mark me yours - l.hs
â a spin-off from love me (k)not
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synopsis. heeseung loves omegas, but he doesnât believe in matesâespecially fated ones. that kind of destiny is reserved for people like riki and jay. but then he meets you. and the first thing you ask him to do is scent-mark you: an intimate activity shared only between mates. a spin-off from love me (k)not!
pairing. alpha!heeseung x omega!female reader
genre(s). omegaverse, fated mates, strangers-to-lovers, fluff, angst
warnings. slightly suggestive, fated mates-coded, power imbalance, unjust system and society, harassment against omegas (not by heeseung), &team cameo but they're assholes here sorry! i love them though dw, mating mark, scent-marking, heeseung is a dominant alpha, and a bigger asshole i fear, reader is a cheerleader, alpha!jay being our target again (sorry), alpha!riki, alpha!sunghoon, beta!ahn yujin, omega!rei, sunoo is bi, heeseung is also bi, this omegaverse is partly made up by me! but itâs just a tiny portion of it just to keep the plot going, denial, rejection, angst, not beta read we die like injang, please let me know if i missed anything!
word count. 21,280 words
note. please read this before proceeding đ¤ everything here is purely fictional and it has nothing to do with the members as a person outside of this fanfiction đ¤ also idk how cheerleading works so pls bear with me...
In a private booth of a nightclub, a group of long-legged, broad-shouldered alphas huddle around the table, drinks in hands. The air is layered with pheromones and adrenaline, occasionally flashing with neon lights and blurred with thin smoke.Â
In the middle of the couch, Heeseung sits leisurely, manspreading with ease. On either side of him, Jay and Riki lean back in a similar posture, each of them engaged in the conversation bouncing between the team.
The team has just won a friendly match against their long-sworn rival, a university from the east, after a frustrating streak of loss for two consecutive tournaments. It wasnât really a landslide win, considering their competitive skills, but a win is a win. A satisfied smirk curls around Heeseungâs bow-shaped lips, his alpha purring with pride.
Friendly or not, the whiskey surely tastes extra sweet tonight.
âDid you see Kâs face just now?â Riki pipes up from his left, still buzzing with adrenaline. Being the last man to score and secure the win for them, itâs obviously hard for Riki to contain his enthusiasm. Heâs beaming wide. âI did that. I wiped that smirk off his face, gentlemen!â
The rest of the team roars in reply, infected by Rikiâs contagious excitement. Heeseung and Jay wear a fond smile on their lips, clearly delighted to see the younger alphaâs happiness. Glasses clink again as they toast to their win, and to their future wins, and to the sexy, beautiful cheerleading omegas that played a part in keeping their spirits up just nowâto which Jay grimaces and Riki rolls his eyes at. Heeseung snorts.
He forgets that heâs friends with a prude and a loyal, claimed alpha.
âSpeaking of omegas,â Heeseung tilts his head at Riki when the chatters break into small groups of conversations among the team, leaving him to talk to two of his closest friends. âItâs a surprise to see you here, Ki. Like seeing a four-leaf clover.â
Jay joins in, his signature lopsided grin on display. âI half-expected you to run home to your girlfriend. Itâs hard to see you hang out with us at the club now, pup.â
Riki crosses his arms with a dramatic huff. His bottom lip juts out in a pout. In this light, when Riki shows this side of him, free from fake nonchalance and his cool persona, Heeseung sees him ten years younger than his actual age. Riki is so cute.
âI fully expected to run home to her too, hyung. But she forced me to come here. Said something like I should celebrate my win with yâall,â Riki sighs, messing with his newly-dyed hair and tipping his head back. âSo here I am. Drinking with you idiots when I couldâve cuddled with my sweet, sweet omega at home.â
Jay feigns offence while Heeseung laughs. The both of them know too well of Rikiâs devotion to his girlfriend. Maybe itâs the alpha-omega bond, or just the fact that theyâve known each other practically their whole lives, but Riki is never at ease whenever sheâs not around.Â
But tonight, the alpha seems more relaxed than usual. Heâs not playing with his fingers or toying with the hem of his shirt like he always did when his girlfriend is absent. Heeseung wonders why the sudden change until he catches a glimpse of something at the back of Rikiâs neck.
His brows furrow. His movement falters mid-air.
âRiki? Is thatâŚâ Heeseung squints his eyes, trying to see better while the tips of Rikiâs ears slowly redden. From his right, Heeseung can hear a soft gasp from Jay.
âHoly shit. Is that your mating mark, Ki?â
It is. It is a mating mark, Heeseung realises, when a purple neon light flashes on Rikiâs wounded skin. The alpha is rubbing his neck sheepishly now, heat sweeping across his cheeks. Despite his sudden shy demeanour, Heeseung can smell the pride in his sandalwood scent, and in that moment he finally notices the subtle layer of sweet vanillaâRikiâs girlfriendâs scentâin Rikiâs pheromones.
âYeah,â Riki confirms, still red like a tomato. âI mated with her last night.â
âWow,â Jay breathes out in amazement, eyes sparkling in the dim light. âAbout time, man! Youâre finally mated!â
Jayâs exclamation attracts attention and soon, the whole group is congratulating Riki on the milestone. The said alpha is red down to his neck now, clearly not expecting the sudden shift of focus on him but still relishing in the pride of having his mating mark, if the musky lilt to his pheromones is anything to go by.Â
Heeseung remains a quiet observer, watching as Riki pulls down the collar of his shirt to proudly show the mark. Two other alphas join him as they speak fondly of their omegas, relishing in their identical mating mark on their napes. Beside him, Jay listens with an adoring smile. Thereâs a certain longing in his gaze when he stares at the mated alphas that doesnât go unnoticed by Heeseung.Â
Heeseung averts his eyes away, trying to forget that familiar look on Jayâs face. He almost scoffs at the image.
He knows that look like the back of his hand.Â
Jay, too, yearns for a mate. Like Riki. Unlike Heeseung.
Mate. Itâs the word that is so common in omegaverse but so foreign in Heeseungâs little world.
If Jay is a walking green flag that effortlessly attracts omegas with his gentleman charms, Heeseung is a running red flag that chases after willing omegas. If Jay stays away from wild sex life, Heeseung lives by it. If Jay dates to marry, Heeseung fucks to breathe. Heâs everything Jayâs not that Riki was so bewildered when the two first met him.
Donât get him wrongâheâs not the creepy kind of chaser. Rather, he likes to call himself the sexy one. Itâs not hard for him to pull; just a few flirty comments here and a couple of filthy whispers there and the next hour heâll have an omega to bring home and under him.Â
He doesnât know if heâs the only one wired this way, but where territorial instincts stream in his alpha blood, his sexual desires run even harder and faster. Itâs like an itch that just wonât get away if he doesnât scratch at it. Heâs an attractive alpha with a high sex drive, he admits it, but is he really wrong to accept any omegas with his long, eager arms?
He thinks not.
Plus, theyâre omegas. Heeseung tries not to objectify them, but gosh, the scent wafting from them is always so sweet and inviting. Theyâre curved softly, meant to hold and love the right, physical way that heâs known how to. Heâs a weak man, and an even weaker alpha; Heeseung canât resist a good fuck between two consenting adults and he always, always consents to being sucked off dry and scratched to bleed.Â
Fuck, just thinking about it is already making him excited.
Heeseungâs eyes wander, tuning out the conversation about mate as he scans for any attractive omega. Itâs starting to bore himâthe talk about mate and having a mate and being matedâso heâs entertaining himself with the exposed skin and swaying hips of dancing omegas on the dance floor.
For someone like him that gets off on having sex with omegas and being drunk on their sweet pheromones, mating culture is a big no for him. The idea of being tied to only one omega makes him laugh; it sounds ridiculous to him. Heâs an alpha capable of giving and his knot is not limited to only one hole, so why should he settle?
Only hopeless-romantic alphas believe in the belief of fated mates. And unfortunately, two of his friends do. Heeseung mentally rolls his eyes.
He decides that heâs had enough when the mated alphas start talking about having pups; another commitment that makes goosebumps rise in his skin. Wordlessly, he places his shot glass on the table, having sipped only half of it throughout the night.Â
âLeaving already?â Jay asks, craning his neck when Heeseung stands. The latter only cocks his head to the dance floor with a knowing look. The corner of his mouth curves into a playful smirk when Jay makes a face.
âThe usual.â
Jay shakes his head. âWhatever. Just donât do it raw.â
âIâm always clean and safe, Jongseong.â Heeseung retorts, already taking his leave. âCall me when youâre leaving.â
Whatever Jay replies is muffled by the loud bass and Heeseung couldnât care less to know what the alpha has said. Probably throwing him insults for using him as his personal chauffeur again. Heeseung only shrugs. Jayâs not his concern tonight. He has a bigger fish, or rather, a pretty wolf, to catch.
His eyes sweep across the space. From where heâs standing, his nose can pick up different scents of alphas and omegas. Even the faint scent of betas are visible, usually amplified by alcohol and adrenaline. Heâs still deciding between two male omegas throwing asses back on the dance floor and a group of female omegas giggling at a table not far from him when a spiked scent stabs at his senses.
His nose instantly scrunches, frowning as he tries to detect that smell. An omega in distress. Itâs faint, coming from the direction of the exit door, but he canât see anyone crying or visibly uncomfortable in his line of sight.
Heeseung looks around, momentarily distracted from his initial mission. Nobody seems to notice the scent, however, and Heeseung blames his dominant traits for this. He sometimes forgets that heâs a dominant alpha. Unlike Jay and Riki, his senses are more sensitive and developed, which is a blessing when heâs looking for a hookup and a curse when heâs inside the locker room after a game when the air is drenched in his teammatesâ pheromones. Heeseung shudders at the memories. Heâs always the first to shower and leave the room because only Riki smells good when sweating.
His thoughts are brought back when the scent intensifies. Heeseung keeps sniffing and blindly follows the trail of wilting daisies and burnt honey, his shoulders braced and jaw tense. He doesnât know why, but the scent has awakened his senses to a new degree. His alpha is on full alert now.Â
He passes by dancing bodies and tables to get to the exit door but heâs stopped by a hand on his arm. Heeseung looks down.
A soft, seductive voice reaches his ears. âHeeseung-ssi?â
Heeseung blinks at the smiling omega. After a second of stunned silence, he finally recognises the logo on her varsity jacket and the makeup on her face. Realisation dawns upon him.
Sheâs part of his collegeâs cheerleader squad.
The omega is running a hand up and down his arm now, arching her back to flaunt the soft swell of her chest. Behind her, her fellow cheerleaders watch closely, hiding eager smiles behind their palms. Heeseung looks down at her hand, gulping despite himself.Â
âSpare me a few minutes, will you, my precious, capable alpha?â
Her voice is so enticing, dripping with the kind of allure Heeseungâs so much familiar with. There is a strong wave of her sweet scentâbubblegum and cotton candy, Heeseung notesâcoming from her in full force. Sheâs fluttering her lashes now, hoping heâll get the message.Â
Heeseung does; oh does he get the message so well. He knows what sheâs hinting on and on any other nights heâll succumb to the temptation without putting any efforts to think, melting into a puddle of juices at the slightest touch of seductive omegas. Itâs a no-brainer decision for him, usually, because heâs always ready to fuck and he always brings a pack of condom with him for this sole reason.
But tonight his wolf is restless. And the reason is none other than the bitter scent still clinging to his nose.
Heeseung gives a polite smile that doesnât reach his eyes and removes her hand from his arm. The omega frowns, brows almost uniting at the center when the alpha takes a step back.
âNext time, yeah?â
Without waiting for her reply, Heeseung slips away from the crowd, ignoring the sour turn of her pheromones. He can feel their eyes boring into his back, but thatâs not his concern now. Following the haunting scent and the sudden flaring instincts to get closer to the owner of it, Heeseung lets his legs bring him closer to the exit door.Â
Heeseung hates to admit it, but right now, his wolf is thrashing at the bitter scent and his chest feels like caving in. He can feel the itch in his nails; his claws are threatening to sharpen. He frowns.
Heâs never reacted this way to any omegas in distress. So why now? Why this particular scent?
When he reaches the door, Heeseung doesnât waste a second to push it open and steps outside. As he does so, a weight suddenly crashes into his chest, pushing him slightly backwards from the force.
âOofââÂ
Heeseung reaches up to steady the figure by the arms. At this sudden proximity, the scent is thicker, the wilting daisies are more prominent it's making his heart constrict. Heeseung lets out a deep exhale and looks down to the person practically in his arms.Â
A female omega. Clearly in distress, judging by the unshed tears and the tremble in her lips. A familiar varsity jacket drapes across her frame and Heeseung feels his breath stop when he recognises that face.
Itâs you. One of the cheerleaders. Heeseung knows many cheerleaders, having been in bed with most of them; but even the most forgetful alpha will remember an omega like you.
A sweet face with a sweeter scent to match, but you are always detached from alphas and their advances. Youâre the shy cheerleader his teammates always talk about. The untouchable one. The politely-smile-and-then-reject omega. Heeseung remembers you too well, being one of those rejected alphas himself.
He still remembers how disappointed his wolf was, whining and pouting when a pretty omega he had his eyes on rejected him. But Heeseung is a respectful alpha. Heâll take a no as a no. And you were also so kind when doing so that he moved on from it pretty fast and well.
That was one year ago.
Now youâre crying in his arms, for whatever reasons he doesnât know and is determined to find out. He can feel your hold on his arms tighten, the spike in your scent when you recognise him, and the hitch in your breath that follows. The bitter scent is definitely coming from you.
âH-Heeseung?â Your voice is so small, like youâre not sure if you can call his name. Itâs shaky and breathless. âPlease help me.â
Behind you, Heeseung can see three shadows entering the alleyway. Even from the distance, his nose immediately picks up the pheromones of aroused alphas; thick and unpleasant. Your scent lingers amidst the stench, wavering in fear, so heavy he can practically taste it on his tongue. Heeseung instinctively pulls you closer.
