deer eat mice & birds & rabbit carcass

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

We both come from low income households with Black immunocompromised elders & parents, who have had difficulty receiving adequate medical care since & BEFORE the pandemic hit. Both of us were working at the start of the pandemic, while I got laid off, & my girlfriend, a Trauma Informed Massage Therapist who specializes in the treatment & bodywork of marginalized communities, had to shut down & cease work for 6 months due to a state shutdown. While she has recently returned to work in a limited & precarious capacity, she does not make enough to sustain her household nor do i mine, as both of our unemployments have run out. 

For my girlfriend, who works in close proximity to other people due to the nature of her profession as a massage therapist, she is extremely at risk for COVID-19 exposure. She has debilitating and diagnosed Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, so this pandemic has hit her hard in many ways; not only financially, but as well as mentally. She does her best to minimize transference and exposure to COVID aerosols, by obsessively cleaning not only her office, but herself and all items she touches thereafter. We get drive thru testing every 2 weeks to make sure that we have not gotten sick, and also not gotten her immunocompromised parents sick, because they would not be able to survive it. Having OCD and carrying that weight & responsibility on her shoulders is hell. But, she is one person trying her best.

One of her personal goals is to obtain her own office space for her private practice where she will be able to take on more clients of marginalized and low income experience and expand to teaching people of color & children in low income communities (who are the most often overworked & underserved when it comes to healthcare and bodywork) how to preserve and treat their bodies when they don't have access to conventional healthcare. Teaching child to child massage would help enable a generation to effectively learn & practice emotional intelligence, autonomy, consent, & empathy in a way that utilizes safe touch.

As for me, it's been difficult finding work from home positions that will take someone with no prior experience or that even have openings. I've exhausted my own savings (some of which were to fund our goal of finding our own place together) from my previous job keeping abreast of bills that have not ceased once since the pandemic started. My physical and mental health has been in decline without access to a psychiatrist to monitor and prescribe me antidepressants for my struggle with suicidal ideation and a suicide attempt that was a year ago in October. 2019 was not a very kind year to me, & 2020 has shaped up to be similar in terms of trauma & survival. I currently live in a household where a former abuser has easy access to and having to cope with him being in close proximity and not alert my family is a trying and triggering process that sends me down that dangerous path of thinking. Another goal of this fund is to get me away from such trauma and onto a path of healing, not just acquiring more coping skills. 

The areas we respectively live in and come from are not safe for various reasons. For me, it's growing up & coping with near constant gun violence, overpolicing, abuse, and normalization of misogynoir within my neighborhood. For her and her family, it's living in a predominantly white & right wing gun toting area as one of the only Black families in her area. We want better for ourselves and a safer community to live in that allows us to express our full Black lesbian selves in entirety without threat of persecution or violence. Or as close to actualizing that reality as we can get.

Goals Of This Fund:

- Secure safe housing & first few months rent for my partner & I

- Supplement our income to keep up with bills & necessities 

- Secure transportation to facilitate my move in 

- Obtain rent for an office space for her private massage practice

- Enable us to stay in quarantine

Alternative Donation Links:

cash.me/sheisresting

paypal.me/sleepisforlovers

Venmo: @ phiphu

or @ sleepisforlovers

BLACK LIVES STILL MATTER

just because the media stopped caring doesn't mean we can

you can find the art-only tumblr here: @fackeltanz

if you want to follow me on twitter instead, here is a reminder that i can be found at @100000deer

What I mean here isn’t that she isn’t transphobic, but that her shitty things abt trans women in prison specifically arises as just one errant facet of her larger goal as a DA/AG, which is to deny rights to as many people (esp incarcerated people) as possible in some sort of twisted goalkeeper role. Certainly trans medical care is something that people should have (in liberal terms a “right”) but Harris didn’t block that because she dislikes trans people as far as we know, but because it was her job to specifically try to block any and all rights of the accused and imprisoned as possible no matter how logically tortuous or unethical. If you just focus on the trans piece of that without a critique of her role in the criminal justice system, you are missing a (perhaps THE) major problem that her approach represents.

if u wanna help out a dysphoric unemployed autistic trans girl, donate if u can :)

paypal.me/JuliaEl91

I am aiming to book a first appointment with the clinic after we get our unemployment benefit payment on the 6th October, which will be about £250 per appointment. I will need follow-up appointments after that but I won't know how many until then. I will also need to pay for more self-medicating supplies which will run out in the next month or 2, which is about £50 for a month's supply. I currently have £160 remaining of my donation funds so far

Please boost far and wide if you can, it is REALLY appreciated!!

