About N #40 / #1
Ok. I know that this is going to sound like a complete fake and very unbelievable, but well I don’t really care to be honest. 🤷♀️
I’m going to shut down this blog for various reasons. The most obvious one is that I don’t have the time or the motivation to keep blogging here (not just with this account but also my fandom one) because my real-life is much more interesting and time-consuming than some social network at this point (I’m finished with school since March and currently spending time abroad before I’ll get back home to study). I mean I haven’t been posting since June and I didn’t miss anything. (Don’t get me wrong there were times where I did enjoy tumblr a lot and I still know why I did, but I’m just not interested anymore.)
The second reason is that I’d be really uncomfortable with posting here at this point because the most unexpected thing happened and I’m going to be in a relationship with him.
Yeah I know that this sounds surreal and fake and I can’t (and furthermore won’t) prove it, so it’s entirely up to you to believe it or not. We got even closer in the time he finally wasn’t my teacher any longer, we talked about our feelings and after a lot of thought and consideration (for several months) and a kiss before I did leave the country (yes I actually did kiss my TC), we decided to give this relationship a try when I’m back home. I love this man to pieces and I couldn’t be any happier even though I know it won’t be easy. My family knows about my feelings and our plans and I told my friends about us in June when we graduated.
I will not delete this blog, but I will delete the personal posts about him/us (and I know that our story must seem even more unrealistic now, reading this without being able to read about the history of us and the relationship we used to have when I was in school), but I hope you’ll understand. (This also means you can send me messages, but I’ll most likely not even see them, let alone answer them, not because I wanna be rude or anything, but just because I most likely won’t be online. 😊)
This blog and some of the amazing people in this community really helped me in all the time I had to keep quiet about my feelings and I’m very grateful for some of the contacts I’ve made through this. So I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart for their support! ❤️
There are some really reasonable and important critical voices in this community and I hope they’ll keep up their good and crucial work to protect minors from being taken advantage of, because not everyone is as responsible and as good a human-being as they should be in a power-position like the one of a teacher and I only hope that everyone will stay safe and get over their crushes in one way or another.
