UNTO A NEW DAWN.

So, yeah. Hey. It's been 5 years since i've logged into this. I know alot of you have been watching me closely. Tracking me on socials. Handing my record to friend's i've known for years, ruining a friendship in a single look. Everything happened when i was 19. I'm 26 now. I'm a damned normal adult in society. I'm happy. I have friends, i have video games. I've been traveling the world. Why? Why is someone like ME allowed to travel? Because none of you idiots, know the actual story. None of you know, what happened. None of you know, i was threatened to do an action, or to watch someone i had cared for at the time, End their life, right in front of me. None of you know, i actually despise children, and hate being around them.

But why would you care? I must be a threat to society no? Then why am i not locked up, chained like a dog in a cell. Because, i let my empathy get in the way of my morals as a stupid teen. Do i regret it? Every damn day of my life. Shouldve ran. Self preserved. I hope he's happy. I hope he's thriving. I hope he learned that life is worth it, no matter what has happened, what you've been through.

I'm an employed member of society. I Started HRT Two years ago. I work a 9-5. I have a degree. I go out with friends, and bar hop on the weekends. I go on vacation, travel, and make amazing memories. I'm being as normal as i can be.

*We're all getting older*

I get Protecting the younger generation. Truly i do, i think they rely on devices and should NOT be on the internet. But, The time and energy y'all spent on me, when im in my own lane. Doing my own thing. Staying 1000 miles away from any space that teens might interact with, for my own health. For my own sanity. I think its wasted. You can think of me as a threat, but i've been through years of therapy and positive relationships. To know, and admit, it was your right to dislike me back then. I was a piece of shit, ive read some messages i had sent and, jesus. I don't know what was wrong with me. But my life being ruined, is what has made me the strong and confident person i am today. The one who goes out of their way to buy groceries for poor people, when i visit friends who are struggling. To volunteer at shelters for animals. To offer my time fixing my peers, devices for free, so that they can have something to work on.

i love who i am. I fell in love with a person who made me 1000x times better. And even though we chose different paths, i will never, ever thank her enough. She's still a dear friend of mine.

I learned to love myself, my own time.

If me, being exposed, and an asshole almost 5 years ago, is still important to you, then i genuinely think you too, need to learn to love yourself.

and if you want to keep telling people, im a problem. A threat? Then, check your cards again, because god, dealt me a rough hand, but i learned how fold.

link to the vtuber blacklist tweet: here

archive to his previous antics: @himbokingarchive

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