helping that maddox kept pulling tricks to slow us down. you were so close to just giving up as many times during the chess game he set up. you were on the edge of falling off or either almost getting eaten alive by a flower.

by the time red came up with a plan to win the game, you luckily hadn’t lost any of your limbs. and now it was another excruciating hour of nonstop walking.

“you been a little too quiet lately? normally you would’ve made fun of me almost falling back there. you’re planning something aren’t you?” you asked max as you snuck up from behind.

you saw the way he flinched so hard which made you let out a chuckle. “god, don’t do that again. and i’m not planning anything, you're just paranoid.”

“ugh you're being boring. go back to being little old annoying max instead. also elaborate on where we’re going otherwise i might think this is all a trap.”

“you’re only saying that because maddox is my father. and for your information, i’m nothing like him. if i was would i have saved you back there?”

“look up ahead. that’s the white rabbit’s cottage, that’s where we’re gonna be staying for the night.”

once you reached the cottage, you immediately flopped down onto the couch. “i’m so tired, pinkk. i feel like I haven't eaten and rested in ages.” you complained as you saw pink lounged down right next to you.

“you should’ve told me! i had snacks, you know. anyways here take my cake, and I know what you're going to say. i’m not gonna eat it anyways and I’ll just find another one anyways!” pink smiled as she pushed the plate into your hands.

as you listened to pink rambling while eating your delicious cake. you saw from the corner of your eyes, max and hazel whispering. you tried to desperately make out a word that they said but you couldn’t hear anything.

what was even more suspicious is that right after he tried to sneak out of the house which was very strange. “pink, i saw max leave the house. I think imma go follow him instead he does something strange.” you whispered to her.

“wait! lemme go with you.” she whispered back as she stood up but you didn’t let her.

“just let me do it, okay? it would be more suspicious if it was two.” you saw the way that her face frowned but it wasn’t long until she agreed to let you go along.

you discreetly snuck out of the house while pink distracted hazel and the smees. you hurriedly caught up to him so you wouldn’t lose him. it wasn’t long until you realized where he was going. maddox hatter’s workshop.

“your not slick, princess. i know you been following me the entire time.” max called out as he was about to enter.

you let out a nervous chuckle. “woah. what a coincidence seeing you here.”

“drop the act. you only followed me because you thought that i was suspicious. but i’m not, i only came here to get oraculum to get back at my dad.” he held his hands up as he was innocent.

“fine. just let me see you do it, so you do no funny business.” you answered as you followed him up the stairs.

you stayed in the corner studying his every move while he went to grab the oraculum. but as you were waiting for him to do so, you saw how he was reluctant to do it. “are you gonna grab it or what? what are you waiting for? i’m starting to think this is all a trap.” you groaned in frustration.

“holy, the pocket watch! it’s real?!” that was the very first thing that you heard from him ever since you two entered. “red and chloe! the- they did it!”

“what are you talking about? move let me see!” you questioned as you pushed him enough to where you both could see.

you didn’t know what you were expecting but you definitely didn’t expect to see you and max in this very same tower playing chess? and he looked very different. he wasn’t wearing his usual hat and instead was wearing glasses and a bow tie.

as you kept watching it, a ton of different things were happening. even ones where you and max were making out which caught both of you by surprise. the tension in the air was thick especially after you both just saw. before you even speak, you got cut off by max’s lips.

when his lips touched yours, it felt like second nature as you wrapped your arms around his neck. while his arms were on your waist. all the tensions that had been boiling between the two of you were let loose in that very kiss.

when you both separated from each other, all the confidence that was in the air was immediately gone and instead filled with awkwardness. “uh should we talk about what happened.” max broke the silence as he tried looking anywhere but your eyes.

“i think we have bigger problems to fry. we’ll worry about this later and instead let’s focus on you know.” you said as you tried to change the subject.

all it did was remind him of how he was a monster. what could possibly go wrong during the culling games he thought?

everything..

he should’ve made you stay behind. he knew it was too dangerous for you to join with him and yuji.

sometimes he wondered why you wanted to be his friend so bad. he remembered when it was just him and you as the only first years.

you barley knew him but yet that never stopped you from including him.

maybe that was the reason why he slowly started soften up to you. you would always including him in your hang outs so he wouldn’t feel left out and always trained with him instead of maki or panda.

it also didn’t help that gojo would pair the two of you up for literally anything. even if the activity didn’t need team work.

megumi felt like gojo knew something that he didn’t, and that was the scariest part. gojo could be planning something really embarrassing and he wouldn’t know what.

when yuji and nobara came along, he thought that you would leave him behind. as the three of you matched each others energy.

but nope. you didn’t, you never left his side. you still trained and went on missions with him. and even having hang outs without the other two.

maybe that’s when he realized that he has developed a tiny huge crush on you. though he would never admit it out loud to the others.

