𝓐𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓮

Your nursery colors were green and yellow. It was calming, and neutral but not gray. There were little dragonflies embroidered into the curtains, and flowers on the rug, and vintage children's book art hanging on the walls. Jack kept his nephew’s first ever hockey stick leaning against the bookshelf, barely two feet long, determined to get your little baby out on the ice as soon as possible.

You liked it in there. It was nice. You could sit in the cushy armchair with your feet up, breeze blowing in through the open window, making the dragonflies fly. It was a right side better than suffocating on your back in a sweltering bed under the weight of your baby. And sometimes, on hard days, you looked over into the empty crib and pictured a little red haired infant, fast asleep under the galaxy mobile.

Jack often found you asleep in there. Sometimes he found you awake, and you would say, “Oh, hun, now that you’re here, mind folding these hand me downs we got from Dana?”

But not anymore. The nursery was done, painted, dried, decorated, and stocked with anything you could need. The cot in your room was set up, along with a cart of midnight postpartum essentials, of which you got a list from every childbearing woman in your life. You had pounds of frozen meals ready in the freezer. You had decided on names. You had deep cleaned and decluttered the entire apartment from head to toe. You were absolutely ready.

In every way but the physical, of course. Every appointment you had, it was firm, undilated cervix, sitting high, and perfectly healthy. You were incredibly grateful the baby was healthy, but by week forty, you would have been almost as grateful to hear any note of progress.

But nada. Zip. No action.

You tried to stay positive, to remind yourself how lucky you were to be making it to term. Hadn’t you seen dozens of preemies in your line of work, who needed extensive, invasive care or worse, who didn't make it at all?

No matter how guilty it made you feel, though, you couldn’t quite help the annoyance that crept into your brain more and more with each day you spent still pregnant. You were truly becoming the stereotype of the angry pregnant lady, waddling around with a scowl, complaining about sweat, and not being able to see your toes.

“I hate this,” you said, two days after your due date. “The baby is healthy, the baby is ready, I’m certainly ready, so what’s the fucking hold up?”

You had had your forty week check up just that past Wednesday, where Jill was too happy to report that your cervix was wide, thick, and hard as a rock.

“I’m sorry,” said Dana, looking up from her charts. “Sometimes the baby just comes on their own damn schedule. You better get used to that.”

You grunted, pulling at your scrubs. Dana’s lips quirked in sympathy.

“Why don’t you head home?” she said. “There’s only an hour left in the shift, and you can start your maternity leave at forty weeks, can’t you? I’m sure Gloria couldn’t fault you for that if she got a look at you.”

“No way,” you said, slamming your computer keys harshly. “Jack’s taking twelve months off when the baby comes, only three of those are paid, and I need to save.”

“You’re fine,” Dana dismissed. “Jack has spent the last decade and a half making doctor money, taking overtime, and never taking a day off. He buys the same t-shirts and jeans every few years, toiletries, food, and that’s pretty much it. I know that guy’s got savings.”

“Yeah, I know, but I still —” you cut yourself off with a sharp gasp.

Your muscles were tightening, cramping more than you’d ever felt before. Dana took off her glasses.

“Woah,” you said, as the pain spread from the front to your back. “That’s new.”

“Braxton hicks?” asked Dana cautiously.

You shook your head.

“I don’t think so,” you breathed, rubbing your belly. “No, this is — worse.”

Dana rolled her chair right up next to yours, swiveling you to be knee to knee. She had an excited glint in her eye.

“Do you think, possibly, it could be…?”

You tried not to smile too wide. The pain was worse than it had ever been, but you could still talk through it.

“I don’t know, maybe,” you said. “D’you think?”

“Why not?” she said. “Start timing them!”

You pulled out your phone, fingers shaking slightly in excitement.

“Sixty-two seconds,” you said when it was done. “It lasted sixty-two seconds.”

“Good start,” said Dana, patting your knee. “Keep track of ’em, and who knows. The betting board might be cleared by this time tomorrow.”

It took everything in you not to squeal from pure excitement. You rested your phone open next to your computer, trying to focus back on work. Your eyes frequently flicked over to it, checking the time. It was five, ten, fifteen minutes before anything else happened. The same clenching pain, spreading from front to back, rolled over you.

“Another minute,” you said happily to Dana when that too had passed. “Sixty-four seconds, that time.”

“Want anything, kid?” she asked. “Heating pads, tylenol?”

“No thanks,” you said. “They’re not too bad yet.”

By the third contraction, Jack was walking through the door.

“Jack!” you said loudly, attempting to jump up, getting halfway through the motion, and sitting back down. “Jackie, a contraction!”

His face changed instantly from warm fondness, to worried shock. He picked up his pace, hurrying around the partition to kneel in front of you. His eyes were wide.

“Are you sure?” he asked. “How long?”

“One minute, with fifteen in between,” you said, showing him your phone. “What do we do? Should I go home now?”

He took your phone, thinking.

“Why don’t I give you a ride,” he said finally. “You can shower and eat, in case this is the real thing. How’s that sound?”

You thought it sounded good, starving and grimy as you were, so you gave everyone your excited goodbyes, loaded into his car, and went home. It took some convincing to get Jack to leave you. You had to remind him that he was scheduled to work in about fifteen minutes, and Robby wouldn’t be happy if he wasn’t there for shift change, before he kissed you goodbye.

You almost relished in the ache as you started your shower, positioning your phone right outside the door. You were so desperate for this pregnancy to end, you could work through the pain. As you were rinsing conditioner from your hair, another contraction started to hit. But as you reached through the glass door to document it, you saw that the timer read twenty minutes and counting.

Twenty minutes. The contractions had gone from fifteen minutes apart, to twenty. That wasn’t that unusual, was it? Things could be irregular in the beginning, but it would even out, right? But as you heated up some pasta for dinner, the increments between episodes became longer and longer. When a whole hour had passed without one, you knew it had been a false start.

Your heart was sinking as you texted Jack.

Contractions slowed down :( I don’t think it’s happening

His bubble popped up almost immediately.

I’m sorry honey. Want me to bring you waffles from Rosie’s in the morning?

You smiled.

You know me too well

You went to bed that night disappointed, but determined. You were starting to second guess your assessment that the cramps weren’t braxton hicks, but whatever they were, it was a first. It meant progression.

The next day at work you did some home remedy research. Castor oil was a no go, for obvious reasons, but there were still plenty of non medicinal measures that couldn’t hurt to try.

“Spicy foods, curb walking, uphill sprints,” Javadi read over your shoulder as you showed the list to Robby. “Dates, raspberry leaf tea…”

“You don’t really think any of these work, do you?” said Robby skeptically.

You glared at him.

“Until you have to start wearing adult diapers because you pee a little every time you bend down, kindly keep your opinions to yourself, Michael,” you said, and Javadi tried to stifle her snort. “That just cost you lunch. I require one extra hot jalfrezi with chicken.”

He didn’t dare argue, just snapped his mouth shut and went to make the order with his tail between his legs.

After your eye watering meal, one bite of which had Robby red as a tomato and wheezing into a straight mug of creamer, you decided to take a trip outside. You took Victoria with you, partly because the possibility of falling down and not being able to get back up was high, but also because the terror in her eyes every time you wobbled was slightly amusing.

