Dear Michael, I am parasocial asf for you, hope you forgive me for this. You said you are married to your fans, so where is my ring? 😆 just kidding, I am so silly.
I am so sad and angry when I think of all the terrible things all those evil people (many, too many) did to you , todays marks Off the wall’s 47 anniversary and you were supposed to be with us to celebrate. I know you are still here in spirit but I miss you so much, it’s like I feel robbed because I didn’t have the opportunity to experience you live, to see you perform live, to hug you, sending you letters like so many fans did. You were always so kind to your fans. I don’t want to talk about you using the past. You are always so kind to your fans. You deserved better from the world and life, you deserved to see your children grown , but I am sure you want your fans to live happily and not remembering always such sad things. I try to protect your reputation anyway , we all fans do it, because there are always bad people out there. I am sure you can still see and feel how much you are loved though ❤️
Sorry if sometimes I read gossip about you, I try to know you better , but I know you hate tabloid junkie and valued your privacy so much and we all should respect it. Unfortunately I can reach you only in my imagination now (and through your art, what an incredible gift you gave to the world!) . You said in your wonderful poem Wings without me we should not live only in imagination, and I try to focus on this because I am an hopeless daydreamer …But trust me, I may sound crazy but it hurts so much not being able to see you live, to reach you like fans in the past did, it hurts really so much. Always wondering wether you would like an artist or not, what would you do now in music, cinema and art, if you would be on social media and interact with us here…How I wish you were here. So I can only know you through your art, and hoping to dream of you and meet you in the afterlife some day. And I can only try to live upon your example and try to make the world a better place, but it is so difficult, you know? I was so cynical and you awakened in me the desire to do something for people out there again, you awakened some hope. But I miss you so much and sometimes I think there are many fans more entlitled than me to miss you because they actually met you but you touched me with your art and your soul which are eternal, so I can’t help but missing you, what can I do?
Yesterday something a bit strange happened , I had finished reading Jermaine’s book and I was so sad and angry because I was thinking again about all the terrible things you suffered bc of evil people and how they took an Unique Artist, a father, a son, a brother, from the world. Then the song Best of joy came on shuffle and you said “I am forever” and was like you wanted to remind me you are still here and I should not be so sad.
That day when I read Wings without me too (plus it’s August now), like you said you don’t want me to live only in imagination but to truly live life, my life. I would loved you to be a part of my life as a person too, but I have to accept the fact I can’t change the past and you are in my destiny in another form, I dunno why, but whatever.
I read many fans going through these things and I do not think they are coincidences, some may think I am crazy but I think it is your love for us.
I sometimes think you are waiting for me in Heaven, because it seems impossibile to me to find a person to love when the standard is so high and it’s you. Pardon my parasocial mind.
Love you eternally , forever
P.S.= would have loved soooo much having looooong conversation on the phone with you ❤️
