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working on some older writing, I donât know how much Iâll be able to edit or post this week, so take a WIP <3 the girls are fightinggggg
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âBecause I am doomed!âÂ
He slams his hand down on the table, making the silverware rattle with the force.
âAll that we start with love in our heart is cursed to our terrible fate. All that is connected to us is doomed the same, to end in darkness, to rot in despair. I am doomed to be doomed, for the silmarils will always demand those that hold them to keep, and I must always demand their return.â
He fits you with a look, a cold, withering look, and it takes all you have not to freeze in it. âYou insist on fighting for something doomed from the beginning. You insist on putting yourself on a path you have no need to go down, one that will only ever promise ruin. And I will not let you.â
It was all terribly unfair.
You had been there when he had sworn the oath, had spilled blood on those western shores, had travelled far and wide with him. The Valar didnât understand, and maybe there had been pride and vanity when FĂŤanor had refused to give up the silmarils, and had sworn so viciously for their return; but you know Maedhros had always sworn out of duty and love, for his father and his brothers.Â
You had done the same for him, and you were beyond saving now. You had not taken the oath, had never spoken any binding words, but your love ran deeper than anything you could ever swear upon to the stars above, to the Valar on their thrones, to Eru itself.
There was never any other path for you.
âI donât remember taking your council into consideration,â you bite back rather heatedly. âI donât recall asking for your permission, Maedhros.â
You bite his name out like itâs a curse. Curse him, and curse the evil that has driven you both here. Curse the love that has made you stay.Â
âYou would be needlessly damning yourself for something beyond saving,â he says, cold in his rage. In his need for control. Cold as the pass he used to guard, before the forces of Morgoth had overran the northern front, and forced you further south.
He speaks with a terrible certainty that tells you he has made peace with his own fate. It is not something you would make peace with. Not now, not in a thousand years, not so long as he stood before you and still drew breath.
âYou are not a thing, Maedhros,â you snap. âYou are an elf! My elf! An elf that is still here, still fighting. And it is not needless, and I am not blind to these risks.â
You step around the table, ignoring the terrible anger. The way he imposes his height, the way he snaps and rages, the way his red hair and shining eyes make him seem to be of fire, of a devil. He is trying to be intimidating, and it is no small feat for he has this ability to harden his gaze and cow even the strongest elves.Â
âDo not ask me to sit idly while you put yourself in harms way. Do not ask me to run off with my tail between my legs because the road has grown dark, and danger lies ahead. Above all, do not ask me to abandon you to carry the world alone.âÂ
He tenses his jaw, before he has to look away, breaking your gaze. âI am asking you to save yourself. Is that so difficult to understand?â
âAnd leave you to save your brothers on your own? To save yourself? I think not.â
You reach for his hand, and grasp it, following him even as he tries to pull it away. You wonât let him scare you away like this. You wonât be pushed away.
âI did not swear your oath, dear heart. I will not swear it, for you are right, it is madness. But I will not sit by while you damn yourself. I will not leave you alone, for I cannot bear to leave you alone, nor be alone, in all this. I do not care if this curses me, or stains me, because I would do it a thousand times over, because it is you. Maedhros, look at me.â
He doesnât, not right away. He sits there, shoulders heaving with his breaths, for a long, tense moment. Youâre breaking him down, you know you are, and you know heâs hating himself for it.
You squeeze his hand tightly.Â
âI cannot let you damn yourself for my sake,â he says, finally raising his head. Heâs crying, you realize, silent tears that roll down his cheeks like drops of silver.
There is something broken in his expression, something vulnerable and bloody in the way he looks at you now. The misery of an elf who does not want what goodness he has left to fall to darkness, yet cannot bear the thought of you leaving.
âI am already damned.â You move your other hand to reach up and cup his jaw, keeping his gaze fixed upon you. âI spilled blood as you have, I left knowing it meant exile, I have made myself an enemy of those who are against you. It is not something you can stop, as much as you can the wind or the sea.â
You rub your thumb along his cheekbone, gently wiping away his tears.Â
âI am not leaving you alone in this,â you promise. He leans into your touch, as reassured as he is heartbroken. âNot now, not ever. I have lived without you long enough, and will not hear anything of leaving you again.âÂ
summary: maedhros comforts you through cramps, thats it thats the post
contains: afab!elf!reader who gets periods, still referred to with gender neutral terms. very brief mention of period sex, comfort through bad cramps, I don't know or care if elves get periods I'm taking creative liberties. stand-alone fic, but it was written with hm!reader in mind
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Maedhros watches you, rather worried as you pace back and forth across the floor, fists clenching and unclenching at your sides as you do so.Â
Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, until you have to stop and lean against the wall, face screwed up in pain.Â
Your bleeding cycle was a particularly vicious one, he knew. A period where you were excused from most, if not all, tasks, given leave to rest as best as you could. In Tirion, it was hardly ever this brutal, pain seemingly dulled in the Valarâs world meant to exist without it. Or maybe there were just more remedies for such maladies, more things to soothe the pain.Â
As it was, you had no such luxury, other than a crude pain killer you could only take in spaced out intervals.
Heâs familiar with this time. Has seen you at its best and at its worst, kept you company when you had to pace, held you as sobs wracked your body on the rarer occasions.Â
âMy love?â He questions as you stop and all but keel over.
âFine,â you croak out, taking all your effort to try and breathe through a nasty wave of pain. You start to pace again, nails digging into your palms as you breathe in and out on counts, focusing on the repetitive actions to keep you grounded against the pain.Â
Heâs seen you work through this before, knows that even now you could push this all aside and stand straight should you demand it of yourself. He thinks of your form on the battlefield, blood running down half of your face, one hand holding a knife stuck in your side so it doesnât slip out as you swing your sword with the other.Â
He thinks if you put your mind to it, if needs must, you could push through anything and persevere.
Wordlessly he stands and offers you his hand to hold. You take it and grip it like a lifeline, and slow your pacing so he can circle around with you. It's easy enough even with the extra steps he must take circling on the outside, for he is far taller than you.Â
The next hour finds you in different positions around the room, in attempts to soothe the waves of debilitating pain. Lying face down on your bed, fists bunching the covers. Pacing back and forth across the floor. Curled up with Maedhros, his warm palm on your lower stomach, until you grow restless with pain once more. Lying on your back on the pelts on your floor, bouncing your legs and closing your eyes.Â
More than once, he offers his hand in another sense, to help draw away the pain with pleasure. You both know this to be an effective method, and Maedhros is not shy nor disgusted by the mess it produces. But each time you decline, claiming to feel far too gross to have him touch you as such.Â
He supposes this to be a good sign - were you desperate enough to escape the pain, you would take him up on his offer anyway, any other discomfort almost minuscule in comparison to the discomfort of the unbearable pain.
If he could, he would take this pain away from you. Would help you bear it, so you wouldnât have to suppress noises of pain and ride through waves of torment.Â
Eventually, you find a spot on the floor that suits you well enough, on the soft furs with a pillow underneath your lower back. Occasionally you shift your hips, or bounce your legs, working through a wave of pain - you squeeze his hand through them, only able to close your eyes and wince.Â
The intensity evidently starts to dim after a while in this position. You tell him you think itâs the pain killer the healers had provided you with finally kicking in, and while the cramps arenât gone, they donât have you writhing in pain anymore.Â
âThank you,â you whisper after a long moment on the floor. Your hand has relaxed in his, though he keeps a hold of you anyway. âIt canât be easy having to deal with - with all of this.â
âThe only pain it brings me is seeing you in pain, melda,â he says, and presses a kiss to your forehead. âI have seen you get cut with swords and show less of a struggle than this. I couldnât imagine it.â
By the time the cramps pass enough to have you relaxing, youâre falling asleep on the furs, curling up close to Madehros. He holds you close, resting his hand over your lower stomach, far warmer than any blanket.Â
Thereâs no better feeling than drifting away safe in his arms, peace after so much pain and discomfort.
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summary: there is no rest for the wicked, even during times of peace. maedhros suffers from paperwork, and you're there to convince him to take a break
contents: gn!elf!reader, banter and fluff, stand alone part of a series
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Maedhros is at his desk when you visit him in the morning, buried in paperwork. The lord of Himringâs work is never finished, it seems, even during times of peace. You leave him there with a cup of tea and a kiss on the top of his head, neither of which he looks up to, and he gives you a half remembered thanks as you leave to do your own work for the day.
Heâs still there when you return in the evening, sitting in the exact same position you left him in, eyes squinting at a letter thatâs more ink than paper.Â
âEnough of this,â you demand. Itâs only the knowledge that the paper is delicate that keeps you from ripping it out of his hand. You would make your point without ruining requisition forms.Â
Maedhros, to his credit, looks up this time. âEnough of what?â He asks blandly. âEnough of inventory and stock? Enough of troop management? Enough of this cursed life weâve chosen to live?â
Thereâs a dry sort of humor that comes out with his irritation, the kind thatâs almost not humorous at all.Â
âEnough straining your eyes over Tyelkoâs messy penmanship,â you reply in kind. You reach for the paper then, and tug gently until he lets it slip from his grasp.Â
For how you jest, you must squint in the candlelight to decipher whatever it is his wayward brother had written him for. Not a requisition form, it would seem, but something equally important - and equally boring.Â
âYouâd think heâd know how to write legibly, considering our father made the cursed letters.â Itâs a sign of his weariness that Maedhros simply uses his now free hand to pinch the bridge of his nose and close his eyes, instead of truly fighting you for the paper.Â
âYou would think,â you reply, squinting as if that will make the letters rewrite themselves into something you could read. He reaches up then, blindly feeling for the letter, expecting you to hand it back.Â
You take a step back, letter held high, remembering just what you had stormed in there to do in the first place.Â
âNope,â you say. âEnough of everything you mentioned, and everything on your desk.âÂ
Maedhros sighs, and settles his shoulders, before gesturing with his hand again. Itâs the no nonsense, I asked for something and expect an answer kind of gesture. Learned by being a lord in his own right - but especially learned by being the eldest of six brothers.
You step around him, and lean against his desk, placing the letter behind you as you do. âWhen will you learn to delegate?â You ask him, crossing your arms.Â
Maedhros blinks at you, as he lowers his hand back down. âI know how to delegate.â
You look pointedly at the stack of papers heâs yet to go through, and the candle burning far too low to be of much use. âHow much of this has your steward touched?âÂ
âHe has his own work to worry himself over-âÂ
âAnd you do not? Oâ mighty lord of Himring?â
âThis is my work to worry about.â
âThis is not delegating, Maedhros,â you say, grabbing the letter and waving it around again. âThis is the opposite of delegating.â
Heâs deceptively quick. One moment, heâs slouched against his elbow in his chair. In the next, heâs snatching at the paper in your grasp.Â
You jolt away, holding the paper higher. His hand freezes where itâs at, half raised out of his seat with his arm crossed over your body. Youâre not sure if his patience has worn thin, or if itâs mischief heâs now tensed with. He has this look in his eye, one remarkably similar to a cat preparing to pounce.
You tense similarly, and wait for him to lunge for the paper again. When he does, you manage to pull your arm down and twist, darting just out of reach. A laugh bubbles up out of you at your surprise as he stands to follow, having only missed your hand by inches.
You dart and dance around the room in your sudden game of keep-away, until Maedhros manages to catch you around the waist. He doesnât reach immediately for the paper, and instead takes the chance to spin you around in his arms.Â
You can feel him chuckling, ever so softly against your back, and smile. You clutch at his arms when he sets you back down, dizzy with the sudden movement and the rush of affection.Â
âDo you yield?â He asks, his voice lightened with amusement as he tightens his hug around your waist. You pretend to think about it.
âI must considerâŚâ The fingers of his left hand jab into your soft side, and you shriek at the feeling. âI yield, I yield!â
You hold out the paper, and he takes it from you. He doesnât move right away, as he lowers his head to press his chin against your shoulder and his cheek against your jaw.Â
âJust one night,â you bargain, closing your eyes and leaning against him. âOne night where you are not the general of the north, nor the lord of this fortress. One night where the world isnât on your shoulders.â
You turn in his arms, and wrap both of yours around his neck. âOne night where you are mine.â
Maedhros takes his own time pretending to consider it. He makes a valiant effort, looking back to the work on his desk and the missive in his hands. His weariness betrays him, as does the way your hands start to card through his hair, releasing tension he hadn't even realized heâd been stiff with.
âI suppose this will still be here in the morning,â he concedes. You take the paper from him again without protest, and set it down on the desk next to you both.
âDelegate,â you remind him. âYouâre supposed to delegate, remember?âÂ
He hums noncommittally, and presses his forehead against yours, inhaling deeply. You wouldnât be surprised if this was the first time today heâs simply stopped and let himself breathe.Â
You donât press him for an answer. Youâre happy enough when he leans in closer, dropping the weight of the world from his shoulders just for the moment to focus on kissing you.
AKOTSK men kinks? Any pet names for LS? High Valyrian in bedroom??!? Iâm foaming at the mouth rn đŤ
I did answer sizes/positions/kinks already, but did keep it relatively broad rather than Lady Stark!Reader specific, but holy shit did I have a lot to say about this. Strap in, we're gonna get real nasty and weird lol.
includes: baelor, maekar, aerion, dunk, lyonel, valarr, daeron, aegon the conqueror, maegor the cruel, daemon blackfyre && brynden rivers (bloodraven). 18+. mdni. this contains some dark themes/content (guess who lmao) but NO no-con (because we don't fuck with that here.)
BAELOR:
The Dornish approach to pleasure (unlike Westerosi prudishness, Dorne celebrates sex openly, and he very much brings that philosophy to bed, will spend hours on foreplay because Dornish lovers are generous, will make you come three times before he even gets inside you because in Dorne a man's prowess is measured by his partner's satisfaction)
Delayed gratification (he's been edging himself for too long when it comes to you; edging you is just the natural extensionâhe'll bring you to the brink a dozen times before he lets you shatter because he's teaching you the pleasure of waiting, of burning)
The praise specificity (he doesn't just say "good girl", he's specific: "The way you take me is perfect, the sounds you make, how wet you get, the way you clench when you're close", detailed observational praise that proves he's paying attention)
Competence kink (watching you ride, negotiate, command makes him harder than any bedroom game ever couldâhe wants to fuck you still wearing the confidence you wielded in the council chamber, wants to be the only one who gets to see you undone)
Feeding (Dornish culture is sensual about food too, so he'll feed you pomegranate seeds, blood oranges, watching juice run down your chin before licking it away, and sometimes he'll fuck you with sticky fruit-sweetness still on both your mouths)
Northern/Southern contrast fixation (your cold skin warming under his hands is a metaphor he can't escapeâhe's the southern prince, a dragon, with blood of Dorne in his veins, melting the winter queen, the dragon thawing the wolf, and he whispers it while he fucks you: "You're so warm for me now, aren't you? All that ice, melting.")
Lowkey breeding kink (he tells himself it's duty, political necessity, but the truth is he's obsessed with the idea of you round with his child even though he would never say it, likes watching his seed drip out of you, presses it back in with his fingers while you whimper)
Siesta sex (the Dornish afternoon rest becomes SEXUAL; he'll pull you into his chambers in the heat of the day, strip you both down, fuck you slow and sweaty while the castle is quiet, and there's something deeply intimate about mid-afternoon sex, sunlight slanting through shutters, no rush)
Mirror sex (he positions you so you have to watch: watch yourself take him, watch your face when you break, watch him watching you, "Look at yourself. Look how perfect you are. Look what you let me do to you.")
Breeding intensity (when he's actually trying to get you pregnant, he becomes almost feral, fucking you multiple times a day during your fertile window, keeping you in bed, barely letting you leave: "I'm not wasting this, I'm going to make sure it takes")
Orange blossom oil (he uses Dornish scented oilsâorange blossom, mainly, his favouriteâwarming it in his hands before touching you, and the scent becomes rooted in your brain, you smell orange blossom anywhere and get immediately wet, and he knows, will sometimes wear it himself just to watch you react)
Oral fixation (he'll spend an hour between your thighs, ignore his own aching cock entirely, because tasting you is communion and he's a devout man; same can be said about finger sucking heh)
Spiced wine as ritual (he'll bring Dornish wineâthe kind his mother drinks, heavy and spicedâand make you drink from his cup before sex, the sharing of wine a Dornish intimacy ritual, and sometimes he'll pour it on your skin and lick it off, the spices mixing with salt and sweat)
Praise kink (when you call him "my prince" while he's inside you makes him actually dizzy)
Orange grove fantasy (he talks about taking you to Dorne, fucking you in the orange groves of Sunspear, under the desert sun where no one would care about propriety: "In Dorne we could do this anywhere, the Water Gardens, the shadow city, no one would bat an eye")
The way he fucks you: Slow and controlled. He's a man who's been denying himself for years (in many contexts) and now that he has permission to have one thing he's wanted above all else, he's going to savour every second. He maps your body like territory he's conquering inch by inch. He learns what makes you gasp, whimper, beg, and then he uses it. A merciless commander of his favourite battlefield. With the same brilliance he brings to the tourney field.