You walked along the curb in the ambulance bay for as long as you could justify being away from the hub. By the end of it, you were panting, exhausted, and didn’t feel any closer to labor. You huffed and puffed your way slowly back inside, Javadi trailing awkwardly behind you.

“Any luck?” asked Dana.

You could only shake your sweaty head.

“Not yet,” you said, texting Jack, “but you never know.”

Please get dates!!!

A few hours later, when he was awake, he responded.

The fruit?

You rolled your eyes.

Obviously the fruit

He sent you back a thumbs up.

No one was convinced at the efficacy of your little tricks, but they all wished you luck as you waddled out to Jack’s truck. You could tell, as you updated him, that Jack had doubts of his own, but he was smart enough to stay silent while you munched on your dates.

“They’ll work,” you said. “They have to.”

Sure enough, later that night as you bounced on your yoga ball, you felt a now familiar sensation at the base of your belly.

“Fucking finally!” you said to no one in particular, perhaps Romeo where he lay snoozing on the couch.

You called Jack, and he answered on the second ring.

“What’s up?”

“Tell Robby he’s an idiot,” you said smugly. “Guess what I’m having right now?”

“A contraction?” he said. “Really?”

“Really,” you said. “It’s only the first one, but I just wanted to let you know to keep your phone close.”

But it seemed you sounded the alarms a bit too soon. The same contractions, now two minutes long, still fifteen apart, kept you up until one in the morning. They were helped by some nasty heartburn, no doubt from your ambitious spice level at lunch, but soon enough, they began to subside.

You groaned as you texted Jack.

Don’t say anything to Robby, the contractions have stopped >:(

He’s still an idiot though

At the very least, you had the day off. The last thing anyone needed was you, forty weeks pregnant, and running on five hours of sleep. By the time you woke up, Jack was beside you, snuffling snores.

The third night you felt contractions coming on, you were hardly as excited. You had Jack time them, but, as you expected, they fizzled out around midnight.

Each night, around seven or eight, contractions would start. Then, like clockwork, between the hours of twelve and one, they stopped. You wanted to pop a pill and go to bed, not bothered tracking something that was surely temporary, but Jack insisted.

“You never know when it could be the real deal!”

But it wasn’t the real deal, night after night. You were a zombie at work, snappy and grouchy, so much so that by the time you were forty weeks and five days, you were kicked out.

“You’re gonna regret this, Dana,” you growled as Jack pulled you towards the parking lot. “You’re gonna rue the day!”

With your newfound freedom away from the hospital, you kept up with your activities. Though, not the spicy food. That you’d learned your lesson from. Your days were filled with curb walking, dates, and teas. At least two hours a day you sat on your ball and pumped. You had even had sex every night, though it was hardly sexy. You couldn’t really move, so Jack had to prop up your hips with two pillows. It was helped, however, by Jack himself. You’d never seen the man so insatiable as when you were pregnant.

By the time you made it to your forty-one week appointment, you were itching for progress. You kept your fingers crossed tightly, hoping against hope as Jill performed her exam.

“You’re about one centimeter dilated,” said Jill apologetically.

You let out a helpless cry. Jack rubbed your shoulders.

“It’s still an improvement,” he reminded you.

“And you’ve softened a bit,” said Jill. “Most importantly, you’ve still got a good amount of amniotic fluid, so baby’s okay. I would like to do an NST, just because you’re past due. I’d also just like to offer you induction. It is typically recommended at this point—”

“No thank you,” you said firmly. “I’ve only heard horror stories, uterine ruptures, infection, hemorrhage —”

“I know you know how unlikely those things are, so I won’t tell you,” said Jill gently. “I figured you would say that, but how do you feel about a membrane sweep?”

“Great, amazing, do it now,” you said, and she chuckled.

The membrane sweep was certainly uncomfortable, but not exactly painful. Once it was over, you were strapped in for an NST and Jill tried to reassure you.

“It’ll probably be any day now,” she said. “Hopefully things will progress quickly from here, but if they don’t there are things you can do to help.”

“Curb walking? Spicy foods? Sex? Dates? Yeah, we’ve done them all,” you sighed. “Just tell me — how do I tell the difference between prodromal contractions and real contractions?”

Jill looked regretful.

“Oftentimes, you can’t,” she said. “You just have to keep monitoring, and wait for them to get closer together.”

All in all, it was a blue sort of afternoon. Even a big cookie from your favorite bakery wasn’t able to cheer you up. Upon returning home, you draped yourself over Jack on the couch. He practiced his braiding on you while you watched Law & Order, snacking on dates. You were beginning to become sick of them.

As planned, contractions started rolling in around nine. At first, they were average, easily breathed through. Then, they started to pick up. Not in duration, but in severity. Jack pulled your new braids away from your face as you hunched in on yourself, tense and unfortunately moist.

“Honey?” he asked. “Tell me what you’re feeling.”

“Bad,” you gasped. “Worse.”

“Okay,” he said, stroking your forehead. “Do you want to sit on your ball?”

You managed a nod, so he helped transfer you over to the blue ball. You started moaning, rolling your hips in great circles while he clutched your hands from his seat on the coffee table. As the clock struck half past one, he dared to speak.

“You know, if it’s this bad,” he said quietly, “maybe —”

“Don’t say it,” you snarled. “Don’t even think it.”

You were past the point of foolish hope. Without at five hours of clear, worsening contractions that reached five minutes apart, you weren’t even considering it a possibility. It wasn’t feasible to prepare every single time.

You were proven right, at nearly three in the morning, when the contractions once again quieted down. You could tell that Jack was struggling. The pain in his eyes was hard to ignore as he watched you curl in on yourself in agony. Hopeless, was the word, and it wasn’t helped by his being a doctor.

“Seven days,” he whispered into your hair as you drifted in and out of sleep. “Can’t be more than seven days.”

It definitely felt like more. You were becoming nocturnal, kept awake by contractions that never led anywhere, and sleeping it off well into the afternoon. It was like being back on night shift, but instead of patients, you got debilitating cramps and sweating.

It appeared that the membrane sweep really hadn’t helped, at the next appointment only three days later. You were still only one measly centimeter dilated. You cried all the way home out of pure exhaustion.

Jack did everything he could to try and help. He drew warm baths, gave foot rubs, always had the kettle ready for a hot water belt. But even food was becoming uninteresting to you, with nausea and fatigue plaguing you most of your waking hours.

You tried to stay positive when you started losing the mucus plug, even more so when it appeared bloody. You called Jack into the bathroom and shoved your dirty underwear in his face.

“The bloody show?” you said.

“I think so,” he replied.

It was exciting. You tried to let it be exciting. But some part of you must have known deep down that it wasn’t the time quite yet, and the days crept on. Jack finally decided to start his sabbatical when parting in the evening coincided with your cramps. He couldn’t stand to leave you folded over the kitchen table, swaying side to side in a futile attempt to work through the pain.

He had you drinking protein shakes and walking in circles around the apartment, just to get the bare minimum out of the way so you could spend the rest of the time sleeping. You were more like a zombie than a person at that point. You would wake, but you were never alert. You went through the motions, the routines, but without Jack, you wouldn’t have been any more active than a garden snail.

“Jill, you gotta give me something,” you said at your next appointment, just one day before the forty-two week mark.

You looked horrible. Bags under your bloodshot eyes, unwashed hair, barely able to stay upright for exhaustion. Jack wasn’t great either, mostly from pure stress at watching you being put through the wringer. He looked at Jill imploringly. She sighed sympathetically.

