Sigyn

Pile I ~ left

You come from a difficult situation from the past. This could be a relationship that didn’t end up well or the way you expected, or this could be a breakup. I see you’ve been thinking about “how things could’ve be if…”. Your mind has been full of “what if” thoughts that actually lead you nowhere, and I think you’re starting to notice. Whatever what happened, you know deep inside that this relationship wasn’t going to last. Probably it was you the one who ended it because I see you’re willing to have fun but you also want something more stable. You crave the feeling of someone craving your touch, you’re romantic and intense and you couldn’t find that fulfilment with this person. You’re probably feeling sad, angry because it seems that no matter what you do, you don’t find someone to build something beautiful with. But the good news are that you could see that this person didn’t deserve all the things you could offer to them. You didn’t get comfortable with less than the bare minimum and that’s a radical act of self love.

You’ve been taking care of yourself lately. This could be you going to the gym, eating more healthy, spoiling yourself, letting yourself enjoy your body and your hobbies, hanging out with good friends and laughing until your belly hurts (this is different for different people since it’s a general reading). And this new habits you’re trying to incorporate into your life are leading you to a glowup. I see you blossoming like a beautiful flower that expands its petals and fills the field with its vibrant colors. I see you shining like gold and like the sun itself and it’s inevitable that people look at you. They’ll find you so gorgeous (no matter what gender, this is about energy) that they would look at you twice to check you’re real. You probably have success in rewards to something related to your job or money: maybe someone offers you a better job, or earn money that you didn’t expect.

There’s someone who would see you as if you were an ethereal being. They see you surrounded in that sunlight and I see them thinking how is it possible that you’re a real person and not a dream. They probably dreamt of you, specifically if you’ve been manifesting a new relationship. If you talk to this person, you’ll take their breath away and leave them wonder if it was all a dream or in their imagination. I feel they’re shy and you, despite giving this fairy/light/ethereal energy, can be intimidating. Maybe there’s something in the way you look at them or in the way you flirt that makes them want to flirt back but are not sure if you’ll like them. Here’s the thing: if you like them back, don’t be afraid to express your interest and love, make a romantic gesture, enjoy the beginning like you’re not afraid of rejection. Because I don’t think they would reject you and, in fact, they will be waiting for a sign to make a move and maybe ask you to go out on a date. This person feels different from the other people you’ve met. They won’t be afraid of you being “too intense”, that will love it.

For those who are already in a relationship I see both of you glowing like sparks of light, like stars. It doesn’t matter if you’ve been together for a couple of months or a couple of years, things are going to grow to the next level. There’s compassion, understanding and the mature willing to be a safe place for each other. I’m seeing some of you are probably planning to move together or build something really specific that represents your relationship, maybe it’s a house, adopting a little animal or even getting married or having children, since I see a celebration!

Pile II ~ middle

Damn, things have been really tough lately. I see your despair and confusion, your disappointment and anger. I see a breakup here. It is weird because I don’t see much drama but the emotional impact is huge. Maybe you felt the grief while still being in the relationship with someone who hurt you really bad. I don’t want to trigger you so I won’t get deep into this but this person could’ve cheated on you or lied to you about something too important to hide. I feel you gave them endless of opportunities but it’s enough. You’ve reached a point in which you won’t let yourself go through that hell anymore. Maybe you blamed yourself in the past (specially those of you who were involved with someone emotionally manipulative) and wonder what you did so wrong to deserve all of this. But now you know it wasn’t your fault and that your only responsibility is to walk away from this person and anything related to them.

Some of you may still feel the desire to take revenge for what they did to you but you need to know that it won’t change what happened. They probably won’t ever be sorry. And after all you’ll have to let them go. It doesn’t mean that you forgive them, in fact you can live a beautiful and fulfilling life without giving them that benefit. If you want to forgive them, do it when your heart feels at peace and you feel ready to do so. Meanwhile know that you can’t live forever in a resentment state but you don’t owe them anything. Good health, new and brilliant opportunities, a new healthy love, wealth and happiness is you karma, if that’s how you wanna call it. Al of those good and prosperous things are coming into your life, it would be so sad that you didn’t see them because of you being too focus on the past, right? I know that it can be comfortable because that may be all you know but trust me: there’s more and way better. I couldn’t compare it. I can’t describe how amazing and exciting things will be for you. I see you meeting someone new in the future that will be completely different from this other one. But for now, the main message is: spend time with those you love and trust. Let them see you: tell them about your broken heart if you want to, tell them about what happened, let them hold you, let them hear you and offer you a shoulder to cry on. Let them be there with you. You’re more loved than you think. The number 4, 44 or 444 may be significant.

