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“ don’t freak out , ok ?” ao3 • x f!reader | drabble | mature | angst | wc : 319

cabin pressure ao3 • x f!reader | multi-chapter | explicit | fluff , humour , smut | wc : 7.2k summary: “ it’s a surprise ,” you pull an innocent smile , batting your eyelashes . “ you’ll see tomorrow .” “ why tomor— ” poe flashes that boyish grin . “ what did you do ?”

morning view ao3 • x f!reader | short | explicit | smut | wc : 1.6k summary: it was your fault , really — for lingering just a bit longer than you usually would that morning .

to have and to hold ao3 • x gn!reader | short | mature | angst | wc : 1.4k summary: his hand , keeping you whole in his protective hold on you .

stars by the pocketful ao3 • x f!oc | short | teen & up | fluff | wc : 9.4k summary: life day has always been a bittersweet affair for poe dameron , this delicate balance between the sweet and the bitter . this is the bitter part for him on life day on d’qar that year ; but the sweet part though — her .

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confection | confession | concession ao3 • jake x f!reader | multi-short | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 7.0k summary: you have all but forgotten about the note . you watch his eyes scan the words , his voice in your head enunciates each syllable : suck them like it’s my cunt .

“ are you there , moriarty ?” ao3 • steven x gn!reader | drabble | explicit | smut | wc : 295

“ steven , please stop ” ao3 • steven x gn!reader | drabble | teen & up | angst | wc : 200

best laid plans ao3 • marc x gn!reader | short | mature | fluff , humour | wc : 1.7k summary: there isn’t a proper plan in place just yet on how marc would like to broach the subject about steven and jake to you .

the hanky panky trilogy ao3 • moon knight system x f!reader | multi-short | explicit | smut | wc : 3.1k summary: the moon boys like you in all your different ways — all cute .

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assessment [ 3 ] [ 4 ] ao3 • michael perry x f!reader | multi-chapter | teen & up | fluff | wc : 7.7k summary: you realise that the only valid reason he’d been hanging about this deliberately — it can only mean one thing : they were all assessments to see how you fared at adams elementary . a/n: and how i became obsessed with that silver streak on his head .

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grounded ao3 • multi-chapter | teen & up | angst , fluff | wc : 5.7k summary: bee-bee was the only reason that kept poe and rey together . now that he’s gone —

lost // found series 1 / bright stars ao3 • modern au | multi-chapter | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 17.1k summary: “ it’s something i’ve believed in for a while now , even before we — you know , got together ,” he said . “ that i’ll be — we’ll only be the best versions of ourselves when we’re together ; and — any other times we’re not , we’ll just be lesser versions of ourselves .”

2 / reckless ao3 • modern au | multi-chapter | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 27.7k summary: poe — mr dameron , he has an ability to kindle the softest light in her with that laugh of his , brighten the darkest enclaves in the depths of her soul , and bring a kind of warmth and comfort that she’d never known into the coldest and harshest parts of her body .

3 / sound of silence ( • • • ━ ━ ━ • • • ) ao3 • wwii au | multi-chapter | mature | angst | wc : 11.3k summary: muted conversations that resonated through the acres of green pastures in the countryside ; a kind of silence that spoke volumes in the middle of the night , as the lights went on and off to a private rhythm only the both of them knew about .

4 / staying human ao3 • post-apocalypse au | multi-chapter | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 13.6k summary: she can’t remember when was the last time someone touched her — either voluntarily as a sign of affection , or just methodically doing what poe is doing now . the frenzy ended so long ago , and nobody is around anymore , nobody alive .

5 / rhyme and reason ao3 • multi-chapter | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 25.5k summary: the “big reveal” story that the preceding stories in the series are actually just dreams poe had — surprise! (?) each story is fragmented as dreams are , bits and pieces weaved into different settings/stories with a similarity in context you can’t quite put your finger on .

6 / burn , burn , burn ao3 • au | explicit | angst , smut | wc : 12.6k summary: these are chapters in correlation to each story from this collection , told from poe’s perspective before we get into the different storylines in earnest .