“Unfortunately, I believe the only thing I can offer at this point is Pitocin,” she said. “In fact, I think I need to highly recommend it.”

You leaned back against Jack. He swept your hair back and rubbed your shoulders.

“Do you think you’d be open to that now?” he said in a hushed tone.

You huffed weakly.

“I don’t know,” you said. “I — I don’t like it, but I can’t spend another day like this, I really can’t.”

Jack buried his nose in the crown of your head, trying not to lose it.

“How about this,” said Jill delicately. “We make an appointment for tomorrow evening, give you guys the whole day, and if nothing happens, you come in. You’re almost three centimeters, you have made progress this past week, which means the drip probably won’t do anything drastic. We need to speed you along. How does that sound?”

You weren’t ecstatic, but you agreed. You knew it would be dangerous for both you and the baby to stay stagnant for much longer. Still, it wasn’t exactly what you imagined as you ate your last meal in the afternoon the next day. You expected to wake excitedly in the night, and rush to the hospital. That period of “I think this is it” extending into “this is really happening right now.” All elements of surprise were zapped out of your trip to the ward. You weren’t excited, more morose, as you stared gloomily out of the window.

Jack was clearly excited, under the surface. He gripped your leg tightly on the drive, other hand tapping anxiously on the steering wheel. He tried not to show it, though, for you.

“I know this isn’t what you had in mind,” he said as he pulled you out of the car. “But just remember, we’re meeting our baby soon. Right? And then all the pain can be over.”

You took a heavy breath. He loaded up with all the bags. That was at least one good thing about having a planned birth; you could prepare.

“I don’t know,” you said in a glum voice, taking glum steps towards the glum side entrance. “I know he has to come out at some point, but it doesn’t feel real. I think I’ve stopped allowing myself to accept it, after all the false starts.”

You had gone right back to referring to the baby as “he” the past few weeks. Jack didn’t want to talk too much about it, just settled in resolutely to being a boy dad. You had stopped believing in another possibility as well, but it didn’t really bum you out the way it did him.

Jack pressed a kiss to your plump cheek.

“I know,” he said. “But try to believe it, baby. He’ll be in your arms before you know it.”

You grumbled while he let you through the familiar door.

“He better come out fat.”

Jack smiled.

“Yeah? How come?”

“Because he’s gotten so much extra time!” you exclaimed. “He better have been using that to get me some chunky baby rolls.”

Jack just chuckled as the two of you made your slow, painful way through the entrance to the ER. You figured you’d be better to cut through to the staff elevator rather than go in through the civilian entrance up on the OB floor, and you might as well say a quick hello-goodbye to the sorry plebs stuck working.

Indeed, you received quite the strong reaction from the hub as you toddled up.

“Look who it is!” said Dana, immediately encircling you in her arms. “Mom and Dad!”

You snorted as the others gathered round, fussing.

“Look how big you are!

“Can you believe today’s the day?”

“Think pink! Baby Princess is almost here!”

Princess squished your belly carefully, looking intense. After a while, she nodded smugly.

“That’s at least an eight-pounder,” she said happily. “Just like I predicted!”

“Well I should think so,” you said. “Two extra weeks of stealing my nutrients should do that.”

Robby stepped forward, looking exhausted, but he offered you a polite cheek kiss anyways.

“Looking stunning as always, Nurse Abbot,” he said, with a hint of jest in his tone. “The glow is overpowering!”

You fixed him with an unamused stare, and at least a week’s worth of sleep gunk in the corners of your eyes.

“Do you want something from me, Robinavitch?”

“Of course not,” he chided.

“What’s your bet?” you asked suspiciously. “Are you counting on me holding out for another three days or something?”

“Oh, no, no one expected you to go this long,” he said. “However, if the baby comes out with your hair, nine pounds, and a boy, I’ll be very happy.”

You rolled your eyes, and Jack started ushering you away from the mob.

“Goodbye Robby, I hope you lose!” you called behind you.

“Good luck!” said Dana.

“You can do it!” said Mel.

“Bring us a baby girl!” said Princess.

You could only wave halfheartedly as the elevator doors closed.

It was easy to be playfully annoyed at Robby downstairs, or sassy in the car, but the second you stepped into your reserved room, your delivery room, the panic took over. There was a large bed, and a convertible chair for Jack to sleep on, just like you pictured. But they wasted no time in hooking you up to a CEFM, and within the hour, a nurse had shoved a suppository up your vagina. You didn’t feel much like laughing at anything.

“And that’s —”

“Dinoprostone,” the nurse answered your boyfriend, while you tried to adjust. “0.3 milligrams. We’ll start the Pitocin in an hour or two.”

You let out a sigh as she left, pulling at your gown. You weren’t happy. Sitting there, sans underwear, on a Chux pad, waiting with anticipation for what would probably be the most painful, agonizing experience of your life, you felt the walls closing in a bit.

You glanced at the clock above the door. It was almost eight o’clock. Robby and Dana were probably just leaving, and Shen and Samira would be taking over. You soured at the thought that they’d probably be cozy in bed again before you had your baby. Hell, the way things had been going so far, you wouldn’t be surprised if you were barely five centimeters by that point.

“You wanna watch a movie, honey?” Jack asked quietly, watching your sullen face.

You rolled your head to the side so you could see his, though it looked much sweeter. You stroked a hand over his scruff.

“Yeah,” you said forlornly. “Miss Congeniality?”

He nodded diligently and extracted his laptop from one of the bags, setting it up in record time. To both of your surprise, you promptly opened your arms for him to join you on the bed. He did so, moving carefully so as to not upset your gown, or your monitor, or you. You weren’t at the point where you were cursing him or hated the sight of his face. In fact, you quite liked him at that moment. Better to take advantage of it before things progressed and he got the luteal phase side of you. 

“I love you,” you said.

He sounded a little taken aback in his reply.

“I love you too, baby.”

You fiddled with the hem of his t-shirt.

“I just needed to remind us both, before I start hating you,” you explained.

“Of course,” he said.

You sat in the quiet for a while, half watching the movie you knew like the back of your hand. Within a few minutes, Jack’s gentle touch and steady breaths coaxed your eyes closed. On the brink of sleep, only one thing nowadays could really bring you back. 

“Contraction,” you mumbled, as Gracie threw Matthews into a headlock.

“Do you want to move?” he asked.

“No,” you breathed, letting the now familiar discomfort wash over you. “Just stay.”

“Okay,” he said, pecking your forehead. “I’m right here. You know who else is here for you?”

“Who?”

“Benjamin Bratt,” he said. “Benjamin won’t let you down.”

You hummed, a hint of a smile on your lips as you forced your eyes open. Benjamin Bratt was your lifelong celebrity crush, and your friends had wasted no time pointing out some similarities between him and the father of your child when you’d revealed it.

“Of course he won’t,” you said, stroking a finger down his face on the screen.

As the usual contractions passed, you couldn’t help but feel a bit foolishly disappointed. Some small illogical part of you hoped that the prostaglandins would be enough of a push for your body to ramp it up on its own; but the pains were no different than they had been all week.

At a quarter to ten, Jill came in and checked you.

“Just about three centimeters dilated,” she said, to your agitation, “but about ninety percent effaced, so, progress.”