âAre they bothering you?â
You nod frantically, the tears now spilling freely down your cheeks. When you speak, your voice is wet from tears and fear.
Nothing can ever prepare Heeseung for the words that are about to leave your mouth.
âP-PleaseâŚPlease scent me.â You sob, clutching the sleeves of his T-shirt tighter. Heeseungâs breath stutters. âPlease, Heeseung.â
Scent-mark. A low rumble sounds from his chest.
Youâre asking him to mark you. ToâŚclaim you. Itâs basically you asking him to bond with you, to shower you with his pheromones and make you smell like him. Smell like youâre his.
This is not what Heeseungâs looking forward to tonight. The fantasy of saving an omega in distress and scent-marking belongs to Jay, an alpha that was even willing to help an omega in heat out of the goodness of his heart. But not Heeseung. Thatâs never Heeseung. Heeseung doesnât play the hero; heâs the one stealing the female lead from them.
Scent-marking is wayâŚtoo intimate to share between two complete strangers with no interactionâthat is, if you consider being rejected to having sex together as zero interaction.
Heeseung looks between you and the shadows closing in, then licks his lips. âI canât,â he tries, and the broken look on your face damn near makes his heart take the same fate. Heeseung schools his expression, forcing himself to push you slightly away from him.
âIâThis is not right. You donât want this.â
He canât take advantage of you. This is just your scared omega speaking. Outside of this situation, heâs damn sure youâd refuse any kind of bonds with him. Heeseung might be a sex addict, but heâs not an asshole.
But you pull him with you, shaking your head as you keep taking a glance at the approaching alphas. âI do! Please,â you choke, failing to keep your voice steady as you plead at the alpha in front of you. Heeseung forces restraint to his instincts. âPlease just scent-mark me, Heeseung. I-I canâtâThey willââ You heave a deep breath, your scent taking a sourer lilt at his refusal.
âThey wonât back down unless itâs another alpha.â
Something sharp stabs at his chest, rendering him speechless and frozen for a moment. Heeseung stares at your trembling figure, at your shrinking body as if to make yourself disappear, and it suddenly hits him how disgusting the whole situation is.
They wonât back down unless itâs another alpha.
Alphas only take a no when it comes from another alpha.
Heeseung feels nauseous. His throat closes in and thereâs a quiet ringing in his ears. In that heavy, stilled silence, everything is muffled to his senses. Only the echoes of your words ripple in his mind.
Unless itâs another alpha.
Itâs a hard pill to swallow; one that Heeseung finds it bitter to believeâbecause itâs so, so easy to walk away from omegas than force yourself on them. Itâs so, so easy to shoot your pride down than dwell on it and go feral over a rejection. Itâs so, so easy to respect an omega, even for a fuckboy like him, so why is it hard for other alphas to do so?
And the result of this harsh world, of this fucked up power imbalance is sobbing in his arms, shaking and forcing herself to be okay with an unwanted bond just to save herself. Heeseungâs heart breaks for you, for the fate that follows a beautiful being like you just because of secondary genders and because the world says so.
âPlease, I-I donâtââ
âShh, itâs okay,â Heeseung whispers, rubbing a soothing circle on your arms. Your crying subsides a fraction. âIâll scent you if that makes you feel better. Is thatâŚokay?â
You blink at him tearily, streaks of salty tears tainting your unblemished cheeks. Even with a swollen face, you still look as pretty as he remembers.
âReally?â
âYeah,â he nods, taking a hold of your wrist when he senses those alphas getting near. âOr we can just get inside and call the cops on them if you change your mind. You can findââ
âNo,â you grip him tighter, your previously-calmed scent spiking again. âCops are useless. T-They wonâtâplease, Heeseung. You know how they are.â
You know how unfair the system is.
Heeseung swallows hard before he nods, the burnt honey in your pheromones starting to get really thick and sticky. He rubs the inside of your wrists, slow and deliberate, before bringing the scent gland to his nose. Itâs the most appropriate point to scent, less intimate than scenting at your neck, which he guesses the last thing you want from him right now.
The tip of his nose caresses the delicate skin tentatively, testing and tasting before he takes a deep inhale. Immediately, the scent of daisies and honey fill up his senses and Heeseungâs eyes flutter shut at the feeling. There is a rush of energy bursting through his veins, his senses tingling and his wolf purring at the sweet combination of your pheromones. Heeseung feels his wolf hum, almost singing and sighing, like his muscles are unknotting in a hot spring.Â
Itâs strange. Itâs new. But Heeseung pushes the thoughts aside.
He runs his nose over your wrist over and over again, blanketing you in his pheromones and starting to feel you relax in his arms.
The tension in your shoulders visibly disappears as you let yourself melt into Heeseung. You sigh. Heeseungâs pheromones are just like him; warm spice of cinnamon carried by cool air of sea breeze. It symbolises his fierce persona on the court and his calm demeanour when heâs out of his jersey perfectly. You lean into him further, your squirming wolf unknowingly calms down when being washed by his pheromones.
If Heeseung notices the change in your demeanour, he doesnât say anything about it, shoving the thought to the back of his mind. His singular focus is entirely on your pulse, nosing at your wrist and pumping out his calming pheromones. When he opens his eyes, they mirror the look in yours: dazed and slightly glassy. The air is now loaded with daisies and cinnamon, intertwining with each other in a perfect, balanced mix of scent.Â
Heeseung tries to ignore the loud pounding of his heart, but itâs all he can hear. He tries to ignore the stars in your eyes, but itâs all he can see. He tries to ignore how perfectly balanced the mix of your scent is with his. His grip on your wrist tightens, breath caught in his throat. His wolf refuses to let you go, wanting to keep you here, tucked safely in his embrace for as long as he can.
And that thought is so foreign and scary. He really hopes thatâs just his wolf and not him.
âHey, little bunny.â A sick, twisted voice interrupts.Â
Oh, right.Â
Those fucking, disgusting alphas.
Heeseung is always slouching, making him appear shorter than he actually is. But in that moment, heâs standing so tall, dominating the space around him like the air is making room for him itself.Â
He instinctively pulls you behind him, shielding you from the hungry eyes of the approaching alphas. His shoulders are braced like theyâre ready for an impact and Heeseung has to force a snarl down his throat when his eyes land on the wolves.
When the shadows step under the light, it takes less than a second for Heeseung to see the jerseys clinging to their bodies before he realises who heâs looking at.Â
Theyâre the players from the opposing team that his team just beat tonight.Â
K, EJ, and Nicholas.
Heeseung grinds his jaw so hard he might pop a vessel.
âIf itâs not the mighty Lee Heeseung,â K taunts, wearing a smug smirk like a badge at the sight in front of him. He cocks his head, trying to see you over Heeseungâs shoulders. You cower. âMind sharing your pretty little cheerleader? Sheâs exactly my type, shy but slutty.â
Shame spreads across your skin and you screw your eyes shut. Shy and slutty, you bite your lips. Youâre nothing but a kinky fantasy for alphas like them.
As if sensing your turmoil, Heeseung stands taller, his eyes narrowing thin.
âGet lost.â Heeseung tries to hold back, but the rage he feels seeps through anyway. âAnd cover your gland, for fuckâs sake. You stink.â
Kâs eyebrows shoot up, his grin turning cheshire. âCome on, man. Are you gatekeeping your cheerleaders?â K tries to take a peek at you, but Heeseung moves and covers you with his whole body. His frown deepens. âYou had fucked her already. Donât be greedy, captain.â
His alpha minions laugh, and Heeseung is now seeing red. Something hot spreads in his chest, burning in his vein like wildfire at the insult. Was it a hit to his ego and his shameless sexual routine? Definitely, but Heeseung never takes it to heart. Rather, itâs the way you gasp and sob into his back, shaken by the disgusting assumption of your dignity and your virginity. The storm of the ocean spikes in the air, taking his pheromones to a dangerous peak, gathering a tide to a new height.
Heeseung doesnât think heâs ever released pheromones this bad. But something about seeing the same pattern of omegas falling victim to empty-headed alphas makes his blood boil.
Behind him, you whimper, your omega reacting to the agitated alpha in front of you. But Heeseung is now relentless. He holds out an arm around your waist, protecting you from their sight in a tight, almost-possessive grip.
âWatch your fucking mouth. Donât you get it?â Heeseung seethes, pupils thinning as the laughter dies down. âShe doesnât want you. In what fucking language must she say no for your stupid brain to understand? Sheâsââ
Mine. Sheâs mine, his wolf howls. My omega.Â
Heeseung grits his teeth.
No, sheâs not. Get a fucking grip, Lee Heeseung. You donât have a mate.
â...not a toy.â
The sea-salt bite of his pheromones thickens in the alley. K scoffs, stepping forward in offense but is stopped by Nicholas. The latter has his arm shot out against Kâs chest, preventing him from approaching the couple.
âNo, K,â Nicholas murmurs, nose sniffing at the heavy pheromones in the air. Underneath the eye-watering spice of cinnamon and the raging storm of Heeseungâ sea breeze scent, there is a tangled sweetness of daisies and honey clinging to it. He visibly gulps. âTheyâre together. And HeeseungâŚâ
Nicholas throws him a side eye, giving him a once-over briefly. He takes in the sharp glare directed his way, the downturned curl of his mouth, the tense shoulders ready to pounce. Nicholas shudders imperceptibly and shakes his head.
ââŚHeâs a dominant alpha.â
His statement, though meant to deescalate the situation, only rages Heeseung on further. The alpha takes a menacing step forward, eyes narrowing thin at the trio. They falter back.
âGet this in your empty brains you freaks,â Heeseung grits, fuming beyond reason. Nicholas swears he sees something red flickering in his irises.Â
âWhen someone says no, you back the fuck off. Dominant alpha or not. Omega or not.â He spits out the word, the venom in his voice nearly poisons the air. âDo you fucking get it?â
His raging pheromones are turning physical, pressing on each pair of lungs like lead on a mattress. Nicholas fights the urge to cover his nose and pulls his two friends backwards with him.
âWe get it. Sorry, captain.â
âNot me,â Heeseung hisses. A low growl rumbles in warning. âHer.â
Nicholas licks his lips and nods. He bows down quickly, forcing the other alphas to bend despite it hurting his pride. K reluctantly follows, though his eyes return the glare Heeseung gives him in a similar intensity.Â
âWeâre sorry, omega. Shit, I donât know your name, butâweâre sorry.â
In the next moment, the three alphas are already retreating. Nicholas aggressively whispers something among them while K visibly restrains himself from running back to Heeseung. He clearly doesnât mind taking up a challenge with the dominant alpha and Heeseung finds himself not minding to dirty his hands too.
A beat of heavy silence falls upon you. You stay rooted in place, pulse racing in your ears. Heeseung is still facing away from you, ragged breathing slowing down. The air of dense pheromones is thinning out, leaving behind trails of spicy cinnamon and soft daisies.
You let out a breath and your knees buckle.Â
Heeseung is by your side in a flash, the same, now-familiar arms caging you against his tall frame. You put your hands on his chest, trying to steady the wobble in your legs.
âHey, hey. Youâre okay now. Theyâre gone.â
They really are. You cry. Theyâre actually gone.
An ugly sob racks through your chest and soon, the wilting daisies are back, staining the air with crumpled petals and sad flowers. Heeseung tightens his hold. He doesnât like seeing people cry, but his alpha apparently despises it the most when he sees you in this state.
His calming pheromones pour out in waves, hands carding through your hair gently. âItâs okay, itâs okay. Youâre safe now.â
Youâre safe with me.
Your crying slows down. For a few seconds, you let yourself savour the warmth of Heeseungâs embrace. Closer, his pheromones, layered with a faint trail of his body wash, are stronger, filling up the almost-nonexistent space between the two of you. Strangely, the spice and the salt work wonders on calming you down.
Your wolfâpreviously anxious and distressedâis now quiet.Â
Heeseung adjusts his hold on you, and in that moment do you only realise in horror how long youâve been shamelessly hugging him. Like a reflex, you pull away from his embrace, cheeks now flaming red when his shirt is now stained with two big spots of your tears.
âIâm sorry!â Your palms instinctively rub at the stains, as if they can dry out the tears out of the fabric. âIâll buy you a new shirt.â
Heeseung looks down, silently watching the small of your palms against his broad chest. Thereâs a strange flutter that follows, quiet and unfamiliar. He hopes that you canât feel it through the fabric.
âItâs fine. Donât worry about it.â Heeseung murmurs, eyes finding their ways back to your face. Red nose, swollen eyes, blotched cheeks. You really went through it, still sniffling as you still try to fix the stains on his shirt. A small part of him twists uncomfortably.
Heeseung catches your wrists, his thumbs moving almost instinctively against the soft skin.Your breath catches as you lift your gaze to look at him.
âAre you okay?â Heeseung asks, voice soft and gentle. You immediately nod, admittedly feeling better after being bathed in his calming pheromones.
âIâm okay. Just a bit thirsty.â
He searches your face, as if trying to detect any kind of discomfort or distress. But in the end, he ends up staring into your eyes, counting the lashes that guard your beautiful eyes.
It should end there. He really should just escort you back into the safety of your friend group and leave you be. Perhaps, he can go find the previous omega, seduce his way back and bring her home. The normal. The usual.
But something inside stirs in protest to that idea, and so instead he finds himself saying: âLetâs get you something to drink.â
The convenience store is bright under the dark sky, located just two blocks away from the nightclub. Itâs already past one in the morning, but to the people of the night, itâs only the beginning of fun. From a distance, the queue line is only getting longer.
Beside you, Heeseung is walking on the edge of the pavement, looking out for cars despite the slow traffic. Heâs been quiet since the alleyway, seemingly lost in thought. Occasionally, his hand will brush yours, a quiet graze that sends electricity in your system. You try not to react.
