❦❀⋆𝕽𝖆𝖎𝖓⋆❀❦

you have left me alone and im not angry at that, i know you have work to do, and you dont really owe me anything you are not obligated to keep me in one piece that is too much of a responsibility for one person so i freely let you go. In your absence, in my aloneness, just spending time with this person that is me, i am confronted with the(an) emptiness, the steel bars of a cage, the walls ive built oh so high, that surround me on every side, i start to see these clearly, its not like they were never there they were always there but i let you in, i let you in and you sat in that space with me, and instead i looked at you, talked to you, and well the walls, the steel. it all momenteraly left my attention, and maybe ypu could say i forgot for lack of a better word. But you were never meant to stay with me here forever, youve got your own house, you own rooms, things to do outside of these walls and i understand that. But when you come back, give me time, time to adjust to another human being being in the room, like how one adjust their vision to the light after being in the dark, i have been staring at these walls the whole time, prodding at my gaping wound, holding on to these steel bars, and its as if silence is all ive ever known, when you come back give me time to adjust to your presence, give me time to cover up my wound, to refocus my eyes, to untangle myself. bear with me will you?

Maybe i have made peace with it.