silfida

just a teenage girl living her life in russia. i won't tell my real name for my own safety, but my nickname is silfida, as you can see

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☆ interests:

walking, cycling, music, art, science, research

one day you'll see my art.. i guess

☆ some favourite bands:

the hu, gojira, sepultura, химера (chimera, russian band), grai, troll bends fir, system of a down

☆ fandoms:

arcane, jojo, the tatami galaxy, metal family, bleach, honkai star rail, blue-eyed samurai, my student spirit, tadc, kill bill, project hail mary, professor dowel's head (by belyaev), ariel (by belyaev), the amphibian (by belyaev)

abandoned fandoms: genshin impact, harry potter, evangelion, kimetsu no yaiba, the maze runner, drive

(one day i'll return)

☆ studying:

ict, maths, physics

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and i've just found a german magazine at home 😭😭 nobody in my house speaks german wdym

Or maybe it's dutch (??) I DON'T SPEAK IT TOO😭😭

My motivation to live is a naive belief that i can change something around. Build a city? Land on the Mars? Just give me some time. Yeah it's just a hyperbolisation. But i do small changes every day. Like ripping off that "we help the addicts and unemployed people for free" leaflets (IT'S SLAVERY), throwing someone's trash in trash cans, leaving researches or argumentation in comments, listening to someone's problems. I feel like i'm a tiny part of this enormous world like an electrone in a wire. And that's why i find this world changeable.

Some people in my life make me too happy they turn me into a melting ice cream or a jiggling jelly. They DO create the environment where i can feel safe. I know they care about me and they know i care about them. That's why i don't wanna die anymore

While i feel embarraced to hold my boyfriend's hands he is ready to spend his day with me. Problems? The only problem is my message telling him not to be embarraced coz it's all ok. I'm being afraid of the things i told him not to be afraid of 🫪🫪🫪 yeah i'm overthinking sometimes but i hope i can escape it. At least he's just adorable and he's the one who makes me melt sometimes

Another person making me happy is my friend. We've changed each other once, but we're still different. Maybe i'd be a typical jealous girl in basic clothes if i didn't meet her... I'd probably be a disgusting person and i'd hate myself

just some photos lol