The convenience store is empty, save for a group of partygoers sobering up around the round table outside, leaving only a long bench beside the door empty. You stop when Heeseung does, his hand already tapping on the sensory handle.
âWait here. Iâll buy you something to drink.â
You nod, obediently sitting down. Heeseung takes one last look at you before he enters the store, the harsh lights greeting his tired eyes. He grabs the coldest mineral water and stops in front of the necessities shelves.
Without thinking, his hand moves like it has a mind of its own, grabbing whatever his eyes land onâa heat pack, chocolate, a pack of wet tissues. Itâs only when the cashier scans the items that he pauses, staring at the items with wide eyes.
Since when does heâŚdo this?
âAnything to add, sir?â
Heeseung gulps, looks past the cashierâs head, and lands on the rows of pills behind him.
She cried too much, she might have a headache.
And so, as if on instinct, Heeseung adds paracetamol to his receipt.
Outside, the air is cooler, biting at exposed skin like a bug. Heeseung wordlessly sits beside you, placing the plastic bag on his lap. You curiously peek into the bag.
âThatâs a lot. Are you hungry?â
Heeseung pauses, realisation dawns upon him. His instincts flare again. âNo. Are you? Do you want ramyeon? Or packed rice? I canââ
âNo! Itâs fine, Heeseung,â you laugh softly, the sound like a melodious chime of a bell to his ears. âI had dinner.â
Heeseung visibly relaxes and nods. He hands you the bottle first, twisting the cap open before passing it over without a word. He watches you drink, takes the bottle from you, and gives you the heat pack next.
You blink at him. âItâs cold,â Heeseung shrugs, pulling your hand towards him and placing the heat pack on your palm. He closes your fingers over it. âThis will warm you up a bit.â
For a second, you just stare at him. The warmth in your hand spreads from your fingers up to your chest, where your heart is thumping wildly at his gentle act.
You bring the heat pack to your neck, a gentle smile gracing your lips as you stare at him, cheeks blooming red. They put him in a trance, your eyes, as Heeseung finds himself unable to look away. His gaze then drops to your lips when they move, already clinging to every syllable without even knowing it.
âThank you, Heeseung.â
The flutter comes back, now more frantic and aggressive than before, like a caged bird trying to escape. This time, Heeseung forces himself to look away, the plastic bag wrinkles under his tightening grip.Â
âDonât mention it.â
âI mean it, though.â You counter back, gazing at the passing cars as you feel a gust of chilling wind breezing through. You scoot closer to the heat beside you. âIt was really scary. Thank you for helping me out.â
Thereâs a bitter tone, faint and subtle, to your scent, as if youâre recalling the ugly incident that just happened almost half an hour ago. Heeseung clenches his jaw.Â
Before he can stop it, his pheromones spill out like soft waves, calming and comforting, cocooning you again like a safety blanket. His wolf hums in quiet satisfaction, watching the way your shoulders loosen, the tension melting off you bit by bit.
Heeseung doesnât know when or how it happened, but thereâs no gap between you now. But he doesnât hate it like he thought he would. Here, youâre so close to him, your shoulder practically glued to his, seeking warmth from his body heat.
Itâs a foreign feeling. A comfortable, foreign feeling.
You stay in that position, slowly getting drunk on his pheromones. Your eyes droop, fighting sleep, but the exhaustion from running away from scary alphas has finally caught up to you. Before you know it, your head dips against his shoulder, breath evening out as your fingers lose their grip on the heat pack.Â
Heeseung swallows. He doesnât dare move. From the proximity, he can smell your fruity hair wash, blending smoothly with your scent.Â
Itâs so unfair. Every inch of you smells really good, whether itâs your natural scent or the products that you use. Itâs like every inch of your skin decides that you only deserve to smell the best, and Heeseung himself canât help but agree too. Itâs so unfair.
Heeseung finds his hands hover awkwardly in the air, hesitating for a second before settling carefully on your head. His fingers thread through your hair, slower this time.
âDonât feel scared anymore,â he mumbles, gently caressing the dark strands of your hair.Â
Itâs me who should feel scared.
His fingers freeze in your hair.Â
Scared. He is scared.
This is not him. If Riki or Jay were to walk in to see him in this state, theyâd drag him to the nearest police station and demand they find the real Heeseung. The normal Heeseung. The usual Heeseung.
The Heeseung that doesnât stay, or spend his time watching people breathe in their sleep. The Heeseung whoâs out the door before the sheets even cool down. The Heeseung that dislikes small touches like these; like caressing the hair of the girl he just saved, because the only physical touch he brands himself with is sex.
Not this. Not whatever this is.
He wants to move, but his body doesnât listenâhe stays despite himself. His wolf, like itâs found something itâs been looking for all along, settles deeper instead, quiet and satisfied. You nuzzle closer into his body and Heeseung feels his chest tighten.
Something uneasy creeps up his spine.
This should feel suffocating. It should itch under his skin, make him want to pull away, shake you off, leave.Â
But it doesnât. It feels easy. Too easy, in fact.
And it scares the shit out of him.
When your senses return to you, the first thing that greets you is someoneâs scent.
Warm, spicy cinnamon and calm, salty sea air.
The memory follows not long after; of angry frowns and disgusting smirks that make your skin crawl. Amidst it all, a familiar face flashes in your mind and you feel your heart stutter.
Heeseung.
The pulse in your wrist thuds violently, as if not letting you forget the owner of the pheromones now wrapped around you like a soft blanket. You faintly remember, in your subconscious, being carried to a car and your roommate, Yujin, hugging you in panic. Unconsciously, you pull your blanket closer to your chest.
Did Heeseung send you home? Did he reallyâŚscent-mark you to help you?
You bite your lips between your teeth. The clarity is palpable now that the haziness of pheromones and distress are no longer around. Thereâs no way an alphaâa dominant one, at thatâis willing to scent-mark an omega he has no connections to. The implications are more than the action itself. Heeseung surely knows about that, right?Â
It feels like a dream. It has to be a dream.
What a capable alpha, your wolf preens. Shut up, you hiss.
Then, as if the universe was insistent to prove you wrong, your eyes land on a plastic bag placed neatly on top of your vanity, a damning evidence of last nightâs incident.
No way.
Your brain swirls with possibilities and your own made-up theories that it has started to throb faintly. Before you could lose your sanity, thread by unraveling thread, you rush to the bathroom to, hopefully, get rid of his scent, even when your omega begs you not to.
Unfortunately for the human-you, the cinnamon trails after you even post-showers. It clings to your clothes when you change and it doesnât let you go even as you sit for breakfast prepared by your doting roommate. Itâs strange, really. No oneâs scent ever clung to you so stubbornly like this, like a chewing gum latching on shoe soles. You always cuddle with Yujin and even her green tea pheromones never stay with you after washing up.
âItâs a bit odd, yes,â Yujin munches through a mouthful of her own signature pancake. âBut itâs not totally out-of-this-world. His scent will fade by this evening, I promise.â
You chew painfully slowly, eyes going wide at another possibility. âYou donât think that I conjured some kind of bond with him, right?â
Itâs common knowledge that a thin, fragile bond can be easily formed when an alpha and an omega scent each other, mated or not. After all, context and intention are greatly considered, whether itâs meant for familiarity, protection, or possessivenessâeach one will determine how long itâll last.
You pull at the sleeves of your cardigan, a telltale sign of your anxiousness. The same wilting daisies accent of your scent from the night before comes back, signalling your impending distress. Yujin drops her fork and reaches a hand to yours.
âHey, hey. Calm down for a sec, Y/N.â
âItâs just,â you swallow harshly, your traitorous mind replaying the scene from last night. Your heart thumps at the base of your throat. âI donât knowâfuck. I forced him to do this. Andâand despite the circumstances, he still helped me and nowâŚnow I thinkâŚâ
Your eyes turn glassy, reminded of the wolf residing deep inside you.
âI think my omega might like him.â
Yujin is silent for a moment, assessing the right words to say. Itâs obvious to everyone on campus of the nature of Lee Heeseung. Heâs not exactly the alpha youâd seek for companionship or commitment; he seems to be allergic to those things.Â
And to get your wolf to like himâŚwell, letâs say that youâre already set for thousand-words of angst and a life of yearning. Yujin isnât exactly fond of the idea of dishing out what you already knew. You already seem restless enough with your own thoughts.
âOkay. Thatâs valid.â Yujin starts slowly, treading through every syllable like a mother to her kindergartener son. âHeâs super attractive. Itâs understandable. But you can, you knowâunlike him.â
You perk up at that, though the doubt clouding your face is more prominent now. âHow?â
âFind a better alpha,â Yujin shrugs, as if explaining the worldâs simplest equation. âFor the record, I do think Heeseungâs a good guy, just not in the romantic department. I donât know why your wolf is picking a fuckboy out of all alphas, but taste is subjective.â
âItâs because he stepped up and protected me!â You deflect and pause, realising how defensive of him you have become. Yujin raises a brow and you sigh, defeated, slumping in your seat.
âFuck. Now my omega hates you for badmouthing him.â
âSucks to be you.â
âJust kill me.â
Yujin shoots you a small smile, pushing your now-cold plate closer to you. You reluctantly take a bite. âWhy not someone else, though? You could ask literally any other alpha, likeââ Yujin pauses and it takes her less than a second to pick a name. âJay. Like Jay. Heâs like, the safest option, the greenest flag. But why Heeseung? And donât tell me itâs because he was the only one thereâyou couldâve just barged in and found someone else. Itâs a freaking nightclub.â
You freeze, unmoving for a slow second. There is, of course, an answer to that. One that you admittedly avoid to admit, because admitting it will admit that there is something underneath that only you know, and you admit that itâs scary to admit that. Fuck this admission! Yujin wouldnât make fun of you, right?
âIâŚâ You trail off, second-guessing your decision. Should you really tell your roommate? Seeing the eager look on her face, with her sweet, cute dimples showing up, you decide that people with dimples should be banned from this world. Promptly, youâre reminded of your juniorâan alpha with Jungwon or something as his name. The both of them possessed dimples that could make any alpha (or omega) drop down to their knees.
Alas, you force yourself to tell the truth.
âI smelled him for afar.â You watch carefully for Yujinâs reaction. âLike, from outside. While I was running from those scary alphas.â
Yujin contemplates. âDid you feel some kind of a pull towards him?â
You donât even contemplate. âYes.âÂ
âHoly shit,â Yujin laughs, her grin turning giddy. âThis shit is actually real?!â
âWhat is?!â You frown, not liking being kept in the dark. A playful punch lands on Yujinâs shoulder, whoâs now throwing her head back in laughter. Unconsciously, a pout is formed on your lips.
âWhat is it? Tell me!â
âItâs just, thereâs this joke going around,â Yujin hiccups between every inhale, âthat an omega will eventually crave for his knot. I canât believe itâs happening to you!â
The lines in your forehead deepen. You regard your roommate with a look of contempt, thinking of the best spot to hide a body.
âThatâs not true. I donât crave his knot, or whatever it is.â You sigh, bringing a hand to pinch the bridge of your nose. âYou know what? Iâm just gonna pretend last night didnât happen.â
Resigned and defeated, you rise and bring your plate to the sink. Your class doesnât start until the next three hours, and then the evening is reserved for your new routine practice for the upcoming tournament. The ninety-two unread messages from the group chat are still left unopened; you havenât had time to review the routine video yet.
You put on your apron and reach for the cabinet. When in distress or deep thoughts, other than nesting in your bedroom, you often opt to stress-bake instead. The scent of baked goods always puts you at ease, and it blends sweetly with your daisies and honey pheromones. Everyone who knows you knows to empty their stomach and be ready for a mass sweet-feeding whenever youâre in your stressed baker mode.
Behind you, Yujinâs laughter dies in her throat. Then, a question that stops you in your tracks comes.
âHey, you donât think itâs because you and Heeseung are fated mates, right?â
Fated mates. The words settle like a heavy blanket, pressing you down with its weight and keeping you warm altogether.Â
Itâs sacred. Itâs ancient. Itâs something that you never speak of lightly, afraid that a slip of a tongue would taint the purity of such a bond. Against all odds and critiques on the concept of fated mates, youâre part of the minority who believed in it, no matter how foolish or ridiculous it may sound.
You believe in fated mates. You believe in the name written in the stars, in the love that has been shaped and created just to cherish you. You believe in spending the rest of your life looking for a face that your heart would recognise in a heartbeat, feeling that inevitable pull like youâre each otherâs missing half.
But after last night, do you think itâs because you and Heeseung are fated mates?
Heeseung, whoâs always made it clear to everyone about his relationship with commitments?
Heeseung, who never shies away when the boys tease him about the girls he sleeps with?
Youâre never one to judge someoneâs sex life, but you might be a little too concerned about how they view a long-term, committed relationship. Because thatâs what youâve been looking for.Â
An alpha whoâs not afraid to love you loudly. An alpha whose instincts are to love and protect you.Â
Sometimes, you really envy mated couples. You envy how loyal Riki is of his girlfriend, craving the same kind of devotion to be directed to you. You envy how proud Taesan is to show off his mating mark, like itâs a badge of honour and love that promises forever.
Eventually, your mind drifts to Heeseung. The captain of the basketball team. Someone who deceives people with how approachable he seems, but is actually the most detached.
Heeseung is a perfect and capable alpha. Youâve seen it.
He leads his team with the kind of leadership that becomes a glue, keeping the team together no matter what challenges theyâre going through. You know that heâs from the music department, and there are a few songs with his name being credited as the producer, composer, lyricistâyou name it. Heeseung is a dominant alpha and uses his authority well, and he knows how to fend for himself.
You admire him, you really do.Â
But will he devote himself to you? Will he look only for you in a crowd of beautiful omegas, and beautiful omegas who have spent the night with him? Does he share the same sentiment as you when it comes to fated mates?
