time flies

i need to stop imagining scenarios in my head that have a -2% chance of actually happening it’s becoming a problem

Yes, I know today’s your birthday. and I’m going to know it’s your birthday every year for the rest of my life because some things I can’t erase. But that doesn’t mean you still have a place in my heart, because you don’t. And you don’t have a place in my mind either, unless I notice the date and it’s your birthday ,or I’m drunk in a bar and that song is playing, or your sister shows up on my Facebook newsfeed. So what I’m saying is at this point you’re just muscle memory and it has nothing to do with my heart.

You have to start noticing things. The direction of the rays of sunshine, how it touches and warms your skin; the sway of a leaf in a mild breeze; the simple beauty of the flowers; the strong smell of your morning coffee; the wind in your hair and on your face; the liveliness of the city; the calm of your soul. You have to start noticing this and start living for it.