“megumii where are you taking me.” you yawned as you rubbed the sleepiness out of your eyes. it was around 12am when he dragged you out of bed.

“you’ll see when we get there.” he softly spoke as he was leading you through a forest that seemed to go on forever.

“ughh it feels like i have been walking for hourss. are we there yet.” you groaned out as you kept trying to go back to sleep before megumi slapped you out of it.

“ it’s only been like 30 minutes, you know?”

“oh!! uh well still!”

“we’re here.” he spoke as he showed you the picnic he planned.

“awwwwh!! megumi you didn’t have to do this!” you smiled as you ran up to give him a hug.

“ i also know how much you love meteor showers and you really wanted to see one. so i have been planning this picnic since forever.” he said as he reluctantly hugged you back.

“gumi! you know you didn’t have to. but thank you!!” you exclaimed as you dragged him to sit down with you before pecking his cheeks.

luckily you turned your focus away from him to the food that he spent a good time baking for you. as you would’ve noticed his ears turning bright red.

it wasn’t long until the meteor shower started while you were busy admiring the view and munching down on the pastries he made.

he was staring at you and giving him a pep talking inside his head.

he took one deep sigh before expressing what’s been on his been lately. “ i also have one last surprises for you.”

you looked up from the cupcake you were eating with a confused expression.

“over these past months that I have known you. we’ve gotten a lot closer i would say, the very first time that we met. i wouldn’t of expected us to talk, let alone be friends at all. i don’t ever regret becoming friends with you, your like a spark while i’m darkness. the first time we talked, its like something in me sparked. you always manage to make me feel seen and cared about. so what i’m basically saying is that I like you, i always have even when i was just that loner in the corner.” he confessed as he pulled out a bouquet of your favorite flowers.

“wait, your crying? oh my gosh did i me-“

before he could even finish his sentence, you cut him off. “wait you actually like me back! honestly i didn’t think that you would ever like me back. sorry i’m really happy right now!”

you didn’t realize how close he was until you felt his arms wrapped around you. “is this okay?” you nodded as you let yourself relax in his arms. he was surprisingly soft. you don’t remember the last time you got a piece of quiet time.

he let you relax in his arms for a while and you somehow managed to fall asleep. lately he knew that you hadn’t been getting enough sleep and food. and now that you were dating, he is even more determined to take better care of you.

“hopefully i’m able to take off the stress that has been weighing you down. i’m willing to injure and possibly sacrifice myself just for you to be safe.” he mumbled as he gave you a quick kiss on the forehead before carrying you back to your dorm.

god, did he mess up badly. he was supposed to protect you and make sure you didn’t do anything stupid. which is why he didn’t allow you to participate in the culling games with him and instead stay behind with kirara.

but being the stubborn person you were, you entered right behind him and yuji. and he couldn’t even do anything about it as it separated the three of you.

“god damn it, just why wouldn’t you listen to me. now it’s my fault if you get injured.” he mumbled to himself. but he couldn’t do anything about it as he had to focus on finding higuruma. though hopefully he would be able to reunite with both you and yuji.

everything was going terribly wrong. once he reunited with both you and yuji, he thought he could take a breath of fresh air knowing that they were all together.

but apparently nothing could ever go right. since he found out that his sister, that he was supposed to protect. had gotten possessed by a ancient sorcerer.

both you and yuji saw how he was more quieter and he looked more dead then usual.

“megumi, hey..” you softly spoke as you sat down beside him. yuji gave you a look before giving you both alone time.

for a moment it was quiet but you didn’t want to push him to speak about it. but you definitely saw tears in his eyes.

“fuckk! i can’t do this anymore.” he finally broke out in a whisper as he let his tears run down on your shoulder. you let him continue crying in your arms as you intertwined one of his hands with yours.

“i- i couldn’t protect her. how can i continue to protect you knowing that i couldn’t protect my own sister and that she couldn’t even fight back.” it felt weird seeing megumi break down like this. he always kept a strong face in front of everyone.

“even if you failed to protect tsumiki, doesn’t mean that you can’t protect me. you tried at least and that’s all that matters. there’s still hope that you can save her.”

“thank you, i don’t know what i would do if i never met you. you really think I can still save her?” he mumbled as he looked up from your shoulders.

