When I think about dying, sometimes I get this irrational fear of reincarnate. I don't even believe in that shit but occasionally I think about the torture that would be wanting to stop existing for you to be born again and imagine if your new existence is fucking worse of what you had? Nah bro.

I remember being unemployed and unable to enjoy my free time, even though I had nothing else to do but sit and wait. Then I got a job and hated it; I was just as unhappy as when I was unemployed, and now I had even less time for myself. I suppose at least I was functional for the system and had a little more independence. My studies haven't done me much good; everything is so expensive and the salaries aren't enough. Can't even kill myself without traumatizing someone.

The world is so full of treacherous people that they will try to make you believe that you are immature for not believing that someone can love you and choosing to betray you in the worst possible way. They are truly disgusting, and that's why I try to be very selective about who I surround myself with. Imagine realizing that you have someone very close who thinks they are intelligent and mature because they have no values or a minimum of morality. We all know that infidelity has no place especially in monogamy; you don't look wise trying to empathize with unfaithful people.