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note: I was very angry in a lot of this, and as much as it hurts me to feel that way and put that on others, i will NOT regret expressing myself genuinely and honestly, and a VERY BIG "fuck you" to anyone who preferred that i stayed quiet, just so they could be more comfy. about abuse. and mostly, abuse of the rest of you.

I have found that one can get "very angry" in the middle of a damn war, especially when one is more or less generaling it on their own.

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11/15/22

i'm personally feeling quite settled with allllla this. feel free to ask me any questions about anyone and anything referenced this that you'd like to, i'd be more than happy to answer from my perspective. cheers! ☀️

11/8/22

hey, guys. if anyone still thinks this is only about 144 and one girl 30+ yrs his junior he took advantage of, if you care about your community at all and want to make sure it's safe, then would you please take a half hour and read everything in this? it's been posted here for a good while.

/// ** please forgive the chaos of these links. i am literally updating this when i have the time, and a lot of this was done in the middle of this crisis, so people would be aware asap. so i just need y'all to make some of the effort here, too, as you read through them.

****this link contains the most. lots of rebloggables.

* let me also all remind everyone that this was not a mission at all for what is mentioned before the cut. a girl (flamingdumpsterkittn) barged into another conversation i was having in a thread on my own blog about trying to track down a fucking probable child molester who deactivated the minute i called him out. i am *still* working on that with authorities offline, and this/her bullshit has distracted me from it. so that's why that girl is even part of this at all, and her behavior since has been nothing i want anything to do with, nor the company she's keeping (trash, and it is not hard to figure out who i mean. do the work yourself, it's all here.). so, i'm not thinking much of anyone who continues to support any of that, either, but having said that? y'all do you, and i'll act accordingly. that's what everyone should do, truly. it'll just sure tell me a lot about you. 🤷🏻‍♀️

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10/26/22 this i don't even remember if i put in here, but i'd like to think you'd want it.

here's a conversation i tried to have with @instructor144 @instructorwolfie, the day his blog was deleted.

my current personal position on the Rest of It™

this whole thing that i just have to walk away from

*a consolidated post of all relevant ask answers still to come

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⬇️ other shit that's very necessary as far as i'm concerned ⬇️

rollins band "liar" + commentary/tags

a thing about alabama and the abusive couple involved

@onedudesview says it all (at least as close to where i am) - * and he said it like 10 days ago

things the "friends" who either violated/harmed me in, and right in front of the rest of, a private discord server i created purely to protect another person. this is something they all really need to fucking know, and they should have already known, if they knew me at all (over literal years). it's also for everyone who showed zero courage and straight abandoned me in this. you never had to do or say anything? but for chrissakes, man, some of you didn't even hit a goddamned like button, let alone the reblog one. if i didn't think you would be able to do that, y'all never would have been in that server in the first place. it was mostly just a waste of my time having you in there, and i say that without any emotion, just as a reverie about what a literal detriment that was to everything we were supposed to be doing. (*also, it is astounding to me some of you are still putting those people on my dash after this, and it's sad i have to unfollow you for it. that is actively causing me harm to see and tells me enough about you to move on.)

re: the call-out video i made to a probable child molester on one of my sidebogs (find it yourself if you want it, i don't feel comfortable among you linking it here anymore): when a middle-aged man starts talking to you about "7 year olds dicks banging against each other", and in the next breath tells you he was fingerprinted that day to get more foster kids, then he deactivates immediately when you start going completely off on the dude? (I have that very mean roasting convo, if anyone wants it.)

yeah, THAT issue right above, was literally the only issue that i had my energy and heart set on. then a girl popped into my post about it and said A Thing, apropos of nothing. now she has me blocked, the person who dropped the other thing for her (and i'm quite over that crap, honestly. i tried to help her, everyone saw me trying, but i'm no one's mother and i won't be, to grown ass adults, no matter their trauma. it's as simple as that & i get to protect MYself and space, too. and so should all of you.)

some of us are just not suited for each other, and that's fine. learning that was a favor, actually. but some of you are definitely way too soft for me. there is literally zero i would change at all about the way i approached any of this, given the circumstances at every damn turn. i would not change one single thing. and i was compared to RBG (twice) for it by strangers in published asks. 🤷🏻‍♀️