slaying sadly

I would like to fulfill other people's dreams and disappear from this earth

i just don't want to be here anymore. my life has no meaning and nothing gives me real joy. I hate myself and others. I can't do anything about it and I have no one.

i don't know if i have depression, anxiety, social phobia, personality disorder, autism or just low selfv - esteem. what the hell is wrong with me?

the only thing that seems real in my life is pain. i didn't want to be born.

sometimes i feel good, but i know it's only for a while. soon the sad, gray reality will return.

i fucking hate myself

i feel so empty. all i feel is constant anxiety. i'm afraid of what tomorrow will bring. i'm afraid i won't be able to handle it. i wish tomorrow never came. at the sime time, i want this moment to end as soon as possible. i want to vanish.