Spend time doing what makes you feel lighter, your hobbies, maybe the things you used to enjoy as a child or before you entered this awful relationship. Whatever it is do it for you, let your creativity be seen and expressed. Look for your true self and bring her/him back. Fall in love with yourself again and have fun like your body shakes away the pain with your laughter.

Pile III ~ right

You’ve been tied to someone from the past, don’t you? That ex that you know it’s not good for you but you still talk to them or they talk to you but you keep yourself open to receive those messages. Maybe it is someone you’re involved with in a friends with benefits type of relationship. Whatever this is, you know it’s something you should’ve let go some time ago. What’s stopping you from doing so? What’s stopping you from moving away and finding out all the good things you could find? Because I know you know, pile three. Maybe it’s the fear of the unknown what freezes you, the fear of being alone or the fear of intimacy. But the time has come. This feeling of being where you don’t want to be has been getting stronger and now it feels unbearable. You can walk away, you’re only paralysed because of what your anxiety tells you is going to happen if you go on your own. You don’t trust in yourself, maybe because you’ve tried many times but still went back to this bad habits and surroundings. But it’s time.

I know how scary it is. It feels like diving in a huge ocean where you don’t see the bottom. You’re afraid of what can come without you seeing it first to react before it catches you. But you’re being invited to explore, not with fear or insecurity but with curiosity. You’re being called to dive deeper into that ocean because that ocean is not life itself, with all the “what if” that you have in mind. That ocean is you. You’re that vast and unexplored that you’re more afraid of what the repressed parts of you could be and do than the “what if”. You’re afraid of your own darkness but that’s still you. Look, you got de Lilith card. The independence card. The “I don’t give a sh1t, I’m going to do what’s better for me and what I want for me no matter what they say, no matter how they try to stop me” card. Do you know how powerful you are? Do you know how capable you are? Ask yourself what do you truly want. Be courageous to look at those parts of you that could be a red flag. You’re responsible for your own happiness when it comes to love and relationships. You are the only one who can choose and you’re being invited to choose you for once. Why do you feel all of that love and passion and kindness to everyone but you? Allow yourself to express with confidence and joy. Allow yourself to live the life you actually want to live. Set those boundaries and if someone gets mad, let them be mad and let them go because they were the ones who benefited from you not having any boundaries.

In this group I felt an intense feeling of loneliness. Your Ancestors see how hard you’ve been trying and how alone you’ve felt all the way through this journey. For some of you this is something related to your spiritual or mundane path (your job, your career…) and for others this is something related to your own self, setting strong and clear boundaries and owning your truth and who you truly are. No matter what is it, you all have this heavy feeling of being drained but keep on trying anyway even though you don’t have the support you wanted and deserved. Your ancestors see you from the other side and want you to feel their hands on your back, holding you so you don’t fall, close to you so you feel their presence and know you’re not doing all of this alone. I feel they are plenty, some of them you knew them while they were alive (I’m specifically seeing someone like an old lady and maybe a 50 year old man) and there are also many others you don’t know that stay by your side. You have a whole team next to you, actually. They smile at you and they are proud of who you are and who you are becoming and they think you shouldn’t doubt yourself anymore. They want you to trust in your intuition, be willing to listen to them as well because they still carry a wisdom you may want to learn from. They know your path isn’t easy, for most of them their paths weren’t either, but they’re ready to help. I’m hearing that there’s a specific food someone would like you to cook for them: it smells really good, the type of food you smell when you went back home after school and you wished that it was your house and not the neighbour’s house. It feels comfortable and you probably lived with this spirit while you were a child (I think of many afternoons spent with this person). They’d like you to cook for you two just like they used to do when you were together, even if you don’t know how to do it, I’m hearing: “look up the recipe, I’ll guide you”.

