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Complete dissociation

Not knowing who you are/not recognizing yourself

Having no control over the things your saying, which can include things like threatening to bodily harm/kill people/animals and other really terrifying things

The speed at which you can go from extreme anger and rage to being better about a situation is almost unnatural and really eerie to reflect on sometimes

Having to “childproof” you environment by locking up things like prescription pills, alcohol, sharp objects, lighters, etc.

Intrusive thoughts/voices in your head/saying or thinking things that feel like they come from someone else

Worrying that you’re going to hurt somebody (and I don’t mean emotionally I mean like worrying you’re going to black out in rage and stab someone to death)

Other people worrying you’re going to hurt/kill them and them taking visible precautions against it which make you feel worse

All or nothing emotions. Everything is too much or it’s nothing. The feeling like you have so many emotions your body can’t physically contain them or just feeling empty

The depression cycles where you can’t sleep or can’t eat or can’t get up to use the bathroom for hours on end

The extreme lengths people take to try and control you when you’re having an episode (especially if you’re a minor living with a parent) like locking you up or physically restraining you etc.