“Pretty enough to be groomed and sexualized but not pretty enough to be loved”

I fear this is my first time having this type of connection with someone irl and I’m so scared of it. Like I couldn’t even handle someone online, like at all I go insane so bad, but idk if I’m just delusional or me and him both are, but we’re literally sort of the same or at least have the same opinions and feelings and it’s so scary, especially since tonight we both expressed are feelings towards eachother, I’m so glad tbh because I was afraid it was one sided even though I felt he somewhat felt the same, I don’t know y’all let’s just hope it goes well and nothing crazy happens. We’re both just friends and who knows what happens in the future but hope it all goes well🫩 (still drunk rn🧍‍♀️)

Have no one to vent so here we are🧍‍♀️

I miss my friends… I’ve been just so lonely and bored and hurt every time I drink but that’s all I wanna do… it was so fun with my friends but they don’t care or even want to do anything together no more… why does everyone suck so much rn, right when I need someone everyone is just gone🫩

I miss him so much… I wish I didn’t let people treat me like this🫩 no matter what I say they know it hurts me but still continue to do it… and I can’t leave….

Today was the day I was suppose to graduate hs, but I’m not and I’m so depressed over it but it’s my fault so atp I’m kms🫩

Drunk and sad NOT surprising tho

atp I’m just embarrassing myself, have been for two years and im tired of it🫩

Ew🧍‍♀️

I love being drunk