Pet names: "Little wolf" (only in private, only in bed, and it makes you feral every time), "my lady" (even when you're naked and begging, because the formality is part of the game), "sweetling" (rarely, and when he does use it you know he's feeling extra soft toward you)
High Valyrian: He uses it sparingly because he knows the power it has over you. The intimacy of a language you don't fully speak, the intimacy of it. He waits until you're close, until you're trembling, and then he switches: "Gevie" (beautiful), "Ăuha zaldrÄŤzes" (my dragon, ironic and possessive because you're the wolf but he's claiming you in dragon-tongue), "MÄzÄŤs syt nyke" (come for me).
Post-sex: He holds you like you're something precious he's afraid will disappear. Traces your face with his fingers like he's memorising you. Whispers things into your hair: "I've wanted you so long," "You undo me," "I would burn the realm for you and I know I shouldn't." The vulnerability lasts maybe five minutes before he rebuilds his walls back to the prince (because he still feels ashamed to want you this much), but every one of those moments is yours.
MAEKAR:
Competence + control exchange (he's furious that he wants to submit to your authority outside the bedroomâyou're his wife or his political equal and you command respect he has to give, and it makes him feralâso in bed he takes it all back, pins you down, makes you yield, forces the power dynamic back into his favour)
Possessive marking (bites and bruises in places only he'll see, but also places that will show, just barely, under your gown's neckline, so every man at court will know you're claimed)
Restraints (his belt, your own clothes, his bare handsâhe doesn't need silk ties, he needs you helpless and teeth bared)
Rough silent dominance (the sex is almost wordless sometimes, specially in the beginning, just commands: "Turn over." "Spread your legs." "Breathe." and the silence makes every sound you do make sound ten times filthier)
The rare praise (he almost never praises, so when he does, a muttered "Good girl" or "Perfect, just like that", it hits like a physical blow, and he knows the power those rare words have so he rations them like a miser)
Reclaiming his wife (after social events where you have to be polite to visiting lords, where other men look at you with appreciation, or even want, he'll pull you into your chambers and fuck you still half-dressed, possessive and intense.)
Aftercare denial (he makes you wait, trembling and aching, before suddenly pulling you against his chest and the tenderness hits harder because he made you earn it, left you on the edge before claiming you with his strength)
Scent fixation (burying his face in your hair/neck and just breathing you in before he fucks you, like he's trying to get drunk on you)
The cold prince warming (Winterfell's cold draws something out of him; he runs hot naturally and in the Northern winter that contrast is more stark, he's your personal furnace, and he'll warm you with his body deliberately, strip you down and press skin-to-skin in the furs: "Let me warm you, wife, let meâ" and the service aspect gets him off)
The awkward tenderness (he doesn't know how to be soft, so when he tries it's clumsy; his fingers too rough when he tries to be gentle, his words stilted when he attempts praise, and the awkwardness is somehow more intimate than smoothness would be)
Authority kink (he gets off on giving orders and having them obeyed ("Spread your legs," "Don't move," "Stay quiet") and watching you comply makes him harder than the actual acts themselves)
Duty-bound breeding (he frames getting you pregnant as duty, as obligationâ"We need heirs, this is necessary"âbut really he's obsessed with the idea of you carrying his children, of permanent claim)
The northman's endurance (winters are long in the North and so is he; he'll fuck you for HOURS on long winter nights, nothing else to do but tend the fires and tend to YOU, and his stamina becomes legend between you)
The crack (very rarely, after particularly intense sex, his mask will slip; his hand will tremble when he touches your face, or he'll pull you closer with something desperate in the movement, and you'll see the sheer need underneath the iron)
Praise starvation showing (he's spent his life as the overlooked fourth son, so when you praise him genuinely, tell him he's good, tell him you want him, he goes absolutely still, and then something ignites and he's on you with desperate hunger: "Say it again")
Throat-holding (his hand on your throat is about control, about feeling your pulse race, about the trust it requires. He doesn't squeeze, just holds, and it's more intimate than any kiss)
Wedding night do-over (months into the marriage, when he's actually in love, he'll recreate your wedding night, but THIS time with passion instead of duty, and the contrast destroys you both: "I want to do it right this time, want you to want me this time")
The Lord's hand always on you (in the great hall during meals his hand is on your thigh under the table, possessive and constant, and sometimes his fingers will slip higher, reminding you what's coming later, and you allow the touch grounds him)
Seasonal intensity (winter makes him MORE possessiveâsomething about the isolation, the darkness, the need for warmthâhe'll keep you in bed longer, fuck you more frequently: "Nothing else to do but keep you warm, keep you satisfied, keep you full")
Possessive sleeping (he cannot sleep unless you're in his arms, will wake if you try to move away, drag you back unconsciously, and the need for physical contact even in sleep betrays how deeply he's fallen)
Hate-fucking his own desire (sometimes he fucks you angryâangry that he wants you, angry that you make him weak, angry that he can't stop wanting youâand it's rough and desperate and he won't look at you until after)
The way he fucks you: Hard and controlled, especially initially. He's not trying to make love to you; he's trying to do his duty to you, prove something to himself while he's at it. But underneath the roughness is a desperate need he won't name. He'll pin your wrists above your head and fuck into you with mechanical precision, but his eyes are wild, burning. He'll bite your shoulder hard enough to bruise and then his tongue will trace the mark like an apology he can't voice.
Pet names: He doesn't use them. You're "Lady Stark" even when he's three fingers deep. You're "wife" (bitten off like a curse), then like a claim. The closest he gets to softness is a muttered "woman" that somehow sounds like "beloved" in his mouth every time.
High Valyrian: Rare. Cold and commanding. "Kostilus" (please, but it sounds like an order), "MÄzÄŤs" (come, snapped out when he's losing control), "Ăuha" (mine, branded into your skin like he's claiming territory).
Post-sex: He doesn't speak. Just pulls you against him with a grip that borders on bruising, buries his face in your hair, and holds. Sometimes his hands shake. Sometimes you feel his breath hitch like he's fighting something bigger than desire. He'll never say "I love you," but the way he clutches you in the aftermath speaks volumes. Nothing could take you from him. Nothing.
AERION:
Blood play (he bites until you bleed, licks the wound clean, mixes your blood with hisâit's not about pain, it's about mingling, about becoming indistinguishable, about love as cannibalism)
Hair-pulling (your hands in his hair, yanking his head back, making him gaspâhe's bratty and vicious until you pull hard enough and then he goes pliant)
Exhibitionism as claim-staking (he wants them to watch, wants them to see you choose him, wants everyone to hear you scream his name, wants the realm to know the wolf chose the mad dragon)
Degradation (call him "pretty," call him "desperate," call him a "temperamental little dragon" and watch him fall apart; he's been called brilliant and terrifying his whole life but no one's called him pretty like it's an insult and a caress)
You shaped Breeding kink (he's never wanted children with anyone else, the thought disgusted him, but you? He's obsessed with putting a child in you specifically, has spent years fantasising about it, wants to see you swollen with his seed, wants to bind you to him in the most permanent way possibleâ"You'd be so beautiful round with my babe," "Want everyone to see what I did to you," "Going to fill you until it takes"âit's possessive and primal and he can't think about anything else when he's inside you)
Humiliation play (making him perform, making him beg, making him prove he deserves youâhe needs to earn it or it doesn't feel real)
Orgasm denial (he hates how much he loves being edged, being told when he can come, being controlled, but he's also achingly hard the entire time)
Oral fixation (his mouth is always on youâbiting, sucking, licking, tastingâhe needs his tongue on your skin like he needs air, will spend hours just kissing and biting his way across your body, sucking bruises into your thighs, your breasts, your throat, and when you're on your knees for him he nearly blacks out, watching his cock disappear between your lips is a straight up religious experience)
Bratty submission (his submission is never easy; he fights, he mouths off, he tests boundaries constantly, because he needs you to take it from him rather than have it given)
Mirror sex (he needs to watch himself break for you, needs to see his own degradation, needs the visual proof that you've undone him)
Jewellery/adornment fixation (he wants you dripping in Targaryen gold and jewels while you're naked and he's marking you; it drives him insane)
Temperature play (ice and dragonfire, he's obsessed with contradictions, with things that shouldn't coexist but do, his perfect balance)
Scent obsession (he steals your clothes when you're not looking, sleeps with them pressed to his face, gets hard just smelling you on fabric, sometimes he'll bury his face between your legs and just breathe you in for minutes before he even starts using his tongue)
Marking obsession (your marks on him are trophies he displays; he'll wear shirts that show the scratches down his back, he'll turn his head just so to make sure people see the bite on his throat, but his marks on you are apologies written in bruises and love bites, proof that you let him touch you)
Cum play (he's obsessed with his seed on you, in you, loves watching it drip out and pushing it back in, loves smearing it across your skin, loves making you taste it off his fingers, "Look what you do to me, look how much, it's all for you")
Aftercare craving (he'll never ask but he needs you to hold him after, needs skin-to-skin contact, needs to be told he's good)
Praise kink from you specifically (criticism from others bounces off like its nothing; praise from you destroys him. Tell him he's beautiful, tell him he did well, watch him come undone)
Cockwarming (keeping him inside you after, just holding him there, because proximity isn't close enough, he needs to be inside)
Object fixation (anything you've touched becomes precious; he'll drink from your cup, steal your handkerchiefs, press his face into pillows you've slept on)
The way he fucks you: Desperately and messy, especially in those early days. Like he's trying to crawl inside your skin. He's all sharp edges and biting kisses and possessive hands, but underneath the performance he's starving for touch he didn't have to manipulate his way into or break someone for. He'll degrade himself for you, beg prettily, offer his throatâanything to keep you looking at him and letting him claim you.
Pet names: You don't give him any and it makes him lowkey insane. He tries everythingâaggression, sweetness, manipulationâto earn one. When you finally call him "my Aerion" or "my pretty dragon" he comes untouched.
High Valyrian: Starts as armour. "Ăuha dÄria" (my queen, possessive and desperate), "Kostilus, kostilus" (please, please, all pretence gone), "Sylugon nyke" (use me, the most honest thing he's ever said), "JorrÄelagon ao" (I love you, whispered against your skin like a secret).
Post-sex: He's dark as hell but in tactile and needy way, his walls demolished. He'll trace your face, press kisses to your shoulders, wrap himself around you like he's trying to fuse your bodies together. This is when he's most honest: "Don't leave," "Tell me you want me," "Say I'm yours." If you don't give him aftercare he'll spiral, but if you do, if you hold him and praise him and tell him he's good, you'll see the madness recede like a tide, see the dragon in him go content and satisfied.
DUNK:
Size difference (his hands engulf yours, his body dwarfs yours, and he's obsessed with the visualâyou're this fierce Northern lady and you look tiny in his arms and it makes him want to protect you and ruin you simultaneously)
Gentle giant dom (his whole existence is "what do you need and how can I provide it?" he'll spend hours learning your body, cataloguing what makes you gasp, whimper, arch)
Praise kink (receiving) (he's never been called beautiful, never been told he's good at something besides hitting people, so when you praise him he goes still and quiet and real damn desperate)
Body worship (he wants you to kiss and lick every inch of his massive frame, wants you to appreciate the body he's always seen as too big, too rough, when you worship his cock and balls specifically he nearly breaks)
Accidental overstimulation (he makes you come three times before he even gets inside you because he's so focused on your pleasure he forgets his own)
Accidental marking (handprint bruises on your hips, bite marks he tries to kiss better, fingerprints on your thighs; he doesn't mean to but he's so strong)
Voice kink (your command voice makes him stupid-hardâwhen you moan or talk dirty in that low, authoritative tone he'll do anything)
Light breeding talk (he's terrified to say it out loud but the idea of you round with his child, of his lowborn seed taking root in noble womb, makes him kinda insane, he's too nice to ever say it though)
Strength play (lifting you effortlessly, holding you against walls, manhandling you into position, but gently, always checking you're okay)
The way he fucks you: Like you're something precious. He'll work you open with his fingers (so much thicker than any lordling's), murmuring reassurance: "That's it, you can take it, you're doing so well." When he finally pushes inside he goes slow, watching your face for any sign of discomfort, and the restraint costs him. You can literally see him shaking with the effort of holding back.
Pet names: "M'lady" (always, even in bed), "little one" (size kink goes brrrr and makes him melt), "my heart" (when he's being devastatingly sincere and doesn't realise how loving he sounds)
High Valyrian: He doesn't know any and feels insecure about it. You're highborn, educated, you probably expect courtly sophistication. When you tell him you prefer the Common Tongue from him, that you prefer his rough Flea Bottom accent, it makes him dizzy with relief.
Post-sex: He holds you like you're made of glass. Peppers your face with kisses. Asks if you're alright at least seventeen times. Fetches water, cleans you gently, tucks you against his chest just to have you close. The aftercare is instinctiveâhe's taking care of you the way he takes care of his armour, his horse, anything he values because he has so little. Sometimes he'll whisper: "Can't believe you let me touch you. Can't believe you're mine."
LYONEL:
Impact play (hard spanking that leaves your marked, but he's laughing while he does it, drops an open mouthed kiss against the mark, clearly having the time of his life, "You can take it, wolf, I know you can, there's my girl")
Loud dirty talk + booming laughter (he doesn't whisper, he proclaims, "Going to fill you so full you're dripping for days," "Listen to those sounds you're making, fuck," and sometimes he just laughs, delighted by your body's responses)
Primal breeding (hair-pulling while he fucks into you from behind, biting your shoulder, holding you down; pure animal dominance, he knows better than to try and tame a wolf)
Public risk/semi-exhibitionism (fucking in tents during campaigns, against walls at feasts where someone might walk by, in the godswood where the risk of discovery makes it better and someone always hears you)
Cum play as marking (he loves smearing his seed all over your bodyâyour breasts, your thighs, your faceâor making you wear it under your gown at court dinners, loves the secret knowledge that you're marked, you can see his eyes twinkling every time he looks at you)
Strength play (lifting you effortlessly, fucking you against walls, holding you up while you're impaled on his cock)
Competitive (how many times can he make you come, how loud, how wetâhe's keeping score and he's winning)
Exhibitionist breeding talk ("Everyone's going to know I fucked you," "You're going to walk into that council meeting with my seed dripping down your thighs," "Going to put a black-haired babe in you and let the realm wonder")
The way he fucks you: Hard and fast. He approaches sex enthusiastically, messily, and with full-body commitment. He'll throw you onto the bed and laugh at your indignant yelp before covering your body with his, all muscle and heat. He doesn't make love; he celebrates you.
Pet names: "Storm Queen" (his favourite, said with open pleasure), "my she-wolf" (possessive), "gorgeous creature" (when he's being appreciative), "there's my girl" (when you do something that particularly pleases him)
High Valyrian: He knows like three phrases and uses them all wrong but with such confidence you can't even correct him đ He'll try to dirty talk in Valyrian and completely butcher the grammar and you're too busy laughing/coming to care.
Post-sex: He's really affectionate, pulls you against him, plays with your hair, traces the marks he left on your skin with obvious satisfaction. Sometimes he'll sing, some tavern song or Storm's End ballad, while you're trying to catch your breath. He has no concept of embarrassment or vulnerability; this is just another form of intimacy to him.
VALARR:
DM Verse context: He's in love with Daeron's betrothed. Or Aerion's lover. Or the woman caught between one or both of his cousins in a toxic dance that's going to consume all of you (and likely kill someone). And he's the fool watching from the outside, wanting in, knowing he'll burn if he touches but reaching anyway.
Modern AU context: He's in love with his father's girlfriend. His father's fiancĂŠe. The woman who smiles at him over breakfast and sleeps in Baelor's bed and is going to become his stepmother. He's so thoroughly fucked it's almost funny. Except nothing about this is actually funny.
