let me stay in bed

near-life experience

forgive yourself again and again and again and again and again

oh no i’m seeing cycles and recurring themes in my own life

It is what it is but like. Can it be something else

having so much love in your heart is beautiful and amazing right up until you’re alone in your bedroom clutching at your chest and whimpering like a wounded dog

every year the time passes and i say "wow i can't handle the passage of time" and the time continues to pass and the cycle repeats

there is no old self to get back to there’s a new u to create n nurture

always missing something i don’t know what but there’s just an aching loss i carry with me wherever i go

don’t forget the life you promised yourself

when susan sontag wrote “I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it”

*me, literally sick with want* whatever