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So after 7wks I have #gain all my #weight back. now @ 185lbs I’m feeling great about myself. My anxiety still there, but I’m able to control it. Thnx to family n friends that have helped me along the way. I have been #positive and staying #strong. I am never in control of what happens around me, but i am always in control of what happens within me. Every #spiritual journey is a quest that we set out to discover something new. Not just anything, but about who we truly are. Learning how to #meditate has been a big process to my #healing 🍕🌝🌻🌼🌈🧘🏾‍♂️ 🍕 as I end 2018 on a positive, I’ll remember it as a turning point to a better #future.#cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness #menshealth#healthyeating#bodybuilding #gym#abs#biceps#beastmode#tbt #follow#transformation#lifestyle (at Gardena, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrVXVAjhSnh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1iwfxgtkoq45w

So after a wk1 I’m feeling a lil bit better. I still get #anxiety #attacks here and there. Still on #medication, not trying to rely on them is really hard. I’m taking it 1 #day at a #time that’s all I can really do. #Glad that I gained 5 lbs in a wk. Lookin forward to wk3 with better results and getting my #gains back!! Please #share #cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness #menshealth#healthyeating#bodybuilding #gym#abs#biceps#beastmode#motivation #workout#instagramfitness#sports #crossfit#insanity#cardio#lifestyle#strong #active#fitnessadict#follow (at 24 Hour Fitness - North Torrance Redondo, CA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bppo_WoB0SX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=awhzsgoeuzo3

So after a wk1 I’m feeling a lil bit better. I still get #anxiety #attacks here and there. Still on #medication, not trying to rely on them is really hard. I’m taking it 1 #day at a #time that’s all I can really do. #Glad that I gained 5 lbs in a wk. Lookin forward to wk3 with better results and getting my #gains back!! Please #share #cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness So after a wk1 I’m feeling a lil bit better. I still get #anxiety #attacks here and there. Still on #medication, not trying to rely on them is really hard. I’m taking it 1 #day at a #time that’s all I can really do. #Glad that I gained 5 lbs in a wk. Lookin forward to wk3 with better results and getting my #gains back!! Please #share #cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness #menshealth#healthyeating#bodybuilding #gym#abs#biceps#beastmode#motivation #workout#instagramfitness#sports #crossfit#insanity#cardio#lifestyle#strong #active#fitnessadict#follow #menshealth#healthyeating#bodybuilding #gym#abs#biceps#beastmode#motivation #workout#instagramfitness#sports #crossfit#insanity#cardio#lifestyle#strong #active#fitnessadict#follow (at 24 Hour Fitness - North Torrance Redondo, CA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bppo15whWlI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1pzzq8kltqg0w

I am #Ironman#avengers#infinitywar #marvel#holloween#loveis #lovequotes#cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness#menshealth#healthyeating #bodybuilding#gym#abs#biceps #beastmode#motivation #workout#instagramfitness#sports #crossfit#insanity#cardio#lifestyle #strong#active#fitnessadict#follow (at Gardena, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpnvAFUhZg4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=bheqf3ydazrg

Just over a lil over a month I started suffering from #depression n #anxiety #attacks again. I have a #history with depression. I went from 187lbs to 157lbs in less than a month. Most of the time I couldn’t #sleep, #eat, #breathe, #chest pains n shaking at times. Only way I could escape this was thru sleeping pills, #Xanax n #smokingweed. I had stopped going to the #gym. I felt very weak to even #lift anything. Well now it’s time to do something about it. With the #help of my #family n #friends I will rise and #start a new page of my #life. So #follow me as I #mentally n #physically #train myself #back into #shape #running in the #mornings , going to the gym after work n gym again at 2-3am and of course proper #eating for my #gains. (at 24 Hour Fitness - Torrance/PV, CA) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpW-5GAh8s7kJt1zHJMyNzFadJ3_ZWmGrzk-500/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=79syhyjlje5w

When you are #pumped and ready for #avengers #infinitywar #premier #tonight who will #die #captainamerica or #ironman 🤔 #underarmour it was #biceps day #fitness #fitnessmotivation #bartender with #muscles 😅😂🤷🏾‍♂️ (at UFC GYM)

When your 5 o’clock shadow finally arrives a week later!!! 😒🤷🏾‍♂️ #beard 🧔🏽growing way to #slow 🐌 #gym #beastmode

It’s been a while since I posted anything 1st #pic of the #newyear #2018 #goals👉🏽 #mealprep #diet #shredded ready for the #fitexpo this #wknd 💪🏽🏋🏾‍♂️ (at 24 Hour Fitness Downey Super Sport)

#tbt so this hppnd last wknd. Shaved off the beard. #cleanshave gonna keep a clean look for a bit. 👌🏽😎👍

Chilling 😎👍with my Niece #👶🏼 #babysitting mi #cholita #peruanita 🇵🇪 chinita 😍

Tan on point 👳🏾👌🏽😎beard coming off soon lol #bartending will miss the #fight #chaves cinnamon going down!!

#tbt to this past #wknd n finally holding my niece for the 1st time. born #premature n finally out of the hospital. #born 2/20/17 we #pisces 2/20 n 2/26 😍👍✌🏼😎✌🏼

It's my #bday wk!! So let me take my 1st #selfie pic of the #yr #lol with a early morning #gym session #shredding for the #summer 💪😎✌️letting my #beard grow #muscles #fitness#bodybuilding#gym#abs #biceps#beastmode#motivation #shredd#workoutcardio#lifestyle#strong#fitfam#follow

#tbt when you are the only 1 that eats #tacos with no #tortillas and it shows 😎#miamibeach #2016#southbeach#Bachelor#wknd not mine😅 #patrontime#follow#tan👳🏽#proteinshakes #fitfam#cleaneating#fit#muscles#fitness #healthyeating#bodybuilding#gym#abs #biceps#beastmode#motivation #workout#lifestyle

#morning every1 #friday is here. Who's ready for some #drinks !!! I'll b having a few during #superbowl #wknd #tag or #share with #friends #follow #fitfam

A lil morning humor 😅 happy #Friday y'all #tgif #fit for #porn #muscles#fitness #menshealth#healthyeating#bodybuilding #gym#beastmode#motivation #workout#instagramfitness#sports #crossfit#insanity#cardio#lifestyle#strong #active#fitnessadict