Forbidden fruit (every touch is stolen, every kiss is betrayal, and the wrongness makes it better in ways that shame him)
Guilt kink (he hates himself for wanting you and the self-hatred makes him desperate; he fucks you like he's trying to purge you from his system and fails every time)
Voyeurism (he's seen you with them; through cracked doors, across courtyards, and it's destroyed him, burned the images into his brain so he can't escape them)
Touching himself to memories of you with them (this is the WORST part because he'll replay what he saw, you with Baelor/Aerion/Daeron, and he'll hate himself while he strokes his cock to the memory, imagining it's him instead, and the self-loathing after he comes is crushing)
Stolen moments (quick and desperate in shadowed hallways, gardens at midnight, anywhere you won't be caught because discovery would ruin everything but the risk makes his hands shake)
Teasing/edging as delayed gratification (if he's already damned, he's going to make it lastâhe'll edge you for hours, make you beg, draw it out because these stolen moments are all he gets)
Comparative worship (he kisses you softer than they do, fucks you slower, gentler, because he needs you to know he'd treasure you if he could have you. DM: softer than Aerion, gentler than Daeron; Modern AU: more tender than his father)
Marking he'll have to hide (he wants to bite, to bruise, to claim (he's still a dragon even if others don't see him as one) but he can't, so he settles for kissing places no one else will see, leaving ghost-marks only you'll know about)
Praise kink as vulnerability (when you call him "my perfect prince" or "so beautiful when you fuck me" he melts, goes molten; he's been good his whole life and hearing it from your mouth makes it hit ten times better)
Light bondage (silk ties, leather belts; he needs you to restrain him, needs the choice taken away so he can pretend he's not choosing this)
Perfectionism in bed (he wants to be PERFECT for you: studies your reactions obsessively, adjusts technique, asks what you like, and the desperate need to be good enough bleeds into everything he does)
The confessor's burden (DM specific) (if you ever confide in him about problems with Aerion or Daeron, he'll comfort you appropriately, but later he'll replay the conversation and get off on your vulnerability, on the intimacy of you trusting him)
Slow sensory teasing (prolonged foreplay with fingers, tongue, silk, feathers; he's savouring you because he doesn't know when he'll get this again)
Modern AU specific:
Age-gap reversal (you're older, sophisticated, his father's equal, and he's the college kid who can't control himself)
Household proximity torture (you're always there: in the kitchen in the morning, on the couch in silk pyjamas, in the pool in a bikini that makes him want to gnaw his own arm off)
Forbidden fantasy (he jerks off thinking about fucking you in his father's bed, in his father's shower, against his father's desk, then nearly throws up from how guilty he feels over it)
Good boy corruption arc (he's never been reckless until you, never lied until you, never wanted something absolutely forbidden until youâyou're unmaking his careful golden-boy persona and he's letting you)
Listening through walls (he's learned which walls are thin, where he can hearâand when you're with his father he'll press his ear to stone and listen to the sounds you make, hating himself, aching, hard and horrified in equal measure)
Scent obsession (he'll get close enough to smell your perfume, your hair, and later he'll try to remember it exactly while touching himself, and once he passed you in a hallway right after you'd clearly been with his father and he could SMELL sex on you and he nearly came untouched from shame and want)
Overstimulation seeking (he'll ask you to keep going even when he's too sensitive, even when it almost HURTS, because the overwhelming sensation grounds him in reality, proves this is really happening)
Mirror to his father (he's aware he looks like young Baelor, same dark hair, same build, and he uses it, styles his hair the same way, dresses sharp, anything to make you see the resemblance and want)
The way he fucks you: Like he's trying to memorise you through his skin, tender and desperate. Every thrust is "I love you," every kiss is "I'm sorry," every whispered praise is "Choose me." He can't fuck you without emotion bleeding through, it's physically impossible for him to separate the mechanical from the meaningful.
Pet names: He doesn't dare. You're "my lady" (DM) or just your name (Modern AU) and the formality/distance is armour that doesn't work. Sometimes, when he's breaking, he'll whisper "beloved" (DM) or "baby" (Modern AU) like a confession.
High Valyrian (DM only): Whispered sins he shouldn't speakâ"JorrÄelagon ao" (I love you, and he does, and it's destroying him), "Kostilus henujagon" (please stay, even though you can't), "Ăuha mittys" (my mistake, said against your mouth like he's apologising to the gods themselves).
Post-sex: Guilt tastes sooo good. He holds you too tight and won't meet your eyes. Sometimes his eyes burn after tears (mostly due to guilt). He'll press his face to your shoulder and breathe you in like he's drowning. Sometimes he'll whisper things he shouldn't: "I'd give up the crown for you," (DM) / "I'd walk away from everything for you" (Modern AU), "I dream about you every night," "I'm going to the Seven Hells and I don't care."
DAERON:
Wine-sharing as intimacy (he'll take a mouthful of wine and kiss it into your mouth, or pour it across your skin and lick it off, the alcohol making everything hazy and warm, and sometimes he'll get you drunk WITH him so you can exist in that floating space together where nothing hurts quite as much)
Self-destructive exhibition (when he's spiralling he'll fuck you where someone might catch youâagainst the door while a feast happens outside, in the godswood where guards patrol, anywhere with riskâbecause part of him wants to be caught, wants the scandal, wants to burn it all down)
Lazy oral fixation (he'll spend hours between your thighs, drunk and dedicated, because focusing on you means not thinking about visions)
Light somnophilia (sleepy morning sex, half-awake and gentle, the only time he's soft because his defences are down)
Praise desperation (he's starved for affirmation, for being told he's GOOD, he's worthy, he matters; when you praise him during sex he falls apart, will bury his face in your neck and shake, and he needs the words as much as the physical pleasure)
Body worship from below (he loves lying back and letting you rideâhis face, his cockâwhile he lazily praises you, because it means he can just receive for once instead of carrying the world)
Temperature seeking (he's always coldâthe visions leave him chilled to the boneâso he seeks your warmth obsessively, will press his icy hands to your warm skin, bury his face against your neck, wrap himself around you like he's trying to absorb your heat, and the contrast makes you gasp)
The gift of laughter (on rare good days when the visions are quiet and the wine has him pleasantly buzzed instead of miserable, he's actually playful: tickling you, making you laugh, smiling against your skin, and the sex is light and sweet and you treasure these moments because they're so rare)
Reversal of caretaking (he spends so much time being taken care ofâhelped to bed, monitored, pitiedâthat when you're the one who needs comfort or care, he becomes almost manic about providing it, and he'll eat you out for an hour or fuck you exactly how you need, completely focused on your pleasure because it's the only time he feels useful)
Cum eating (he'll lick his own seed out of you or off your skin, because it's intimate and it grounds him)
The prophet's resentment (he resents that he needs you, resents that you're the only thing that quiets the visions, and sometimes he'll fuck you like he hates you for it, rough and graceless and mean, and he'll spit accusations: "This is your fault, you made me want this, I was better off alone")
Melancholy intimacy (the sex is tender and sad, like he's trying to memorise you before the visions come true and take you away)
Neediness masked as anger (he'll pick fights specifically so the makeup sex is intense, will say cruel things he doesn't mean just so you'll prove you won't leave, testing your loyalty through manufactured conflict)
Cum denial for himself (sometimes he'll fuck you and deliberately not let himself finish, will pull out before he comes and just stop because denying himself pleasure is another form of self-punishment, and you have to coax him or sometimes physically force him to let himself have good things)
Vulnerability (when he's drunk he sometimes cries during sex, clings to you, whispers prophecies he shouldn't, "I saw you burning," "I can't save you," "Stay with me, please stay")
The way he fucks you: Like every time might be the last time because in his visions it always is. He'll cup your face and stare into your eyes like he's trying to burn the image into his brain. He'll whisper your name like a prayer. And sometimes he'll just stop mid-thrust and hold you, because the weight of knowing is crushing him.
Pet names: "Darling girl" (sometimes teasingly if he's sober, lovingly if he's drunk), "my salvation" (because you areâyou're the only thing keeping him sane), "sweet thing" (when he's eating you out, tasting you in some capacity)
High Valyrian: Mostly slurred but rather poetic, "JorrÄelagon ao" (love you, said like he's confessing a crime), "Kostilus henujagon" (please stay, even though the visions say you won't).
Post-sex: He holds you like you're the only real thing in a world of shadows. Traces your face with shaking fingers. Sometimes he talksâstreams of consciousness about visions, fears, futures he can't prevent: "I saw Summerhall burning," "I saw Aerion's madness consume him," "I saw you and I wasn't there to save you." Sometimes he just cries, silent tears soaking into your hair. Truth is he's in love with you. Has been since the first vision where you appeared crowned in snow and ice before you began burning and he can't tell if you're dying or transcending. Every time he touches you he's trying to change the future, trying to make this real enough that it overwrites the visions. It never works but he tries anyway. In every vision, he loses you. You burn or you leave or you fade, and he's always reaching for you, always too late. So he treats every moment like borrowed time. Fucks you like he's trying to anchor you to this reality. Loves you like it's the last thing he'll ever do (because it is).
DAEMON:
Version One context: He knew you while you were betrothed to Baelor
This is the version where he watched you at court, saw you promised to the Baelor, and wanted you with a longing that predates any rebellion. This Daemon has contextâhe knows your laugh, knows how you take your wine, knows the way you argue in council. He didn't just want to take you from Baelor. He wanted you to choose him instead.
Competence worship (he's watched you negotiate, watched you ride, watched you command, and every display of capability makes him want you more, not as a prize but as an equal, as a queen in the making)
Stolen tenderness (in the rare moments when he's not performing conqueror, when it's just you in a quiet room, he'll touch you gentlyâfingers tracing your jaw, thumb brushing your cheekboneâlike he's memorising something precious he was never meant to have)
Laughter during sex (with you specifically, because you knew him before the rebellion fully consumed him, you remember when he could still be light, sometimes mid-fuck he'll crack a joke or you'll say something cutting and he'll laugh, genuine and warm, before the bitterness crashes back)
Face-holding intimacy (he cups your face in both hands when he kisses you, holds you there like you're the only real thing in the world, like if he lets go you'll disappear back to Baelor)
Praise ("You're brilliant," "Gods, you're magnificent," "No one else sees the world like you do" said quietly, reverently, in the aftermath when his walls are down)
Slow morning sex (when you've spent the night together and woken tangled up, he'll fuck you slowly, lazily, with none of the usual conquest energy, just want and familiarity and something dangerously close to love)
Protectiveness masking as possession (he positions himself between you and danger, his hand at your back in crowded rooms, his body shielding yours, and he tells himself it's about owning you but really he just can't bear the thought of you hurt)
Confession intimacy (he tells you things he'd never tell anyone else. doubts about what he's doing, fears about failure, the weight of the name he carries, all whispered against your skin in the dark while he's moving inside you)
Naming (not "my queen" or "she-wolf" but your name, every time)
Version Two context: He takes you as conquest
This is the version where you're already wed to the enemy, where he has less history with you, where taking you is more about the statement than the person. This Daemon is harder, colder, more willing to hurt.
Conqueror roleplay (he wants you to resist so he can overwhelm you, the fight makes the submission sweeter, makes it feel like victory over Baelor)
Possessive territoriality (marking you as his even though you're not, even though you never will beâit's about claiming what the crown denied him)
Hate-fucking energy (anger and want tangled so tight neither of you can breathe; he's furious you're married to them, furious you make him want you anyway, furious he can't just take and keep)
Sword kink (Blackfyre stays in the room, propped against the wall, a third presence, threat and promise; sometimes he'll fuck you with the sheathed blade pressed to your throat, cold Valyrian steel a reminder of power and if/when you lean into it, he only laughs and fucks you harder, whispering how you're meant for a conqueror instead)
Exhibitionist (he wants Bloodraven to know, wants Daeron to hear, wants Baelor to know, wants the whole damn realm to whisper, "Did you hear? The she-wolf spreads her legs for the Pretender")
Degradation ("Does your prince fuck you like this? Does your king make you scream like I do?" every insult is aimed at the Throne through your body and pleasure)
Primal dominance (hair-pulling, throat-holding, forcing you to look at him while he takes you, "Eyes on me, I said.. on me")
Ownership through defiance (he'll fuck you in their colours, tear the Targaryen red off your body and replace it with nothing but his marks, and eventually his own colours)
The way he fucks you:
Version One (knew you before): There's a sick duality to it. Sometimes it's pure conquestâhard, commanding, relentless. He's the warrior-king in exile and you're territory he's claiming. But other times, when the walls come down, he fucks you like he's coming home. Slower. Deeper. With eye contact that lasts too long to be just physical. He'll pin you down and fuck into you with brutal precision, but then he'll press his forehead to yours and breathe you in like you're oxygen, like he's missed you so much it physically pains him. The contradiction is soul destroying for you both.
Version Two (pure conquest): Like pure warfare. He'll pin you down and fuck into you with brutal precision, and the whole time he's watching your faceâcataloguing every gasp, every moan, proof that you want him more than you want anyone else. There's no softness here, just raw possession.
Pet names:
Version One: Your actual name (said softly in private), "my queen" (challenge but with genuine reverence underneath), "she-wolf" (affectionate despite the teeth, teasing)
Version Two: "My queen" (pure challengeâhe's calling you what you'll be when he wins), "she-wolf" (with teeth, possessive and wild), "prize" (dehumanising and he knows it, and does it purely to see you bare your teeth at him)
High Valyrian: Usually commanding, "Tepagon issa" (give to me, not a request), "Ăuhon" (mine, over and over like a brand), "Kostilus jaelagon nyke" (please want meâthe only time he sounds vulnerable, spoken only if he knows you don't understand what he's saying, and he hates himself for itâmore common in Version One).
Post-sex:
Version One: He holds you. Actually holds you, not just claims you. His hand will stroke your hair, trace patterns on your back. Sometimes he'll whisper things he shouldn't: "If I'd wonâ" (he never finishes that sentence but you both know how it ends). Sometimes he'll just press kisses to your temple and pretend, for a few minutes, that you're his and there's no rebellion, no crown, no Baelor. Then reality crashes back and his jaw tightens and the tenderness evaporates, but for those few minutes he lets himself be soft, lets himself imagine what you could have been.
Version Two: He doesn't do tender. He'll drag you against him, possessive and silent, and sometimes you'll feel his heart racing like he's just fought a battle (and he hasâagainst himself, against wanting you this much). Sometimes he'll trace the bruises he left and his jaw will tighten. Sometimes he'll mutter: "You should have been mine. The crown, the throne, you. You were meant for me, not him."
Thing he won't admit:
Version One: He's not just fucking you to claim territory or make a political statement. He's fucking you because he loves youâhas probably loved you since before he should have, since before the rebellion, since you were just Barthogan Stark's daughter at court and he was the legitimised bastard watching you from across feast halls. That's more dangerous than any war. Because loving you means he's not fighting for a crown anymore, he's fighting for you. And if you ever chose him freely, without conquest or coercion, it would undo him completely because a part of him would want to give it all up for you.
Version Two: He's not just fucking you to claim territory or send a statement. He's fucking you because he wants youâgenuinely, devastatingly wants youâand that's more dangerous than any political game. Because wanting means weakness and Daemon Blackfyre cannot afford weakness. "Say the word. Say you want me and I'll take the throne. I'll crown you queen and fuck you on the Iron Throne itself."
You never say it.
(He's still hoping.)
