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The tv is glowing

that’s it.

#WeAreSICK, and since I’m just bed rotting i thought of posting on here… finally

talking about ; Nijiro and the incident

Nijiro Murakami was recently put out there for beating his girlfriend. Which is 100% NOT okay.. But when a thing like that comes out, it feels like all the sudden the whole internet talks about it. I swear I seen an uprise of edits of him, edits of his characters and people would be like “ohhh… but I didn’t know” or “oh.. I still love his character.” (Which yeah don’t get me wrong i do love the characters he has played.) but still going to edit the content? I know for AIB and Tokyo Revengers there is an anime, so why don’t you edit that? Or atleast the manga versions. Uhh yeah that’s kinda it, my opinion on it? Love the characters, dislike the actor.

“You seem pretty happy it’s pride month for someone with so much internalized homophobia”

Oh actually, I’m not hungry

oh me gosh.. you should totally commission me for some art.. I’m looking to make extra money, my commissions are totally not open… oh me gee..

(Ps I don’t mean just art.. I can write a fan fic, make a Spotify playlist based on a character, Or write on of the NSFW alphabet things)

Uh.. starting price $5?

the highest I go is like $15zzzz

I just hate winter guys, not because of snow but because it genuinely sets back my progress of getting better..

Listen man, I freakin love snow! (Not ice though.. shh..) but man is it hard to try and keep my mental health ‘decent’.. My grades are dropping so badly, I got set back on many things (you’ll know if you’ve read my rants before lol) and I just don’t know..

But! Merry Christmas, Happy hanukah, Happy Yule(?) If you celebrate, I know it’s coming up so soon !!

So. I got pierced with a hoop in my belly. Okay, sure was it the best jewelry? NO, but does it have its pros and cons? HELL YEAH. And I don’t wanna hear “oh but your piercer shouldn’t have pierced you with a hoop, it’s so-“ SHUT UPPPP, DONT CAREEEE

But anyways. I seen a TikTok and somebody said “oh I got pierced with a hoop, will it be fine. I know it’s not the best jewelry.” Blah blah, not exactly words so I commented, “I got pierced with a hoop it’s healing fine.. I’ve had it for two weeks but it’s been great. I can lay on my stomach, wear higher waisted pants, play with it and it’s scabbed over.” WORD FOR WORD, that was my comment. And someone (we won’t say usernames) but they commented and tried starting an argument with me..? Saying how it’ll get infected because of the jewelry and I shouldn’t be laying on my piercings, or playing with it.

Now listen, I get it! It’s a two week old piercing.. but it’s my body, I know if I need to stop something or not, if I’m laying on my stomach and something doesn’t feel right? I’ll adjust how I’m laying. And the jewelry..? It’s stainless steel, practically the same as whatever you’re ‘supposed to be pierced with’ guess what.. IT STILL WORKS!! It holds the shape, it lets your skin scab over.? No problems.

Having a belly piercing as a man is so cunty.. like I feel so cunty even though nobody can see it!!

I got my belly pierced ouh ouh ouhhhh !!

That’s it

(( △ )) Please don’t vent on this post

Im genuinely tired. I wish I could put all of my feelings into a word and throw it out there. Sadly there isn’t a word that would describe anything. I’m so sorry for not keeping up with my post either- on any accounts.

!!!!!! MASSIVE TW HERE !!!!!

I really miss my friend, they died back in 2022 due to suicid3. We were friends since 2018 which may not be too long but that’s long to ME. I’ve opened up about that part but the part I can’t ever open up about is the fact I was being gr00m3d all those years. By my friend, and starting this off with “I miss my friend” and then continuing with that is terrible. But I haven’t felt something in so long, their death date passed recently and it pains me EVERY DAMN TIME. Being gr00med is something I wish upon NO-ONE no matter how much I hate you, but god did it make me feel like I was worth something at the time.. they definitely weren’t the first friend to gr00m me and they aren’t the last. But they, specifically made me feel something. I hate this, this topic appears once a month for me.

But there’s more, not only that but I r3lapsed the other day with a ton of things. Now not many people know. Even close friends and parents. But I have an addiction to many things, SH, Dr-gs, and p0rn. Which the other night I had r3lapsed all of them and I hate myself for this.

oh boy do I have drama for you guys. So we all know my best friend if you’ve been on this page, I’ve talked about them a time or two (I think at-least..) they are GENUINELY starting to piss me off. Why? Well let’s get into that..

