skitska (real)

had such a crazy depressive spiral (?) these last few days that i genuinely wrote like a fourth of a suicide note

just told my parents the biggest lie ive ever told them and it didn't work out im soooo cooked

im getting that creatine one way or another

i wish i was normal . i wish i wasnt so weird but i cant help it . idk what wrong with me it feels like there's a barrier between me and everyone else and i try to push thru it but i cant . it applies to everything including my interactions with ppl so i feel so out of place . ill hang with my friends or engage with smth i like and get happy but the moment its over ill just get sad again . i dont even have the energy to draw anymore

anyways on another note i got called pretty again by a random guy we up

told my mom i was gonna go to a cat cafe with friends and she says "ill think abt it" ???? yeah think abt it while im there lmao im not asking

the amount of protein u need to build muscle is ridiculous can someone fucking patch this bug