AEGON I:
Prophetic obsession (he dreamed of you before he knew you, saw your face in flames and frost, your body crowned in stars, your womb as the forge for the prince that was promised, and when he finally touches you it felt like his entire life led to this moment)
Mythological breeding (this isn't about heirs, this is about fulfilling ancient Valyrian prophecyâthe dragon and the wolf, fire and ice, the song that will save the worldâhe fucks you like he's writing fate itself)
Sister-wives trifecta (Visenya's fireâfierce and deadly; Rhaenys's warmthâsoft and sweet; your iceâcold and burningâhe needs all three elements to be complete, needs the contradiction you embody)
Sacred ritual (sex with him feels like religious rite; you're being consumed, worshipped, on an altar of dragon-bone and/or Northern weirwood)
Dream-sharing (he whispers what he's seen while he's inside you: "I saw our son on the Iron Throne," "I saw you crowned in ice and fire," "I saw the Long Night and you were the dawn" essentially prophecy as foreplay)
Dragon-bond (he wants to take you flying on Balerion, something of old Valyria, because wants you to feel the power he commands, wants the dragon to accept you as he has. He takes you flying, lands somewhere remoteâa mountaintop, an empty beach, or simply the open skyâand fucks you against the dragon's flank while Balerion's heat radiates through you, the beast's breathing steady and enormous beneath you, and Aegon whispers, "He accepts you, he knows you're mine" while you're impaled on his cock with a living god at your back)
Claiming through titles (he doesn't just fuck you, he enthrones you; even before any official ceremony, he calls you queen, treats you as equal to his sister-wives, seats you at his councils, to him the political is inseparable from the personal)
Three queens, one king (he'll fuck you in front of Visenya and Rhaenys, not as humiliation but as inclusionâyou're the third point of the triangle now. Sometimes it's not just witnessing, either, Visenya will hold you down while Aegon fucks you, her strong hands on your wrists or your throat, and Rhaenys will kiss you through it, touch you with eager hands, and Aegon orchestrates it like a battle: commanding, knowing exactly where everyone should be)
The Crown stays on (he wears the Conqueror's crown while he fucks you, makes you ride him while the Valyrian steel circlet sits on his head, and sometimes he'll place it on YOUR head mid-sex and watch you with something feral in his eyes, "This is what you look like as queen, this is what the realm will see")
Throne sex (he fucks you on the Iron Throne before it's even finished, you astride him while he sits on the half-built seat of swords, and the danger of the blades adds edge, just one wrong move and you'd both bleed, but he holds you steady, controls every movement, keeps you safe while making you understand the throne is as much yours as his)
Verbal dominance (he gives commands but frames them as questions: "You'll take me deeper, won't you?" "You want my seed, don't you?" "You'll give me a son, yes?" and the phrasing implies choice but his tone makes clear there's only one answer, and you give it more than willingly)
Orgasm denial (he'll edge you for HOURS, bringing you to the brink over and over, making you beg in Common Tongue and then Valyrian, teaching you the words for "please" and "mercy" and "I need you" in his language, and he won't let you come until you can ask properly, and if you turn those lessons back on him, and make him beg, on the rare moment his guard is lowered, even better)
Forced relaxation (you're both creatures of duty and vigilance, but he'll make you submit to pleasure, hold you down and eat you out until you stop thinking about politics or the North or anything but his tongue, and he's relentless about it, "You'll learn to take pleasure like you take everything else I give youâcompletely")
The way he fucks you: He'll position you exactly how he wants you (on your back, legs spread, open to him like the realm opened to dragons), and he'll watch constantlyâhow his cock disappears inside you, watches your face, watches fate happen. But there's reverence in it too. He touches you like you're something holy, something precious. Fucks you like you're the answer to every question he's ever asked the gods.
Pet names: "Northern star" (navigational but also his one true purpose), "my winter flame" (fire and ice in one), "the answer" (said with religious gravity, because you are), "ice-that-burns" (paradox made flesh), "Ăąuha brĹzio" (my destiny, used more than your actual name)
High Valyrian: Used it often. "Ăuha brĹzio" (my destiny, possessive and absolute), "Se dÄrilaros bona iksos kivio" (the prince/princess that was promisedâhe's not sure if he means your child or you, perhaps both), "Sagon sČłz syt nyke" (be good for me, because even destiny requires your cooperation), "MÄzÄŤs, Ăąuha jorrÄelagon" (come, my loveâthe only time he uses a term of endearment and means it carnally).
Post-sex: He holds you like you're sacred. Traces your face like he's memorising constellations. Sometimes he'll talkâstream of consciousness about visions, prophecies, futures: "I saw a throne of swords and our son sitting on it," "I saw winter coming and you standing against it," "I saw usâcenturies from now, in songs they'll sing forever." Sometimes he's silent, just staring at you like you're the only real thing in a world of shadows. He'll pull you against his chest and you'll feel his heartbeatâsteady, like the turning of the worldâand you'll realise this is the only place the Conqueror allows himself to be simply Aegon. You're the only answer that matters. He's been searching for you across a lifetime (in dreams, in visions, in prophecy). You're the reason he conquered Westeros at allâbecause he knew you'd be here, waiting, the missing piece of something vast and terrible. He can't separate desire from destiny. Can't fuck you without thinking about prophecy. Can't touch you without seeing visionsâyour belly swollen with the prince that was promised, your hand holding Lightbringer, your face illuminated by dragonglass as you stand against the darkness. You're not just his lover. You're his prophesied queen. The ice to his fire. The song itself.
MAEGOR:
Pain/pleasure blur (he genuinely can't tell the difference and doesn't care to, biting that draws blood, gripping that bruises, fucking that feels like violence and transcendence in equal measure)
Combat arousal (if you argue with him, if you fight back verbally with genuine fire, he gets HARD. He doesn't want you broken and meek, he wants you fighting, and the sex after an argument is intense and almost equal, like he's fighting you into submission and you're fighting back and you both get off on the struggle)
Ownership through fear (you should be afraid and you are and it makes the wanting worseâfor both of you)
Jealousy sex (when another man looks at you too long, when someone at court speaks to you with too much familiarity, Maegor will fuck you that night (likely after punishing, if not killing whoever it was) with barely controlled violence. Not to punish YOU, but to reassert his claim, to erase the other person's existence from your thoughts, "You think he could make you feel like this? You think anyone else could handle you?")
Breeding obsession (he wants heirs and he wants you destroyed making them; wants you swollen and aching and marked as his, wants the realm to see his seed took root in Northern womb)
Ownership through adornment (he commissions jewellery for you, usually heavy Northern pieces in silver and sapphire, but designed so they feel like shackles: a thick torc that sits on your collarbones like a collar, rings that connect with delicate chains, and he'll fuck you wearing nothing BUT the jewellery, getting off on how thoroughly you're marked as his)
Temperature play reversal (he'll heat stones by the fire and press them against your cold skin, watching you gasp and arch, obsessed with warming you, making the ice melt or he'll drag ice across your overheated skin after he's fucked you brutal and sweaty, and the care in the cooling is the only softness he can manage)
Degradation (he'll call you "wolf-bitch" and "Northern savage" but his hands are too gentle for how violent you've seen them be with others, and you both know there's a reluctant thread of respect at your refusal to break)
Claiming through destruction (he'll rip your gowns off, tear Northern furs, destroy anything that marks you as not-his because you're his now and the realm will know it)
Sleeping vulnerability (he only truly sleeps when you're in his bed, and he'll pull you against him unconsciously in sleep, hold you with a tenderness he'd never show awakeâyou've woken to find him curled around you protectively, his face pressed to your hair, and if you move he tightens his grip without waking)
Size and strength dominance (he's massive, built for war, and he uses it; he'll pin you with one hand, lift you effortlessly, manhandle you like you weigh nothing, and the casual display of power makes you clench even when it terrifies you)
Forced eye contact (he grabs your jaw and makes you look at him while he fucks you, "Look at me. Look at who's ruining you. Remember this." he needs you to see him, needs to be SEEN)
Hair worship (he's fascinated by your hair, he'll will bury his hands in it, wrap it around his fist while he fucks you, brush it himself sometimes in the aftermath with rough, unpractised strokes, and once you woke to find him just running strands through his fingers, watching the light catch in it like he's never seen anything so fine no matter how ordinary)
Battle-high fucking (he'll come to you straight from the training yard or from sentencing someone to death, or actual battle, still in armour, still bloody, and he'll fuck you with that violence still singing in his veins, using you to burn off the excess)
Possessive scarring (not just bruisesâhe wants permanent marks, wants his initials carved into your skin, wants you branded as his in ways that can never fadeâhe hasn't done it yet but you see him thinking about it)
Scent marking (he'll fuck you and then send you to court without letting you bathe, wants everyone to smell him on you, wants your hair to reek of sex and sweat and HIM, and when you walk into the throne room dishevelled and marked, his eyes track you with open possession)
Silence as dominance (sometimes he fucks you without saying a word, just watching you with those cold eyes, and the silence is MORE intimidating than any threat, but with him, also far more intimate, too)
Forced orgasms (he'll make you come over and over, overstimulate you until you're sobbing, prove that your body obeys him even when your mind resists, "See? Even this is mine. Even your pleasure belongs to me.")
Corruption kink (he's obsessed with the idea of breaking you down, taking the proud Stark wolf and turning her into something that begs for him, that NEEDS him, and he's patient about it, methodical)
Contrast fixation (you're everything he's notâNorthern ice where he's Valyrian flame, ice where he's fire, merciful where he's cruelâand he wants to see how much of that he can corrupt, how much ice can melt before it's just water in his hands)
Bathing (this is the closest he gets to tender; he'll wash you after he's fucked you raw, rough hands surprisingly careful, and he won't speak but you'll see something complicated in his eyes every time)
The way he fucks you: Like conquest. Like war. Brutal and unrelenting. He'll pin you down with a hand on your throat (squeezing just enough to make you gasp), and he'll fuck into you with no gentleness, no mercy. But his eyesâhis eyes are wild with something that looks like desperation. Like he's trying to anchor himself in you. Like you're the only thing real in a world he's burned to ash. He's heavy and huge and overwhelming, and he knows it, uses it. Every thrust says "mine," every bite says "stay," every bruise says "I was here."
Pet names: None. You're "woman," "wife," "Stark," "wolf bitch" (when he's angry). Endearments are weakness and Maegor the Cruel is not weak. (But sometimes, very rarely, he'll whisper "mine" like it's a prayer and a curse. And once, ONCE, in the absolute depths of vulnerability after you nearly died in childbirth, he called you "Ăąuha perzys" (my flame) and then he never said it again.)
High Valyrian: Used as weapon. "Henujagon" (stay, barked like an order), "Dohaeragon" (serve/obey, because you will), "Ăuha" (mine, branded into your skin with teeth and nails), "Tepagon issa" (give to me, not a request but a demand), "Sagon sČłz" (be good, and the threat in those two words could level cities).
Post-sex: He doesn't hold you gently. He claims you, drags you against him, possessive and silent. Sometimes his hands will shake and he'll hate himself for the weakness. Sometimes he'll trace the bruises he left and his jaw will tighten. Sometimes he'll mutter: "You're mine. Say it. Say you're mine." (It's the closest he gets to vulnerability.)
Very rarelyâso rarely you almost think you imagined itâhe'll press his face into your hair and breathe like he's drowning and you're air. His arms will tighten almost painfully. And you'll feel him shake. Just for a moment. Then it's gone and he's shoving you away and getting dressed and the king is back.
The thing he won't admit: He needs you. Not wantsâneeds. You're the only thing that doesn't flinch when he enters a room (anymore, you learned not to), the only thing that fights him (when you're brave or stupid enough), the only thing that makes him feel alive instead of monstrous. He'll never say it but you're not as breakable as he expected. He's broken queens before, gentle flowers who withered under his attention. But you're Northern, and the North is hard. You bend but you don't shatter. And that fascinates him. Enrages him. Makes him want you MORE. Every time he thinks he's finally broken you, you get back up. And he doesn't know if he wants to crush that entirely or preserve it forever.
BRYNDEN:
Omniscient voyeurism (he's WATCHED you for months before he ever touched youâthrough his network of spies, through his greenseeing, through birds and whispersâhe knows how you touch yourself when you're alone, knows what makes you gasp, knows your tells when you're aroused, and when he finally gets you in his bed he uses all of it with devastating precision, and you realise with creeping horror that he knew, he's always known)
The weirwood witnessing (he'll fuck you in the godswood, pressed against the heart tree, and he swears he can feel the old gods watching through the carved face, that they approve, that this is sacred, and whether it's true or he's just insane doesn't matter because the blasphemy of it makes you come harder)
Prophecy pillowtalk (he sees futures while he's inside you; his eye goes distant and unfocused and he'll narrate what he sees: "I see you heavy with my child, I see you standing over my enemies, I see you crowned in weirwood leaves and raven feathers" and you can't tell if he's fucking you or the future of you)
Information as foreplay (he'll tell you secrets while he's fingering youâstate secrets, dangerous knowledge, things that could get you killed for knowingâand the combination of his fingers curling inside you and his voice reciting treason in your ear makes you come so hard you forget half of what he said, which was probably the whole point)
The birds are watching (his ravens are ALWAYS present, perched around the room, watching with their black eyes, and he insists they stay, says they're part of him, extensions of his sight, and you're being fucked under the gaze of a dozen birds and Bloodraven's one red eye and you don't know which is worse)
Marking with meaning (he doesn't just bite randomly; every mark is placed, deliberate, forming patterns across your skin that mean something in old magic you don't understand, and he'll trace them afterward murmuring in the Old Tongue, and you think he might be binding you to him through sex magic and the terrifying part is you don't want him to stop)
The thousand eyes penetration (he'll blindfold you and then describe in EXACT detail what you look like from every angleâabove, below, besideâbecause he's watching through the birds, through the shadows, through eyes you can't see, and he narrates your own body back to you: "Your thighs are trembling, you're so wet it's dripping onto the sheets" and you're disoriented and overwhelmed because how does he know)
Corruption through knowledge (he teaches you things you shouldn't knowâblood magic, greensight techniques, secrets of the old godsâand every lesson ends with sex, classical conditioning until you can't separate learning from arousal, until forbidden knowledge makes you wet, until that Stark magic in your blood becomes another binder between you)
The three-eyed crow (sometimes during sex his personality shiftsâbecomes something older, stranger, less humanâand he'll speak in riddles or prophecy, his voice layered like multiple people talking at once, and you're being fucked by something that's only wearing Brynden Rivers, and it should terrify you but you come anyway)
Forced confession through pleasure (he'll edge you for HOURS, making you tell him every secret, every thought, every tiny rebellion, and he already knows but he wants to hear you say it, wants you to confess while you're desperate and aching, and only when you've told him everything will he let you come)
The whisper network as dirty talk (he'll tell you what your enemies said about you today, what lords are plotting, who wants you deadâall while he's inside youâusing state intelligence as pillow talk, making you paranoid and aroused in equal measure)
Artistic torture (he approaches your pleasure like a problem to solve, methodical and brilliant, and he'll bring you to the edge and stop, making notes (actual notes, he keeps a journal), testing variables: does this angle work better, does this pressure, does this word, and you're a study to him and it's dehumanising and so intensely hot you can't think straight)
The inverted (he's obsessed with contrast; his pale hands on your skin, his white hair falling across your face, the red of his eye against whatever colour yours are, and he'll position you in lamplight specifically to watch the shadows, the interplay of light and dark, making art of you fucking)
Magical stimulation (he swears he can use greensight to stimulate you mentally, that he can make you feel phantom touches, can reach into your mind and trigger arousal without laying a finger on you, and whether it's real magic or just psychological manipulation you've definitely come untouched while he sat across the room staring at you with that red eye)
Possessive documentation (he sketches youâobsessivelyâin margins of reports, on scraps of parchment, elaborate drawings of your body, your face, anatomically precise studies of exactly how you look when you come, and you found the collection once and it was extensive and deeply unnerving and also kind of flattering?)
The breeding obsession (he wants a child with you specifically to see what the genetics produce. Will your colouring dominate or his, will the child have his gifts, will they be beautiful or monstrous, and he talks about it clinically while breeding you, analysing probability like you're a fascinating experiment)
Sensory deprivation with narration (he'll blindfold and gag you, bind your hands, remove all your senses except touch and hearing, and then he'll narrate everything he's doing in that quiet, clinical voice: "I'm going to touch you here, you'll gasp, your pulse will quicken" and he's always right, he's studied you, and the predictive accuracy is horrifying and arousing)
The master of whisperers (in the early days, he'll orchestrate scenarios to make you need him, arranges for you to be threatened so he can protect you, creates problems he can solve, manipulates you into his bed through elaborate social engineering, and when you figure it out he doesn't even deny it, just smiles that slight smile and says, "And yet you're still here")
Ancient bloodlines (he's obsessed with the idea of mingling bloodlines; his ancient Targaryen/Blackwood blood with your Stark/First Men heritage, talks about it like alchemy, like you're creating something NEW, and he'll murmur genealogies while he's inside you, tracing your ancestry like it's foreplay)
The loyal hound routine (in public he's the King's servant, bows and scrapes and plays the loyal spymaster, but in private he's ruthless, dark and feral, and the contrast gets him off, the idea that the court sees him as one thing while you know the terrible truth of him)
Rewarding intelligence (when you figure something out, when you demonstrate strategic thinking or cleverness, he gets visibly arousedâhis pupil dilates, his breathing changesâand he'll praise you lavishly while fucking you: "So clever, Lady Stark, I've taught you well", sapiosexual to a disturbing degree)
The way he fucks you: With unnerving precision and complete control. He's not passionate in the traditional sense, he's FOCUSED. Every touch is deliberate, calculated for maximum effect. He watches your face constantly with that red eye, cataloguing every micro-expression, adjusting his technique in real-time based on your responses. It's like being fucked by someone who's already read the manual to your body and memorised it. But sometimes (rarely) the control cracks. And then he's desperate and almost human, clinging to you like you're the only real thing in a world of shadows, fucking you with something that looks almost like simple human need.
