Deran

Height: 167cm

sw: 57kg

lw: 44.1kg

hw: 64kg ouch

cw: 55.2kg

gw:44,5kg

Also, over the past 8 years at this school I haven’t been close with anyone there. There’s only one person who I’d consider a somewhat friend at school for the last two years, but she has loads of other friends.

So I know I’m gonna hate it, because I won’t really have anyone to talk to. And I will only have my mum there, and then she’s gonna see how alone I was at this school, and she’ll feel sad.

So part of me wants to drink so that I won’t care as much, and I can hopefully enjoy myself a little. But the last time I got drunk at a school event (it’s somewhat normal to drink during that one), I went a little overboard and ended up having a breakdown about my dad being dead, having to be picked up from school by my mum, and having no memory from a time span of 6 hours. And I don’t want that to happen again.

Basically, I’m going to be suffering over graduation.

So it seems I’ve been blessed. I got out of dinner last night pretty easily, just said that I had been really hungry and ate before my mum got back.

And I got a request to babysit tonight, which means I’m clear for tonight’s dinner.

And then there’s only tomorrow’s dinner left, which in case my mum’s plans to eat with the neighbour fall through I can suggest she eat with my brother instead.

Looking good so far!! Just starting to really worry about these dinners the next three days because for some reason my mum doesn’t have any plans in the evenings. And I’m really not a good liar. I’m thinking I can get her to eat with my brother one evening and with our neighbour a different evening, but that still leaves one where she’ll expect to eat with me.