Pile of Snails

Hi tumblr. this is probably my billionth account but im keeping this one secret and anonymous because i can omg

been watching dorohedoro with my boyfriend recently. and oh my god ebisu is so me. i love her. she is so precious and adorable and annoying (in a good way.) i am very worried she is going to die lmao.

NO BECAUSE I NEVER TREATED YOU LIKE THAT. you made fun of my cane and my legs and made fun of me worrying when you go off to do some dumb shit and you say all my friends are groomers and annoying and bad because what?? theyre trans women?? fuck off fuck you. and you go to the ONE FUCKING PERSON who it decent. more than decent he has a heart of gold and loves everyone so much and you tell him horrible things and make him feel crazy and awful and bad for what fucking point? because you cant stand to see someone who doesnt want me to dissappear from this city like i never lived in it? sorry im not scared of your misogynistic, abelist, out of touch reality. sorry i have people who like having me around. but if you ever think *i* was the one calling him attention seeking i think you need to remember what actually happened.

i love ttrpgs and i love call of cthulhu so much. i want to make a campaign based off the world of horror game, i actually had one in the works for a while. i really truly wish i had people to play it with though, trying to run a campaign for just my bf would probably not be very fun hah.

i feel like such a bad kid sometimes. I know im not even a kid, but it feels like my mom is always so angry. especially when she thinks im asleep or cant hear her. i want her to be a kinder person, to be softer, to not yell when she's minorly inconvenienced. i try to share my worldview with her, my optimism, as blind as it may be at times. and i feel like she thinks im so stupid.