Pet names: He doesn't use them in the traditional sense. You're "my lady" (formal, distancing), "clever girl" (when you've pleased him intellectually), "mine" (stated as fact), and once, in absolute extremis, "my only truth" (and he looked shocked he'd said it).
High Valyrian + Old Tongue: He uses bothâHigh Valyrian for commands ("Gaomagon" - do it, "Sagon sČłz" - be good), Old Tongue for the weird magical shit (words you don't understand, phrases that make the air feel THICK, and once he spoke something that made the candles flicker out and you came so hard you blacked out briefly).
Post-sex: He doesn't cuddle so much as arrange you. Positions you exactly how he wants, your head on his chest, his fingers in your hair, and then he'll talk. Not sweet nothings, he'll discuss philosophy, magic, the political situation, prophecies he's seen. He treats pillow talk like a debriefing. But his hand is gentle in your hair, and sometimes you feel him press a kiss to your temple so lightly you might have imagined it.
Sometimes he'll sketch you in the aftermath, your body relaxed and sated, and he's surprisingly talented, and the sketches are intimate in ways that make you feel more exposed than the actual sex did.
The thing he won't admit: You're the only person in the world he can't fully read. His birds tell him your actions, his spies report your words, his greensight shows him futures, but your thoughts, your interior world, remains slightly opaque. And that fascinates him, gives him something to obsess over. You're the one mystery he can't completely solve and it's driving him insane in the best way.
He's definitely used greensight to watch you across timeâhas seen you in the past, in potential futures, in moments that haven't happened yet or happened years ago. And he'll reference them during sex: "I saw you do this three years ago, you were alone in your chamber," "I've seen you pregnant with my child in six different futures," "There's a timeline where you killed me, you were magnificent." It's violations of consent across the space-time and your brain can't even process the ethics of it.
But for all his power and knowledge, he's lonely. Desperately, crushingly lonely. Everyone fears him or uses him and no one knows him. You're perhaps the second person who's seen the man beneath the legend and hasn't run. He knows every possible future. He's seen the timelines where you betray him, where you leave, where you die, where this ends in blood and tears. He knows the odds. He's the man who calculates everything.
But he reaches for you anyway. Because in at least ONE future, you stay. And he's decided that future is worth burning all the others to reach.
see ok the tried and true method of âit doesnât need a hook or introduction write the scene as youâre inspiredâ works to a point and gets me to write when otherwise I would be overwhelmed with indecision. however actually having to establish a setting and scene and inciting incident to share said writing is now fucking me up. I sowed that, and now I have to reap? what the fuck?
summary: characters + a kink (or two) starting with the same letter of their name
content: explicit 18+ only, reader specified per character, cockwarming, power dynamics, fingering, forbidden romance, edging, exhibitionism (in theory), dirty talk, praise, humiliation if you squint
Celebrimbor // cockwarming + control (gn!reader)
You donât know how long youâve been sitting still, Celebrimborâs cock pressed deep inside of you.Â
All the candles in the room are behind you, flickering on his desk and lighting up the designs heâs been working on. If you were to turn around, youâre sure you could see how far the wax has dripped down, how low the tapers burn. You might even judge the passing time by the progress heâs made, the improvement of the sketch and increase of equations in the margins.
You donât dare to risk it. Youâve been patient thus far, so endlessly patient, and youâre certain if you were to move now, to twist even a little, you wouldnât be able to stop yourself from rolling your hips, seeking any sort of friction.Â
He had told you to sit still, and so there you sat. But youâve sat still long enough, itâs less about obedience and more about the principle of the matter.Â
Celebrimbor sighs underneath you, and you bite your lip as he shifts slightly. His hips gently nudge upwards as he adjusts the two of you, and you canât help the gasp at the slight bit of friction it gives you. Youâve been waiting so long, so desperate for movement, that the littlest thing feels electric.Â
He hooks his chin atop your shoulder as you settle again, his hand moving to hold your waist. For a moment, you think your torment has finally ended, until you hear the scratching noise of an ink pen on paper pick back up behind you.
âBe good,â he says lowly. You huff, and lean your head down to press your forehead against his shoulder.Â
âI have been,â you reply, indignant. You have been nothing but the definition of obedience, patient as you sit here warming his cock, waiting for him to finish his work.Â
âHave you?â He responds. The scratching behind you pauses. âYouâve been squeezing me rather harshly.âÂ
His hand squeezes your waist as he says as such, and you have to bite your lip at the feeling of his fingers digging into your skin.Â
âNot on purpose,â you mumble. You turn your face to the crook of his neck, and press a kiss to the skin there. You can feel his cock twitch as you continue to lavish him in what attention youâve been allowed to give, pressing open mouth kisses along the column of his throat.Â
âI donât know that I believe you,â he hums. Despite his own supposed rules, he tilts his head to give you more access.Â
You want him, you need him, so bad you think you could cry. You almost want to start grinding against him in earnest, just for the smallest spark of stimulation, just to feel the pressure of his fingers dig into your waist in reprimand.Â
You can feel the vibration of his hum as you continue to kiss him, wordlessly coaxing him into setting aside his work to lay you on the desk instead. The mere thought of it, of him lifting you up and finally fucking you, taking you rough and filthy on the desk he uses for working on design drafts and blueprints, has you shuddering.Â
You nip at his skin, and suck a mark underneath his pointed ear. You have the delight of the small noise he makes, soft, yet just as pathetic as you feel.Â
âPatience,â he says, his voice sounding considerably more strained, âis a virtue, my flame.âÂ
âFuck your patience,â you sigh against his skin. The hand at your waist slides up your side, his fingers leaving a burning trail until he reaches it up to cup your jaw.Â
He tilts his head back as he moves your face up, and his lips catch yours in a messy, searing kiss. You canât help the whine that builds in the back of your throat as his fingers press into your jaw, and his tongue slides against yours. He grinds up into you, half on instinct, sending tingles down your limbs as you finally get even the smallest stimulation.Â
And then heâs pulling back again, and holding himself still. He wipes away a string of spit connecting you with his thumb, before moving his hand back down to your waist and wiping it on your robes.Â
âLet me finish this,â he pants. He presses a soft kiss to your jaw, a sharp contrast to the hand gripping your waist like a lifeline. âJust a little bit longer, mm?âÂ
His chin hooks over your shoulder again, and the scratching of his writing sounds behind you once more. The candlelight flickers against the wall, soft and mellow. His cock is heavy inside of you, warm and filling and infuriating.Â
You lean your weight against him, and you donât roll your hips to feel him deeper. You donât. You donât.Â
Fingolfinâs lips are electric, lighting sparks against your skin as he drags them down the side of your neck. His fingers are clever as they undo the layers between you, quick and rushed in a half effort of disrobing you. It doesnât take that much to reach his hand beneath your clothes at that point, fingers slipping easily between your legs.Â
âWait,â you hiss out between clenched teeth. âWait, we shouldnât-â
His lips swallow your remaining protests, teeth clacking against yours in his rush before he manages to tilt his head and deepen the kiss properly. The hand between your legs is not so clumsy. His first two fingers find your clit with little trouble, and he wastes no time in pressing down and rubbing against it.
Sparks of pleasure light up your spine from his touch. Itâs not your protests heâs swallowing up, but your gasps, your moans.Â
His fingers dip further down into your wetness, before moving back up. With more lubricant, he presses harder against that little spot, circling in harsher and tighter circles.Â
Your hands clutch desperately at him, one hand clinging to his robes, the other finding purchase in his hair. His beautiful, silken hair, which you grasp tightly between your fingers as he bites at your bottom lip.Â
âNolo,â you gasp out, speaking into his mouth. âNolo, Iâm-â
âI know,â he says, his voice strained. You donât know if itâs in response to your earlier protests, or if he knows youâre close, his fingers sending you far too quickly to the edge. âI know.â
You really shouldnât be doing this - he was son of a king, meant to be betrothed soon enough to some politically advantageous bride or another, and you were nobody in the eyes of the kingdom. You really fucking shouldnât, but his mouth is hot and wet against yours, and he makes such pretty noises when you tug at his hair, and his fingers keep pressing against your clit in tight circles, and god, god-
You have to pull away and press your face into his shoulder as you cum, face burning as your knees buckle and you cry out into his robes. He doesnât stop, only slows, until your legs stop twitching and youâre able to hold yourself up on shaky legs.Â
His fingers dip down then to press into you, using your wetness to stretch in two at once. It's a weighty pressure, so deep and different from the pleasure you just came from.Â
His fingers start to work in and out of you, curling in a come hither motion with every stroke. His thumb finds your clit, and while the pressure is hardly as consistent as it was before, itâs enough to send sparks down your spine.
âJust one more,â he begs you, debauched from your pleasure alone. âPlease, just one more.â
You really shouldnât - but who are you to stop him, when it feels so good?Â
Eärendil // edging + exhibitionism (gn!reader)
âPlease,â Eärendil begs, his voice breathy and soft as you pull your hand away from his cock yet again.Â
He looks like a dream beneath you. Blonde curls fan out from his head and across the pillow as if he was posed in such a state, effortless and beautiful. His face and chest is flushed such a lovely red. Thereâs a mark starting to darken along his collarbone, a mark you made just moments before.Â
You wonder if his half-human nature is to blame for the way he flushes so dark, for how reactive he is underneath your touch. You trace the freckles and marks across his skin with your finger, and watch as his muscles twitch at the light touch.
You give him another moment to catch his breath as the frustration of another denied orgasm washes through him. And then you lean forward to kiss him deeply, and wrap your hand back around his cock.Â
His hand comes up to hold your face as he stops kissing you, instead panting and moaning against your lips as your touch drives away all other focus.Â
Heâs been brought to the edge what feels like countless times, worked up again and again, only to be denied at the final moment. Heâs nearly mindless underneath you, the smallest touch sending tingles along his limbs, and swallowing up any true coherency.Â
âYouâre so beautiful,â you say between kisses. His hips jerk up into your touch, and so you pull away again. His eyes wrench shut at the denial, before opening again to look at you desperately. âSo beautiful, and so good for me.âÂ
He takes a deep breath, and another, as his face flushes a deeper red at your praise. âIâve been good,â he says, he pleads, trying to string a good enough argument together for your mercy. âSo please, can you - ahh-â
His begging peters off into a choked out whine as you stroke a single finger up his length.Â
âSoon,â you promise. You give him a few more pumps, before letting him go again. Your hand rubs soothing circles above his hips as he tries to buck up for any friction, anything that would finally push him over the edge.Â
âShhh,â you soothe as he lets out a louder, keening moan. You lean back down to press kisses along his throat. âYou wouldnât want anyone to hear, would you?âÂ
Itâs an impossibility, of course - you wouldnât engage in such an intense activity and push him past his self control if there was anyone around to hear. Yet his hips jerk up again against you, as if reacting to your words.Â
ââŚor would you?âÂ
You reach your hand back down between you both, to squeeze around him again. âWhy wouldnât you? You sound so lovely, after all.â His eyes clench shut as he presses back against the pillow, almost overwhelmed. âAnd you make enough noise, they could hear you across the sea,â you tease, still stroking his cock. You twist your wrist, and rub your thumb across his tip, and watch as he fails to choke back a moan.Â
âWould you like that? If someone heard you getting fucked, because you couldn't keep your mouth shut?âÂ
You donât pull your hand back in time this time, caught up in the way he flushes red underneath you, caught up in the noises he only tries halfheartedly to repress. He slaps a hand over his mouth as he spurts all over your fingers, finally finding the release heâs been begging for.Â
When he opens his eyes again, all he can see is you, and your wicked grin - and he gets the feeling your evening has really only just begun.Â
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A/N: I didnât include the twins in this because I was unable to write smut for them. I donât know why, but I can never envision smut for them, it doesnât click for me. Sorry, but I also hope you enjoy it!
Warnings: smut, fem!reader, rough sex, spanking, fingering, overstimulation, edging, multiple orgasms, orgasm denial, cunnilingus, oral sex (male and female receiving), manhandling, restraints, dirty talking, pet names (kitten, little one, bunny, good girl, princess), punishment, reader being mocked
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Feanor â I donât know if I should clap you on the back and say, âGreat job for challenging a man like him,â or be concerned that you chose to challenge a prideful man like him. Because baby, heâs not letting that slide on his pride. Verdict? Punished
He sensed it, the minute you tossed your head into the pillows and released the most ear-aching groan you attempted to have sound believable, he stopped. There was no shouting, no groaning or fuming like he usually didâhe simply pulled out with a loud slick, the look of pure dissatisfaction on his face, and climbed off the bed to stand at the foot. There was a sharp gleam in his eyes the longer he looked at you, contemplating what punishment to dish outâso many options, a lot of time to execute them all, which one came first. He chose to say nothing, instead grabbing you by your calves and dragging you to the foot of the bed.
Before you could properly react, he snatched you by the arm and spun you around, planting your face into the mattress with a hand gripping the back of your neck to firmly keep you rooted. A high-pitched squeal left your throat, but it wasnât from the sudden roughness of his actions, it was from the loud crack of a hand across your ass, followed by the immediate dragging of his fingers through your folds to harshly rub your clit. âFeels good doesnât it? So good you could cum all over my fingers right now,â he muttered in your ear, pressing more weight against your sweet spot once he found it, causing a string of gibberish to leave your lips. âThen why donât you cum right now. Fake another one if you dare.â
âF-FeaâŚnorâshitâwas just aânghâjoke,â you cried out as you wiggled your hips against the thrusting of his thick and calloused fingers.
âA joke,â he gasped lightly with humour in his tone before continuing, âthen I too should give you one as well.â Then, he withdrew his fingers an inch away, listening to you crying out from the loss of pleasure. âLet me give you the best joke in the history of the Noldorâso good, that youâll remember it forever and even learn a lesson from it.â
Maedhros â what can I say. Best rough fuck of your life? This man had his own sense of humour, and he was about to display how funny he could be during a crucial act since you wanted to play games.
The moment your lips parted to gasp, fingers digging into his biceps and legs tightening around his waist, he smirked. The hands on your waist slid downwards to grip your thighs and curl them into your chest, flush against your breasts while pressing his weight upon you, essentially pinning you beneath him. The new position had his heavy cock pressed deeper within your walls; you were scrambling to find purchase along his sweaty back. âNggh, fuckâtoo deep, Mae,â you whined with a pout, brows furrowing and lip biting as he doubled the pace, making the bedframe shake.
âHmm, Iâm as deep as I should be,â he purred against your lips while one hand from your thigh reached up to grip your chin, forcing you to keep eye contact. He chose to roll his hips, his flared tip rubbing against your sweet post, prompting your eyes and walls to flutter as you genuinely came around his cock, a warm gush of your juices coating his length. âThatâs more like it. Thatâs how you should look when youâre about to cum all over my cock,â he grinned and pecked your lips swiftly. âAll fucked out, not that phoney performance.â
âM-MaeâŚplease, âs too much.â
âUh-Uh.â He was having fun with this, giving your face a small shake while his grip on your jaw tightened. You could feel him deep in your stomachâgetting deeperâand the loud squelching sounds of your cunt gushing around his length telling you that he didnât plan on stopping. âIâm having just as much fun as you faking your orgasm, melda. Why should I stop when all you have to do is lie there and take my cock?â he whispered cynically with a wicked grin. âOr do you want to fake another orgasm again?â
You shook your head, struggling to keep up as another orgasm was approaching after he fucked you through the recent one.
âGood,â he hummed and lifted his body slightly off you, releasing your chin. âNow be a good girl and cum for me again.â
Maglor â the gentle poet isnât always as gentle as everyone considers him to be, you know? Kano has his tricks up his sleeves, and one of them is ensuring that youâre not leaving this bed unsatisfied, no matter what it takes.
