Five weeks of 3 meals and 3 snacks a day completed. I possibly cheated a bit on Saturday by counting Haribo as a snack - I had planned not to count pure sugar stuff since I seem to be able to eat a lot of that and not gain weight. But I was hungover sooooo letās assume itās fine.
But. I have lost the weight I gained last week. Itās not much like, but Iām pretty frustrated by it. I feel like Iām eating enough. The only exercise Iām doing is yoga. I donāt know how to fix it without counting calories, which of course I really donāt want to have to do because this is likely to encourage ana thoughts.
I survived my meeting with my supervisor today - it actually wasnāt too bad, and Iām starting to get more motivation to workĀ Ā (after a panic I had about some of my simulations - turns out they were right all along and I was just being daft - life lesson donāt be embarrassed to ask for help).Ā
Tomorrow morning I have my follow up appointment with my GP to get my blood test results. Iām kind of nervous, kind of excited to get the treatment ball rolling.
So overall, Iām doing ok. Obviously still having a lot of ana thoughts, but Iām identifying them and dealing with them. When I do have emotional meltdowns theyāre not lasting as long as they usually would.Ā Feeling slightly more in control of my life, and itās nice to know that itās actually my control and not anaās.Ā
blakekathryn
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