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i totally forgot how self-serving brooke was in season 3 . and it just got harder and harder to watch as the season went on until i was literally talking to the tv screen whenever she took a swipe at my girl peyton .

but to be fair , i don’t think they wrote brooke’s character well at all for this series , because she’s constantly flip-flopping and there’s no consistency in her character building .

like . just in season 3 alone — one moment she’s getting emotional because she doesn’t know a classmate has been telling her mum they’re friend , and then she’s telling off a newscaster for asking her what felt about the school shooting . then in the next episode , she’s fat-shaming rachel and not even remorseful about it when mouth called her out .

one moment she’s hitting the core matters of character building , but then the next she’s doing something that totally tear down the whole buildup that it just seems like she didn’t grow at all .

i remember i used to struggle to like brooke throughout the series and i think i’m going through the same thing again rewatching this so many years later .

but i’ll put a pin on this because if i remember correctly the writers did focus on her character building proper in the later seasons when lucas and peyton were out of the picture

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but man . season 3 . like i get you don’t want to get hurt again , and i know what you’re doing is just to have the best of both worlds — physical affection while keeping your heart closed off . but you don’t get to lash out at people when your plan — and a rather ridiculous one at that might i add — falls flat on your face and you end up hurting yourself .

and the way everyone else has to give way to her as if no one else had their hearts broken too ? haley is trying to salvage her marriage with nathan and brooke is just rachel is trying to steal my squad you have to become a cheerleader again you have to do this for me peyton got shot and she’s feeling left out because lucas her boyfriend ( and peyton’s friend ) spent platonic time with her ? lucas’ uncle died and yeah great that you threw everyone a party as a way to cope with grief but when lucas said it’s not exactly working for him , that’s not how he mourns his loss , and she actually gets butthurt about it ? oh yeah sure she’s honoured haley asked her to design her wedding dress but when she ignored the brief altogether and came up with an over the top wedding dress and surprise surprise — haley doesn’t like the dress , and brooke gets mad with her ? yeah i know she apologises every-single-time afterwards for acting out but girl the fact that you have to apologise every-single-time

i know it’s for the plot but i’m amazed how everyone else puts up with her bs . haley for taking up a small square footage of their shared bedroom while she has to worry about her marriage . lucas crawling through glass just to appease her and win her back , broke his own heart in the process and still chose her regardless . and peyton — peyton ; the things her best friend has done for her just to have brooke lashing out at her like that ? and i feel so bad when they were the one who felt guilty that they made her mad or sad — like guys , none of these are your fault !

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and finally . yes brooke , when we have feelings for someone we’re not supposed to and you tell us to stop — it stops . i wish it were that easy too girl , what a wonderful world it’d be .

your best friend did you a solid and told you upfront she might have feelings for your boyfriend . she’s probably confused and scared and guilty for even having these feelings in the first place , probably hoping you’d understand and talk things over with her although i feel she’s just telling brooke because she’s scared of her what did she do ? call peyton a two-faced backstabbing bitch for having feelings , for being human . for not doing anything at all to cockblock her from lucas .

and it’s rich of her to say she gave peyton a second chance ? heck you’re not even at a place to lord over your best friend like that and hand out so-called forgiveness just to wait for them to eff up again so that you can throw it back in their face .

and the audacity to announce the friendship is over ? girl i’m surprised peyton didn’t call off the friendship first . so yeah . good fcking riddance . because brooke has been a terrible friend to peyton , save my girl the heartache really .

and kudos to rachel when she called brooke out . i mean . that one is a hecking trainwreck but when she confronted brooke for claiming peyton to be such a terrible friend for keeping her feelings buried and wouldn’t make a move if brooke tells her not to — but of course it all went over brooke’s head

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the scarce few times peyton actually swipes back , i love it . because that is the OG peyton . don’t mess around with me peyton . i’ll eat you alive peyton . the fact that she would go gentle and be a pushover for brooke is saying a lot of how much she values her friend . and what does she get in return — all this bs .

which got me thinking that she is suspiciously a cancer . the way she’d not tell lucas how she feels because he still wants brooke back . the way she’d still respect how brooke feels even though she blew her off .

the way she’d hold it all in and only speak up when it’s totally necessary . the way she’d put everyone else’s wellbeing over hers . the way she’d put herself in the line of fire for anyone coming at the people she cares about — even when she thinks the threat is herself . the way she’d take the blame and the brunt of things even when none of it is her fault .

and of course the way she’d run to someone with all the red flags ie derek lol sighs .

i just — i guess that’s why i’ve always loved her and have always been rooting for her . 🥹

anyway . rant over . breathes . i’m gonna go blow some bubbles now