He didnât even wait for you to finish before he came to a complete halt, staring at you with all the restraint and disbelief. And then, ever so slowly, he broke into a smileâa cunning, wicked smile. âMy, my, my, princess. You didnât tell me that we were performing. Had I knownââ he growled and suddenly pulled out to flip you onto your knees, pushing your face into the pillows and sinking your back into a beautiful arch. ââI would have put on an equally, captivating performance as well.â
Whimpering, your excuses falling short when you felt his fingers trail down your spine to dip between your folds, spreading your wetness around to rub lazily circles around your clit. âI hope you know how great of an improviser I amâone of the best. So, I hope you can keep up. It would be a shameâa real shame if you were unable toâŚâ That was all Maglor needed to do to have you falling apart under his touch. Those skilled fingers, working you to the brink and bringing you back down, edging you as if he was playing his harp and plucking strings of cries with each pinch or flick.
His other hand rested at the centre of your back, applying just enough pressure to warn you of his warriorâs strength underneath while his fingers ran through your fold, circling your clit and then down to your entrance, doing everything but sinking inside. The needy whines you released only fuelled him to continue his ministrations as you begged him.
âKano, quit playingâplease, put it in,â you groaned, voice muffled as you pushed your face into the pillow to swallow your needy cries which he revelled in.
âKano quit playing,â he mocked, laughing at the end as he pulled his fingers away to give your ass a solid smack, jolting you forward. âHow demanding? What are you, a star actress who canât play her part correctly?â In an instant, just as the response was at the tip of your tongue, his cock plunged into your cunt and immediately started moving without an inch of reprieve. âWhy donât you leave the improvising to me, sweetheart, and just do what youâre supposed to. Cum for me when I fuck you.â
Celegorm â gosh, youâre giving his man a game. A thrill. A chase. Heâs a hunterâthis is the type of game heâs into. Make him work for his prize, and you, my dear, were so kind to delectably present him with the best challenge ever. One neither of you would ever forget.
Coming down from your so-called orgasm, had you trembling in Tyelkoâs hold. Ankles locked around his neck, nails curling into his meaty biceps and jaw slackened as you mimicked the expression of ecstasy, but that was never enough to fool the hunter. For in an instant, he leaned into you further, pressing more of his weight against you, squeezing your thighs against your chest, caging you in like some prey with those gleaming, green eyes. âLittle bunny wants to make me work to earn an orgasm from her, huh? Acting as though I wouldnât know what this pussy feels like around my cock,â he taunted with a sickeningly, sinful laugh.
âT-Tyelko, donâtââ Your attempted words were immediately cut off by an abrupt tumble as he rolled over to place you on top, adjusting your legs to straddle his hips, yet pulling you down, chest to chest.
âShh, kitten. You donât need to speakâyouâve told me enough.â His cock still buried deep within, started moving sluggishly at firstâjust for a few strokes to get you relaxedâwhile he gingerly took both your wrist and bound them with one hand behind your back. As slowly as he moved, it was enough to make your stomach flip. And like the predator he was, his feet planted into the mattress and instantly thrust upwards with much more force jerking you forward, save for the strong arms around your waist.
A loud crack of his hand followed against your ass, groping the flesh before sending another, matching the intensity of his thrust. âJust like thatâfeels so good doesnât it? Nice and deep enough to fake another?â he growled, increasing his tempo for the sound of sweaty skin clapping against each other to ripple around the room.
âT-TyelââŚkoâfuck! âm s-sorryâŚslow downâah!â Sputtering his favourite chorus of gibberish, he merely grinned and sunk himself deeper into your cunt, purposefully rubbing his cock head against your sweet spot which had your nails digging into your palms and more juices dripping down his cock.
âNot at all kitten. Iâm right where I need to be,â he purred and cracked another hand across your ass. âChasing as many orgasms I can get all night long.â
Caranthir â he doesnât do anything half-assed, so why would you make him feel like he wasnât performing up to standards, huh? Donât you think that youâre about to be reminded to never test his skills?
A hand pinning the back of your neck to the polished desk while the other torturously dragged its fingers through your dripping cuntâif you thought Moryo was about to let it slide with a fickle excuse of âI was just tired,â you were fooling yourself. He didnât appreciate the gesture and was fixated on ensuring that you never thought about attempting your foolish jest ever again. And judging from how his fingers glided so smoothly through your cunt, your juices coating his palm and wrists, and the obscenely loud echoes of your thirsty walls sucking him back in, he was making a point. All of this when it was your umpteenth orgasm for the night, and he wasnât letting up. No amount of, âIâm sorry,â âPlease donât tease me,â or âIt was just a joke,â could reduce the number of times youâve cum all over him.
âHave you learnt your lesson yet, melda?â he questioned with such authority, yet a distinctive quietness in his tone. His question was followed up by a sudden contracting off your walls, spasming around his fingers as they remained still and pressing against your sweet spot. Within seconds, another gush of your arousal oozed out, making his rings and bracelets glisten under the lamps. âHm, not yet it would appear.â
âMoryoââ
âSilence. You had your chance to answer and missed the opportunity. It is clear to me that you still crave more, so I shall give you more. Enough that you will not attempt such foolishness again.â There was a faint smirk in his tone as he leaned down and pressed a kiss to the centre of your back, the same time his fingers regained their pace and continued to fuck you through your orgasm, into the next one. The tremble of your legs as shivered with oversensitivity made him laugh airily, not slowly or increasing his pace, keeping you right there, and giving you want you clearly desired from the start. âYouâre doing so well, darling.â
Curufin â nothing misses his eyes. Nothing misses his focus, and you thought it would be a brilliant idea to test the man who was cunning, perspective and undoubtedly harsh when it came to dishing out punishment? Good luck.
âOpenâwider.â Just as swiftly as the command came, your mouth was filled with the sliding of his thick cock between your lips to rest heavily against your tongue. He wanted to silence those nasally cries you emitted earlier, calling it the regular sounds you made when you orgasmed, and listen to you gurgling on his cock, rethinking your options. âJust like that. You sound much better.â
All you could do was look up at him through your teary lashes while he tossed his head back, hands tightening in your hair as he held you still. He didnât move too slow or too quickly, just at the right pace to satisfy him and leave you clenching around nothing in anticipation. A soft, muffled whine escaped your throat when he pulled back, leaving his tip to rest against your lips, causing him to finally open his eyes and look down at youâwith disappointment. âWhatâs wrong? Finally ready to apologise so I can make you cum for your ridiculous stunt?â
You nodded, pouting up at him with your teary eyes, knowing the effect it always had on him. âIâm sorryâŚwonât do it again.â
Instead, he scoffed. You were so shameless. Fake your orgasm and then had the audacity to be wet while he fucked your throat, wanting his cock to quench your heat. If anything, it made him more irritable. âIâm not so sure that you are sorry,â he corrected, biting his lower lip. âYou just want me to stuff you with my cock like the needy little thing you are.â
âYou can do whatever you want,â you pleaded. âI just want to cum.â
Rolling his eyes as he tapped his cock head against your lips, signalling you to open up, he pushed into the warmth of your mouth again, exhaling deeply at the welcoming of your heat and wetness. âI am doing whatever I want, darling. And thatâs making sure you donât cum like you wanted from the start.â
Celebrimbor â okay, why would you even try this stunt on this pookie wookie? Heâs trying his best to bring you the best pleasure you ever had in your life with passionate precision and you of all things to doâŚfake your orgasm. Go stand outside in the rain, for making him feel like his performance wasnât good enough,
His hips stuttered the minute you started vibrating and clinging to him, giving him a world-altering performance of you orgasming. There was a look of sadness washing over you as he continued to observe your shaking figure under himâyou were so caught up in acting to notice that he had stopped and slackened his hold on your hips, slightly sitting on his hunches. The way his brain was calculating what to do in the face of such an event he never thought would occur to him. Then, he recalledâa conversation between two of his Lords he overheard speaking about their wives pulling this same stunt.
So, it was a thing. Just you attempting to trick him. He was still saddened deep down, but with a fervour.
Gingerly, he pulled his cock out and shuffled off the bed, noticing how you watched him with curious eyes. âWhere are going? You havenât finished?â you worried, sitting upright and frowning as he slipped back into his trousers, keeping it loose around his waist.
He said nothing as he reached into the drawers for a pair of handcuffs, designed just for you. A little something he was working on for a while to surprise you with, and what a joyous occasion it was for him to introduce them to you because, in mere minutes, your hands were cuffed to the headboard and left sobbingâbegging for release, overstimulated. TyelpĂŤâs mouth worked so fervently against your pussy, giving you all the orgasms in the world so you would never test his abilities again.
A languid drag of his tongue against your clit, followed but a sharp suck had your toes curling, yet, unable to move from the iron grip that held them apart. You were beyond sensitive, unsure if he could milk another orgasm from your thoroughly wracked body.
âHmm, do you think you can give me one more?â he peered up at you through those gorgeous emerald eyes. How could you say ânoâ even when this was punishment? And yet you found yourself nodding slowly. âLovely, let us see if this would be the one to remind you to never try that trick again.â
summary: findekĂĄno and you discuss your plans to rescue maitimo from thangorodrim
content: gn!elf!reader, reader who crossed the helcaraxĂŤ, mentions of canonical torture, drama, hopeful ending, taking creative liberties in how elven soul bonds and mind-speak works
note: I wanted Fingon to keep his role in the original story as the one who rescues Maedhros - but with a capable reader, the question is then: what do you do if he rescues him alone? this specific plot will probably be a multi-chapter chronicle, bear with me as I write and post chapters that may be out of chronological order.
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FindekĂĄno finds you the night he sets out, taking but a moment to duck into your tent and speak to you privately.Â
He doesnât have to wake you, for youâre still awake, clearly re-packing your own bag as he enters without knocking.Â
âHey, Iâm - woah!âÂ
He backs up, hitting his head on one of the wooden posts holding your tent aloft as you spin around, the knife you were packing away unsheathed and pressed against his throat.Â
It takes you a moment to realize itâs him, perhaps the largest betrayal of your weariness. He holds still, not daring to move as your eyes refocus, and recognize who is in front of you.Â
âFinno,â you sigh in relief, recognizing the son of NolofinwĂŤ. The elf who had been your companion across the ice, before he was sent to travel ahead the last few years with his father. âOne of these days, you will learn to knock.â
âAnd risk someone else hearing?â FindekĂĄno mutters quietly, soft enough only your elven ears can catch it. It would easily be lost to even the other elves, muffled by the canvas of your tent and the soft rainfall outside.Â
He smiles sheepishly, relaxing easily as you pull the knife away and take a few steps back. You sheathe it, and move to slide it into the side pocket of your pack, before turning back around to regard him.
He had arrived but a year before you, who had just stepped into the lakeside camp a few days ago. The news was broken to you just twenty minutes after your arrival, when you had managed to find MakalaurĂŤ in the FĂŤanorian side of the lake.Â
Maitimo was not dead, despite what the quiet end of your soul bond said. He was not dead - but perhaps his fate would be kinder if he was. For he was still somewhere in Morgoth's clutches, still bearing torture and torment and made into another bargaining chip.
Another trap. Another set up. And Maitimo, before he had gone, had made those he left behind promise not to follow in his footsteps, not to fall for such a plot no matter what they heard.Â
You had made no such promises. And it is clear FindekĂĄno has had the same thought process as you during the year he has known of his cousin's fate, for he is dressed to travel. His pack is stuffed full, and his bow is strapped securely to his back, with arrows at his hip.
âIâd swear you to secrecy for what I am to tell you,â he says quietly, flipping down his hood. âOnly it seems you are packing for the very same reason.âÂ
âOf course I am,â you reply, dropping your voice to the same whisper. Youâve hardly had time to truly unpack what you carried across the ice, only taking the time to find and replace some of the essentials you had used well in your journey. You turn back to your pack, hands moving out of habit as you continue to organize, and frown - the distraction has caused you to pack away your old and damaged tinderbox instead of the new one you acquired a day before.Â
FindekĂĄno catches your hand as you reach for the new tinderbox. A year ahead of you he was, and already he was much warmer to the touch. You would wonder if his soul had felt the cold at all, if you hadnât been with him for a good amount of the journey. He had this warmth about him, a light that even the worst of hardships could not dampen.
âYouâre trembling.âÂ
You pull your hand out of his grasp, fumbling the tinderbox as you do. Your retort is lost as you try to catch it, and itâs only FindekĂĄnoâs fast reflexes that keep it from hitting the ground.Â
He hesitates in handing it back to you, worrying his bottom lip between his teeth.Â
âI am weary,â you end up admitting. Itâs hard to conceal the weight your soul has carried to this point. Barely returned from the ice and hardly used to the temperature, that would be hard enough - but the pain of losing Maitimo has taken a terrible toll.Â
You hold out your hand expectantly for the tinderbox, even as your hand shakes ever so slightly. âBut it is nothing to what Maitimo has been facing.â
The only thing that kept you hopeful for his life at first were the small glimpses of his state you would get when heâd lean against your bond. You had felt it strongly in the beginning, before he had the wherewithal to close his mind - but for a few years after there would only be flashes, always heavy and intense and terrible.Â
And then he was gone entirely.
You can still feel that absence where he used to be, that bond which was severed so extremely from his end, you had thought heâd met his demise. If it hadnât been for FindekĂĄno, you might have pitched yourself into the icy waters to save yourself the pain.
And now you know he wasnât dead, and was only trying to spare you. All this time, he was trying to spare you.
âNo, I suppose itâs not,â FindekĂĄno agrees. âBut still, it is not ideal.âÂ
You take your tinderbox back from him when he fails to let it go, and turn back around to keep packing. He sets his own pack down, propping it up against the wooden post you had pushed him against, and moves to help you.
âYouâre still cold,â he continues, even as he helps you. He takes your old tinderbox out, and sets it to the side. âWeary, and shaken. Your reaction time is admirable, but your recognition and your cognition-â
âGet to the point, Finno,â you snap.
âYou canât go.âÂ
You freeze for a second, before turning back to look at him. Indignation, fury, shock, all rise inside of you.
âAnd who are you, FindekĂĄno, to tell me what I can and cannot do?â You drop the nickname, using his full name as you demand an answer. How dare he stand here, after knowing the torment your soul endured, and tell you not to save him?Â
âYou are not well,â he insists. He grabs the rope you had set aside, and attaches it to the side of your pack, still working as if he hadnât just advised you against leaving at all. âThe ice has taken its toll - I know, because even after a year I can still feel the weariness of the cold.â
âThat is something I can endure,â you insist.
He grabs the extra layers you had set aside, holding them up for inspection. He continues as if he did not hear you. âYou are not used to this climate, not used to this geography - you cannot be so prepared to be able to go off on your own.â
He folds them back compactly and packs them away anyways. He grabs your extra water skin and stows it away, tucking it neatly into the space left by the clothes.
âI wouldnât be alone, would I?â You remind him. His travel pack sits where he left it against the wooden pole, in far better shape than yours. The two of you together would find him - surely two would give better odds to a successful rescue.Â
âYou do not know the lay of the land,â he says. âYou do not have maps, you do not have proper weaponry. You have had not a week to learn he is alive, let alone learn of our enemy. I have had a year.â
He tightens your pack, folds down the top flap and buckles it closed. And then he hands it to you, as if he hasnât just listed out comprehensively every reason you should not take this journey. After a moment of confused silence, you reach out and take it.Â
âI have never been one to tell you what to do,â he admits. âIf you insist, then we shall go together, and try our luck - because I cannot leave him there to suffer anymore than you. But we have endured much together, and have been friends even longer - before you decide, will you hear me out?â
You see it then, a little of the weariness this has caused him. He may not have that same connection, he may not have linked souls so thoroughly as you had, but he was family. Maitimo was still his cousin, the cousin that he was never meant to care about yet loved fiercely all the same.Â
You see determination, also. Some of that straight backed confidence and courage from his father, some of that persistence and kindness from his mother. But the insistence to help when all others think it to be hopeless - that is entirely him.Â
âAlright,â you give in. With all the strength you have, you unclench your hands from your travel bag and set it back down again. âI cannot promise anything, but I can listen.â
He has had a year to plan. A year to recover, to get a lay of the land, to talk himself in and out of this suicidal rescue. And what he says proves true, to an extent. He has had time to learn from the northern scouts, time to map and plan, time to acclimate to Beleriand and its wilderness.Â
Much of what you know of Maitimo and his whereabouts, and the plan of breaking him free, are the same. But you keep your mouth shut until he finishes explaining. You have said you would listen, and so you would, even if you did not like what you were hearing.Â
âYou know as well as I that I cannot tell anybody else. Even if I did believe we did not have the odd spy or two, my first proposal of Maitimoâs rescue was shot down. As was my second through fifth. My father would sooner lock me away then grant me leave. MakalaurĂŤ would have done the same thing, in his time ruling.â FindekĂĄno swallows harshly, his hands making fists as he clenches at his tunic.Â
âHe had only done what he felt was right,â you say softly, defending what you can of your would-be brothers actions. Despite your own anger, you recognize that there is far too much at stake to risk the rescue of a single elf, even one who would be king. Not only that, it was a standing order explicitly given to not risk the trap.Â
It must be worse for MakalaurĂŤ, to have to make the decision himself.