We just found out that on top of our advances repayments, Universal Credit is taking ANOTHER £89.11 from our benefits this month for DWP benefits recovery. So now after budgeting for food and bills we are left with -£208.44 (that's minus)

so i may end up having to spend more and more of my what little transition funds i have just to survive

Please help us out if you can!!

Making a new post since the old one has died.

Here's the run-down of things:

- I'm a traumatized autistic gay transmasc who moved in with my boyfriend and his family to escape my psychologically and physically abusive mother in November of last year, who around the time of me moving out, had made threats about having me institutionalized against my will for an "internet addiction."

- Before I moved, my boyfriend was diagnosed with Renal Cell Carcinoma (proof below) after a CT scan revealed a tumor on his kidney. He underwent a partial naphrectomy in December and after 6-month follow-up he is still cancer free. Unfortunately, even with the insurance he had at the time, we were left with a $6000+ medical bill from his ER visit, surgery, and hospital stay. The generosity of various online communities allowed us to raise $1453 of that amount, but as of 9/14/2020, he still owes over $4000. Owing this money has seriously damaged his credit score. My boyfriend is making automatic $50 monthly payments, but I'm not yet able to contribute much as my personal financial situation still has yet to stabalize.

(This is an old picture - the total amount is less than this now.)

- My boyfriend's parents used to be violently physically abusive towards him and still are psychologically abusive. His brother also treats him poorly and they've gotten into two physical fights now, the first of which resulted in a threat from his brother about kicking us out while we were both unemployed, and the second of which was my boyfriend defending himself when his brother assaulted him. His family also enables his alcoholism by sending him to buy drinks and leaving bottles around the house, which is hampering his efforts to stop drinking. The conflict in his family is primarily stressful and damaging to him (he has PTSD and takes medication for panic attacks), of course, but also has the side-effect of retraumatizing me. We need to ideally move out before the situation deteriorates any further.

- After months of our employment / income situation, we are both working, but not currently making enough money combined to afford renting our own place (in my case my wage was docked and my hours have been halved). He is currently in the process of (hopefully) getting a motorcyle via a loan as we currently share my car and he needs his own transportation and finding a job with a higher pay. Once this is taken care of, we'll be able to start working on moving out. I personally don't really have the option of finding another job as my neurodivergence makes emotional labor a nightmare, I'm too physically weak to do hard manual labor, and most people don't want to hire me anyway as I can't mask my autism or ADHD super well.

TL;DR: My boyfriend and I are in a spot that while, not being an emergency (yet..?), is pretty bad, possibly getting worse, and we're working on getting out ASAP for both our psychological and physical health. Having this bill over our heads is a pain in the ass at best and a barrier at worst. Any and all help would be greatly appreciated.

The Tumblr app won't let me paste the link directly to the PayPal Pool so here's a Tweet that has the link.

Other ways to help us out are commissioning me (digital art, DM me if interested) and checking out my Patreon, which is a mess but I'm trying to be more active. I currently do not want to accept donations for anything other to pay these bills. If things become desperate, that may change.

Please keep reblogging!

Katherine @white-chalk-sapphomet just messaged me on Facebook letting me know her phone was just stolen tonight. Things were hard as is & she really needs some support rn. Shes recently unemployed due to corona, she has no internet in her home rn, she basically has no money, and without her phone she cannot continue sex work.

She can’t take donations to money apps bc obviously she doesn’t have access to them rn, so I asked her if I could take them and zelle them directly to her bank account and she said yes. She’s literally like my family, she’s been one of my closest friends since I was basically a kid. Please trust me and help me help her. I will provide proof that the donations go to her.

She needs a decent phone for sw, so I’m setting the goal at $500 for now and if we can get more that would be really, really great. Please include a note with your donation saying it’s for her, just to help me keep things sorted & counted. Thank you so much

cashapp: $heartemojie, paypal.me/13thead, venmo: babiephace

[image id: a screenshot from the Facebook messenger app, showing a message from Katherine that says “I just had my fucking phone stolen”. End id]

[image id: another screenshot of 3 messages. They read “well, would you be comfortable with me taking them and I can zelle it to you?”, “that’d be fine, yes 😞”, “I gotchu”. End id]

Roger Dean | Teddy Bear Chair | ca. late 1960s

“The ‘Teddy Bear Chair’ was literally just sitting there, demanding its obvious right to exist. I couldn’t resist it.”