“yes i think so! don’t be too hard on yourself. i know that you will be able to protect me. and i promise that i will do what ever i can to save tsumiki.” you smiled as you ruffled his hair.

he didn’t get how you could be this motivated and calm in a time like this. but he knew that was one of the qualities that he liked the most about you. how nothing ever seemed to faze you.

he definitely had hope that he could protect you now..

everything had gone wrong..

he not only failed tsumiki but he also failed you. he wasn’t able to protect you. the monster was no one but himself.

tsumiki getting possessed was all just a stupid ploy for his mental state to become broken and paranoid. which was exactly what sukuna wanted. and megumi couldn’t fight back at all unlike yuji.

he did everything he could to protect you. he tried summoning mahoraga and stalling to get you as far away as possible but nope… nothing worked.

when sukuna took over his body, he tried fighting it but he was too weak. all he could do was watch.

it was all so vivid to him, it haunted him everywhere he went. he saw the scared look on your face as you tried to run away but he was just too fast.

he remembered the exact look on your face when he corned you. it hurts when he realized that the last thing you saw was megumi ripping your head off.

“g- gumi.. i love you..” you mumbled as you used your last breath to smile at him before tears fell down your cheek as your body fell limp.

he was a monster..

“ guys you don’t get it. she’s just so dreamy, if she told me to jump off a cliff. i would do it with no hesitation.” yuta rambled on about you as he got lost imagining you two together.

“YUTA!! you stupid idiot made us lose again for the fiftieth time. we don’t care about her, we just want to play the game.” yuji groaned as he threw his controller at yuta.

“ okay okay i’m sorry, you don’t need to throw it at me. can you guys just help a guy out for once.” yuta pleaded with them.

“dude just tell her, we been telling you this but your shy ass won’t do it.” megumi said bluntly.

“ what if she says no then it ruins our friendship and im stuck admiring her from afar. plus why would she go for me when she has guys like satoru gojo that want her.” he groaned out.

“you idiot, she rejected him so many times, have you not noticed at all. your so hopeless, i’m done.” yuji said fled up with him. “continue staring at her like a creep and not making a move on her. she’ll get a boyfriend sooner or later and don’t get mad at us when she does.”

when yuji mentioned that if he didn’t make a move, you would get a boyfriend sooner or later. was when he realized he needed to make a move before he lost his chance.

so for the past two weeks, he was dead set on confessing to you. but too bad nothing came to mind on how to confess to you exactly. he tried to pour his feelings out in a letter. until he realized that it was too cheesy so he opted out of that idea.

another idea was to make a poster asking you out but then he realized how embarrassing it would be with the amount of people around you two. and it would be even more embarrassing if you had rejected him.

so far everything he thought of was a bad idea. he practically gave up then and just prayed that no one asked you out and if they did. you would reject them.

so he just went back to giving you subtle hints.

time went by so fast that he didn’t even realized that today was your weekly movie night. and he had the chance to ask you out. but of course he decided to chicken out.

so now here he was on his couch with you curled up on him, watching spider man, no way home. he didn’t know how many times he had watched it.

but if it was your favorite movie then he would watch it with you forever. even if he got bored of it.

he honestly wasn’t even paying attention to the movie since his attention was on you the entire time. and how close you were to him.

“yu, you know that guy i was talking about the other day?” you asked.

“yeah. what about him, wait what was name again?” he said as if he wasn’t mentally crashing out on the inside. he didn’t remember you talking about a guy.

damn it, he probably got distracted staring at you when you told him. hopefully you don’t like anyone. he thought.

“ your being more forgetful then usual. are you okay? well his name is choso. and guess what he asked me out on a date!” you exclaimed excitedly as you forgot the movie in the background.

oh… he should of known. you were never gonna pick him. heck even see him as anything more then your nerdy best friend. and worse part, he knew this choso guy. he paired up with him for a project once. and he knew that choso was the type of guy you would go for.

he slowly started to distance himself from you. it was hard but he knew that he needed to if he wanted to get over these feelings for you.

he saw you texted him about how the date went. and how he wished that it was him instead of choso. he started texting more dryly before ultimately leaving you on seen.

you texted him many times asking if he was mad at you. and he badly wanted to reply but what would he say? that he was madly in love with you and is upset that it was choso instead of him. yeah no way in hell he was going to admit that to you.

you went up to him many time asking why but yet he would always find an excuse to ignore your question. you were determined to find out the reason. but after two weeks, you ended up giving up and never knowing why he was ignoring you.

it felt weird to you. you never realized how used you were to his presence. and everytime you hung out with anyone beside him, it didn’t feel right.

and you couldn’t ask him why he was being this way. so you opted with admiring him from afar with a pout on your face.

it had officially been a month since yuta started distancing himself from you. and you really miss his presence. how he was able to light you up when you were really down. and how he could spot you in a crowded space. and especially when he would listen to you ramble on about the marvel universe.

all your other friends thought stuff like that was for nerds and would rather party all day. you didn’t even know why you still hung out with them but it’s still better then being alone i guess.

