tobi 🍓

he didn’t do anything wrong, so i think it should be okay

“you’re the only one i annoy”

- apparently! likes this girl ;) is all shy about it

- probably sees me as a great friend

- does try to flirt sometimes, seeing if i can be kept on his “bench” or not

- does abandon sleep to talk to me, appreciate that because i’m doing the same

- i’ll probably take a step back now. not initiate it for a while

- let’s see how this progresses

- let’s hear about this “girl ;)” first, is she all that? is he seriously deep in feelings for her?

- says “I DON’T LIKE HER”, i don’t buy it though

- roommate says “why is he wasting your time then?” and now i see it. why is he wasting my time then? but then, is genuine human interaction illegal? i do want friends yk

- i can’t seem to bring myself to a decision.

- i have this fear that when he gets a girlfriend, i’ll lose this precious friendship :| silly, ik, but it’s a real fear.

not him sending me a full fledged news and photo on hickeys… bro that’s so weird i am disgusted as hell

this is so bad that i can’t even tell anyone, they’ll tell me to block him

i literally had to launch a censorship on the messages, first with the misogynistic curses, second with the find me a girlfriend rants and third with these suggestive(?) reels. just stop bro.

- i’ve never done things like asking a girl out, and i’m honestly scared now

- you’re smart (that’s true though)

- couldn’t be me who was last in frog jumps (it was you very well sir yaar wait was it jr?)

- talk to you soon (two days, not a reply. ab jab meri ama aa jayenge to reply krega pagal)

they both had left. outing ti. suddenly my phone lights up. it was on silent so i’m glad i looked at it immediately. it was him. he was calling. just when i’d abandoned the thought of calling him.

i picked up and he asked me if i wanted to join him and his friends for shopping for a dress. i said yes.

the outing was fun. we did nothing, just talked to eo. it was awkward but not awkward. and it helped me lighten my mood as well.

- i feel lonely, touch starved