You huffed. Even your TV husband couldn’t distract you from the fact that you weren’t getting anywhere, no matter the positive spin Jill tried to pull. She didn’t seem to want to mention that you were also “just about three centimeters” the last time she saw you, over twenty-four hours previous.

“So now you start the drip?” you asked, and Jack squeezed your hand.

“Yes, now we start,” she said, while a nurse prepared the bag to hang. “Just a low dose, and then if nothing happens, we can gradually increase it. Sound good?”

“Sounds great,” you said, through gritted teeth.

She provided you with a peanut ball to put between your legs and then you were left in wait. Jack rubbed your back and instructed your deep breathing, while you tried to focus on the screen and not the pain.

To your brief respite, the pitocin didn’t intensify the contractions the way you expected them to. After an hour of absolutely zero action, Jill upped the dosage. Still, while they grew closer together, they felt no different. You could breathe through them quite well, and even talk if you felt determined. Maybe you had a high threshold, maybe you were desensitized after all the sleepless nights, maybe it was a bit of both, but what ended up nagging you the most was the hunger.

“Jackie,” you whispered between contractions, around midnight.

“What, baby?” he whispered back, though you were alone in the dark room.

“Can you go get me a soft pretzel?”

He stopped sponging your sweaty forehead, eyes narrowed in amusement.

“A soft pretzel?”

You nodded innocently.

“With plenty yellow mustard, please.”

He rang the washcloth out over the basin, looking half humorous, half distressed.

“Honey, I don’t think —”

“And a hotdog!” you interjected, eyes going wide. “Just get one of every condiment, actually. And I’m picturing a soft serve in a hat. Chocolate vanilla swirl. Okay?”

He wiped his damp hands off on a clean towel and cradled your face.

“Sweetheart, I will get you all of that and more,” he said earnestly, “just as soon as this baby’s outta you.”

“Oh, okay,” you sniffed. “So you don’t love me anymore. I get it.”

It was such a ridiculous notion, he couldn’t help laughing. You tried to smile back, but your face was suddenly crumpled in discomfort as another contraction hit you. Jack checked his watch, then the monitor.

“Five minutes,” he said desperately. “They’re getting closer together, honey. We’re moving.”

“They’re fine,” you hissed. “They’re only, like, double the pain of a bad period. It’s no big deal.”

Jack sent you a look you couldn’t see.

“Your periods get this bad?” he asked in horror. “Even half this bad? How do you get anything done?”

You couldn’t answer, just shook your head, as if to say what are you gonna do?

There wasn’t much, but damn it if Jack wasn’t going to try. 

“You wanna try some massages?” he asked. “Some from lamaze class?”

You shook your head again.

“Okay… how about the birthing comb Perlah gave you?”

You didn’t immediately dismiss it, so he quickly dug into the bag and pulled it out. You opened your hand and he lined the teeth up with the crease of your palm. You squeezed hard. He watched you closely.

“Woah,” you said, eyes blinking open. “That’s — really cool actually.”

“It’s helping?” he asked.

“Yeah, a little,” you said.

You took some deep breaths, massaging the bamboo tines into your tissue. Jack allowed himself some breaths as well, seeing the line between your brows soften a bit. He’d never dare complain after the weeks you’d had, but his brain felt a bit like a wrung out sponge. He could deal with sleep deprivation, he almost thrived on sleep deprivation, but seeing you, in agony, so exhausted you could barely eat a full meal? That was wearing down on him.

“Wait, what time is it?” you said suddenly. “Is it past midnight?”

Jack glanced at his wrist again.

“Closer to one,” he said, “why?”

Your lips turned down a bit.

“Nothing,” you sighed. “It’s just that… Ronan is a Scorpio.”

Jack glanced at his phone with befuddlement.

“Is that bad?” he asked. “Wait, aren’t I a Scorpio?”

“Yes,” you said. “Which is fine, it’s great, but now you’re both Scorpios. Scorpio men.”

He waited for you to explain, but you didn’t, so he just gave you a confused apology kiss.

When the contractions got to be three minutes apart, Jill came in to have a look.

“How are we holding up?” she asked, snapping on gloves, while Jack helped you place your feet in the stirrups. “Contractions manageable?”

“Oh, yeah, they’re great,” you deadpanned. “I’m loving how they’re basically back to back now. Real fun.”

“Well,” she said, looking sorry, “you’re still only almost five centimeters, and we’d like you to be closer to seven.”

You guffawed.

“Of course I am,” you croaked, rubbing your tired eyes. “Not even five, almost five, for fuck’s sake.”

“We are moving, hun, just slowly,” she said, patting your knee. “We’re going to break the waters now, though, and things should pick up after that.”

You nodded flatly, unconvinced, at that point, that anything could possibly speed things up. It was mildly uncomfortable as Jill stuck the amnihook up to your sore cervix, but a second later, you felt a small pop and a sudden gush of fluid. You craned your head up to peer over your bump.

“Is that it?” you asked. “It’s broken?”

“That was it,” said Jill, handing the soiled hook and pads off to a nurse. “Now, you’ll probably continue to leak as the baby moves, so we’ll keep this Chux here under you, and don’t be surprised if things pick up quick. Most times mothers start pushing within hours of the amniotomy.”

“Bet I’m an exception to the rule,” you muttered darkly.

However, despite your pessimistic attitude, things did pick up. Quickly, and painfully. In comparison, the early labor felt like child’s play once you had experienced the stabbing sensation that trapped you now. You watched the sunrise from the window, bent at a ninety degree angle with your arms on the sill. You were no longer cracking jokes; you let out rhythmic moans, while Jack squeezed your hips together.

“Let it out,” he said quietly. “You’re doing so good. So, so good, baby.”

You still clutched the comb in your hands, but any effect it had had earlier was now lost. You were slick with sweat and shaking. As the contraction leveled out, you took great, heaving breaths.

“I think I’m gonna puke,” you breathed, and Jack jumped up.

He guided you back to the bed so your weak knees could collapse, and held a bag up to your mouth. You spit into it, that familiar metallic taste flooding your tongue as you prepared. It was mostly bile that came up as you retched, with no food left in your rumbling stomach. When you were done, you sat back on your bum and braced your arms in front of you.

“I’m never… doing… this again,” you panted. 

“Okay, love,” said Jack, adjusting your hair where he had tied it back the first time you’d vomited. “You never have to.”

Did he want more kids? Yes. But more importantly, he wanted you happy and safe. If you said you were done, you were done. Besides, he’d be lying if he said he would be up to seeing you in this much pain again. He kissed your warm cheek.

“I need the epidural,” you said. “Can we get that?”

Jack had never moved faster in his life. Once Jill was free, and you were back in position, she checked you.

“Seven centimeters,” she said. “Very good.”

“Yes,” you gasped. “Thank you universe.”

Jack all but crushed your hand between his.

“She was wondering about the epidural —”

“Certainly,” said Jill. “We can absolutely get anesthesiology in here, but I should remind you, it could very possibly slow down your progression. Is that a trade you’d be willing to make?”

They both looked at you. You felt about ready to cry. You were finally getting somewhere, would an epidural be setting you up for another twelve hours?

But in the end, you knew, you wouldn’t be able to get through birth without a couple hours of good sleep under your belt. So, you agreed to see the doctor.

It was definitely the right choice, you thought, once the drugs kicked in. Feeling the numbness spread through you was like going to sleep after a double, or sinking into a hot bath in winter time. The relief was palpable.