“ your doing it again.” maki stated as you jolted up from your thoughts.

“huh, what am i doing again?” you asked genuinely confused.

“you keep staring at him with a pout as if magically that going to make him speak to you again.”

“ shut up maki, i tried everything basically. he simply just doesn’t want to talk to me for some reason. and i even asked his stupid friends why he was ignoring me. but nope i got nothing. so let me stare in peace.” you huffed before going back to staring.

“ gosh do you not get it. you. like. yuta. okkotsu. end of discussion.” maki whispered the last part in your ear.

you instantly jolted up as you felt your face turning warm. “ shut up no i do not like yuta. yuck i only see him as a friend.” you whispered back.

maki was about to reply before you heard your professor speak. “ girls is your gossip more important then my lesson.” you heard him sternly scold.

you both went still as you shook your head. he gave you one last one before going back to teaching. though maki gave you one last look that screamed this wasn’t the end of this conversation.

so now here you were in both yours and maki’s dorm getting scolded by her.

“ you like yuta okkotsu. you like him okay and this is why your so bothered on him ignoring you.” she stated as she shook your shoulder to try and get you to realize.

“ i been telling you, i don’t like him maki. i just see him as a friend. maybe im so bothered because he was genuinely a nice person to be around. huh have you thought about that.” you said as you gently pushed her hands off your shoulder.

“ so is it a coincidence that every since yuta been ignoring you. you basically broke off that talking stage with choso. even though you been talking about him for a while. or like how your always staring at him in the middle of lectures. or also how he’s the only one beside me that you let hug you. and don’t get me started on how you two are always up on each other. the only reason why your denying is because your best friends and you don’t want to ruin the friendship with him.”

you were about to argue with her. until you suddenly realized.

“ holy shit… maybe i am in love with yuta okkotsu.” you blurted out as you came to a realization.

when you came to that realization. you couldn’t even stare at him anymore without your cheeks heating up. and it was only worse that maki kept trying to make you confess to him or at least fix the drift between you two.

how would you even fix it if he’s clearly avoiding you for some reason. and it didn’t help that recently you saw him hanging out with this girl more often.

“ughhh i can’t do this anymore.” you complained to maki. “ it’s basically been two months. what the heck am i suppose to even do now. he clearly looks like he’s happy without me, considering he replaced me with that stupid cassie girl.”

“gosh if i known how annoying you would be once you admitted your crush on yuta. i never would of said anything.”

“pleaseeee maki just help me. i need him back even if it’s just in a friend way.”

“just yell in his face that he’s being childish and just tell you the damn problem.”

that probably was one of the dumbest ideas that maki suggested. but when one day when you accidentally bumped into him, going to the library early that morning . you felt like this was your chance.

“yuta can we please just talk for a second.” you pleaded with him. he looked at you for a split second before going the opposite direction.

you grabbed his wrist before he could. “ i don’t get you. why do you avoid me like the plague. your being childish you know. why can’t you man up for once and tell me what’s wrong instead of playing chase with me. i like you, you stupid idiot and now i don’t get why i even do. when your acting like this. do you really want our twelve years of friendship to go to waste just because you can’t tell me what the heck is going on. just tell me yu, please.” you blurted out. you didn’t except all your emotions to come out but i guess that’s what love does to someone.

you waited a moment for his response but yet nothing came out.

“fine i guess this is it. i hope your happy with that stupid cassie girl. i should’ve of never wasted my tears on you.” you mumbled while you felt tears roll down your cheeks. you slowly walked away, looking back a couple of times to see if he changed his mind. but no he didn’t call out for you or anything. he just stayed there, still as ever.

for the next couple of days, you didn’t feel like doing anything beside rotting in your bed. you wanted nothing to do with him but everything reminded you of him in your room. since you cherished almost all of the gifts he gave you.

to which you just gave up and reminisced the past. you were hugging one of the many stuffed animal he gave you when you saw a letter slid under your door and in bold letters was your name.

you didn’t want to get up but the temptation was too strong to not. you slowly got up and picked up the letter.