The churn in your stomach provides an answer clearer than any of your exams had ever done.
You let Yujinâs question fade in the background, letting yourself lose in your elementâbaking and baking and baking until it feels like you could feed a whole team of athletes. Which is what Yujin has suggested before she leaves for her lab session, after saving a big jar of cookies for herself.
Fated mates.
What a scary thought.
For the first time in his life, Heeseung is actively avoiding omegas.
Itâs not any omegas, though. Itâs only you. But since itâs you, itâs actually a pretty big deal to him.Â
Heeseung doesnât play favourites. He doesnât believe in fated mates, remember? But last night left a lasting impact in the form of your scent still clinging to him this morning, even after showering. Not to mention how excited his wolf has been when realising that itâs you.Â
Itâs you, for fuckâs sake! The one who rejected him one year ago, and, admittedly, one of the prettiest omegas on campus. You might as well be every alphaâs ideal type. Well, maybe not Riki, that man is proudly claimed and fiercely loyal to his mate. But itâs definitely the case for him and Jay.Â
Knowing his best friend, Heeseungâs sure youâre just Jayâs type. And his. No. He didnât say that. He doesnât have a type, remember?
As if to make it worse, you also have a scent that might just be his favourite one yet. The same scent that is currently invading his senses, dampening other pheromones in the court despite being on opposite ends from you. The same scent that his wolf decides to pick up and single out the moment he steps foot in the campus, recognising you before his eyes can even see you first. The same scent that still lingers in his lungs, mingling with his cinnamon and sea breeze notes like dancing partners.Â
Yeah, Heeseung is starting to think that heâs slowly going insane.Â
âDude, stop staring. Youâre scaring them.â
Heeseung blinks, Jayâs voice successfully snapping him out of whatever omega-spell that you have casted on him. Yeap, he nods. Itâs definitely that. Youâre actually a witch. Thereâs no other explanation to this other than that.
A blob of freshly-dyed blonde hair pops up beside Jay. âHyung showed up smelling like daisies and honey and suddenly heâs staring at the cheerleaders like they owe him money.â Riki teases, then grins when he realises something. âWait, that kinda rhymesââ
âIâm not staring!â Heeseung almost shouts, belatedly realising that he, indeed, has been staring at the group of cheerleaders stretching across the court. Or, to be more precise, heâs been staring at you. He glares at Riki.
âOkay. So why do you smell like one of them then? Whatâs her name again, Jay hyung?â
Heeseung grumbles. âItâs no oneââ
âY/N.âÂ
âYes, that one. The shy one.âÂ
Heeseung groans. He kicks Rikiâs shins and makes a show of turning his back facing the cheerleaders. But for some reasons he refuses to admit, as if he has eyes on the back of his head, he still can point where youâre standing just from his senses alone.
These stupid, useless alpha senses.
At least Jay takes pity on him. âYour Heeseung hyung saved her from perverts last night. He scented her to calm her down because she was reacting pretty badly.â
Heeseung mentally thanks Jay and continues warming up. He opts to just watch his teammates dribble and stretch just like him. The faint hum of scent neutraliserâa new, advanced one, thanks to that incident with Rikiâs girlfriendârumbles slowly. Somewhere behind him, he can hear you laugh and taste the sweet spike in your scent on his tongue. Heeseung grits his teeth.Â
What is wrong with his wolf? Please get your tail together.
Riki, on the other hand, is intrigued. âReally? Did it happen after I left? Who were those alphas?â
âSome idiots from that team we beat last night.â
Riki frowns, clearly displeased with the news he just heard. âWell, Iâll keep my eyes on them. How did Heeseung hyung find her?â
Jay shrugs and shoots him a look. Heeseung really hopes he can slap that annoying smirk off his face one day. âDunno. Ask him. His alpha probably recognised her from miles away.â
Heeseung doesnât like what that sentence implies. âShut up. Itâs just instinct. Normal alpha-omega reaction.â
âKeep lying to yourself. I can practically see your tail wagging when you smelled your pheromones on her just now.â
âI didnâtââ Heeseung closes his eyes, forcing himself to calm down despite the sudden flare of defensiveness exploding in his chest. He doesnât know why heâs so reactive and not in his usual calm composure, but heâs pretty sure it has something to do with you. Jay and Riki snicker.Â
âThe only people that believe in fated mates are you two idiots. Do you know that?â
âYeah, I know,â Riki snorts and looks at him, amused. âBut that doesnât necessarily mean I have a fated mate. That shit is rare. Itâs like finding my size in Calvin Klein.â
Jay frowns. âI donât see the correlation.â
âThere is. My dick is just too big, hyung. Thereâs no size for meââ
âI donât need to know that!â Jay slaps at Rikiâs shoulders while the younger alpha only lets out a full-body laugh. âSave that information for your girlfriend, Riki. I didnât raise you like this.â
âShe already knows that.â
âNishimura Riki!âÂ
Heeseung is back to zoning out, his energy is suddenly drained out of his soul. Thatâs usually the case when you have to deal with a Nishimura Riki and a Park Jongseong on a daily basis. His mind, choosing to move at the pace of a snail today, is replaying Rikiâs words back like a broken loop.
The realisation hits him five seconds late. âWait. Did you mean that you and your girlfriend are notâŚfated mates? I thought you were!â
Riki is trapping Jay in a headlock when he answers. âNope. We only imprinted on each other from early on because weâre childhood friends.â
âSo likeâŚwhatâs the difference?â Heeseung pauses and hesitates for a moment. He glances at you and then thinks, fuck it. If curiosity didnât kill the cat then itâll definitely kill him. âCan you smell your girlfriend in a sea of people?â
Riki scrunches his nose, his hands busy play-fighting with Jay. Heeseung ignores them like itâs a daily occurrence to see them act this way. Which is probably not far from the truth. âNot really? If theyâre too many people, like right now, with your stench and too many omega scentsâitâs difficult to find her.â Jay tackles his side and Riki yelps. âB-But itâs getting better after the mating bite, thoughâJay hyung! I just got my tattoo there!â
âSoâŚyou canât likeâŚâ Heeseung licks his lips, his throat suddenly dry. He has a feeling that heâs not going to like the answer Rikiâs going to give him once he finishes his sentence. Jay is now on the floor while Riki is pulling him by the legs and dragging him around like a used rug.
âYou canât single her out from her scent alone?â
There. He said it. His two idiotic friends will catch on it and grill him for the problem he partially caused. The other part is, no doubt, his wolfâs fault for deciding to like one single scent. Youâre not at fault at all. Never. Wait, who said that?
Riki is breathless from the laughter and play-fight, but he still manages to listen and answer, thanks to his alpha senses. If he finds Heeseungâs questions strange, he only shares his suspicion through a knowing look with Jay.
âSometimes. Like I said, itâs only when the crowd isnât too big and when sheâs in the same room as me.â Riki finally spares Heeseung a glance, tilting his head in a feigned curiosity. âWhy are you asking, hyung? Did you smell Y/N from miles away or something?â
How the fuck did that idiot know?
Heeseung looks away from the teasing grin thrown his way. He really doesnât like this. âNo,â he grumbles. âIâm just afraid if I might be Jayâs fated mate because his pheromones are fucking everywhere.â
âHey! What the fuck did I do to you?!âÂ
Riki bursts out laughing and high-fives Heeseung with a cheeky smile. On the floor, Jay is already huffing and sulking, mumbling something about âalways catching straysâ and âcitrusy pheromones arenât smellyâ. Heeseung sighs quietly when the topic takes a turn into a debate about who has the best smelling pheromones, which is an easy win for Riki, if Heeseungâs going to be honest.Â
Donât tell Jay though. Heeseung doesnât want to lose his passenger princess privilege so soon.
Much to his relief, itâs already time for practice. Heeseung tries to ignore the prickle in his neck coming from your direction as you and your fellow cheerleaders leave the gym to go to your own practice room. He fights the urge to look back, to stride forward and ask you to stayâwhich is insane, by the way, what the fuck is wrong with him?
Before he slips into his captain mode, however, Jay approaches him with a more serious look on his face. âCalm your flat tits, Hee. Itâs normal for her scent to linger; you kinda scented her aggressively to protect her last night.â
Heeseung weakly nods. Jay pats his shoulder. âA deep bond canât be conjured just from scenting alone, unless youâre fated mates.â
This time, Heeseung doesnât move, his tension visible in the rigid lines of his posture, the frantic movement of his Adamâs apple as he swallows.
âYeah,â he croaks, his pulse louder than his own voice. âHope not.â
Practice goes on for the next two hours. Heeseung eventually falls into routine, finding himself lost in adrenaline and competitiveness. The thoughts of you cease for a moment, replaced by his quick-thinking strategy and sharp reflexes. He keeps dribbling, scoring, and making passes, not even aware of the ticking clock or when the cheerleader squad comes back in to take a break.
The last whistle finally blows before the players dramatically fall in a heap of sweaty, breathless alphas. The practice was particularly grueling, which made his body ache and his shirt clung to his skin. The coach is on fire today, all because his wife has been giving him a silent treatment. Apparently, he forgot to buy diapers on his way home last night.
Source: Nishimura Nosy.
âI think I might die,â Jay huffs, claiming a bench all to himself. His chest rises and falls in a rapid motion. âBut even as a ghost, I bet the coach would still unearth my grave to force me to practice.â
âIâll be Ghost Number Two.â Heeseung deadpans, lying down on the bench next to Jay. The latter continues to talk about something else, which Heeseung would know and remember if he didnât get distracted by daisies and honey.
Fuck. Youâre in the court again.
The urge to corner you, to grab your wrist and ask if you were okay, crawls under his skin againârestless, unrelenting.
Heeseung isnât stupid. He knows last night, ugly as it was, doesnât just fade by morning. His alpha has been clawing at him since then, sharp and impatient, demanding he go to you.
But Heeseung doesnât move.
For once, heâs a coward.
He shoves it down, buries it deep, treating his own wolf like a disease he refuses to catch.
Heeseung blinks at the ceiling in an active effort to not start looking for you and staring at you like a creep. This time, he wonders quietly why your scent smells stronger than before. Perhaps the adrenaline from your routine. But even so, you donât only smell strong, but you also smell closerâ
âFree cookies!â
Heeseung jolts in surprise and whips his head in the direction of that voice. Or, precisely, your voice. His heart, as if trying to shorten his life span, decides not to take a break from the session just now and continues beating even faster.
There, just a few paces away from him, is you, standing in the middle of the court with one of your cheerleader friends. In her hold, thereâs a purple Tupperware, its lid nowhere to be found. You stand slightly behind your friend, shyly looking over her shoulders as she talks to his teammates.
âOh my God, they brought us cookies?!â Jay is already standing up, stretching lazily like a cat. âCâmon, Hee. Itâs free cookies.â
Heeseungâs quick to refuse, despite his wolf begging him to go. âNahââ
But before he can spit out any excuses, Jay is already dragging him, his weeks spent in the gym working out with Riki are finally paying off. âDonât be ridiculous. Take your portion and give it to me.â
Heeseung groans. He really should start joining their workout session. He canât be manhandled by his two best friends easily like this.
Distracted, Heeseung fails to register the decreasing distance between you and him. Itâs only when your scent spikes sweetly, which hits him in the face like a fucking tidal wave, does he catch your eyes and realises that, fuckfuckfuck sheâs here ohmyGodâ
âHi, Jay. Hi, Heeseung.â
Wait hold on, why does his name sound even more beautiful coming from your voice?
He stands like a flag pole beside Jay, actively avoiding your eyes while being fully aware of that pretty pair staring at his face. The floor suddenly looks very interesting, with skid marks from their shoes and some sweat trails. Okay. Ew. Thatâs gross.
âHey, pretty ladies.â Jay greets, flashing his attractive smile as he gestures at the container. âHeard thereâs free cookies for the taking? Mind if we have some?âÂ
Smooth as ever, Jay doesnât even realise how easily he has charmed your friend with his simple greeting. Poor omega is already blinking rapidly, almost bouncing on her toes as she practically shoves the Tupperware into Jayâs chest.Â
âYes! Yes, of course you can, Jay. Thereâs only little left! Take them all!â
Your eyes, fixated on Heeseung since he arrived, tries to search his face as you shyly interrupt, whispering into your friendâs ear.Â
âOffer some to Heeseung tooâŚâ
Heeseung doesnât know whether to curse or thank the Goddess for his advanced dominant-alpha senses, because overhearing those wordsâŚit makes his chest feel warm and tight at the same time.
But your friend doesnât pay you any mind, urging Jay to take the Tupperware from her. Jay, ever the gentleman but still a little shameless shit when it comes to food, takes it from her eager hands. He takes one bite and immediately lights up.
âThis is so good! I love that itâs not too sweet.â
Like a mirror reflecting light, you beam widely, returning Jayâs enthusiasm. Heeseung tries to ignore the ugly twist in his chest. âReally? ThatâsâŚgood to hear.â
âShe made these, by the way!â Your friend proudly announces, which makes red blooms across your cheeks, ducking your head down slightly. Youâre so shy, so pretty, Heeseung canât stop staring.
And so good at baking. Such a perfect omega, his wolf continues. Shut the fuck up, Heeseung hisses.
âYouâre really good at this, Y/N,â Jay interrupts his internal war, his voice sounding wrong in his ears. âCare to share the recipe?â
Now, is Jay flirting with you? Since when does his voice sound like that?
Heeseung tries to inhale, attempting to calm his fucking irrational wolf down, but all he can smell is the sugary scent of yours, tangling delicately and blending seamlessly with his spicy cinnamon and salty sea breeze. Somewhere in his chest, his heartstrings soften, drunk in the perfect mix of your pheromones, a ghost of a mark from last night.Â
Maybe thatâs what possessed him to snatch the Tupperware from Jay.