“Oh my god,” you moaned. “Oh my god, I had forgotten what it was like to not have contractions.”

Jack was relieved too, watching you munch on ice chips, eyes closed.

“You should get some sleep,” he said, stroking your forehead between your eyes. “You need rest.”

“So do you,” you said. “Hey — have you taken your leg off at all since we’ve been here?”

He thought. He had been far too preoccupied with you to notice the dull ache radiating up his right knee. He shrugged, but you were already back to your sass, however sluggishly.

“It’s almost been twenty-four hours, Jack Abbot,” you reprimanded. “Take it off and get in bed.”

“Yes ma’am,” he said lovingly.

He had to admit, it was a relief in its own right, removing the leg and the socks. He hadn’t even realized how much it had been bothering him, but you had always been on top of those things, the things he let fall to the back burner. Just like how he reminded you to eat on stressful days, or prepared hot water bottles when you were on your period. You looked out for each other.

Pulling his other shoe off, he carefully crawled into bed next to you, engulfing you in his arms. You weren’t sure how long you slept. All you knew was that upon waking, Jill was between your legs for a check.

As she covered you back up with the blanket, she could barely contain her smile.

“Ten centimeters. Are you ready to have a baby?”

♡♡♡

You’d thought, somehow, foolishly, that the pushing would be easy compared to the weeks of torture. Especially with the epidural keeping you almost completely numb, how could it be worse?

But now you were approaching your third hour of pushing, and they still couldn’t even see the baby’s head. The pain was barely an afterthought, but every upper muscle in your body was tense and tight from repeated use, and you were running out of energy.

You had Jack holding up one leg, a nurse holding the other, and a third person out of sight was wiping your forehead. You had had to ask, or scream at, someone to remove the ticking clock from above the door. Your eyes kept drifting towards it, and your heart filled with more and more despair as the minutes slid by.

“C’mon, honey, one more push,” Jack was chanting next to you, holding your thigh flush against your chest. “One more, you can do it!”

You fell back against him with a harsh cry as the contraction subsided. Perspiration was dripping down your flushed face, and you were panting like you’d just finished a sprint. 

“I can’t,” you gasped. “I can’t do this any more. It’s not working.”

“The baby is moving,” said Jill from the other side of your bump. “They’re taking their time, but you’re doing really, really well, okay? Keep going, we should be seeing a head soon.”

“Did you hear that?” said Jack soothingly. “It’ll be over soon. You’re so close.”

You felt so close to slipping into sleep, and yet possibly less comfortable than you ever had been before. You felt your eyes beginning to sting. Maybe it was a good sign; throughout everything, you still hadn’t shed a tear. Could the cracks in your exterior mean this was almost at an end? Or were you really ready to give up?

“Here comes the next contraction,” said Jill. “Ready?”

“Big breath,” said Nurse Marta. “Chin to chest — good…”

You bared down with all your might, and the pressure was building.

“Hard, hard hard hard!” said Jill. “Good job, mom! I can just barely glimpse the head.”

Jack pressed a flurry of kisses to your knee, and if your eyes were open you would have seen his already beginning to tear.

“Oh my god,” you muttered as that contraction too passed.

“Can I see?” he asked cautiously. “The head, can I try to see?”

“We lost sight when she relaxed,” said Jill, eyes glued to the monitor. “But on the next contraction, we should begin to crown.”

“Okay,” he said breathlessly. “Okay, one more, and we find out who wins, Robby or Princess, right?”

“Better be Princess,” you grumbled.

You ran a limp hand over Jack’s curls.

“You’ll catch him, right?” you said. “When he comes out?”

“Yeah, baby, of course, I’ll be right there,” he said. “I promise. I mean, I love Jill, but —”

You almost laughed, or got as close to it as you possibly could with how winded you were. Jill spoke up, smirking slightly herself.

“Okay, about twenty seconds to the next contraction,” she said. “And I need you to really push hard, okay? Hard as you can.”

“What do you think I’ve been doing?”

“Alright,” she chuckled, “ready? Go.”

You pushed, and pushed, and pushed. All the blood rushed to your head, and your grip in Jack’s hair only tightened, accidentally bumping his chin against your knee, but he didn’t say anything. It was kind of funny — you were usually in a very different place when you did that.

“You’re so good, you’re so so good, honey,” Jack muttered quickly, unable to keep himself from peering over to watch. “Good, good, you’re so strong, you” — his breath stuttered — “I see the head! Oh, it’s red, the hair — Ronan —”

You let out a strangled sort of sound, half laugh, half cry.

“We’re crowning, I’m gonna need you to stop pushing,” said Jill. “Okay, stop pushing, and breathe, alright? Pant, deep and fast —”

You began to feel a bit lightheaded as you followed her instructions.

“Okay, now push again — good — and relax.”

You groaned, arms shaking and jumping all over the place. Hesitantly, you removed a hand from Jack’s hair.

“Can I feel?”

“Of course,” said Jill. She took your trembling hand and guided it down. “Feel the hair?”

That was it. That was the little push those tears needed to begin leaking from your eyes. It was the most bizarre feeling, not being able to sense touch against your own legs, but knowing that the head you felt was part of you this second. And the next, it would be separate. A whole little human.

“There’s a lot, huh?” said Jack in a wavery voice.

“Jack, if you want to catch, now’s the time,” said Jill, holding out a packet of sterile gloves. “You ready?”

He snapped them on in record time, though was reluctant to leave your immediate side.

“I’m right here,” he said, both for you and for him. “I’m still here next to you.”

“I know,” you said, taking up the hand of the nurse that replaced him.

“Push, mama, push,” Jill chanted from over Jack’s shoulder, watching carefully as he cradled the emerging head.

“You’re doing amazing!” said Jack, fully crying now. “Keep going!”

You did. By the end of the minute, the head was all the way out.

“I see him, I see him!” said Jack frantically. “He’s coming! One more push, just one!”

“Tell me what’s happening, okay?” you asked. “I wanna know.”

“Okay, honey.”

Your nurses pushed you up. It was time for the final contraction. Or, what would hopefully be the final contraction.

“Push!”

You put all your remaining strength behind that last push, tears now joined in the sweat running down your cheeks.

“Here come the shoulders,” said Jack. “Good job! Okay, great job, honey, they’re coming — okay, one, and — c’mon, Ronan, you can do it — c’mon — okay, yes! Yes, yes, yes, so good, okay, and the little arms, and the belly, and —”

There was a sudden release of pressure, and almost immediately, a sharp, strong cry rent the air. You were sobbing in earnest now, but still Jack held onto your baby while they wailed. You couldn’t see them, but you could see his face, transfixed, unmoving. You didn’t like the look. Worry began to creep in.

“What?” you asked wetly. “What’s wrong? Is he okay?”

“It’s” — Jack’s breath caught in his throat — “it’s a girl! It’s a baby girl.” 

Your anxiety cleared, and you sighed in relief, a full body shudder as he gingerly lifted the little baby, your daughter, to your chest. Your eyes were as wide as his were, staring in awe at the little creature on your bosom.

“Hi,” you whispered, while Jill rubbed her vigorously with a cloth. “Hi, baby. You’re here.”