‘to my dearest petal,

i’m writing you this because i feel like you deserve the truth.

i was being a coward back there. i wanted to tell you the truth but yet when you told your feelings for me. it was like everything went still. nothing was coming out of my mouth. and when i saw you turn your back, i knew it was too late. i should’ve called out for you but i didn’t. and i deeply regret it knowing that i was the reason that you cried.

the reason on why i was avoiding you is embarrassing now but you need to know. that very night when you told me that you had a date with choso. i knew that my chances of being with you were gone.

he was such a sweet, athletic, quiet and popular guy, something that i wasn’t. he was your exact type, i thought.

which was why i was avoiding you, i wanted to try and move on from you. and i knew that if i didn’t distance myself away from you, these feelings would never go away.

and looking back it was stupid and i should’ve just told you my feelings right then and there. but obviously i don’t ever make the right decisions. it was hard distancing myself from you, i was fighting back the urge to text you back or to sit with you during lunch.

to try and get over you, i started talking to this random girl that was in my english. but every time i would talk to her, i would imagine that it was you.

nothing could ever replace you. your one of a kind and im glad everyday that you were in my life. i’m not telling you all of this to get you to forgive but more to tell you the truth. i get if you don’t ever forgive me, i wouldn’t forgive myself either. but if you want to give me a second chance.

i’ll prove it to you by you letting me take you out on three dates. i always have liked you and i still do. ever since that day when we were kids and you protected me from these stupid bullies.

that was the day i saw literal hearts in my eye when i saw you. and i still see hearts every time we’re together. it will always be you and even if you don’t forgive me, it still would be you. i don’t think i would ever be able to move on from you, my petal.'

love,

your dearest yuta okkotsu

by the time you finished reading, you didn’t expect tears to start pouring from your eyes. you never had anyone pour that much effort into you. all of your old exes just wanted you for your looks and treated you horribly.

but at the same time you didn’t want to forgive him just yet. though you were willing to see if he had changed.

when the next day came, you decided to sit next to him in class like you used to do.

when he saw you coming towards him, he was nervous that you were going to reject him and not accept his apology.

“i understand if you won’t-“ “i’m not fully sure if i want to forgive you but im willing to go on those three dates with you.” you said with a smile on your face.

“huh? actually?” you nodded. he was flustered now as he wasn’t expecting for you to accept it. he wrote it after realizing what he did was wrong. he didn’t process half of what he wrote.

he didn’t expect the letter to actually work. and now that you agreed to go on three dates with him. he was the happiest man on earth, this was the best day ever.

“uh tonight do you want to have a movie night like we used to have. since we haven’t had one in forever.” he stuttered out. gosh, why did he have to stutter so many times like a little boy who just confessed to his crush. well technically he just did.

“i love to, this time we should watch the amazing spiderman.” you excitedly said. he honestly didn’t care which movies you pick. he would watch anything you suggested if it meant he could be with you.

date #1: movie night

he didn’t know why but he was nervous. maybe since it was an actual date and not just a friends

thing. beforehand he got a bunch of your favorite snacks. he kinda spent a lot on you but it was you so he didn’t care. he would spoil you as much as you want.

he was brought out of his thoughts when he heard a knock at the door. he opened the door and their you were. he knew you were gorgeous but you were surprisedly more gorgeous even in just your pjs.

through out the movie he kept getting distracted from how close you were to him. you were cuddling each other basically. you two were spread out on the couch with your head in his chest while his arms were around your waist.

“your okay with this right?” you asked referring to the position you two were in. he quickly nodded. he was so gonna tell all his friends about this in the morning.

“yu, can you pass me the sour patch please.”

“huh? yeah of course, here.” he said as he passed it to you.

“do you want one?” you asked him while opening it.” he shook his head. “too bad just take it.” you said as you fed it to him.

he felt his cheeks heat up when you did that. “aw your blushing, how cute.” you noticed as you poked his cheek.”

“shut up..” he mumbled. he definitely wasn’t going to mention the last part to them though.

he was reaching to grab some popcorn from the bucket until he realized that you had fallen asleep. he gently grabbed the bucket from your hand and moved your head to make you more comfortable. he adjusted the blanket to cover you both before watching the movie for a little bit. before also falling asleep alongside you.

the very next day, he started bragged to his friends about what happened.

“oh heck no. yuta getting a girlfriend before me is crazy. go back to when you were busy ogling over herself from afar.” yuji said.

