Ritsu irl

Hello I am Ritz

I am a enstars themed Jirai who is almost 18 and is a Brazilian rhythm gamer. I use She/He pronouns

I am a Vampire Princess who is always tired and mentally exhausted 🦇 But she sometimes gravitates to a cute fluffy rabbit 🐰

Your highness's gender is unlabeled so refer her as Vampire Princess, Ritz or Usagi

More about your highness!

♥ I am a Ritsu kinnie mainly though as used previously, I too kin other characters.

♠ When speaking of my family I will use Enstars characters. Ritsu is me, Rei is my brother, Raika is my sister, Shu is my mom(but if I Nazuna with Shu, rarely will but think of their dynamic as very similar to mine and hers), Tetora is my best friend and my dad is still to be decided

♦ Naru is only herself, she isn't someone I know in real life or something, I just love her as she is. She isn't EXACTLY a yume as I don't think I could pull a woman so perfect

♣ Yes Tetora is a only a online friend

♥ I try more like, since I don't most of the time post what I write. but y'know

♠ I am not normal about BL nor my OTP

♦ My brother and I's relationship is complicated. I love him but sometime ago he became distant and i now need to put in effort to get any attention from thee

♣ I need praise and attention to feel happy, hatred and embarrassment makes me want to disappear

DNI

Enstars haters, the basic DNI, genshin, vivziepop fandoms

Socials

Discord, OCSN, twitch, Pinterest, TikTok, Wattpad, Spotify

Important

If you happen to recognize me from my main, please, talk about it in Tumblr Private messages. I really don't want that one to be too correlated to this one

I was going to post a week ago but then I didn't due to not feeling like going through the effort.

But I kinda want to talk about this, so I will

Earlier Today I questioned my mom over the fact that she keeps me homebound even when I can physically go out and for my mental health I should go out more. We ended up discussing a lot of important things. One of which Tetora even helped me open up about(I am very grateful for his support). And then we talked about why I don't even go to school like I used to, yes for some time I did attend normal school. And then my mom commented one reason that I did NOT know about myself, that in a public school no teacher could actually help me(both because of time and many students present to actually focus on my special needs) is that; I have dysgraphia. I thought it was just I didn't know how to write FOR YEARS. But it makes sense, and my mom did say I have all symptoms, and looking it up.. yeah I do. I can write on my phone or in a keyboard but if I use a pen and go write physically, my hand hurts, I feel exhausted, and my letter goes all ways, sometimes on top of eachother, some bigger than others

So new thing I know about myself, cool ig 👍 not cool I have a disorder, but cool that I now know, and can explain better

I am smarter than any of them think

I am trying to starve myself to not waste food and also kms. With the rule of three I know how much a human can last without food

Mom asked multiple times if I was hungry or sick to not want to eat, I told her that I wasn't hungry. There was also a moment where she was coming back with my clothes and then I acted like one of my scars was aching to excuse my tears

If I continue being smart like this I'll be gone in 3 weeks! Fingers crossed!

Also a good thing that happened to me this morning. Tetora invited me to RP, we're still planning when we can, so maybe tomorrow! I want to draw a Natsume AU version for it, it's been long since I been this excited to draw