Heeseung wastes no time and starts munching two cookies at once, ignoring the gasps from you and your friend and the bombastic side-eye from his fellow alpha friend. The flavour of buttery vanilla and sweet chocolate chips melt on his tongue and Heeseung almost purrs at the taste.
Outside, he makes an effort to look calm.
âThese are good,â he comments coolly, trying to make it sound more like a statement than a compliment (heâs failing). This time, he dares himself to meet your eyes, and has to force down another purr when he sees the sparkles in your eyes. âThank you, Y/N.â
Thereâs a strange satisfaction blooming in his chest when the blush in your cheeks deepen. You quickly look down to the floor, mumbling softly that couldâve been missed had it not been for his senses.
What kind of pull is this? Why is every sense of his attuned to you? Heeseung swears he can smell the subtle spike of your scent, the sound of your heartbeat and your soft breathing. Itâs like his whole body has decided that it wants to worship you.
And Heeseung doesnât worship. Fuck. This is terrifying.
âThank you, HeeseungâŚâ
There. Your voice again. Heeseung swallows. His grip on the Tupperware tightens. Seeing you under this light, flushed and softly smiling to the ground while sneaking glances at himâit undoes him in ways he never dared imagine.Â
The question is already at the tip of his tongue without his realisation. âAre you okay? Does what happened last night still bother you?â The urge to comfort and soothe, now growing like a rolling snowball, threatening to spill from his mouth.
And the scary part is: Heeseung isnât sure if that desire comes from his wolf or himself.
However, he never gets the chance to, because Jay with his perfect, universe-timing is already pulling him backwards. âThank you for the cookies! Weâll eat them well!â
Heeseung reluctantly nods, the grip he has on the Tupperware turning knuckle-white.
âWhat the fuck was that?â Jay whisper-yells when theyâre out of earshot, walking back to their previous spot. âAnd those are not only for you. Give them back to me!â
Heeseung dodges his grabby hand. âWhy the fuck are you eating more?â He asks, failing to mask the bitterness in his voice.
âDidnât they give all ten of them to us?â
âYouâve had two.â
âAnd youâve had five!â
âI donât care. These are mine.â
âYou are being ridiculous.â
Thatâs what it takes for Heeseung to freeze in his tracks. Seeing an opening, Jay quickly snatches the Tupperware from his grasp and runs back to his spot on the bench, not forgetting to flip off the burgundy-haired alpha as he does so.
Heeseung is losing his fucking mind.
Sighing, Heeseung closes his eyes, a faint trail of daisies and honey still clinging to his senses. Even across the room, among the murmur of the gossiping cheerleaders, itâs your voice, the only one clear and crisp to his ears.Â
Iâm being ridiculous.
This isnât me.
Slowly, his human side starts taking over, all flowery images of you vanish within seconds.
Fuck, he curses. He wishes this scent-marking will be gone by tomorrow morning.
Three mornings later, much to his dismay, your scent still clings to him. On the bright side, it has been notably fading, now only the remnants of daisies and honey underneath cinnamon and sea air; like crunched petals along the shoreline, waiting to be washed away.
Against his own judgment, however, his wolf is fucking devastated.
Heâs been whining like a kicked puppy ever since he walked to practice this morning and couldnât smell his scent on you instantly. He still can spot you from two buildings away, which is still strange, but the lack of spice and salt in your scent is what does it. Heeseung has to fight the urge to march towards you and start scenting you.
His wolf has been restless. And, inevitably, it puts Heeseung in a terrible mood, too. He never knew his wolf was that desperate.Â
Practice ends late that night. With the tournament just around the corner, everyone is being a little shit at managing their emotions and competitiveness on the courtâthe downside of having an all-alpha team that people rarely talk about.Â
Heeseung is not excluded from the equation, though. He almost threw the ball to Taesanâs knot and made his omega pups-less and pregnancy-free when he accidentally made a bad pass. The court had smelled like tension and a barely held-together brotherhood when he left before a cheerleader came up to him to flirt and he wasted no time to drag her to an empty classroom.
Now, Heeseung finds himself making out with that omega, tongue licking up into her mouth while she breathlessly moans into his. Itâs been five days since his last fuck, and while he usually can go on without sex for weeks (one month was his best record), heâs been at his witâs end today. Add the confusion and silent wars heâs been having about you into the mix, and Heeseung is nothing more than a stressed body waiting to be relieved.
Weirdly enough, the frustration he hopes to get rid of stays as frustration. The old sparks he usually feels when having this intimate moment with an omega seems to disappear tonight. In the back of his mind, like a looming cloud carrying a storm, is a hazy image of teary eyes and red, trembling lips.
Something stirs uneasily in his chest.
His huge, veiny hands slip under her skirt and find purchase on her cunt, gathering the slick leaking from her arousal. Her scent spikes as she bucks up her hips and, to Heeseungâs own surprise, he recoils from the smell of it and breaks the kiss. The girl doesnât stop her advances, switching to kiss down his long neck instead.
He subconsciously scrunches up his nose, his finger halting its movement for a second.Â
âWhat perfume are you wearing?â He asks, voice hoarse from the makeout session. He tilts his head back, allowing access and finding stimulation, but the usual thrill is a bit dull tonight.
âMy pheromones,â she manages between kisses, âyou like it?â
Itâs quite the opposite, to be honest. Heeseung finds himself hating it. Itâs too sweet. Too sharp. It sits wrong in his nose, burns at the back of his throat, like inhaling smoke for the first time. His eyes water.
Thereâs something wrong. Heâs not enjoying this.Â
And to make things worse and more confusing, his chest hurts. It constricts, like his lungs decide to shrink into a ball of unexplained pain. Heeseungâs breath stutters, almost doubling over. His mind is a frantic buzz of noise, chanting something that he canât seem to fully register yet.
Not my omega. Not daisies. Not honey.
Heeseung feels something twist in his gut.
The nameless omegaâhe forgot to ask for her nameâdoesnât notice the shift yet, the way Heeseung is already a frozen statue of confusion and frustration in her embrace. She continues, trailing down hot, wet kisses along the prominent line of his collarbone and sucks the tender skin.Â
âOw!â Heeseung yelps, instinctively pushing her away. The spot stings like a pulsing heartbeat, void of any pleasure that it usually would give. He staggers backwards once.
The girl frowns, clearly not happy being pushed like that. âWhatâs wrong? Is everything alright?â
âIââ Heeseung hisses, his shirt sitting wrong on his skin, her scent smelling wrong in his nose. He shakes his head. âShit. Iâm sorry, IâI have somewhere to be.âÂ
The girl scoffs, disbelieving. âWhat?! Heeseung, you canât justââ
But Heeseung can, and he already does. The alpha is out of the room in the next minute, deliberately the calls of his name and the strings of insults that come from behind him. He makes a run for it.
What the fuck did just happen? Heeseung is never one to refuse a good time with omega, but his wolf is quiet tonight. Too quiet, like itâs being silent on purpose in solidarity for something heâs yet to knowâor yet to realise.Â
The hazy image comes back to his mind, slowly becoming sharp and clear. Heeseung thinks his lungs have turned into bricks when he realises that heâs been imagining you. That his head has been loud with the thoughts of you, even when heâs with someone else.
Why? Why is this happening? Why you?
Heeseung makes a turn to where the locker room is, planning to grab his duffel and leave, when he bumps into Riki and Jay, freshly out of the shower.
âHeeseung hyung?â A shirtless Riki calls his name, then raises a brow when he sees his condition. âWas wondering where you were. But those lipstick stains told me enough.â
Heeseung wipes his neck harshly. Wordlessly, he yanks his locker open and checks himself out in a mirror. He turns his face left and right, yanking down his under eyes, then sighs. Riki and Jay exchange looks. The air is slowly thickening with the pheromones of a distressed alpha, coming from none other than Heeseung.
âYou good, mate?â Jay decides to ask him. Heeseung doesnât know. He doesnât think heâs as good as he wants himself to be. The alpha lets out another sigh and slams the door closed.
âI think something is definitely wrong with me.â
âIs it practice?â Jay softens his voice, already switching on his therapist-friend mode. âHee, todayâs just that day. Everybody was losing their shits, itâs not just you.â
Heeseung leans his back on the locker and tilts his head upwards. âItâs not that. I mean it biologically. Ever sinceââ Heeseung pauses, suddenly unsure if saying out loud would make things right. But Riki and Jay have already caught onto it.
âEver since what?â
Heeseung chooses to deflect. âLook, I was trying to make out with this one pretty omega just now. But no matter how much kissing we did, I just couldnât enjoy it.â Heeseung points to his sweatpants. Riki and Jay curiously follow with their eyes. âShe was practically sucking my tongue and Iâm not even bricked up, man!â
Riki furrows his eyebrows. âNot even a spark?â
Heeseung shakes his head. âI couldnât feel anything. At all. Only,â he swallows harshly. âI only felt disgusted. By her.â
Silence hangs in the room at his revelation. Rikiâs expression morphs into something akin to genuine surprise, while Jay only stares at him with a gaping mouth before he starts typing on his phone.
âThis is dead serious. You canât have sex without your dick. That's like a banana cake without bananas.â
Heeseung and Riki grimace. âPlease donât ever compare my dick to a banana again.â
âOr a banana cake.â Riki slaps his shoulder. âThatâs my favourite, hyung. Donât be gross.â
Jay waves a dismissive hand, eyes still glued on his phone. âRight, right. Anyway, I texted Sunoo.â
Heeseungâs eyes go wide like saucer plates at the name and groans. âSunoo?! Jay, you know heâs still mad at me.â
âI know, but heâs the only one who probably knows the answer to this.â Jay smacks his lips when he reads a new text from Sunoo. âHeâs staying back for a lab session. Letâs go to the medicine building.â
And thatâs how Heeseung finds himself cramped into a tiny booth of a ramyeon stall, located by the road near the faculty of medicine. A pouty Sunoo is sitting across from him, shooting him his foxy side-eyes as he whines at Jay.
âJay hyung, why did you bring this traitor with you?â Sunoo pulls at the sleeves of Jayâs hoodie, sulking away from Heeseung. Itâs only the three of them since Riki had gone home with his girlfriend just now. âI thought the three of us would include you, me, and Riki.â
Jay sighs exasperatedly. âI had to, Sunoo. That traitor is having a critical dick malfunction and he needs your help.â
The waitress arrives with three bowls of steaming ramyeon. Jay and Sunoo pause their not-so-quiet argument and help her place the bowls on their table. She clears her throat awkwardly, and takes a quick glance at Heeseung before leaving. Heeseung groans internally.
Great. Now words about him and his dick problem will spread around the campus.
âIs STD finally catching up with you?âÂ
Heeseung should know that it was never that easy to get Sunoo off his back. That boy is a professional pouty sulk-er, heâll never let Heeseung go easily. Not after harassing him with his sass, at least. Heeseung holds back a sigh, already resigned and defeated.
With a grim voice, he apologises to the brown-haired alpha. For the fifth time.Â
âSunoo, I am so sorry. I know it was my fault, but for the record, I didnât know you were serious about pretending to be an omega. Why would you even do that, anyway?â
âBecause I like the attention!â Sunoo is fast to defend himself, his pout only deepening. âAnd because alphas will only spoil me if I was their pretty little soft omegaâwhich I am not! And you exposing my secondary gender to that alpha just ruined my chance to be with him. Who would even call their friend, âmy cutie little fake omegaâ, anyway?!â
âI was drunk!â
âA drunk traitor is still a traitor!â
Heeseung turns to Jay, sending him signals to help him out. But his best friend deliberately ignores him, too engrossed in his own bowl, pretending to be a wall. Heeseung rolls his eyes and looks back at Sunoo.
It might not be that easy to console the sulky boy, but Heeseung is labelled a sweet talker for a reason.
âYouâre already a pretty alpha, Sunoo. Prettier than any omega I know. Anyone would drop everything for you even if they knew you werenât an omega.â
Like a switch being flipped, the frown on Sunooâs melts away, replaced by a beam so wide it shows off his perfect teeth.
âAw, Heeseungie hyung. Youâre now forgiven. Now tell me about this dick problem of yours.â
Jay and Heeseung look at each other and relax into their chairs in relief. Heeseung sends him a look of, âThat was easy,â to which Jay raises his eyebrow, âWhy hadnât you done it sooner?â
Now, with Sunoo not threatening to kill the burgundy-haired alpha anymore, Heeseung can finally enjoy a few bites of his untouched ramyeon. Itâs already a bit cold and soggy, but the broth makes up for it. He retells the story to Sunoo between bites, watching the ever expressive boy react to it with various expressions.
âItâs not uncommon, though. But since itâs you, it must have felt very concerning.â Sunoo hums in thought, tapping his full lips with the thinnest tips of his chopsticks. âWell, Heeseungie hyung, did you imprint on any omegas?â
Heeseung hesitates for a moment before he shakes his head, feeling Jayâs eyes on him.
âNo.â
âHm, okay. Even if itâs due to imprints, it has to come from both sides,â Sunoo rubs his chin, now looking every bit a live action of Detective Conan, minus the glasses. âDid you conjure a bond with anyone? Maybe accidentally?â
Heeseungâs lips part. âIâŚwouldâve known, right?â
âRight.â Sunoo nods firmly, then tilts his head. âDid you scent one of your hookups, then?â
âAn almost-hookup,â Jay cuts in, clearly enjoying this interrogation. Heeseung shoots him a look. Jay is always out to rat him out and heâs actually so close to disowning him.
He grunts. âJustâŚsomeone.â
Sunoo smiles in amusement. âSo you did scent someone. Was it someone you like?â
âDefine like.â
âLike them enough to want to kiss them. Like them enough to want to fuck them. Like them enough to even want to scent them to begin with.â Sunoo shrugs. âPick one.â
Heeseung closes his eyes. Does he like you? Wanting to kiss and fuck someone donât equal to liking them. Because if that was true, then thereâs no other explanation to Heeseung âlikingâ every omega he has fucked other than him having an insanely big heartâwhich he doesnât. He liked the sex and their company; that was all there was to it.
