Sofendirekt

It's been a long time but it's just that I feel bad. Alerta post in spanglish, its just my head is a mess. I hate it. I hate feeling like leaving everything behind. I hate doubting about whether "something is worth the effort" I wish I could see everyting as "life" man. Just live. I hate how little precautios I can be. How a mees I can turn into. How descontralada estoy sometimes and how I can feel it haciendo una grieta en mi interior interior profundo. I hate it, I hate it. I hate it. I need to fill this void with something. So incompleta. So desperate to know everything, how to act what to choose. So pacific but so caotic. That's just me man. And I fucking hate it. I'll leave.