Jack, now gloveless, and hysterical, wrapped his arms around the both of you. Her whole tiny head was covered in sticky but unmistakable dark red hair. And it seemed Santos was right — she did have her dad’s nose. His everything, really.

“Isadora,” Jack said reverently through his tears. “You’re perfect.”

“You got your girl,” you said to Jack, eyes not parting from your Izzy for one second.

“Everyone’s gonna freak,” he said, stroking her head.

It wasn’t until later, with the cord clamped and cut, the placenta delivered, and the postpartum room moved into, you realized.

“Wait,” you said, watching Isadora curl sleepily into her father’s bare chest. “I just remembered something.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah,” you said, turning smug. “Princess got everything right. Robby lost.”

Jack began to match your smile.

“Way to go, Izzy,” he said. “First hour on earth, and you’re already beating Uncle Robby’s ass, huh? Atta girl. Just wait til you play him at hockey. He sucks.”

Your eyes, which had never fully dried, were beginning to tear up again. You knew it was to be expected with your hormones out of whack, but he was just holding her, for christ’s sake.

“C’mere,” you said lazily, beckoning him towards your bed. “You wanna call him up? Gloat in his face? I kinda do.”

“Nah,” said Jack calmly, settling in at your side. “I think for now it should just be me and my girls.”

You were sent home the next day, with an appointment for Izzy in the books and relatively minimal soreness, considering. Izzy was quickly proving herself to be a good eater, and a good sleeper.

“There we go, honey,” Jack cooed at her, setting her down in your arms. “All fed, all burped, all changed.”

He perched on the arm of your nursing chair. For once, it was exactly as you pictured. The breeze through the open window making the dragonflies fly, Jack by your side, and a little red haired baby resting in the green and yellow nursery.

---

Jack came in, completely exhausted after a long shift, but his expression softened as soon as he saw you. He came to your side and silenced your phone alarm.

"Morning, beautiful" he leaned down to press a kiss to your jaw. "Sensor change?"

"Mhm," you mumbled, blinking open your sleep crusted eyes. "I forgot it was hitting the fifteen day mark today."

Jack chuckled softly, his thumb gently tracing your cheekbone. "Do you want me to do it?"

"Would you mind?"

"I’ll get your kit."

He knew the routine by heart now.

When he returned a moment later, he had the gray zippered pouch containing your supplies, along with a fresh alcohol wipe and the box of the new sensor.

You sat up half asleep in bed, pulling off expired sensor. He sat on the edge of the bed, took his shoes and prosthetic off and then climbed in behind you, leaning against the headboard and gently pulling you back until your body rested on his.

"Don't you have to change and take care of your leg?" you murmured and he kissed your shoulder.

"I'll do it later. I want to do this first."

"You don't have to."

"But I want to, love."

"Okay," you whispered, stroking your forehead as a slight discomfort from not having slept enough appeared.

"Which arm?" he asked, opening the alcohol wipe.

"Left," you muttered, shifting your weight so your upper arm was easily accessible to him.

"Alright. This may be cold." The cool sting of the alcohol wipe gave your skin goosebumps. He wiped the back of his hand across the area in circular motion, ensuring it was clean. "How did your numbers look overnight? Did you stay steady?"

"A little high around two, but it came back down," you murmured, your eyes drifting shut again.

"Good." He put down the wipe and turned to the bedside table, picked up the plastic applicator, and assembled it with a click that usually made you a little tense. When he turned back to you, Jack noticed a slight tension in your shoulders. He lowered his free hand to your waist and gently stroked it. "Relax for me."

Jack was no stranger to needles or medical devices, but he always handled your diabetes with an extra care. At home, with you, he was very gentle.

He positioned the applicator against the back of your left arm, finding the usual spot where you apply it.

"Deep breath in," he whispered against your hair.

You inhaled, and there was a sharp click.

You winced at the sting. Jack was already pressing his fingers over the fresh adhesive, holding it firmly against your skin to make sure it stuck, just like you always did.

He left the applicator on the nightstand and as he looked down to admire his handywork, his brow furrowed. A tiny bead of red was blooming right through the center of the sensor.

"Hold on, love," he murmured. "We’ve got a little bleeder."

You sighed, too exhausted. "It’s fine, it happens sometimes. Just let it sit."

"I know, I know," Jack said softly, but he was already moving. He reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a clean tissue from the box next to the bed.

He applied pressure over the center of the sensor with the tissue.

"Does it hurt?" he asked, you nodded as he kept the pressure steady. "Is it a sharp pain, or just the usual pinch?"

"Just the usual," you mumbled. "Probably just hit a little capillary."

"Yeah, looks like it," he agreed, his thumb rubbing comforting caresses on your skin. He held the pressure for a solid minute, waiting patiently until he was certain the bleeding had stopped. When he pulled the tissue away, it was clean. He wiped up the tiny smudge of red from the plastic rim. "There. All clean. Looks like it’s going to hold just fine."

He picked up your phone from the nightstand and opened the app, holding the phone over the new device on your arm until it notificated it was working.

"Alright, it's scanning," Jack murmured. "Sixty minutes until it activates. I'll keep an eye on it."

He set the phone back down, face up so he could see the countdown. Then pulled you into his arms, sinking deep into the pillows and drawing the heavy duvet back over both of you. His arms wrapping securely around you.

"Baby, your leg."

"Ignore it, I will do it later." he whispered as he kissed the skin just beneath your ear.

"You should get comfortable. You know it's going to bother you later."

"I am comfortable with you against me." He followed it with another kiss to your neck. "Sleep, beautiful. Don't worry about me."

With the comforting rise and fall of Jack's chest against your back, you let yourself drift off, completely safe in his arms for the hour ahead.

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He is the safest doctor in the hospital for fat patients. He is one of the only surgeons that won't turn down a surgery because of a patient's weight, and he has zero tolerance for medical fatphobia.

(God have mercy on the doctor that gave his mom a "calories in calories out" lecture when she was in for a bacterial infection he didn't bother treating. He will never recover.)

With every new batch of residents/med students, his colleagues have a bet on how long it'll take for one of them to say something stupid and get their head bitten off. It's one of the many reasons he's called Shark.

Garcia was the sacrificial guppie of her class, but now she knows better and has won the bet three times in a row.

your nails dig into the back of his neck as you let out a pitiful little whine and then a sharp gasp as he suddenly pulls the entire thing out in one go, a slick popping noise as your hole reluctantly releases its tight grip.

he spits on the thick head and starts to slide it back inside.

‘ah! too big, too big,’ you protest, panting, your head thrown back against the pillow beneath you.

‘aw,’ jack coos, ‘but look how much she wants it, baby.’

he grinds the toy deep, palm butting up against the base until the head kisses your cervix. you choke on your own spit, going a little cross-eyed at the pleasure-pain. jack pulls it out slow, about halfway, shaft dragging before abruptly pushing it back in, pussy wet enough to hear the slide.

‘this greedy cunt always needs something inside her, isn’t that right?’ he says.

you whimper and moan as jack speeds up his hand. the ‘shlick shlick shlick’ sounds of your pussy getting stuffed filling up the space between you.

‘i—oh,’ you say, catching jack’s eyes as your breathing grows ragged.

he’s watching you with such intensity and desire, like he wants to eat you, swallow you right up. it makes you a little dizzy.

‘your pussy feel good, princess? nice and full of cock?’

‘mmn—,’ you moan, teeth biting into your bottom lip. you give him a small nod.