Which leaves him option number three.Â
Heeseungâs never the guy to sit with his feelingsâat least not the romantic kind. Youâre an unfamiliar territory; something that he deliberately avoids his entire life, simply because he never sees settling down with a mate as a desirable goal or accomplishment. And, perfectly hidden under his fuckboy persona is also a thin layer of fear.
Fear of getting hurt by the thing thatâs supposed to be love.
But does he like you?
Maybe he does. Heâs always liked the way you laugh; you always cover your mouth with one hand when you do, like your smile is only visible in the privacy of those who really know you. Heâs always noticed the way you touch the tip of your nose when peopleâs eyes are on you. Heâs always thought the natural blush that you have when youâre shy is adorable.
In that one single minute, Heeseung realises that heâs been paying attention to you more than he thought he did.
Fuck. He does like you.
But does liking have to lead to being mated?
That responsibility is way taller and heavier than him and Heeseung is beyond freaked out.
âEarth to Heeseungie hyung?â
âWhy does it even matter? What does it even have to do with me not getting a boner during a makeout session?â Heeseung demands, frustration bleeding into his voice. Is Sunoo punishing him for being the reason he fumbled that tall, hot alpha two weeks ago? Will Sunoo truly ever forgive him? He already apologised five times!
Sunoo, seeing enough of his hyungâs suffering, finally relents. âGeez, relax. I wasnât playing with you. I asked because most of the time this happens,â he gestures at Heeseung and his crotch. Heeseung instinctively closes his long legs. âItâs because the wolf has already liked one omega. An omega they recognise as their mate. Itâs the only explanation why you felt disgusted just now.â
Mate. That cursed word again. Beside Sunoo, Jay is whistling.
âSorry. You mean my wolf, my alpha, likes one omega and decides I shouldnât fuck around anymore?â
Sunoo nods. âBasically, yeah. But it usually isnât that easy, hyung. A bond has to have been conjured between your wolf and their wolf by any kind of markings.â
âLike?â
âLike biting. Or scenting.â
Scenting. Heeseung didnât just do scenting with you, he was scent-marking you.
âBut thatâs impossible,â Jay interrupts, confusion etching onto his handsome features. His leaning forward now, his empty bowl pushed to the center of the table, which reminds Heeseung of his own bowl. The alpha quickly finishes his noodles. âScenting between unmated alpha and unmated omega will only conjure a temporary, fragile bond. It shouldâve been gone by nowâthe scenting happened five days ago.â
âAre you sure about that? Because I can detect some floral scent in Heeseungie hyungâs pheromones.â
Heeseung almost chokes on his noodles. âYou do?â
Sunoo leans forward, squinting his eyes at him like heâs some kind of lab specimen. âYeah. Itâs faint, but itâs there. Sweet. Floral. Clingy.â He tilts his head again. âItâs weird.â
Across from him, Heeseung is frozen. His grip on the chopsticks tightens. He swallows harshly.
âThatâs not supposed to happenâŚright?â
âExactly,â Sunoo points at him. âThatâs why Iâm saying itâs weird.â
Jay leans back, arms crossed. âBut if itâs still there after five daysââ
âIt doesnât automatically mean fated mates,â Sunoo cuts in quickly, tone sharper this time. He shoots Jay a look before turning back to Heeseung. âDonât jump to that conclusion. Thatâs, like, extremely rare. And also very dramatic.â
Heeseung exhales, shoulders dropping just a little.
Right. Dramatic. His alpha begs to differ.
âIt could just be a stronger-than-usual temporary bond,â Sunoo continues, more thoughtful now. âMaybe your alpha overdid it when you scented them. Or the omega was in a heightened emotional state, so the bond lasted longer.â
Jay hums, not entirely convinced.
âBut the whole not getting turned on thing?â He gestures vaguely. âThat still doesnât explain it fully.â
Sunoo taps his chin again. âMhm. That partâs interesting.â He levels Heeseung with a curious look. âWho is this girl, anyway? You seem pretty fucked over her.â
Heeseung groans, dragging a hand down his face. âCan you not say it like that? Like Iâm some kind of a broken alpha?â
âYou kinda are right now,â Sunoo says bluntly.
âSunoo.â
âIâm serious!â He leans forward again, eyes lighting up. âYour body is rejecting other omegas. Thatâs not normal for you. Like, at all.â
Heeseung slumps deeper into his seat. As if itâs not already obvious enough, Sunoo just had to spell it out loud.
âI noticed,â he mutters, defeated.
Sunoo softens slightly at that, sighing as he rests his chin on his palm. âOkay. Look. Donât panic yet.â
âIâm not panicking.â
âYouâre literally here because your dick stopped working.â
ââŚOkay, Iâm a little panicked.â
Sunoo waves his chopsticks dismissively. âItâs probably not fated mates. If it were, youâd be way worse right now.â
Heeseung stills. âWorse?â
âYeah,â Sunoo shrugs. âYouâd be obsessing. Unable to stay away. Your senses would go crazy. Youâd feel everything they feel, more or less.â
Jay slowly turns to look at Heeseung. Heeseung immediately avoids his gaze. That fucker is always eager to catch his âGotcha!â moment, it irritates him to the core.
âThat doesnât sound like me,â he says a bit too quickly, the lie tasting acidic on his tongue.
Sunoo mustn't know about the knot of uneasiness in his chest. Sunoo mustnât know about the face that comes to his mind when heâs kissing someone else. None of his friends must know that heâs obsessing right now, itching to flee and find you in the middle of the night.
âExactly,â Sunoo nods, unaware of his friendâs turmoil. âSo relax. Iâll look into it more, yeah? Might be some weird hormonal response or delayed imprint reaction.â
Heeseung lets out a breath he didnât realise he was holding.
âYeah,â he mutters. âYeah, okay.â
âOr you can do a try-and-error,â Sunoo suggests, reaching over to pat Heeseungâs shoulder. âJust do what you always doâtry hooking up with different omegas. Maybe the one you made out with tonight was just a bad compatibility for you.â
Heeseung perks up at that. Sunoo and Jay, not noticing the shift in the air, are already moving forward with a different topic, completely oblivious to the newly-lit determination now burning up his body.
Just do what you always do.
Right. Heeseung has a high body count for a reason. He decides, with a final resolution, that he should solve this his own way.
If Heeseung spends every night for the next two weeks trying to bed different omegas, Sunoo and Jay donât have to know.
If Heeseung fails each time, unable to enjoy every kiss and friction, Sunoo and Jay don't have to know.
If the pain in his chest worsens every time he leaves the barely-warm beds, Sunoo and Jay donât have to know.
If Heeseung avoids looking at you, avoids bumping into you, avoids speaking to youâhe hopes you donât know about it.
A quiet voice from his wolf whispers something that he refuses to acknowledge: He hopes youâll forgive him for being unfaithful.
Youâve been sick for two weeks.Â
At first it was subtle, like a faint throb in your heart that makes you stop whatever youâre doing. The first time it happened, you were in the middle of a group discussion for an elective subject.Â
A quiet alpha, or a wolf hybrid named Sunghoon, to be exact, had noticed the way you winced from the pain. He didnât say anything, but you guessed he told an omega about what he saw because right before you exited the library, one of the girls had passed you a free menstrual pad.
He thought you were experiencing period cramps. You wished it was just period cramps.
Then, it gradually grew to something worse. A sudden stabbing pain in your chest. A twist in your gut, like you were expecting something bad to happen. Sometimes it was random palpitations, where your heart was skipping huge beats, as if you were about to go down on a roller coaster.
Each time it happened, you only placed your palm over your heart, hoping itâd go away. You never understood why, but those pains only came at night, preventing you from getting any good sleep and rest. And each time you tried to close your eyes, there was only one face flashing behind your eyelids.
Heeseung.
Yujin had dragged you to the clinic, but the doctor came to a conclusion that you were just having pre-heat symptomsâwhich couldnât be further from the truth, because you just had your cycle one month ago. Youâre not supposed to go on your quarterly-cycle of torture for another two months.
âOh my Goddess, youâre burning up.â Yujinâs palm is cold against your forehead. Her face is pulled into a tight expression. âLetâs just skip todayâs classes, okay? Iâll stay with you.â
You weakly nod, barely registering Yujinâs movement around the room. Your body feels like a furnace, the heat simmering in your veins almost rivaling a volcanoâs lava. You discard the blanket to get some sort of relief, only to shiver in the cold when the air touches your skin.
After a few minutes of exiting and entering your room, Yujin finally sits by your bed. She helps you with a glass of water and a dosage of paracetamol, careful to wipe any loose drops like a concerned mother. It doesnât get better, but at least your throat doesnât feel like itâs being scrubbed with sandpaper anymore.
âHowâre you feeling now?â
âDying, but a bit less dramatic.â
âGood. Wouldnât want to give Suho from True Beauty a run for his money, would we?â
You chuckle softly, though it sounds more like a seal with a sore throat.
âBut seriously, though. Itâs been two weeks.â Yujin purses her lips, the worriness still marring her beautiful face. âIâm so worried, Y/N. Whatâs happening to you?â
You donât answer right away. âItâs my omega.â
Yujinâs eyebrow jumps. âWhat about her?â
You also wonder the same thing. Swallowing, you finally let your friend in on the torturous days you have been going through. âOne night, after our practice ran quite late two weeks ago, she went a bit hysteric. I couldnât stop vomiting.â You recalled, eyes distant in memory. âShe kept yelling something about a traitor, about rejection. I donât know, really. But thatâs how it started.â
âTwo weeks ago, at night, you say?â
âYeah. Why?â
Yujin is quiet for a few extended minutes, caressing her thumb over your knuckles. The motion puts you at ease, and slowly, you feel the pills begin working their chemicals.
âDid you, perhaps, hear about anything that happened that night?â You shake your head, unsure if your cheerleader squad had mentioned anything. Yujin hums. âBecause I think I did.â
âWhat?â
âSo Iâm friends with this one omega named Sunoo from my faculty. A pretty boy and a petty gossiper.â Yujin starts, now treading her words slowly as if walking on eggshells. âHe knows everyone on this campus. Especially the hot stuff, you knowâstudent body, athletes, cheerleaders.â Yujin eyes you but not unkindly. âHe knows you too. Just the basic stuff.â
âLike?â
âYour name, your major, your Instagram account.â
You let out a breath, a bit unsure where this is heading, but listen anyway. âOkay.â
âAnd because of his impeccable knowledge of gossip, I heard from him about a cheerleader breaking down in the group chat after a certain alpha left her mid-making out, all slicked and horny while he didnât even pop a borner.â
You hold onto her every word, but for some reason, a dread has settled deep in your bones, like your body is already anticipating some bad news. Your heart, previously beating fast, is now sprinting like it might escape your rib now.
âAnd that alpha was Heeseung.â
It hits before you can even think.
A sharp, twisting pain lances through your chest, knocking the air out of your lungs like youâve been struck. Your fingers curl into the sheets, clutching at nothing.
Your omega whinesâhurt, betrayed. And suddenly, you understand why. The cries about betrayal. His face haunts you every night, like a painful reminder of the destiny you're subjected to.
You try to swallow once, then twice, before you find your voice back.
âHeeseung?â You try. His name now tastes bitter on your tongue.
Yujin, ever the empathetic, senses it, and tightens her hold on your hand. âYeah,â she nods. She lets a moment of quiet pass, fidgeting and swallowing like you. Like the news has more stories that sheâs yet to tell; an extended part to a nightmare thatâs been keeping you up at night. You brace yourself.
âAnd two nights ago I saw him at Jakeâs frat party with a girl. Doing sexy stuff. The usual.â Yujin canât look at your face, choosing to stare at your intertwined hands instead. âThe frat boys told me that heâs been at it almost every night. For two weeks.â
Is it possible to hurt someone this much in a span of five minutes? Getting shot multiple times wouldâve hurt less than this.
Thereâs a heavy silence, then thereâs your small, quiet voice, laced with unfiltered hurt.
âWhat does this have to do with me?â
âIâm saying, Y/N, that you might be facing bond rejection symptoms right now.â Yujin licks her lips. âIâm saying that you and Heeseung just might be fated mates. That night he scented you? You guys conjured a half-bond. And him fucking around with other omegas like this hurts your wolf because she knowsâonly this kind of bond can do that.â
Is having a fated mate supposed to hurt like this? Like your chest is caving in, collapsing under the torment of unwanted love. Can you even call it love? Whatever it is that you and Heeseung unknowingly have been sharingâIs it even love?
Itâs not. Itâs justâŚfate.
You shake your head. Thereâs hot pain behind your eyes, a sign of an impending doom. âThis doesnât make any sense.â
âItâs okay. Itâs a lot to take in.â
A drop of tears rolls down your face and in the next blink, everything is already blurry. âIâI think I already knew it.â Your voice is wet from despair, the pain almost feels tangible. âHe never meets my eyes anymore andâand every time I see him, I feel like I might die.â
A warm pair of arms pulls you close, and instantly the scent of green tea fills up your senses. Your roommate holds you tight, letting you rest your head in the crook of her neck as you sob into her chest.Â
Your wolf, the contradict that she is, hopes that it was Heeseung embracing you. Still hoping it was the alpha comforting you, soothing you with his voice and that calming pheromones of his. Still foolishly longing for him despite everything.
You feel pathetic.
Your crying subsides after a while, still curling up against Yujin like a hurt puppy. Youâre already losing track of time, if itâs still proper to have breakfast or if itâs already time for lunch. It is Yujin who finally speaks first.
âDo you hate it?â
You let the question linger in the air, turning it over in your thoughts like what youâve been doing the past hour since you woke up. âI donât hate the bond. Nor him.â
You pause, gnawing at your lower lip. Then you exhale.