“yuta! my man how could you do this to me. i thought we were together. how dare you replace me with her.” toge exclaimed as he pretended to act hurt.

“shut up man, you were always the side piece.” yuta said before hitting his shoulder. toge let out the most dramatic gasp as he looked at yuta.

“i hope you end up embarrassing yourself the next time you hang with her.”

it was the very next day and he was suppose to be helping you study for your upcoming chemistry exam but you two couldn’t focus for long enough. so it just turned into a hangout.

“i quit, im failing the test and that’s final.” you complained.

“you’ll do just fine. we can continue this later, let’s take a break for now. we can watch another movie or something” yuta suggested.

“yes!! we should watch ten things i hate about you this time.” you added. he nodded as he turned to put on the movie.

while you were distracted watching the movie, he was thinking of how he can prove himself worthy for the next date. he asked his friends for help but they gave him trash ideas.

until a idea came to him, the amusement park. he remembered when y’all were younger, you absolutely loved theme parks. and would beg your parents to take you and yuta there all the time.

“ petal?” he called out. that was the nickname that he gave to you when you were little since you always reminded him of flowers.

“yeah?”

“i was wondering on saturday, if you would like to go to the theme park with me as a date.” he mumbled the last part. he didn’t know why but it was always embarrassing asking you out on a date.

“yes!! i would love that, yu!” you exclaimed as you there your arms around him. you were so close to him that he thought you were going to kiss him for a second. you were going to be the death of him one day.

date #2: the amusement park

he was outside of your door holding a bouquet with your favorite flowers. he was nervous to knock but he overcame his nervousness.

you opened the door. and yuta was almost blown away from how gorgeous you looked. he never saw you wear this outfit, so he assumed that it was new. and this was hundred percent his new favorite look of yours.

“here this is for you.” he said shyly as he revealed the bouquet from behind his back.

“aww, you remembered my favorite flowers. thank you, yuu. can you wait here while i find something to put this in.” he nodded as you left to quickly find a vase.

“okay done!! should we go now?” he nodded as he led you out. he was feeling bolder so he decided to intertwine your hands together. but it backfired on him, as he was the one flustered instead of you.

it wasn’t that long of a drive until you got there. “yu, we should go there first.” you said as you pointed at the roller coaster with the steepest drop.

he looked at you with a terrified expression. “uh petal, you know that im terrified of heights right?”

“cmon it’ll be fun i swear, if your scared just hold onto me.” you said trying to convince him.

“uhh we just got here shouldn’t we go on something easy before.” he tried to make as many excuses as he could to try and change your mind about going on that thing.

though you weren’t backing down. you were tired of his weak excuses. so you just intertwined your hand with his as you dragged him there.

he was flustered with you holding his hand that he didn’t realized where you were taking him until it was too late.

“if i die, it’s your fault by the way.” he said before going on.

“i hate you. i regret taking you here.” he huffed as he was out of breath from screaming so much.

“you scream like a little girl you know?” you said to teases him.

“shut up.” he mumbled as he dragged you to a different ride. “we’re going on this one next.” he pointed to a less scary ride.

after an hour and a half of you two dragging each other around the park. and yuta almost pooping his pants multiple times. you were getting tired and hungry.

“yuu, you should totally buy me a pretzel you know.” you suggested.

“yeah! okay let’s go cmon, let’s get you something to eat.”

“hey i was only kidding, i can pa-“ “no let me pay. don’t worry about it, it’s on me this time.” he cut you off as you even dared mentioning you paying.

you tried once again to pay for it and yuta didn’t let you as he was quick to swipe his card.

“you should of let me pay for it, your always buying me stuff.”

“ well if i can spend time with you, i’ll spoil you endlessly.”

“hey! i just realized you didn’t even get yourself one. at least take a bite of mine.” you scolded him as you leaned the pretzel for him to take a bite.

you saw that he tried to deny it but you wouldn’t take that. as you grabbed his chin and forced him to bite.

you let out a giggle as you saw how there was sauce all around his mouth as you took a bite of your pretzel.

“what’s so funny?” he asked. you pointed to the corner of his mouth and he tried wiping it but he missed. you decided to just take the napkin from him and wiped it yourself.

“you have something on your mouth, wait stop moving.” he asked as he leaned in to wipe off the sauce that was in the corner of your mouth. and instead of wiping it off, he licked it instead.

“ew! you did that on purpose idiot!” you pouted as you hit him on the shoulder.