‘yeah, ‘course she does,’ jack says, ‘daddy always knows what his girls need.’

he leans down and breathes you in, holding you close, his forearm flexing as he pumps your cunt full of the silicone toy.

‘and what they need right now is a good little fucking before bedtime. so they can be all relaxed and have sweet dreams while daddy goes off to work.’

the next time the toy’s pressed deep, he rubs his thumb against your swollen clit. you moan, squeezing tight around the toy, pleasure shooting electric.

‘mm, there we go,’ jack murmurs, circling your clit as you spasm, ‘can’t forget about her too, now can we, princess?’

he doesn’t stay there for long, abandoning your clit to start sliding the toy in and out again, ignoring the way you grasp at the short curls on the back of his neck.

‘oh, fuck, wait, please,’ you say, your voice high and breathy, needing his attention back there, more than desperate for it.

‘shh,’ jack says, ‘just relax and take what daddy gives you. be a good little hole for me.’

he’s fucking you hard with the toy now, your stomach tensing each time it slides home, your leg shaking where jack has it pressed up against your chest.

‘but—,’ you try and say, but jack just shakes his head, giving you a knowing look that has your mouth snapping shut.

‘no more talking, baby. holes don’t talk, okay? holes get used.’

the sound you let out is so pathetic it mortifies you, heat spreading from the center of your forehead out, down, past your cheeks and your neck, into your chest. suffusing until you feel like you might actually start glowing from the warmth.

jack presses a kiss to your forehead, humming.

together, the two of you watch as the toy in his hand splits you open again, head catching against your opening before your pussy sucks it deep inside, back where it belongs.

relaxing in his hold, all control released, you let your boyfriend pump you full of fake cock for as long as he wants, until he decides you’ve had enough, your eyes wet with desperate tears and your lips gone swollen from your gnawing teeth.

‘does my little girl want to come?’ jack finally asks, his voice sweet and coddling.

you nod frantically, looking up at him, pleading with your whole face.

‘she can come,’ jack says, pressing the toy deep, a featherlight touch of his thumb on your clit.

but it’s all you need, sitting on the edge as you have been, and you shake apart, mouth dropped open to whisper a repeated, ‘thank you, thank you, thank you’ to jack, eyes locked onto his own, his pupils blown wide, devouring you.

he kisses you when you’re done, wet and filthy, full of tongue like he’s trying to taste how grateful you are.

‘good girl,’ he praises you, sucking on your bottom lip.

he slides the toy out careful and slow, letting your knee lower down to the bed.

you let out a quiet whimper when you’re left empty, feeling sensitive and open. bereft, your pussy clenching down around nothing. but jack doesn’t leave you empty any longer than he has to, slipping three thick fingers inside, curling them up against your pubic bone.

‘shh, don’t worry, baby. daddy’s got you,’ jack says, nuzzling his nose against yours. ‘daddy’s always got you.’

he stays like that, fingers pressed deep, plugging you full, until you fall asleep, sated, in your shared bed.

*

You rubbed at your swollen tummy while you waddled around the garden, you basket in tow as you picked at the plentiful harvest. Your sundress danced in the slight breeze, the fabric gently hugging your soft curves.

Jack would be out in the pasture, checking on his cattle. His eyes would land on you. You struggling to bend down as you plucked tomatoes off the vine. His heart twinged slightly. He was happy that you were carrying his kin, but seeing how you were constantly exhausted made his heart shatter.

He remembers the day you announced the big news.

You held up the pregnancy test, Jackie's eyes studying the two pink little lines. You squealing the minute Jack Abbot hoisted you into the air with his arms wrapped below your butt.

"We're having a baby!" he cheered. "We're having a fucking baby!"

He'd spin you around before setting you back down. Holding your head in your hands, his lips seeking yours. His tongue grazing across yours, spit being exchanged between your warm mouths.

"We're having a fuckin' baby," he whispered against your lips.

His hands gripped along the reins that dragged along the neck of his horse, him tensing as he watched you trudge through the plowed dirt decorated with your plants. He wanted to lift your belly, freeing yourself of the weight. Yet, he leaned across the back of his mare, sighing as he adjusted his cowboy hat.

You'd peek up from the garden, slightly waving to him underneath the sun. His hand would just raise in response, totally enamored by your pregnant self in the fabric of your dress. He watched you for a while as you plucked the fruit of your garden. Your rooster crowing in the background while the sun hung heavy along the horizon.

The sky would grow dark, Jack's hand always encircling your plush stomach. He would feel how his kiddo would squirm and kick along the walls of your womb. The ever growing child pulsing beneath your belly.

"Hey, sweetie," Jack cooed, hush whispers against the skin. You both knowing it was a girl. "You're always moving when you hear daddy’s voice, yeah?"

Jack, who would have his most intimate moments with his daughter while you slept. Always kissing your stretchmarks while the flesh would bend and fold beneath his touch.

"Do y'know how much mommy and I love you?"

Your skin would project with your baby's feet kicking into your side. Jack seeing the constant movements resting below your belly. You'd wince in pain suddenly at the contractions, him afraid to wake the stirring baby.

He'd rub your tummy for a while, feeling how your womb would settle beneath his touch. Just a subtle hand resting on your belly while you slept. Little breaths puffing from your mouth, totally wiped from waddling around in the hot sun. Kisses graced your collar and plump breasts, your boobs being way bigger than usual.

His kisses lacing the hairs on your crotch and trailing to your center, practically begging for him while you slept. You'd be wet, your folds sparkling in the moonlight. His constant licks lapping at your center, digging into your filled cunt. It was great, your womb swollen with his child, the birth coming in the following days.

He couldn't help it, seeking below the barrier of your underwear, sliding the fabric to the side. His tongue dancing along your slick folds and your bud. You'd slightly squirm under him, your large belly swaying from side to side. Your puffy ankles resting on top of his back. He'd watch you, how you moaned in between breaths. It was beautiful, his mama all cute and needy in her sleep. He'd also notice the glint of your wedding ring, the large rock sitting large and present on your finger.

A few hours later, you'd stir awake, always having to pee since becoming pregnant. You'd return from the bathroom, hardly prodding Jack's shoulder. He'd groan, his body stretching under your touch, a low hum spilling from his chest.

"Jackie, why is my underwear all wet?"

"Mmpf—," he growled with his eyes still closed. "M'sorry, you just looked so pretty."

You just smiled, pressing a cute kiss to his forehead.

The next morning, you'd be cracking eggs in the pan while the farmhands chatted at the table. You wearing one of your t-shirts that allowed your big stomach to poke through. Flipping the pancakes and heating the bacon, a shirtless Jackie graced your presence. The constant affection normal for the farmhands to see. Jack's arms settled on your sides, the fingers slowly making their way to smooth over the harsh skin of your stomach. His palms slightly lifting the muscle, you sighing with relief.

"Thank you, Jackie," you said, relaxing into his bare chest and placing a kiss along the expanse of his neck.

"Anytime, sweetheart."

Jokes and stories would be passed back and forth between Jack and the farmhands. Sometimes you laughing so hard your womb shook. Jack's rough hand would settle on your thigh under the table, smirking when he turned to you for your reaction to the most recent prank that was told. The boys consumed the hearty breakfast, praising you for your hard work even while you were pregnant.

Now, you were wobbling towards the goats, their constant bleating filling your ears.