âI just hate that I was never given a chance to do this properly.â
Yujin pulls away and makes you face her. She wipes your tears using her sleeves, murmuring sweet words as you feel your chest slightly loosening at her kind gesture. âYou might still have it. Go and talk to him, Y/N. If heâs avoiding you like this, he mightâve felt something too, right?â
âIf heâs avoiding me like this, he might just not want anything to do with me.â A humourless chuckle escapes your lips. âAnd to think that I thought I had a chance.â
âWait, I never asked you this. Do you like Heeseung? Both of you; your wolf and you.â
You donât answer right away. The question sits between the two of you, heavy and fragile; like a mark refusing to be looked over.Â
Do you like Heeseung?
Your wolf stirs immediately. Yes, I like him.
The answer is quick. Certain. Definite.Â
But you purse your lips, forcing yourself to think harder, deeper. Forcing yourself to think about you, not her. You can only come to one conclusion.
âI donât know,â you whisper, honest. It sounds weak even to your ears. Beside you, Yujin keeps rubbing small, grounding circles over your hand.
âI already know my omega likes him,â you admit softly. âShe decided that the moment he stayed and took care of me that night.â
Oh, how pathetic is it to fall for someone for doing something as mundane as staying and taking care of you?
Itâs laughable. But it makes your chest ache even more, like your heart was an empty can and fate was crushing it with its tight grip.
âBut meâŚâ you continue, voice quieter now, âI donât even know him like that.â
You shake your head, frustration flickering through your expression.
âI donât know what heâs like when heâs not surrounded by people, or when heâs notââ you gesture vaguely, like you can scoop up every rumour tied to his name. âThat version of him everyone talks about.â
You stare at your hands. âBut I wanted to.â
Yujin follows, voice soft. âWanted to?â
âI wanted to get to know him,â you continue, voice trembling. âWhen I first found out how my wolf feels for him, I thought it could be like how Iâve always imagined having a fated mate would be: slowly falling in love with them. With him.â
A wistful smile graces your beautiful features, soft and vulnerable. âI wanted to know which game he remembers the most. I wanted to know if the number on his jersey means anything. Silly things like that. Not this.â
Your hand moves to your chest unconsciously, rubbing the surface softly.
âNot like this. Not when it hurts every time Iââ you cut yourself off, breath shaking. âNot when it hurts every time I look at him.â
You still remember, after one grueling routine, when the pain was still kind enough to let you come to practice. The players had just finished their practice too, slicked with sweat and looking exhausted as ever. Among the tired alphas, your eyes locked onto Heeseungâs.
You had the instincts to go to him and pass him the cold mineral youâd unknowingly saved for him. But the look in his eyesâit was unreadable. Cold. An abyss that was enough to make you stay rooted in your place.
Then, without even a graze of a smile, he looked away, taking a bottle from Rikiâs hand.
It had hurt more than youâd like to admit.
âI thinkâŚâ you try again, more carefully this time. âIf things were different, I wouldâve liked him.â
Your throat tightens. This time, youâre reminded of that night before everything turned cruel like this. The warmth of his embrace that lingered. The spice of his scent that clung. The safety of his company that comforted you.Â
Was any of it real?
âAnd if things were the sameâŚI think I would've still liked him anyway.â
Thatâs the truth. A quiet, terrifying truth that settles deep in your chest like an unshakeable ground. The kind of truth that makes even your most grounding friend sit still in your bed.
âAnd thatâs what makes it worse,â you whisper.
Because now itâs not just your omega.
Itâs you, too.
The one-week intervarsity basketball tournament has finally begun. Around seven universities have sent their representatives, leading to a flood of humans in different-coloured jerseys wandering around on your campus, its official host.Â
Youâre excused from the whole weekâs classes, seeing your cheerleaders and bunches of alphas more than you have ever seen your classmates since the tournament started. It was exciting at first, to participate in such a prestigious tournament that is always the talk of town. But the tight schedules between games is becoming more taxing and demanding.
It doesnât help that the bond rejection symptoms have only gotten worse, hindering you from giving your best potential at each routine. Which, of course, catches the attention of your captain, and sheâs not very amused with it.
âY/N. If youâre not telling me what is wrong with you, then donât make me find excuses to put you on the bleachers.â Narin once whispered to you on the third day of the tournament. You merely nodded, trying hard not to scrunch your noise at the sour smell of bubblegum and burnt cotton candy. She eyed you up and down, before she scoffed.
âDonât get too butt-hurt that Heeseungâs fucking other cheerleaders,â she grunted. You froze. âAt least you got your round that night. He fucking rejected me.â
What? The confusion must be clear on your face, because then Narin rolled her eyes, fixing the blue ribbon in her hair before she turned to face you.
âYou smelled like him for weeks, Y/N. Donât think people didnât know that you two fucked after they won against that eastern university that night.â And then she left, leaving a dumbfounded you in the hallway, standing still like a lifeless statue.
Realisation starts settling in. Did people think you and Heeseungâfuck. You shouldâve known.
No wonder many eyes were on you during those days when you still smelled like Heeseung. You thought it was just because Heeseung was one of the most sought after alphas on campus. Not this. Not whatever allegation this is.
Still, the bomb Narin had dropped wasnât enough to stop yourself from pushing yourself past your limits. You donât even know what your limits are anymore. They seem to keep expanding with every new pain that blooms in your chest.Â
Youâre still a bit sluggish, but at least Narin is off your back. Whatever bitterness she harbours for you, though not forgotten, is at least tamed on the last day of the tournament.
You knew she wouldnât understand, but you couldnât help it if the pain worsens. You wish, for once, that Heeseung would take it slow with the cheerleaders from the opposing teams. Because the pain has become unbearable; cracks turning into holes of emptiness in your heart, faint pulsing turning into straight-up invisible stabbing in your gut. Youâre actually surprised that youâre not already bleeding from how real it has felt.
However, deep down, thereâs a small, barely-there gratitude for Heeseung for not doing it in front of you. At least you can spare yourself from whatever possible torment this fate has destined for you to face if you had to watch Heeseung fucking another omega in the empty locker room.
But you guess itâs time you finally, actually reach your limit, and your body canât seem to be more dramatic to choose the last game as its last straw. As Heeseung hoops in the last score for the team, sealing their title as the champion, the audience erupts into the loudest cheer youâve ever heard. You quickly get to your feet to perform the celebratory routine, but the world is spinning and your head is light when you stand up. You stagger backwards.
âOh my Goddess, are you alright?â One of your cheerleader friends catches you in her arms, shaking you out of your pained daze.Â
âIâŚâ you cough, your voice only scratching at your throat. âI just need to. Sit. Yeah. I need to sit down and talk to Heeseung.â
âHeeseung?â The girl, who you finally recognise as Rei, looks over at the center of the court, where almost the whole school is hooting and hollering in joy. âWaitâlet me sit you down first. Youâre pale as hell, damn.â
You let out a breath you didnât know you were holding when youâre finally seated. Rei has passed you a bottle of mineral water and fans you with her pink hand-fan. She stays by your side, looking after you as the rest of the world celebrates the first champion of your university team. Youâre painfully grateful to her for it.
âHey. Can I call one of your friends? Or maybe, do you have an alpha I can contact?â Rei starts when youâre not speaking, too focused on not focusing on the pain to remember to talk. âYou asked for Heeseung just now. Is he your alpha?â
Is he?
You wish you knew the answer to that too.
Instead, you shake your head. âHeâs not my alpha. I justâŚneed to have a few words with him.â
Rei purses her lips, clearly not pleased with your priority at the moment but obliges anyway. âAlright. Let me text my cousin real quick.â She says, already rummaging inside her bag for her phone.
Her statement intrigues you. âCousin?â
âNishimura Riki. And heâs not replying. Gimme a sec.â You watch as Rei presses the call button on her phone and puts the device over her ear. You follow her line of sight as she turns to look at the court again. The crowd hasnât calmed down from the high of the win yet.
âHello, adopted fuck. I need you to read my text ASAPâNobodyâs stealing your girlfriend, Riki! You can go back to kissing her face after you read my textâOkay, okay! My friend, Y/N, needs to talk to Heeseung. President-level urgent.â Rei pauses, taking a quick look at you before she continues. âYes. It seems very important. Just get his ass here fast. YeahâCongrats, by the way. Iâm not buying you that Chrome Hearts chain. Bye.â
Rei sighs as she pockets her phone. âHeeseung will be here in five minutes. You good? Do you still need anything? I feel like I should call someone else. Youâre friends with Ahn Yujin, arenât you?â She rambles on. For someone who barely speaks to you, Rei sure is a caring omega.
You give her a small smile.âIâm alright, Rei. Iâll rest after seeing him.â
Rei hums, checking her phone when it vibrates. âAight, if you say so. Iâll be around here until they move to celebrate at Jakeâs frat tonight.â She gathers her stuff and stands up, brushing her pleated skirt with practiced elegance that you know is instilled in every cheerleaderâs demeanour.
âYou take care of yourself. And I better not see you at the party.â
âThank you, Rei.â You wave at her and watch as the lines of her frame get smaller, disappearing into the crowd.Â
Now alone, the weight of reality is finally hitting you square in the chest. You curse, pulling your hair when you realise your stupid, impulsive decision, made in the whim of desperation to get the pain go away.
âThis is stupid,â you whisper. Without thinking further, you grab your bag and stand to leave. But before you can flee the scene, a heavy presence with the familiar scent of spicy cinnamon and salty sea breeze drifts into your senses.
âY/N?â
The sound of your name leaving his lips has locked you in place. The haunting familiarity of his voice, one that follows you into your restless sleeps and every waking hour, engulfs you almost like the night he held you in his arms.
Except this time, thereâs a piercing pain in your heart that comes with his presence. A dull, throbbing ache thatâs been a constant company to you, manifested into the shape of the man that your wolf yearns for.
Lee Heeseung.
âY/N?â He repeats, but you donât dare to face him just yet. âRiki said you wanted to, uh, talk to me.â
Licking your dry lips, you turn to Heeseung, and the sight has almost rendered you breathless.
Heeseungâs still wearing his jersey, standing tall to his height like heâs dominating the air around him. His burgundy hair looks softer under the light, some small strands sticking to his forehead from sweat. His shoulders are squared up, still lined with pride and the high from winning the tournament. He looks at you calmly, but the edges of his eyes are somewhat gentler; if the lights werenât tricking your eyes.
You gulp, already losing the battle before it has even started. Why does he have to look so handsome?
You force yourself to say something. âYeah. I did. I mean, I do. Itâs important. I think.â
Heeseung is patient. If your nervousness is something unusual to him, he doesnât comment on it. After all, youâre indeed known as a shy girl among the cheerleaders.
âIâmâŚIâm going straight to the point and be honest with you.â Is this really happening? Youâre scared that if you were to speak more, your heart might leap out of your mouth from how hard it is pumping behind your ribs. You hold your bag tighter, trying to ground yourself.
âIâm listening,â he hums.
The words are simple. His voice is calm. Too calm, like heâs unaffected, like he doesnât have a clue about what youâre about to say. It almost makes you falter.
For a second, you just stare at him. At the same face your mind has been haunted for weeks, at the same eyes youâve been avoiding because they make everything feel too real.
Except everything is actually real. Youâre just not ready to admit it yet.
Your fingers curl tighter around your bag.
âDid youâŚfeel anything?â you ask, voice smaller than you intended. âThat night.â
Heeseungâs brows pull together, confused. âWhat do you mean?â
Your throat burns. Stop. Turn around. Leave.Â
âWhen you helped me,â you stubbornly continue, ignoring the self-preservation act your wolfâs pulling. âWhen you scented me. Did you feel something? Anything?â
Thereâs a shift in the air. Itâs subtle, almost imperceptible, but itâs there. Heeseungâs shoulders stiffen. His jaw tightens a fraction. A flash of something that leaves your heart hopeful crosses his face, but it leaves as soon as it comes.
âI was just helping you,â he finally says, almost too quickly. âYou were in a bad state.â
The ache in your chest pulses, turning alive with each passing second.
âI know that,â you nod, almost too fast, the throbbing in your head comes back. The headache is well-guaranteed after this, youâre sure of it. âI know. Iâm not saying you did anything wrong. I justâI just need to know if you felt it too.â
âFelt what?â
You stare at him. God, heâs really making you say it. Is he truly clueless or is he playing with you? Whatever he is trying to do, heâs succeeding at making you feel smaller andâŚdesperate.
âThe pull,â you whisper after a while, âthe connection.â
Silent stretches between the two of you. Heeseung returns your gaze, but his black eyes reveal nothing about his thoughts.Â
You try again. âYou felt it tooâŚright?â
There it is. For a fleeting second, you think you see it. That flicker in his eyes. The subtle hesitation. The twitch in his jaw. It almost makes you feel hopeful.
Heeseung exhales through his nose, running a hand through his hair.
âY/N,â he starts slower this time, like heâs choosing his words carefully. âThereâs no such thing as that.â
If your heart was made of lead, youâre sure itâd clang to the floor so loud for how fast it drops.
âWhat?â
âFated mates. Bond. Whatever youâre thinking.â He shakes his head, like heâs making a show of how ridiculous you sound. âThatâs not real.â
The cracks finally shatter, allowing a big, gaping hole filled with utter anguish to take place in where your heart used to reside. Your mouth opens. Then closes. Then opens.Â
âButââ you try, voice undeniably trembling now. âThen, what is this?â
Your hand presses weakly against your chest.