It may feel discouraging to be supported by those who have already passed away but know that they see beyond your eyes and can see what’s behind and in front of you, too. The stress and anxiety you’re currently feeling will disappear, it is temporary and better times await you in a near future. You’ll create the stability you’ve been seeking because it all starts with you. And you’ll be able to look at your past and say “I made it”. In this near future I see a table full of fruits and food, there are many drinks and comfortable chairs surrounding it. I hear laughter coming from the next room and some type of excitement in my stomach, maybe you’ll be happily celebrating Christmas or any other holiday with your loved ones, even if they are a couple of friends but that’ll be enough. You’ll be and have enough, you can breath and feel the calmness you deserved. You’ll make it.

Pile II ~ middle

The message here is related to a specific situation you’re going through that needs you to use your logical mind instead of the heart and the feelings. You probably have to choose between two options and they could be equally good or equally bad but you still have to choose. They want you to remember all the beautiful and nourishing things and people that you have in your life, first. To pay attention to the here and now for just a second. There may be a birthday or celebration soon that will help you disconnect a bit from this frustration mode you’re on, and they encourage you to talk about it with these people if you need to and feel safe enough to do so. Asking for a second opinion is not a bad idea and you can use it to have more perspective, but you don’t need to blindly follow anyone’s advice if you know, deep inside of you, that only you know better and is the one to do what’s best. For some of you this is something related to children or a family, maybe a home and its stability and your ancestors want you to know that they’re behind you, watching your steps so you don’t take the wrong path, but I don’t think you would, and they neither, but they feel very protective towards you. It feels like a fierce mother’s or father’s love and protection and it reminds me of these times when they told us not to be with a specific friend because they didn’t like them and ended up being right, you know? They trust you’ll be fine, they support you when you do things differently than how they would have done them when they were alive, and they are happy looking at you doing good without them, but they’re still there, when things get really bad and when things get really good.

They want you to remember that you’re on time, there’s no rush. They want you to know that you’ll see a sign soon and that it will bring you clarity on that topic: the skies are clear and you’ll be able to take that bandage off of your eyes and see what should you choose. I feel that there are more than one spirits but there’s specially one that is really close to you. This ancestor feels like they helped a lot of people when they were alive too, maybe they were a doctor or a nurse, because they’re also asking you to check your healthy and unhealthy habits, and to pay attention to any pain you may feel in your body, also emotionally. Make your home and your space a place safe for you and somewhere you can be yourself. And they want you to know that they help you and will help you in anything you ask them for.

Pile III ~ right

You’ve just gone through a transformation. There’s something that broke your heart in the past, it’s not been too long, actually. I’m mainly feeling the presence of someone you loved so much. I’m feeling he’s a man but since it is a group reading for some people this may change. This feels like a partner, for others this could be a mother or a father, possibly a sibling or a best friend that passed away a few years or months ago. Energy has no gender so take this message as long as it resonates with you:

This spirit feels really polite and caring and they still care for you. They know you’ve cried so much for them that feels like your eyes will hurt forever. They constantly talk about your eyes, maybe it is something they liked to look at when they were alive, but I’m also hearing that they loved how much you expressed though them. They’ve seen how much you’ve suffered and they think how unfair it was for you that some people chose to walk away from you when your pain made you close your heart to them. But they’re also saying that treating yourself like this is unfair too. If you haven’t, you’ll finally get out of this dark space soon. Step by step. And they’ll be with you. They want you to know that they’re okay no, specially if they passed away because of some illness or tragic accident. They’re not in pain and yours is not making them stuck: they are freely choosing to be with you. They are asking you to go outside, even if it is just for a walk but they want you to feel the air, to take pics of every little beautiful thing like you used to. They say they want you to find them in those little things again. When you see that beautiful sunset and you turn around looking for them because you want them to see it too but there’s none, know that there next to you. They’re still holding your hand.