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How did this mf get in here?

Of the love I deserve

Moments so charged with emotion

Hearts with no reserve

My grandfather helping my grandmother put on her coat

My parents dancing in the living room

My best friends helping each other on and off a boat

Snatches of love woven together on a loom

Each thread a glittering piece of hope

The fate’s tapestry does slowly unfold

To this vision I cling like a rope

Hoping my story won’t remain untold

Hearts with no reserve

Moments so charged with emotion

Of the love I deserve

Clawing in my chest as my only witness

It fills my ears with cotton and screams into my mind

Reminds me of all the things I can’t find

She settled only when you said my name

That demon living in my heart without tame

But when you left without so much as a parting phrase

The scratching and screaming began its ways

Now that demon controls my throat

Choking words from my lungs building a moat

I can no longer say what I want to do

Because all I wanted was to go with you

This scrambling beast consumes my nights

Ceilings and silence my only fights

Surprised I am at such a loss of sleep

Yet through my mind you crawl and creep

Alone in my bed is nothing new

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The doors you had carelessly tossed open

And found you had ripped up the flowers,

something ugly in their place

Thorns growing among my iris

Roses ripped from their careful beds

Morning glories wilting from the trellis

Despite this abhorrent destruction,

Satisfaction is nothing you will receive

For you’ve proven to me one thing

I may grow flowers as I please

My garden is safe, but I can still be free

The woods are not scary, and the doors can be repaired

No longer will I be trapped in the twilight

And no longer will I call your name searching into the night

You abandoned me, but I’ll always haunt you

My name on your mind, because I’m the one that got away

The day you realize and extend the branch

You will find only willow and yew in your grasp.

Falling for the boy

Wild child

You were only his toy

Baby face

Each interaction just a ploy

Tender heart

You would never be his joy

Sweet thing

Retreating behind your walls

Cry baby

Holding tears back in case he calls

Little dreamer

It is not true love if it mauls

Shy child

A kiss upon my lips,

Your eyes looking deep into mine.

What a wonderful hello.

A beautiful beginning,

A leap of faith into the unknown

Waiting hands to catch me.

Spinning, flying, what a dizzy feeling.

Feet on firm ground again.

A kiss upon my lips,

Your gentle hand on my chin,

Your eyes looking deep into mine.

Scraping and clawing against the earth

Desperate to leave a mark

Proof I was here

A way to be remembered

That I’m surprised it took me so long

To realize that my nails are clean

The ground at my feet free of scars

Because ever since that day

To hell with being remembered

All I want is to be noticed