So, personally people are gonna say “ouh it’s not a big deal” but it’s a big deal to me. They copy EVERYTHING I DO. Now, if it was small things I wouldn’t care. But not it’s getting worse and worse everyday. Main point of me bringing this up is yesterday. They texted me

“should I get my smiley” A peircing IVE wanted for so so long, 7-9 ish years I think now. And I’ve told them about this. They know all about the piercings I plan on getting, tattoos I want, and you know all that. I straight up wanted to say no. Deadass no. Well I didn’t, I just said “it’s dangerous” cuz it is, it’s a mouth piercing you’d be doing by YOURSELF. And what really PISSES me off It they told me to NOT get any mouth piercings, why? Oh ‘it’ll mess up your teeth’ blah blah. Okay now, I get a text some time later and they say “I did it” WITH PHOTOS, “cool” okay whatever. Then they have the audacity to ask “are you okay?” NO DUDE. IM NOT, YOU COPY EVERYTHING I DO.

Hey everypony…

acting as if I haven’t disappeared for a few days. I may be back.? I’m not 100% sure because I’m in the midst of moving into a new house so yeah, I just had to pack everything. Which got done but now I’m waiting for the people to move out so we can move in!

yes.. I rant/vent a lot, your on MY account so I fear that is the whole point, don’t like it just scroll…?

ANYWHO.

I HATE HATE HATE HATEE when people say “oh my.. you relate to Gwinam from Aouad..? He was so bad!!” YES?! I don't know, maybe the fact that even though Gwi-nam was a bully, he was still just a tool for Myeong-hwan, who'd hit him, shove him, and treat him like nothing and Gwi-nam would just take it, like he was used to it, like he thought that was all he deserved, because somewhere deep down, he thought that if he just endured it long enough, maybe he'd finally belong somewhere. THAT is why I relate. No I don’t relate because he was ‘s3xually ab^$ing’ a girl.

I hate how people only look at his looks. look at his character, look how he’s written. yeah, you can’t ignore the one part but look at the scenes he’s in. He’s getting pushed around by Myeong-Hwan half the time. Gwinam is me bro.

So I’m all about being weird, like yes go be weird and whatnot. I could care less what you do in your free time either? BUT, before I even start I know this is sorta a ‘hot take’ I think and people will disagree.. but the usernames on tiktok like “InsertActorsName-“ and then something EXTREMELY WEIRD, like I just seen “RohjaewonsCumslut” like.. is that not weird..?

Sure, go get your freak on, like i said i could care less on what you do in your free time but that is weird.. I pass a lot of weird things but if you were a famous actor would that not make you uncomfortable? I know I would be extremely uncomfortable… Hot take? Idk I might be sensitive but it’s odd..

I have a love hate relationship with the characters I relate to. Like Fuck you mean I relate to Niragi from Alice and borderland even though he is the WORST character in the show? And I HATE HATE HATEEEE when I tell someone “oh yeah I relate to-“ (and I go one with one of the characters) And they say “Well.. you only relate to them because you think they are attractive or something..“ NO?! HELLO?

I relate to many characters and they are all ‘Bad’ Or ‘Evil’ in a way- and no. I don’t mean I relate to Niragi when he r@p3d a girl? Did nobody else watch his Pre-borderlands life? Like what.. OR OR OR, Gwinam. No, I don’t relate to his ‘evil’ part. He’s a genuinely well written character and you have to understand that to understand how or why i relate to him.

Someone told me that’s called ‘FictionKin’ but idk…? Let me know if that’s the right thing! But I (HEAVILY) relate to Gwinam, Namgyu, Niragi and Chishiya. AND ANOTHER THING, I don’t mind if someone likes a character, like hell yeah another fan!! But as soon as they say like ‘oh I know more’ or ‘I relate to them to!’ then I instantly don’t wanna talk to them. Like sure, you can like them and i physically can NOT stop you from it.. but if you specifically come to me (knowing I relate to that character) then I’ll most likely stop talking to you.. that’s just how I roll..?

The writing account was made ! The user is Skinbitywrites (I think)

I’ll try and post on these accounts but yk

@skinbitywrites !!!

How would you guys feel if I started an art account or a writing account, I shall be debating between (probably writing) but it would be those fanfic things you find on here.. and around here we write smut and nsfw so just a heads up..

The fandoms would probably be Alice and Borderland, All of us are dead and Squid games because I just said so yk..? Need opinions (don't be scared to comment, | won't bite..)

“But they never interacted !!” Is this your first fandom… No matter what characters will be shipped with others EVEN if they haven’t interacted… I was talking to someone about Thandaegyu (Thanos,Dae-Ho, and NamGyu) cuz it’s a ship, I (me, myself and I!!) ship. And they said “dae-ho didn’t really interact with them at all so it doesn’t make sense” okay, god forbid a man ship characters🥹