lovely darling

recently i’ve been in the mood to change my life. I won’t be doing anything to achieve that goal but i’ll be thinking about it extensively which is the same thing

sometimes it’s better refrain from deep introspection and allow yourself to just be.

and by that I mean: I don’t have to sit with myself and overthink and analyze and rationalize every ounce of my being. I am not a case study I am a person. faults and all. like any other person. sometimes I have to look at my mistakes and avoid self flagellation. sigh and learn what I can and move on. remembering that I’m living, and this is part of the process. free myself of that inner critic. allow myself to be, and try again.

my body is NOT. a “”temple””….it is a CLOWN CAR, and NONE OF THESE BITCHES KNOW HOW 2 DRIVE

i hate that i’m so absent as a person. i don’t start conversations. i can barely maintain them. i’m so weary and spaced out all the time to the point where i can’t even keep up small talk and i’m just so disappointed in myself

casual intimacy kills me every time. grand gestures are cute and all but seeing two people who are just totally comfortable with having each other in their space, who dont think twice about leaning into each other and thoughtlessly holding each other while doing unrelated things….. thats love

someone’s really destined to marry me…how sexy and fun for them

you know when you kinda want to read and kinda want to write and kinda want to draw and kinda want to sing but it's late and you're tired and it's more like a desperate desire to really deeply dream