hoping to begin again

Is my space still a thing?

I feel like everything inside me that once made me special died, and now I'm just an empty husk with a rotting soul.

I don't think I've stopped feeling anger since I was between the ages of 9 and 12.

Sometimes I get up to eat something but then I forget and end up not eating something

I'm so glad TikTok is back so everyone STAYS AWAY FROM TUMBLR. It's nice here. I like it.

Should i share my story ideas here?

The worst part is that no one will ever know the hell I had to crawl through just to go through the same doors they just walk through.

Someday you'll be a past vision in my dreams, too, won't you?

Interestingly enough I am now neither a virgin nor a saint. I am just evil and undesirable and disgusting.

I keep dreaming about people from my past, and I feel inconsolable guilt for it. I am not supposed to miss them. I have a new person now who would feel very hurt knowing I am incapable of forgetting.

Wow it's been a while. Sorry, I haven't been sad and lonely in a while. Sad but not lonely... Maybe somewhat lonely.

I said I was a virgin, not a saint.

Baby's first panic attacks uwu