âHe has done as a leader should,â FindekĂĄno replies. âAs does my father now. But they are our leaders, our commanders, and they have to strategize like ones.âÂ
He has this gleam in his eye, one you have seen often, thatâs reminiscent of the mischief he would spread in Tirion. The look of an elf who has found a clever loophole, and is prepared to abuse it.Â
âI am not. And so I will not act as such. And neither, I had assumed, would you.â
He assumed right. Perhaps it would be different, if you had the weight of all your people on your shoulders. You have enough responsibility already in the minor position youâre in. But your decisions donât shape the kingdom, and so you cannot sit and watch while Maitimo suffers.Â
âIf you had gotten here a year ago, I would not be suggesting this,â he continues. At this, he looks back at you intently, his eyes remorseful. âA party of two is small enough for stealth, and would have greater odds of success. But you arrived a few days ago, not a few months. And I fear you would be a detriment, to our goal and to your own health.â
He reaches for your hands, and takes them both in his. He's burning to the touch, and so you must be freezing. You close your eyes and take a breath, knowing that his words ring true. Damn him for ever speaking them.
âI could not plan for sure without knowing your arrival,â he continues softly, âbut you are here now, and so our chances grow - please, will you stay here, and make sure no one learns of my absence?â
You wish nothing more than to tell him no. To throw his hands back in his face and snap and snarl. But he makes sense and speaks the truth, and he has never been one to grandstand for glory.
You tighten your grip on his hands, feeling the warmth that radiates from him and soaking it in, and really consider the plan he has laid in front of you.Â
One is risky - but two with an injured party is worse than just the one. He does not know the lands so well yet, but he knows them better than you. He is not weakened, in spirit or in body, and you are injured in both. And if you both went ahead, there would be no one to stall search parties or patrols.Â
Your heart breaks to consider it. Pumping hard against your ribs, it feels as if it is made of shattered glass, bleeding you out with every beat. You would not be able to ensure success. You would not be there with any control of the situation. You would not be doing what you felt was everything you possibly could.Â
Itâs an impossible choice; an impossible choice that you wish to hate FindekĂĄno for. But your life lately has been full of those. Full of impossible decisions that must be made in order to take the next step forward, ever since you wielded a blade against your own kin on those far western shores.Â
You open your eyes, blinking away tears, and look FindekĂĄno in his. He meets your gaze gladly, opening his mind to you without hesitation. His surface thoughts, what he intends, and even deeper in a show of trust that you gladly take in your fragile state.Â
There is an unshakeable determination, and a faith as strong if not stronger than your own. There would be no one else better suited for this task, no one you could trust more with this feat.Â
He knows your answer without you having to say it, and so he wastes little time. He leans forward to briefly press his head against yours, and then plants a kiss on your forehead, before turning and grabbing his pack off the floor. Heâs quick to secure it and ensure his bow is in easy reach, before leaving.
âFinno,â you whisper, barely audible, as his hand moves to part the flaps of your tent. He pauses and looks back, one foot already out in the rain.Â
You grab your knife from the side of your own pack and toss it to him - for safety, for luck, for anything he might need it for. He catches it easily, and does not refuse the gift, securing it to his belt as he meets your eyes once more.Â
âBring him home.â
He smiles and nods, and gives you one final salute before heâs out the door, making his silent escape into the rain.
summary: staying with maitimo and his family for a week of celebration, your evening activities in his room have to be kept quiet. of course, this is easier said than done
content: explicit 18+ only, gender-neutral afab reader. pegging (surely valinor has sex toys), multiple orgasms, dirty talk, praise kink, breeding kink, dom/sub dynamics if you squint, face sitting, unrealistic stamina but who cares none of you are here for realism, elvish terms of endearment I made the fuck up.
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âMaitimo,â you whisper, lips brushing against his ear. He shudders against you, back nearly arching as his movement has you grinding deeper into him. âShhh, shhh, hush ruinincĂŤ.âÂ
He whines softly, his breathing stuttering as you grind into him, pressing up against that spot inside of him that you know drives him crazy.Â
âYou have to be quiet, love,â you whisper again, pressing a kiss just underneath his jaw. It wouldn't do to have anyone else hear the two of you, when you were meant to be in your own room down the hall.
You can feel his pulse fluttering against your lips as you start to press in deeper, and deeper still, moving in and out so slowly until heâs fully taken you to the hilt.Â
His mouth falls open in a silent cry as you grind into him again, hitting that spot with much more accuracy at such a depth and angle. The way his breath catches, as he tries to keep from making noise, tries to keep composure, nearly has you losing yours.Â
You pull fully out, and then push back in, and he lets out the filthiest choked out sigh. You have to press your lips to his shoulder to stifle your own gasp.Â
âThatâs it,â you praise, kissing along his freckled skin as you move in, and out. âTaking me so well.âÂ
Itâs easy to repeat the lines heâs used on you before, when youâve been teary eyed and stretched out on his cock. You wonder if the weight of what youâre fucking him with now feels anything like he does to you - you hope so. You hope it stretches and fills him so well he couldnât possibly want for more.Â
He whimpers again, catching his voice on what would be much louder if he could let himself, and you feel almost lightheaded with arousal and want.Â
You want to fuck him brainless, like heâs fucked you time and time again, to make a mess of him on your cock. You want to pull pretty noises from him, make him gasp and make punched out sounds he has to muffle because he just canât help himself.Â
âGod, you look so good,â you say, kissing desperately along the expanse of his shoulders and throat, as you slowly build a tempo. He shudders, and presses back against you, legs spreading slightly as if asking for more. And then you try something else, a little of an exaggeration for how you cannot truly feel how tight he squeezes - âYou feel so good, Mai.â
He lets out a low noise at that, pressing his forehead against his forearms, red hair spilling down to hide his face. You follow him further down, pressing your chest firmly against his back as you piston your hips, finding a stronger rhythm.Â
It takes a moment to get a good angle with enough drive behind it, but once you do, you hear him gasp, feel him tense, and you lose yourself in it. Fucking him harder, desperate for his desperation.Â
His gasps start coming out a little louder, his eyes going glassy as you fuck him stupid, cock dragging in and out of him and hitting that spot inside of him every other thrust.Â
âCome on, melda,â you murmur against his skin, fingers digging into his hips. âYou have to stay quiet. You can stay quiet for me, canât you?â
And you donât know if itâs from a feeling of generosity or cruelty, you just know itâs a desperate want that has you wrapping your hand around his cock as you grind in deep enough for him to feel you in the back of his throat. He slaps a hand over his mouth as you squeeze, fucking him at a steady pace with your hand fisting his cock. He presses against his lips hard, but he canât hold his breath as you fuck it out of him, so it still slips past his fingers. Muffled cries and pleas he tries so desperately to bite back.
âGod, you take me so well,â you say, and he could cry for how much it all is. You can tell he's getting close as he tenses underneath you, his breathing coming out in shorter gasps. âYou're taking me so well when Iâm fucking you so hard, fucking you so full-âÂ
He makes a choked out noise and tenses, and before he can stop himself, he comes hard. Shooting out all over his chest and your hand, nearly forgetting to keep his own hand over his mouth until he hears himself cry out. He bites down into the meat of his palm, chest heaving as he tries to stay quiet.
You fuck him through it, stroking his cock until he shivers from the stimulation and grinding into him until heâs spent, teary eyed and gasping underneath you.
You give him a moment to catch his breath, making yourself stay still as you wonder if you had been a little more stimulated, you could have found your own release from just watching him.Â
âDid that really get you, love?â You ask, lips again finding purchase against his skin. Connecting his freckles and moles with kisses, physically reassuring him as he comes down despite the way your words tease.Â
You don't get an answer, so you grind into him again, pressing hard against that spot inside, and he takes a shuddered gasp. âDid that get you? Talking about fucking you nice and full?âÂ
He shudders again, almost to his own dismay, and you watch in wonder as his body reacts.Â
âDo you wish I could come inside you?â You ask, rolling your hips again, reaching a hand out to hold his. He takes it gladly, twining your fingers together as his other hand falls from his mouth.Â
âMelda-â he whispers, and you donât know if itâs a plea for mercy or for more, but it certainly isnât the word to stop, so you ignore him.
âDo you?â He shudders as you fuck into him again, pleasure lighting up along an overstimulated nervous system. âIâm talking to you, Maitimo, use your words.â
His cock twitches, still half hard in your hand, as he gasps out, âYes.â
âDo you wish I could fuck you full, like you fuck me?â You let go of his cock to press him harder into the sheets, your other hand holding his like a lifeline. âI bet youâd take it so well, fucked nice and full until youâre just dripping.âÂ
Itâs obscene, it's an impossible fantasy, but it has him keening under your touch, going glossy eyed, so you find that rhythm again, fucking in and out as if you could actually breed him.Â
âPlease,â he gasps out, shuddering, âgod, please-â
âYou'd love that, wouldn't you? To be fucked stupid on my cock, over and over again. For me to fuck you full, until it takes-âÂ
And he comes again, in record time, all over his chest and the sheets. Almost entirely untouched, you think, feeling nearly lightheaded with arousal. You push forward and pull him back, kissing him with a desperation he matches twice over.Â
You wind down again, knowing better than to push any further now that heâs spent, his orgasm wracking through him like nothing else youâve ever seen.Â
âFuck,â he whispers, his voice ragged as you move to kiss down his throat.Â
âYou're so good for me,â you praise between kisses as he winds down. "So good." With each kiss, each deep breath, he comes back to himself a little more, until you can slide out of him with little more than a shudder.Â
He twists suddenly, turning from underneath you to face you, and it's only his hands holding you steady that keep you from losing balance on your knees. In the next moment, he's using his grasp to tug you closer towards him, fingers digging into your waist as he lays back fully and pulls you towards his face.
There's only a moment of frustration as he struggles with the latches and straps of the harness, before he manages to pull it off of you and give you the attention you've been lacking.
It doesn't take long at all for you to finish with surprising intensity on his tongue, muffling your own sounds with both of your hands as he holds you in place by your thighs. You had been close to the edge already, just from the mess you had made him.
He only lets you go once you start tapping at his arm, overwhelmed and spent. Relenting, he relaxes his hold on you, pressing kisses to the inside of your thigh as you lift yourself up and catch your breath.
âThatâs it,â he whispers. âYou did such a good job.â
You smile as you move back down his body, thighs shaking from the effort. âI should be telling you this, you know,â you say, putting your weight down on his hips. He really had been good for you.
You lift your hand up to brush back a sweaty strand of hair from his forehead, tucking it carefully behind his ear. âIn fact, we should both be getting up to a nice bath right now.âÂ
He hums, not inclined to move at all. âPerhaps.â
You huff out a laugh, and lean down to give him a kiss. You can taste yourself on his tongue, and it makes you wish you had the energy to start all over again. âCome on - Iâm used to getting fucked like that, you are not. Or do you want to walk at all tomorrow?â
-
Itâs FindekĂĄno - because of course itâs FindekĂĄno - who wakes you up far too early in the morning, and sees the two of you laying together before you leave to your own room. He barges in without knocking and scares both you and Maitimo half to death.Â
âMai, have you - don't shout, itâs just me - have you still got those pearl earrings I lent you last year?â
âFindekĂĄno,â Maitimo says, his voice still scratchy with sleep, âout.âÂ
FindekĂĄno raises an eyebrow, and looks to you. âIs he always this grumpy in the morning?âÂ
âOut.â
FindekĂĄno backs further back into the hall, but doesnât close the door. âIs this about the two of you bedding each other? Because I already know, itâs hardly a secret.âÂ
Maitimo blinks. You donât dare to say a word, watching this play out. âWhat do you mean, hardly a secret?â
âWell, I know you well, cousin of mine, and I doubt you would bring 'just a friend' home for a week. Besides,â FindekĂĄno grins, a gleam in his eye, âI think that being next door to you last night has been rather illuminating. Really, I thought they had told you to be quiet, Maitimo, you couldnât -â
FindekĂĄno has to duck the pillow his cousin throws, cackling madly. You bury your head into your hands, and decide youâre never going to see the light of the trees again, for youâre never going to move from this spot right here out of sheer mortification.Â
âI donât care, Mai, I just - would you quit throwing things! - I just want those earrings back, for tonightâs feast-â
âOut,â Maitimo commands, and FindekĂĄno wisely closes the door, though his snickers can be heard down the hall.Â
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summary: the cold of himring is not as harsh as the grinding ice, but it's still a biting thing. dealing with the aches and pains of an oncoming storm, maedhros is there to remind you that you are not on the ice anymore
content: gn!elf!reader, reader who crossed the helcaraxĂŤ. depictions of ptsd, physical pain and discomfort that can be read as chronic, food insecurity (or the effects of it), hurt/comfort. stand alone fic that is technically part of a series.
to someone from a warm climate (uiscefhuaraithe) - hozier âľ series masterlist
Itâs far too cold to be reasonable in the early mornings in Himring, especially during the winter season. This is not always such a terrible thing, though you will always opt to stay inside until the sun is high, and wear an extra cloak when duty demands you march through the snow for one reason or another.Â
Sometimes the crisp air, freezing as you breathe it in, is something purifying. The solitude of the fortress walls as the snow covers everything in white and grey, the cold bitter and biting, yet refreshing and honest. Sometimes, itâs brisk for a wake up call, sharp but still bearable underneath the layers. Sometimes, it reminds you of the grinding ice, and it is not so startling as it is familiar, a cold that will never be so terrible for how dry the climate is.Â
On days like this, however, when the ache of your bones and the distant clouds mean a storm is nigh, and the wind rattles the windows and digs its fingers through what openings it can to tear the warmth away, itâs miserable. Your morning routine is spent with your cloak pulled high and the regret that you did not sacrifice the weight of your armor to wear another heavy cloak.Â
Your afternoon is spent cursing how your hands ache as you write, wondering how poor your penmanship would become if you said fuck it and donned your gloves.Â
Your evening is spent checking and double checking the firewood supply for the fortress, the cold nipping at your heels making you unable to shake the fear of the storm drenching the wood, making it unusable.Â
Youâre properly reassured and sent on your way by the woodsman by the time the storm rolls in, and you cannot bear to bring yourself back to your rooms and strip out of your warm outer layers - so you find yourself in the kitchens instead. Cloak secured, armor fastened, and gloves and boots laced tightly.Â
The warmth is good, almost sweltering, as the chefs on staff finish preparing dinner for that evening. The heat of the stoves and fires, of elves working hard to make bread and tenderize meat and boil broth, soothe the ache of your body and mind. Itâs a fragile comfort, but itâs there, just another layer between you and the cold. Another layer between you and the memories of hardship.
Itâs where Maedhros finds you, head down in your arms, your hood doing well to block any stray shift of air from touching your face.Â
You hear him before you feel him, and the familiar sound of his heavy boots and the sigh that is so particularly Maedhros keep you from flinching as his hand comes down on your shoulder.Â
âYouâve a bowl and bread in front of you,â he says. You chance a look, raising your head enough to make a gap between your arms and hood. The light of the fires has died down, most stoves now doused without a need to cook. In front of you is a steaming bowl of whatever stew has been made, and bread that looks fresh. A kindness by one of the cooks.
Still, the rush of cold that hits your face from raising your head itâs cold enough to bite, so youâre quick to lower it back down.Â
The intense aversion to raising yourself back up to face the cold wars with the hunger in the pit of your stomach. Inside of you is a fear borrowed from a decade ago when food was scarce, and hot food was a luxury. The years you spent walking the ice and carrying the cold demanded you eat now while it was hot, now while you had it - who could say when youâd get another chance?
âAlright,â you bemoan, before bracing yourself and raising your head. The cold hits you, and itâs somehow soothing against your overheated face, and unbearable at the same time. Seeping in and draining the warmth you had managed to trap, prickling like needles against your skin and aching deeply in your muscles.Â
Still, youâve faced worse, and so you drag the meal close and rush to eat. It burns, scalding hot on your tongue and down your throat, as you shovel spoonfuls of stew into your mouth. Maedhros doesnât try to stop you, just sits down next to you, letting his own food cool as you eat like a man starved.
