Meandering And Wallowing

Made a plinth for friend as her dads birthday was due

His first car and a nice piece for his garage

Just starting my long covid recovery, official diagnoses just last week

Two inhalers ,new meds to deal with nerve pain and brain fog , and a whole host of scary yet sensible advice

As someone with chronic fatigue the crippling tiredness has been the biggest shocker for me worse than any flare I’ve ever experienced and constant. I have days when walking seems an impossible task ,

The constant feeling of exhaustion legs jellied heart pounding head fogged breathlessness, it’s terrifying.other than my cf I was in relatively good shape and could still work but this long covid has changed everything

My doctor has explained that there is massive evidence that covid may effect the bloods clotting function so I have to be wary of certain things and follow advice as best I can

Stay active (difficult when feeling so weak and fatigued) walk as often and stay mobile look out for pain in my calf muscles pains in my chest and arms (I’ve already been to A@E once with chest pains and breathlessness)

Be mindful of breathing massive part of recovery as it’s easy to get into a bad habit of shallow breathing , I’m new to the inhaler thing but they do make a difference

Be kind to yourself is possibly the best advice I can give, mentally recovery from any illness can be exhausting and frustrating

Don’t let your recovery make you feel worthless you are not your health,you are not just a cough or a headache,you are not breathlessness and fatigue. You are still the wonderful amazing person you have always been, recovery will happen slow down, be patient notice the light in life ,the rainbows in the rain, the crackle of leaves on the ground, the wag of dogs tail, the smile from a stranger, the colour of the sky, the wind in your hair .

Take time to do things you enjoy and make yourself comfortable it’s a long road

Drink plenty water eat foods you enjoy accept that covid has messed up your sense of taste/smell but it will return

Fingers crossed normality will return or what ever passes as normality these days

Latest project that keeps my mind occupied cb sky strat copy guitar

Hollowed and chisled new front plate hand carved to shape piezo and pre amp fitted and full Celtic finish

Today i scavaged and found the twigs and branches to make this fairy door

Location Dee marsh

Big sky’s and full tides

I have discovered ,with many thanks to the specialist at the hospital that in fact hard work does not pay off ! I have been grafting working hard all my life from an early age turning muck muscle and and a good work ethic into hard cash

But it seems that doing this has caused unrepairable damage to my spine and bones I’m a big guy always have been and all the extra wear and tear has left me with a bleak outlook I lose weight and muscle mass now or I end up in a wheel chair within two years

The pressure on my spine and neck in conjunction with the high amount of wear and tear has caused bony growths and arthritis nodules to grow on the inside of my neck and spinal column, the pressure these nodules cause if I look up or over my shoulder I get horrendous bouts of dizziness and loss of balance other than that severe sciatic pain and crippling agonising lower back spasms just where my discs are fused together and worn out I’m ok I think I’m in good enough shape I can still graft put in a full day on the shovel or splitting logs or dragging trees off a mountain I walk and cycle and try to make sure that even though I’m big/fat I’m still fit