“you have no proof of that. anyways let’s continue on walking around.” he said as he led you along with your hand intertwined.

as you were passing by stalls, there was this one plushie that called out to you. “yuu, do you see how cute that stuff animal is over there!” you pointed to a big white fox plushie.

“i’ll get it for you on the first try watch.” he bragged as he dragged you over to the stand. you were honestly not certain if he would be able to win it in one try but it didn’t matter to you. as long as he won you that plushie.

surprisingly he did win it on the first attempt. “omg thank you yu, i love this some much!” yoy said excitedly as you ran up to hug him. his cheeks got pink when you did that.

as the day continued, you went on a ton of rides. some that almost made yuta shart himself. and he also won you two other stuffed animals. it was nearing the end of the day as it was around 11:30. but you mentioned to him that you wanted to go on the ferris wheel at least once.

which is what you were currently on. honestly he didn’t want to go on it but since you insisted. he could never say no to you.

he absolutely hated that it not only rose every second but that it also rocks. he was clinging on your hand for basically the whole time.

“look you can see the stars tonight. aren’t they beautiful .” you pointed out.

“yeah but it’s not as beautiful as you.” he said focused on you. your face got warm after he complimented you.

he leaned in a little too closely. you could’ve swear he looked down at your lips before returning back up to your eyes.

he instead tucked a piece of your hair behind your ear. before you could even say anything, he went back to looking at the sky. now it was your turn to be the one staring.

you two were going to be the end of each other if you keep tip toeing around each other. but he was the one who made the proposal of going on three dates to prove himself. and you were the one that agreed to it.

so you could say you both were in the blame.

date #3: baking (gone wrong)

this was the final date to prove himself. yuta was scared even after all of this, you won’t reciprocate his feelings back. this was all his fault. if only he just followed through with his friend’s advice then he would’ve of been with you already.

he was thinking of different date ideas. but nothing stood out to him. everything was either too cheesy or similar. he was stumped until you had texted him.

you

yuuu!! i’m bored you should totally come over

yuta

and what would we do if i come over

he knew that no matter what you said, he would agree to come over. even if he hated it.

you

i haven’t thought that far ahead lwk lemme think

yuta

please don’t be a movie night or study date. i’m getting bored of watching spider man over and over. and when we study we get nothing done

you

WAIT i have this really good idea. we should bake, i have a bunch of baking ingredients

yuta

but i suck at baking tho and yk this

you

it’s fine i’ll do most of the work and you can just stand there and look pretty or smth

yuta

alr then im omw

he tried being nonchalant on text but in reality he was giggling like a teenage school girl after you said that he looked pretty. you technically didn’t call him pretty but it was implied which basically meant that you complimented him.

when he entered your dorm, he saw how you already had everything spread out on your counter.

“so what are we making?” he asked as he entered the kitchen.

“cupcakes!!” you exclaimed. he couldn’t lie on how cute you were when you were excited about something.

“i already preheated the oven so we don’t have to worry about that. hmm how about while i work on the batter, you can work on the frosting. easy enough?” you asked as you clapped your hands together.

“ i think i can do it. sounds easy enough.”

you thought that he wouldn’t be able to mess anything up. since every time you baked with him, something always went wrong. but hopefully if he only works on the frosting. nothing will go wrong right?

wrong! while you were dumping the flour into the mixing bowl, yuta had accidentally bumped into you when he was grabbing the butter. making the flour fly onto you.

“YUTA!” you exclaimed as you looked to him with a bunch of flour on you.

he tried to swallow down his laugh but a little giggle came out until he was on full on laughing.

“i’m sorry but you should really see what you look like right now.” he laughed out.

you had this really great idea to get him back

for covering you in flour and laughing at you. you grabbed the flour bag before dumped the rest on him.

he immediately stopped laughing when you did that. “hey! why would you do that! you know what, take this.” he asked before cracking a egg on your head.

you let out a gasp before doing the same to him. it basically turned into a food fight between the both of you.

as the laughter between you slowly silence. you both realized the mess you had caused. it was silent until you broke it.

“this is your fault you know.”

“what!? how i accidentally bumped into you and suddenly it’s my fault now?”

“you kept laughing at me and teasing me and everything. so i had to get you back!” you huffed out. “whatever just help me clean up.”

“alright alright angry issues i will!” he chuckled.

“stop teasing me and help me with cleaning. your annoying you know.

after a long excruciating pain of cleaning, you were finally done. “ ugh we’re finally done, i’m so tired.” you complained as you face planted into your couch. “and i couldn’t even get my cupcakes. i hate you.” you pouted.

