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On the verge of collapse

Sick of running through mazes

Into your dead ends and traps

Will these wounds ever heal?

Or will you just make things much worse?

Will you turn out to be a blessing?

Or a never ending curse..

I know that this is toxic

And I know that you’re not okay

But I knew that from the very beginning

And I promised i would stay

You don’t even let the scars form

You keep picking at the scabs

Everytime I dodge the sucker punch

You hit me with these little jabs

I feel like I’m slowly asphyxiating

Spiralling hard towards the floor

And when I think you’ve done your worst

You show me you’ve got more

I’m breaking down into pieces

You can watch the slow decay

But I knew what to expect with you

When I promised I would stay

The unapologetic narcissism

Oh what it must be like to be you

To say the things you say to hurt me

To do the things you choose to do

I’m a lovely little plaything

Like a child’s favourite toy

To love and hold and cherish without abandon

Then, someday unexpectedly destroy

Your love for me is undoubted

Your possessiveness is pure

I’m trapped in this codependent loop

Fueled by your devastating allure

My soul is slowly dwindling

My sanity is gone

My heart is just so broken

But I’ll still carry on

I’ll take on every devastating blow

I’ll love you till my dying day

And you can keep what’s left of me

Because I promised I would stay