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(different reasons that i might not be able to focus, how to tell them apart, and [maybe] how to solve them. work in progress.)

low energy - feeling tired and sleepy - yawning a lot  - working feels like it takes way too much energy; I’d rather just sleep - feels effortful even to think - seek low-mental-effort activities like tumblr solutions: stimulants (incl. caffeine), listening to energetic music, getting up and going for a 20+ minute walk

lack of self-monitoring - feel like i’m running on autopilot - can’t easily recall the last 3 things I did - get up and walk around a lot; get lost in daydreams and thoughts - difficulty verbalizing thoughts - can respond to prompts, but hard to generate new plans/thoughts - often goes along with low energy solutions: not getting up and going for a walk, sitting at my desk and listening to happy-energetic music while looking at the task. talking through the problem with someone else – it’ll be hard at first but having to converse will bring my self-monitoring system back online.

restlessness - feeling bored, wanting stimulation - feeling frustrated - changing sitting position often, feeling uncomfortable, fidgeting a lot - seek tasty food but almost all food is not tasty enough solutions: try working with loud energetic music and a fidget toy. if this doesn’t work, go outside and run around for a bit until you’re breathing hard, then try again. let yourself have sugar after the run if you still want it. compulsion for something else - pulled towards other, more interesting thoughts/activities - if i start working, i get sidetracked by the more interesting things without noticing - easy to enter flow state on other tasks, just not this one solutions: this one is hard. write down the more exciting thoughts and promise yourself you’ll come back to them? (you may not come back to them.)

Lazy,chill guitar songs are my favorite

He used to skate in middle school

He sneaks out after curfew, climbs onto the roof, pops a shit ton of glow sticks, blasts very niche music and draws

When he was in kindergarten he once brainwashed a kid to tie their shoelaces so the kid doesn't trip into his cubby anymore.

After that, the kid still didn't know how to tie his shoes so they kept coming back to Shinsou to get their shoes tied again. He makes his first friend.

seriously, he likes glow in the dark stuff

He puts glow in the dark food coloring into his Monsters at 3am

Someone please collect your disaster,,,

He used to be really into DnD, and piano. He tried to learn how to play, but he gave up.

Yes, he has cat slippers

He went through a phase in middle school where he wore lipstick. (He brainwashed anyone who mentioned it; you said the word lipstick and you forgot why you're sticking gum on the bathroom mirror)

He still sometimes does that on reflex, but he's getting better

He likes to cook when he has energy, but he mostly lives on insta-ramen and pure spite.

When he was 9, he became an orphan when a villain attacked his dad's work place, so that permanently set him up for hero work and fucked him up as a child.

He's been in the system, bouncing around foster homes

Could probably recite Edgar Allen Poe by heart at this point

He met his undying love when his foster parents got him a kitten for his birthday when he was 12.

He named her Bluebell

He's not used to being touched, so when he transfers into 1-A he's a little overwhelmed with all these new people touching him.

Iida notices and let's everyone know in the group chat that they need to slow down with him

They establish an unspoken rule that no more than 3 people are around Shinsou at a time

Midoriya gives him little touches and bright smiles and Shinsou doesn't,,,know how to feel at first.

But God, is he touch deprived, so he tries to be subtle (but isn't) and kinda hovers near Midoriya whenever he gets a chance, hoping he gets another pat/ soft warm touch on his shoulder for a few moments

Midoriya gives him a hug one time and Shinsou ends up crying

Aizawa is an ironic bastard and knows what Shinsou did at the sports festival to Ojiro, so constantly pairs them up in assignments until they are best friends

It's...not easy.

Ojiro kinda hates him at first (understandable, Shinsou does too), but Shinsou eventually apologizes for taking away the other person's choice instead of just asking him if they wanted to team up

Ojiro gives him a chance to explain himself (the other boy wanting get rid of the nightmares as well), and they have tea in Ojiro's dorm at lunch time

Which is completely against the rules but Shinsou doesn't need to know that

They end up as best friends

shinsou: asleep

midoriya: for two days?

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