“i don’t worry I’ll get you cookies tomorrow to make up for this mess.” he offered.

“really?” you asked surprised. “ you don’t have to do that you know i was only kidding.”

“it’s fine really and sense i’m feeling nice, i’ll watch spider-man with you.”

“really? lets gooo!! andrew garfield here i come.” you exclaimed as you grabbed him to your bed.

he was going to be in for a long night.

the outcome:

it was the very next day and he was scared. this was the very day that he was going to confess if he could be your boyfriend. he had been planning this with his friends for the past week and a half. they said that it was a one percent chance of you rejecting him. and if you did, that would be messed up for you to lead him on.

he was now getting a pep talk from his friend. “you got this man, if she rejects you. you always got me. i would never reject you.” toge said.

“i don’t think that’s giving me motivation but okay?”

“ think about sunshine’s, rainbows and unicorn. if she rejects you then she’s missing out.” yuji added. “megumi hey why are you being so quiet. give him some advice.”

“uh good luck i don’t know?” megumi murmured.

“dude! what is that advice.” yuji exclaimed.

“i don’t know okay! i’m not good with advice, sorry geez.”

“guys i see maki and her coming. shoot! in position go!” toge said a little too thrilled as he pushed the poster into his hand.

“okay stop here.” maki said to you as she stopped you in front of him.

“okay can i open my eyes now or what?” you asked.

“open them.” maki called out before moving back to where the other guys were.

when you open your eyes, you don’t expect to see yuta infront of you. and definitely not with a poster.

‘your the only girl that i have ever wanted. so, may i be your boyfriend.’

“oh my gosh!” you gasped as you covered your mouth with your hand.

“so may i be your boyfriend.” he asked shyly as he pulled out a bouquet of your favorite flowers from behind his back.

“yes! oh my gosh, yes!!” you exclaimed as you ran to hug him.

you both forgot that your friends were there watching too until they started clapping.

“omg, i’m so proud of you yuta. it’s like watching my boy grow up.” toge said proudly.

“shut up toge. cmon let’s leave them alone.” maki said before slapping toge’s head and dragged the three of them out the door.

“omg i love this so much, yu.” you explained with tiny teardrops falling from your eyes.

“hey don’t cry. if you start crying then i’ll start crying too.” he wiped your tears away. “does this mean i can kiss you now?” he murmured a little embarrassed.

you nodded. he slowly started leaning in and you did too. before closing the gap between you two. all the tension inside of you melted when your lips connected. you slowly pulled away from each other.

“i love you, yu.”

never leave you, my ass.

he saw you there on the ground, blood gushing out of your wound.

“no..” he dropped to his knees, the sight of you injured and bloody made him feel weak. “he desperately tried to stop the blood flowing out of your wound.

“yu.. yuji” you called out weakly.

“no don’t you dare say my name like that. everything going to be okay, we can get you to shoko and you’ll be okay. but please don’t make it sound like your going to die. i’m not letting you die on my watch.”

“i-i’m so sorry. i broke our promise. yuji.. its always been you, i love you more then anything. my final wish is for you to live happily in life, i’ll always be there with you. you said weakly as you leaned into his chest.

he didn’t care about the amount of blood that was currently on him. all he cared about was you.

“baby please no, i need you. you can’t die, please baby. i don’t know what to do without you in my life.” he stuttered as tears started rolling down his cheeks.

“ no baby please don’t shut your eyes, i can get you to shoko, cmon.” he tried to pick you up before you stopped him weakly.

“i’m sorry, yuji. i..love..you.” he felt you fall limb on his chest.

“no… no. baby wake up please, don’t do this to me, baby please.” he shook your lifeless body desperately, as if you would magically wake up. but you were already gone and he was too far overdriven by grief and couldn’t accept it

even 67 years later. he still never once got over your death. it was like a piece of him of was gone and went with you. and even after learning that he was practically immortal.

he started drifting away from everyone. everyone he knew was either dead or he hadn’t seen for the past decade. and worse of all. you were gone too. it was supposed to be you and him until the end.

here he was now, staring at your grave like a fool who couldn’t get over you. you were gone but he still didn’t accept the fact that you were no longer with him. it wasn’t supposed to end like this.

he remembered how it all started by him accidentally swallowing sukuna finger’s. if only he knew the outcome of his action.

he would do it all over again, so he could salvage those precious moments again. even if it ended the same way every time. at least he was able to be with you.

he wished that he still was a teenager, going on missions with you and the rest of his friends.