âWhy does it hurt like this? Why does,â your voice cracks, your omega thrashing wildly inside you, âwhy does it hurt so much?â
For a split second, panic flashes across his face. Thereâs a change in his scent. A sharp, biting spice thatâs stinging your nose and thick, briny salt that leaves your throat itchy.Â
Because he knows. He knows this isnât normal. He knows how he almost went psychosis the moment it happened to him three weeks ago.Â
But Heeseungâs always been good at leavingâitâs the one thing thatâs been keeping his heart in a safe chest without any chances of getting hurt. Itâs almost cruel that he never really cares if leaving right after sex would hurt any of the omegas, but heâs never felt bad enough to stop.
And you feel like someone who will make him stay.
So he does what he knows best.
âItâs in your head,â he says, firmer now. âProbably just your heat cycle messing with you. Or stress.â
The moment those words leave his mouth, your chest feels hollow. Your omega, previously hysterical and angry, is now awfully quiet and wounded.
Right. Itâs just stress, he said.
You wish it was just stress.
âOh,â is the only word you can utter. Heeseung nods, as if convincing himself too, and takes a step back.
But for you, it feels too much like a line being drawn.
âMaybe you should get some rest. You look kind of pale,â he suggests, though his voice is slowly getting small the longer he watches the changes in your expression. Youâre not looking at him now, just staring at your feet with trembling fists.
The wilting flowers are back in his senses, filling up his nose and beating at his heart like a bat. Heeseung bites his lips, swallowing down the guilt.Â
âIâll see you around, Y/N.â
The sight of his retreating backâŚwhy is it so blurry?
âYou are so fucking stupid, Heeseung.â
Heeseungâs always wondered how his best friendâs citrusy pheromones are going to smell like when heâs mad. Because Jay never gets mad at him. His friend has so much patience that every playful banter always stays as just a playful banter.
But tonight, Heeseung finally senses it. Jay smells bitter, like overripe lemon left too long in hot water. Thereâs a sharp, metallic tang to it too, representing the control that heâs trying so hard to keep in check. In response to the alphaâs irritated scent, Heeseungâs dominant wolf is itching to draw his claws out, sensing it as a threat.
Theyâre standing at the backyard of the frat house, where the pool is glowing blue and the night sky is blinking stars. Itâs quieter here, with less people hanging around. Many guests have preferred to dance inside, still in celebration mode post-winning.
âWhat the fuck were you thinking, trying to get into someone elseâs pants right after herâher confession?â Jay scoffs in disbelief. He has his back facing Heeseung, the tense muscle of his shoulders visible through the outline of his Polo shirt.Â
Heeseung, on the other hand, looks more disheveled. The collar of his shirt is misplaced, and there are faint lipstick marks staining his neck and the corner of his mouth. Jay had heard from Riki about what happened between Heeseung and you and the alpha was determined to drag Heeseung out of the bedroom, not before muttering a small apology to the omega he was with. It was all shouts and aggressive whispers between the two alphas until Riki managed to shoo them out.
Which brings them to this moment, where Jay is a ticking bomb and Heeseung is trying his best to calm down. Jay didnât exactly know who she was, just that heâd seen her face among the cheerleaders. While Heeseung, well, heâs too worked up to explain.
âConfession? What made you thinkââ
âYou guys are fated mates, Heeseung. Canât you fucking see it?â Jay whips his head around. âThis pull youâre feeling is because you guys are fated mates. Thereâs no other explanation to it.â
Heeseung clenches his jaw. âThose things donât exist, Jongseong. Not to me.â
âOh, come on. Then explain your sex problem.â Jay hisses, his eyes turning sharper. âYou think I donât know that you still canât get your dick wet with other omegas?â
The burgundy-haired alpha doesnât blink. âItâs none of your business.â
âIt is when she couldâve died!â Jay snaps, his scent flaring with his nose. Heeseung grits his teeth, feeling challenged.Â
Then, softer, like vulnerability leaking through his anger, Jay continues: âYou couldâve died, Heeseung.â
Heeseung stills. âWhat?â
Jay lets out a harsh laugh, running a hand through his hair. âYou think so little of this matter, donât you?â His voice drops, tight and furious. âA half-bond between fated mates when left too long can cause death. And with the speed youâre going with all these nameless omegas, I bet itâll be her turn to die first.â
Heeseung scoffs, but itâs weaker now. Thereâs a new fear settling in his chest. âYouâre being dramatic.â
âNo,â Jay cuts in sharply. âYouâre being stupid. I saw her just now. Sheâs pale as fuck.â
Heeseungâs quiet for a moment, staring into his friendâs eyes with almost the same amount of resentment. âIt has nothing to do with me.â
Like a punishment to his lie, something twists sharply in his chest. But Heeseung is quick to mask his pain under a calm facade, gritting his teeth so hard he might break his jaw. Jay scoffs and rolls his eyes.
âOh, so youâre doing this again.â Jay steps closer, not backing away. âYouâre running away again, like the coward that you are. Youâll just run and run, deflect and disappear. Typical Heeseung.â
Jay knows heâll hit a spot if he says it, but he couldnât care less. He watches as the expression on Heeseung hardens, giving away the emotions he kept locked in his chest.
âDonât.â
But Jay doesnât stop. Of course he doesnât.
âYou think I donât see it?â Jay presses, voice rising. âEvery time something starts to mean something, you bolt. New omega, new bed, new distractionâanything to avoid actually feeling something real.â
âThatâs notââ
âThatâs exactly what this is!â Jay gestures wildly, frustration spilling over. âYou found your mate, and instead of dealing with it, youâre out there fucking anything that moves just to prove youâre still in control.â
Silence slams between them, heavy and ugly. Both alphas are holding back from spiraling, neck straining from self-control and simmering anger.
Heeseungâs laugh this time is cold. âMate?â he repeats, like the word tastes disgusting. âYou really believe in that shit?â
Jay stares at him, disbelief flickering across his face. âI believe in whatâs right in front of me.â
âThereâs nothing in front of you,â Heeseung shoots back. âSheâs just an omega I helped. Thatâs it.â
âThen why her?â Jay fires immediately. âWhy can you find her in a crowd? Why does your scent stick to her for daysâfor weeks? Why canât you even touch another omega without looking like youâre about to throw up?â
Heeseung falters, his words failing him as Jay hits him with those facts. His shaky stance doesnât go unnoticed by the alpha, though. Heâs quick to seize the chance.
Jay inhales sharply. âYou know Iâm right, Heeseung. You and Y/N share a bond.â
âSo what?!â Heeseung snaps, frustration finally cracking through. âSo what if thereâs a bond? You want me to justâwhat? Drop everything? Play house? Act like Iâm suddenly someone Iâm not?â
Heeseung meets Jayâs fiery gaze head-on and shoves his friend harshly. âStay out of it, Jay. I swear to fucking God.â
âAnd what? Watch you let her die because you couldnât care less to acknowledge the bond?â Jay lets out a hollow laugh, pushing Heeseung back just as hard. âAnd then I watch you die?â
âShut the fuck up. You know nothing about this.â
Their scents clash; sharp citrus and aggressive spice filling up the space like a warning siren. It almost turns physical, Riki almost bursts through the door when he sees their chests almost touching. But it is Jay who stops first.
Not because he wants to. But because heâs thinking of you.
âMy parents are fated mates, Heeseung.â Jay starts, quieter, his voice losing its harsh edges. âDoesnât mean you donât believe in it, it isnât real to other people.â
Heeseung remains quiet, his chest still moving rapidly.
Jayâs eyes turn glassy. He retreats one more step away from Heeseung. âIf you donât want her, reject the bond properly,â he says, breathing hard. âYouâre letting someone know that you donât want her as your mate. At least have the decency to be kind about it.â
Jay unclenches his fists.
âDonât drag her through this half-assed bullshit where you keep hurting her just because you canât make a decision.â
Heeseung freezes. Out of all words being shouted tonight, it is this quiet resignation from Jay that hits his heart the hardest.
Am I being cruel? Heeseung lowers his gaze. Am I a coward?
Heeseung doesnât wait too long for an answer.
âStop being a coward, Heeseung. I beg you.â
The words hang between them, like unwanted vines curling around a trunk of a tree. Heeseungâs gaze stays rooted to the ground, trying to find his voice.
But he doesnât get the chance to.
â...Heeseung?â
Your voice, soft as it is, cuts through the air like a blade. Both alphas turn to where youâre standing by the door. The faint light spilling from the moon only highlights how pale your face is, void of any warmth and colour.
You stand there, one hand gripping the doorframe like itâs the only thing keeping you upright, your other pressed weakly against your chest. Your eyes, God, your eyes. Theyâre glassy, unfocused, yet locked onto him like youâve found something youâve been searching for your entire life.
Beside him, Heeseung can sense the way Jayâs body tenses the way his does.
âHeeseungâŚâ you call for him again and move to get closer.
But then you flinch. Your entire body recoils, your nose scrunches.Â
There, lingering around Heeseung like an unwanted mark, is a scent you know too well. Fruity bubblegum and cloying cotton candy; a scent that flashes pink in your head, turning into a female rage that hits too close to home. Your gaze catches the shape of someoneâs mouth staining his golden skin, and something inside you breaks.
Narin.
Heeseung smells like Narin.
Your hand instinctively goes to cover your nose, eyes slowly going wide. The room goes silent, holding its breath as Heeseung feels it.Â
The fleeting second where something inside you shatters.
Heeseung steps forward. âY/Nââ
But you retreat faster, away from him like heâs a disease that could kill you.Â
âNo,â your voice cracks, shaking your head as if trying to physically deny what your body is already registering. âNo, no, noâŚâ
Your breath comes out in shallow bursts, your fingers clawing at your shirt.Â
It hurts. It hurts so bad.Â
Itâs like every system in your body is collapsing, failing to cope with the ultimate rejection that comes in the scent of another woman. Your fist hits your chest, forcing the air to flow in because it suddenly feels almost impossible to breathe.
Heeseung feels it nowâreally, really feels it. The bond is thrashing, frantic, like itâs holding onto something thatâs slipping through its grasp. The pained scent of withering daisies starts filling up the air, suffocating both alphas instantly. Jay shifts uncomfortably, looking back and forth from Heeseung to you in alert.
âHey, heyâY/N,â Heeseung tries again, softer this time, reaching out instinctively. âLook at me. Y/Nââ
âDonât!â Your voice spikes, sharp with fear. Heeseung freezes, his throat closing up when he sees something youâre yet to realise.
Thatâs when you feel itâsomething warm trickling down your nose. You instinctively wipe it and stare at the red liquid smearing your fingers.
Blood. Then another drop falls on your palm. Before you can react properly, it already spills down your chin, past your fingers, dripping onto the floor, tainting the white tiles like a crime scene.
âFuck.â Jay curses under his breath, his wolf perking up in alarm.
Beside him, Heeseung is beyond agitated. âY/N!â
He doesnât think. Heeseung lunges forward, longing to be close to you at that moment. But youâre already shaking your head rapidly, tears spilling uncontrollably now.
âStop!â you gasp, pale lips trembling like dying petals. âI canât do thisâI canâtââ
Inside you, your omega is screaming in pain. In betrayal. In self-preservation. Her voice, raw and jagged, torn by pain, echoes in your head.Â
An instinct, primal and desperate, takes over your being.
Cut it off.
Cut it off before it kills you.
You clutch at your chest, lungs burning up like a wildfire. Tears spill out freely, drenching your face in anguish and agony.
Cut it off!
And finally, you let go.
Across from you, just a few paces away, Heeseung feels it like a force, stopping him in his tracks.
It doesnât come gradually, or slowly. It rips through his body. A violent, invisible force tearing straight through his chest like something sacred being forcibly severed. His breath is knocked out of him.
âFuck!â Somewhere behind him, Jay is also spiraling, realising whatâs going down.
But Heeseung doesnât know. He staggers, his knees almost giving up as excruciating pain spreads from the scent gland in his neck down to his chest. Something inside himâsomething he never fully acknowledgesâfinally snaps. He almost screams.
A thick veil of tears wells up instantly, blurring his vision faster than he could process it.
âY/N,â his voice breaks, the cracks showing up like poison in daggers. Across from him, youâre already sobbing.
Itâs loud and raw, a wailing that stops even the loud music from inside. Your scent, bitter and beyond distressed, is now flooding the space like a broken dam. Your body folds in on itself as if trying to contain something thatâs already shattered beyond repair.
Inside of you, your omega goes silent completely.
And it terrifies him. A lot.Â
Heeseung clutches his neck, where his scent gland is pulsing violently, throbbing in an indescribable pain that feels like it could kill him. And when his eyes find yours, he realises with dread that the pull is no longer there.Â
He canât feel you. His wolf canât feel your wolf.
The constant, aching thread thatâs been tying him to you; itâs gone.
You cut the bond from your side.
The half-bond, already fragile with doubt and cowardice, is hanging by its loose thread. If it was a red string like many people had said, Heeseungâs sure itâd waver pathetically by his finger, trembling like a thread losing its kite.
âWhatâŚWhat did you do?â he whispers, voice hollow and shaky.
Heeseung takes a step forward again, ignoring Jayâs warning voice from behind him. His focus becomes singular on you, not minding the many pairs of eyes watching from the other side of the door.
This time, his step is slower and careful, like approaching something fragile. Something that is already broken.
Someone wounded.
You donât move toward him. You donât even spare him a look. You just cry, quietly, as now it feels empty where the bond used to be. You canât feel him.Â
You can only feel pain.
âY/NâŚâ
â...I want to leave.â
You wipe your nose, the blood still fresh and wet. You lean on the door for support, still trying to hold yourself up despite the urge to just collapse. Heeseung has to force restraint on himself, holding himself back from running to you. He searches your face, trying to catch your eyes, terrified beyond reason.
The silence is deafening.
At last, you lift your gaze, misty eyes meeting misty eyes.
âI ended it.â Your voice, used to be soft and warm, is now cold. Heeseung feels his lungs stop functioning.
âThereâs nothing between us anymore.â
And thatâs when it hits him brutally.
Heeseung didnât just push you away.
Heâs lost you.
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