"Yeah? Y'all excited to meet the little one? Our little farmhand?" you asked, sprinkling the feed across the grass. They would all squeal in response.

You were sat there, propped up against the fence. A bottle in your one hand and the other kneading into your warm belly. The kid suckling at the nipple of the bottle, little horns peaking from the hairs resting on the little one's head.

"That's it, I bet you miss your mama, don't you?"

Jack's horse would trail to you, him not even leading, his horse always following, being drawn to you. The horse stood there above you, Jack sitting on her backside. She'd slightly nuzzle you, you chuckling as you palmed her cheek. Standing up, your finger nails scratched further into the horse's fur, him admiring while you watched.

"Just thought we'd check in on you, sweetheart," Jack piped up. "You doing okay?"

"More than okay, Jackie."

You'd pet the horse for a while, patting Jack's thigh when you passed him to go to the chicken coop. He'd steer the horse to follow, obsessed with your unsteady gait as you walked.

"Just gonna watch me now?" you asked, picking up the eggs that nestled in the cubbies.

"Yeah," he laughed, his mouth curving. "Like watching you work.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

It wasn't until he came in while you stirred the brownie batter in the bowl. Him placing kisses along the nape of your neck while he once again hoisted your stomach up.

"Jackie, you gotta stop doing that!"

"Can't help it, doll," he rasped. "You get to feel my daughter all the time. God forbid I wanna hold her too."

Once the men all ate, you would be relaxing in bed, reading another baby book. Jack felt like you and him read a million, almost creating a book club, discussing the contents consistently. You wanted to be prepared, always ready for what you were getting yourself into. Jack plucked the book from your hands, kissing along the thin fabric that settled upon your sternum.

You moaned under his lips, kisses laced upon your shoulders and neck. His hand steady on top of your tummy, the stretchmarks glowing red on your skin. He'd slurp at your neck for a while, and then your swole stomach. Adorning your expanded flesh in hot kisses, his tongue swirling along the marks that rippled through your skin.

He would briefly pull away, shrugging off his shirt and unzipping his jeans. He returned to you, a smile gracing his lips as he kissed you.

You'd sit there, petting at the silver curls, little gasps leaking from your lips. He jerked your hips suddenly, your pregnant body slightly wavering as you settled on top of him. Your belly bare and present in front of him, his hips slightly lifting to shrug off his boxers. Once his cock was free, he drew the inches across your folds. Your clit beckoning for the feel of his length. He teased you for a bit, pumping along your slick center.

The minute he pressed himself into your needy hole, he groaned. Your plump womb bouncing over him, hoping to induce labor with his constant thrusts.

Both nurseries, one in his apartment and one at the farm, were decorated with monograms of the baby's name, little furniture in every part of the room for the tiny creature. Onesies were hanging in the closet, everyone spoiling you with the clothing during your baby shower. Diapers piled high along the walls, the two hospital bags always ready. Once again, one in his apartment, one in the farmhouse.

The bag sitting in the corner of the room at the ready, all while you were riding on top of him. Your hips drawing him further into you.

"Oh, Jackie," you moaned, your stomach slightly tensing. Your hands were placed on the stretched skin while his thick cock rammed into you.

"Yeah? You okay, sweetheart?"

"Mhm, ah—" you hiss, him shifting his hips to meet your spot. "Fuck, baby."

His torso would rise to kiss your plump breasts and your large belly.

"M'sorry, doll," Jack whispered, his breath crossing your skin. "You just look so beautiful, all pregnant and needy like this."

Your hips, moving up and down, your insides encircling and hugging his cock so nicely. The movements were slow, your body so worn that you couldn't keep up.

Slow draws around his cock would Jack to groan, his member jerking inside you.

"Oh, baby, I love seeing you like this," his voice rough with pleasure. "You're so hot, carrying our child— ah—, and— fuck!"

He could hardly keep up as well, just seeing your curvey large body. Fuck, it was too much.

"Jackie, gonna cum—. Oh, fuck!"

"Fuck that's it, sweetheart," Jack heaved. "Just keep riding me, yeah? Keep riding this ole' bull."

The slight roll of your hips did him in, hot spurts lacing your insides. Your own leaking around his cock. He'd hold you for a minute, balancing your soft figure on top of him.

In the coming days, he found himself holding your daughter. His shirt off, meeting the baby skin to skin, slightly bouncing his bicep while she rested in his arms.

You, dark circles decorating your under eyes. Your tummy still swollen from birth. An exhausted smile plastered on your face as you watched your husband hold your little one.

"God, she's so beautiful, sweetheart. You did a good job with her," Jack cooed.

You reached across the arm of the hospital bed, your hand placed along his forearm.

"We did a good job, couldn't have been pregnant without you after all."

The moment the doctor mentioned that you both couldn't have intercourse for six weeks, Jack sighed heavily. He knew he couldn't, he was a doctor of course! However, the minute the words came from the doctor's mouth, reality set in. All Jack wanted was to fuck his brand new mama the minute they put their baby to sleep.

So in that time, you kept busy. You gave your little one a tour of the farm. Jack holding the swaddled child in his arms while you listed off all the names of your animals.

Or even how she'd grow restless, little squeals and cries coming from her mouth. Jack would saddle up, having you hop on while he tried to hush his daughter. The minute you got settled, he'd pass her to you. You both would ride together as the slight bob of the horses gait calmed her down.

"Yeah? You like riding our horsey? I knew you would, my little equestrian."

The minute those six weeks were up, Jack would climb into bed with you. You, all insecure with your flabby belly. Him, constantly placing kisses on the recovering flesh.

"Jackie," you pouted. "M'all ugly now."

"Now you're not, sweetheart," he whispered, placing another kiss. "You did so well, carrying our kid n' all."

As time passed, beyond the moment your daughter took her first steps, said her first word, she became reckless. Always running around wanting to explore everything.

You and Jack would be sat in the grass while she explored the field around the chicken coop.

Jack pulling down the brim of his cowboy hat to shield from the sun, your skirt splayed on the greenery below.

"Mama!" your daughter cheered. "Wook! Chickie!"

You just chuckled, watching as she fumbled with the fluffy feathered chick. Running up to you, showing the little bird off.

"Beautiful, sweetie," you smiled as she placed the chick in your hands.

"Mama, I love chickie."

"I know you do."

She'd take off, sprinting to the coop. You started to get up until Jack placed a hand on your shoulder.

"I got it."

You watched him, slightly faltering while trying to stand on his bum leg. The moment he got up, he took off. Jogging to meet your little one. She was peeking into the little cubbies when Jack's eyes finally landed on her.

"Dada, wook!" She held up an egg to him. "Got an eggy!"

"You do," Jack smirked. "Mighty fine one at that."

In the days ahead, you would return to his apartment in the city. Bouncing your toddler on your hip while you scrambled some eggs on the stove, waiting for Jack to return from his shift.

He'd return, an odd smile on his face after a long shift. You turned to him the minute he crossed into the threshold. Him kissing you and then your toddler, beaming with joy.

"Something happen?" you asked, a nervous feeling bubbling in your stomach.

"I'm retiring," he admitted. "…and we're moving to the farm."

Your shocked look slowly turned into a bright grin.

"Jackie, that's amazing!"

"Can't stand being away from my girls," he said in between sweet kisses on your lips. "I'm finally starting my life with you."