thought vs. action

Hopelessness that nobody can help with. They see that they can't help but don't accept that nobody can. Try something else, try someone else. Then they can't help and send me off again.. nothing anyone can do. But why won't nobody help to end it?

I hate myself. I wanna die. Please make this pathetic failure stop.

I am wasted space

Yeah I have friends.. but I only get the vibes that I am just accepted, never appreciated, not actually wanted.

I'm a lonely bastard with a huge lack of being loved. Trying to love myself but honestly who am I kidding!? I am just a huge pile of bullshit who won't be loved by anyone ever.

Every bit of existence is hurting. Trying to explain it accomplishes nothing. Just sitting here, exposed to everything. Spinning thoughts. Nothing can change anything. Hoping for everything to end soon.

Kill my stupid fucking brain in my stupid fucking body! Hit it! Kick it! Stab it! Mistreat me in every way possible, and end my life.. PLEASE!

Just a complete failure as a human being. Just pathetic and miserable! There is no place for such incompetent existence. No words can describe just how utterly wrong, useless and senseless my life is!

My thoughts are killing me.. just end it already!