You slow through your marathon, the heat starting to get the best of you; yet you donât stop until youâre scraping the bottom of your bowl with your spoon, making sure you eat every last drop.Â
Itâs only then you realize youâve started to cry. Perhaps you would have noticed it if your face wasnât already warmed from your meal, but tears slowly track down your cheeks as your breathing stutters.Â
The ice youâve felt yourself becoming this evening, brittle and cold, frozen over solid like youâd seen happen to anyone who slipped and fell into the water and hadnât dried quick enough, was finally cracking. Or melting, perhaps, with the way tears roll down your cheeks, water you would have hated to waste a decade ago.Â
Terror takes hold of you before anything else can - because to cry could be a death sentence in such terrible cold, the tears turning to ice on already frozen faces.
You know, logically, physically, you are not there. You cannot be there. You survived, and so you had left the ice. Today you had proper protection, proper shelter, the heat of a fire and a warm meal - you couldnât be in danger of your tears freezing over.Â
You hurry to wipe them away, anyways, even as your chest heaves and your breath catches, as sobs build up in your throat.Â
âItâs alright,â Maedhros says, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. Heâs warm, radiating it like a fire, and you can feel it even through your layers and his. So you huddle close, soaking in his heat as you wipe away your tears in an effort of futility. âLet it out, itâs alright.âÂ
Body aching, chest heaving, you listen, quietly breaking down into the safety of his cloak and coat. You feel like a petulant child, for all you want to repeat is how it is cold, and how you wish it would go away. You just want it to stop. The ache, the chill, the fear. The cold has left its mark, an ice frozen into your very being that you fear will never thaw.Â
Still, he holds you. Warms you, despite the chill you must put off for how cold you feel. Holds you close to make up for all that he couldnât through your arduous journey.Â
You could not save him from the torments of Morgoth, and he could not save you from the trials of the ice, but he was here now, without question or hesitation.Â
He was here now.Â
As your breathing levels out, he leans away just enough to unpin his cloak and then wrap it around your shoulders. Itâs heavy, far heavier than yours, and warm from his body heat, and smells so strongly of Maedhros you almost forgo the real elf to bury your nose into the fur and breathe.Â
âSorry,â you manage to say, after a moment collecting yourself. Tears still fall, and your chest still stutters, but you feel a little more grounded as you reach for the rest of your meal. The bread is still warm, and breaks nicely as Maedhros sighs.Â
âI think what you mean is thank you,â he replies. âThere is nothing you could possibly be sorry for.â
âThank you, then,â you amend, still feeling a little bad as you swallow your bread.Â
He wraps his arm back around your shoulder, and despite your chagrin at your outburst, you sink into his warmth. He presses a kiss against your head, and holds you close.
âAnything for you,â he says, with such conviction you have to believe him. âAnything.â
He stays there with you as you finish your bread, and pushes what he didnât eat of his own meal towards you to finish off. He rubs your shoulders and holds you when you start to cry again, just a little, when he shares his food.Â
He ends up carrying you to his rooms, as you shiver against him, still cold to the touch even under all your gear. When you realize itâs his room heâs carried you to, itâs a little too late to protest, as he sets you in the bed.Â
âAre you sure?â You ask, despite your shivering, as he goes about lighting a fire. You detest the thought of moving once more, as you curl up underneath his cloak and against the soft furs of his bed, but you know how he can get when he wakes up. Disoriented at best, violent at worst, mostly not liking to be touched at any point through it all.Â
He looks back to you once the fire is lit, seeming to truly consider the matter, before nodding once.Â
âIâm sure,â he replies, which reassures you far more than if he had just brushed it off, or told you not to worry.Â
He strips himself out of his own outerwear then, leaving it all by the fire to properly dry. And then he moves to help you with your own, his single hand far more effective undoing laces and claps than your aching ones. You almost donât let him, until he reminds you about the dangers of sweating in such cold conditions. This gets you to relent as you work off your boots, armor, cloaks, and several layers.Â
âYou should not be this cold wearing all of this,â he grumbles, making a face at how cold your feet are as he strips away your socks.Â
âItâs fine,â you reply, rubbing away the goosebumps on your arms. His hands feel like they are radiating heat, and itâs far easier to feel it without all your layers in the way.
âIâm the ice to your fire, Maedhros,â you joke, or try to, to soothe the crease between his eyebrows. He crawls over you and into bed, lifting up the furs and pulling you close to his chest.Â
âDoes fire not melt ice?â He asks, his voice a low rumble in his chest. You burrow closer, hiding your face below the covers and gladly soaking in his heat instead of the chill of not quite warm furs.Â
âYou certainly melt me,â you reply softly. He huffs, in what you decide to yourself must be a laugh, without being able to see his face.Â
âI thought I swept you off your feet?â He replies, in reference to having carried you earlier. A laugh it was.Â
âI have the winds for that, melda. I keep you around to warm my heart.â Your hands still ache as you reach for him, but the pain is lessened now by the heat of the room, the heat of his skin. You grin. âAnd my bed.âÂ
He sighs, as if long suffering, and turns to properly wrap his arms around you. âI see,â he says solemnly. âYou only want me for my body.âÂ
You laugh, and curl up impossibly closer. Here in his arms, hidden beneath the furs and his hair, the storm seems so far away. The cold reduced to little leaks in the window gaps, settling into the stone instead of your very being.Â
summary: nightmares still lurk in places of healing, and imladris is no different. you deal with it as you always have: alone. until maedhros returns, and for once someone else can understand your troubles. or: three times night terrors keep you awake, and the one time you find sleep again.
content: gn!elf!reader, hurt/comfort, night terrors, depictions of sleep paralysis, depictions of ptsd. technically part of a series, a timeline where maedhros returns to life to help the fellowship. do elves experience nightmares and sleep like humans? I don't know and I don't care <3
a pearl - mitski âľ series masterlist
I.
The first time a night terror wakes you up in Imladris, itâs with a quiet gasp.Â
You freeze as you wake, muscles immediately clenching as you cut off a cry, struggling to catch your breath and stay silent at the same time. You look around, blinking the fog of sleep and confusion of such sudden awareness away, until you recognize the furnishings of your room.Â
It takes you a long moment to relax your muscles. Another moment to sink back into the mattress, closing your eyes as hoping sleep will try to tug you back down again. It doesnât work. That heart pounding fear stays with you, choking your breath and pumping adrenaline through your veins.Â
So you sit up, pulling back the covers and swinging your legs over the side of the bed. You stand up far too swiftly, and darkness creeps around the edges of your vision, which you push away as you wipe away your tears. You pace back and forth for a moment, moving your body until your brain can catch back up to you.Â
You were safe here, in Imladris. You werenât in whatever visions were plaguing you, you were awake now. It wasnât real. Just another nightmare.
A little more awake, and a little more aware, you move to the pitcher of water in the corner of your room. You resolutely ignore the way it makes your shaking hands obvious, porcelain clattering as you pour water into one of the cups.Â
Then you step out onto your balcony, moving as silent as you can. You open the door with far more care than needed, and leave it open, to let the cool night air into the room. It feels a little like airing out the bad dream, in your still sleepy, shaken state. Like the fresh air will come in, and the rot of the dream will dissipate, leaving through the open door like a foul smell.Â
You sit yourself down on the cool tile of the balcony instead of one of your seats, and let your legs hang through the columns into the empty air below. Quietly you sip your water, and try desperately to quiet your agitated mind and still stuttered breathing.Â
This was nothing new. Nothing you havenât lived through before. You consider yourself lucky you hadnât screamed out, luckier still that you have your own quarters with walls and a door to quiet any other mutterings you may have let out.Â
You finish your water, and sit outside for a while longer. The valley is peaceful, but you cannot stop reliving the nightmare, the events replaying behind your eyes against your will.Â
It isnât until you threaten to drift off again, forehead pressed against the balcony railing, that you gather yourself up and go back to bed. Youâre careful to close the door behind you, unnecessarily quiet in your post nightmare state. It wouldnât do to disturb the peace with your terrors, you think.Â
It doesnât matter - back in bed, sleep does not return to you.Â
II.
Not the second time, but certainly the second most notable time, you were with company.Â
Having had a night of drinking with Glorfindel and Lindir, you were in Glorfindelâs rather spacious home. You had started to drift while they were still in conversation, warm and pleasantly tipsy from the Dorwinion wine Lindir had brought.Â
You donât remember falling asleep. You do remember waking up to someone shaking your shoulder, and lashing out in your haze.Â
You instinctively reach for a knife as you awaken suddenly to the shaking of your shoulder and sound of voices. There's nothing there to grab, and as you pat your side, you start to realize youâre awake and not inside your dream, nor facing some sort of attack.Â
âYouâre okay,â a voice murmurs to your left. âItâs just a dream.â
âRight,â you say, as if youâre cognizant of what exactly is going on. You swallow hard and try to remember to breathe. âSorry, Iâm okay, Iâm-â Â
You take a stuttering breath, and another. You realize youâre not in your nightmare, youâre not in your bed - youâre on Glorfindel's cushioned loveseat, one of his blankets now pooled in your lap from when you had sat up so quickly.Â
Lindir is crouched to your left, his hand hovering above your shoulder now that youâre awake. Glorfindel is close behind.
âYou were screaming,â Lindir says, sounding as if it had startled him too. âYou wouldnât stop, so I - I woke you.â
Well fuck, is all you can think. Out loud you say - âIâm so sorry.â
You rub your eyes, resolutely looking down at your lap and ignoring the burning eyes of both of your friends. How embarrassing.Â
Your nightmares were hardly something you could control, your reactions and sleep talking even less so. But still, the eyes now on you, the knowledge you had disrupted the peace of the evening - it made you want to crawl into a hole and never return.
Embarrassment. Or shame, perhaps. And even knowing your friends were kind, they were now both witnesses to your vulnerability. Doubtlessly judging you, though you knew it would be with sympathy and worry more than anything else. It didnât stop that twisting feeling inside your gut.Â
âIt happens sometimes, the talking and nightmares - though not so often screaming. My apologies.â
Glorfindelâs hand reaches out, slow enough to give you time to stop him - when you donât, he settles it on your leg. Meant to be a comfort.Â
âHave you spoken to Lord Elrond about this?â He asks softly. âIâm no healer, but I know he would have things to help with such maladies.â
Mixtures for a deeper sleep, ointments for relaxation, flowers and herbs meant to keep the nightmares at bay. None you have tried have worked - though, it has been a long while since you were last in such a place that had access to such medicines.Â
âNothing has helped in the past,â you confess quietly, âbut perhaps he will have something new.âÂ
Lindir hums in approval. âGood. You gave us quite a fright.âÂ
And you know he means well, know it only means that they care for you and your well-being, and do not wish to see you in such a state. Still, the shame burns ever hotter, and all you can do is nod.Â
III.
You donât go to Elrond the next morning, or even the next. It takes another couple nights in a row of waking up in a cold sweat, waking up already crying, waking up unrested with a war still playing behind your eyes, for you to swallow your pride and seek him out.Â
You find him perhaps a week later in the evening, just outside the main dining hall. You must look as bad as you feel, for he doesnât wait for you to say anything before he guides you into the nearest empty room and sits you down.Â
He gives you a look, and you sigh and bow your head, and quietly ask about the new age methods for helping with night terrors. You admit to this past week being particularly harrowing, not knowing what is triggering it entirely, and not wanting to bother your neighbors with screams in the night.Â
âI have a few things we can try,â he says, thinking over the details youâve told him. âThis should help tone down these dreams, and allow you to rest properly.âÂ
The emphasis on your rest is not lost on you, even in your sleep deprivation. Emphasizing a care for yourself, and not the concern of others.
âI would greatly appreciate it.â
The mixture he ends up giving you is almost miraculous for how it helps you sleep, resting through an entire night. It seems to work well.
It lasts all of a week.
It isn't long until you're waking up in the middle of the night again, your heart in your throat. You're unable to move, unable to blink, even as you swear your eyes are open. Your desperate attempts to sit up, to move your limbs, to do anything at all, all fail to move you. It's as if your brain cannot connect to your body.
Shadows flare around the edges of your room. A darkness encroaches, creeping up the faint light of the moon that splashes across your floor. It swallows it hungrily until there's no light left, and you cannot see the shadows in the darkness.
You can feel it though, even as you fail to struggle. You can feel it like pinpricks along your skin, the knowledge that the shadows are creeping towards you, and you will be the next thing to be swallowed.
Closer it creeps, and closer still, wrapping shadows around your ankles and pinning down your wrists-
And then you're sitting up sharply in bed, blinking blearily in the light that the moon casts across your room. In the same motion, you're standing up, bare feet scrabbling against your sheets as you try to shake off the shadows you swear were just clinging to your limbs and weighing you down.
"Get off," you cry out, brushing at your shoulders. Your feet dance up and down, as if on hot coals. "Get off, get off, get off-"
Your foot catches at just the wrong angle, slipping off your silken sheets, and then you're falling to the ground. The impact is jarring, rattling your teeth and bruising your elbow. You scramble back, back away from your bed, running from shadows that aren't truly there.
When you finally feel like you can breathe again, when reality returns to you, you've pushed yourself into a little space just underneath your window. Curled up tight, your legs locked up and your nails digging into your arms. At your feet, the patch of moonlight seems to glow, lighting up your bare toes with its pale touch.
There's nothing on you. Nothing clinging to your ankles, no shadows creeping up your legs. You realize distantly how ridiculous the notion is - of course thereâs no living shadow here to strangle you. It was just a dream.
That doesn't stop you from crawling out to touch the moonlight, as if it could protect you from what you had seen. It doesn't stop you from sitting in its glow, curled up like a cat on the ground, as if the light will chase the nightmares away.
The next morning, you return whats left of the tincture you were given, barely keeping yourself from flinching at every shadow that crosses your path. Elrond sets his efforts on making something new after that, something that might truly let you rest.
+ I
The next time you wake up screaming, Maedhros is right next to you.Â
As you wake up rather loudly, half delirious, hands clawing at your skin, heâs there to stop you. Youâre too out of it to put up much of a fight as he grabs you and pulls your arms down, holding you tight until you stop struggling.Â
He counts himself lucky that you did not wake up too violent, as he has known you to do at times before. All he has to do is hold you until your screams give way to sobs, and you collapse against his chest.
âItâs alright, melda,â he murmurs, rubbing circles into your back. âItâs just a bad dream.âÂ
He continues to talk, low and smooth, until you stop shaking in his arms. He holds you all the while, rubbing your back and pressing kisses to the crown of your head.Â
âIâm sorry,â you whisper out, voice cracking as you hide your face against his chest.Â
âThere is nothing to be sorry for,â he reassures. You shudder against him, the terror of your dream mixing unpleasantly with the thought you had disturbed his slumber.Â
âBut I woke you.â
âAnd?â He says, like heâs expecting something more. âNext time it will be me waking you.â
Right. Somehow, in the haze of unreality, with the span of more than an age since you had last laid with him, you had forgotten his own nightmares.Â
You recall old memories, ones you feel more than see, of nights he had held you while you screamed, nights where you talked him back to reality, of warm comfort and the knowledge that the other understood entirely what you were going through because they went through it, too.Â
There would be no pity, no strange looks, no talking about it unless you brought it up, if you screamed yourself awake - because he did the same thing. You were united in this.Â
You relax against him again, letting yourself cry in earnest. You had missed him. God, you had missed him.Â
You have him at your side this time as you pull yourself together. When sleep cannot find you again, he helps you leave your bed. He gets you a glass of water while you pace, so your own shaky hands donât have to attempt it. He opens the balcony door for you, remembering to turn it quietly, lest you be set on edge again (and for his own sake as well, for there truly were little traumas you both didnât share). He doesnât insist on sitting on the chairs, instead sitting with you, dangling his long legs over the edge just as you do.Â
You sip on your water, quiet in your own mind. Despite the lack of awareness on your end, heâs there to lean against when you grow weary. Solid and steady, and warm to the touch. Refusing to let you face the night alone.
Tomorrow might find you on the balcony again, your positions reversed. He might have his own nightmare behind his eyes, rendering him quiet and afraid. You might rub his back and lean against him, a grounding comfort, unable to stop the nightmares but there to help him through the aftermath.
It still wonât be easy. But it's better together than it ever was alone.