this website made me loca loca loca

Since I fucked up last Tuesday, I’ve been horrible to myself in order to punish myself for writing the horrible e-mail I talked about. I came to the realization that I wasn’t so perfectionist with people (and myself!) before I joined this website. Since then, anyone who says something racist/sexist/transphobic, anything considered wrong, has not a single chance to be/stay friends with me. I feel like this website’s users’ habit to bully people who post something that’s not perfectly tolerant out of here has gotten into me, it makes me hate myself for being... socially clumsy.

To be honest, if you read some of my tags, you didn’t miss the times when I wrote something like “waiting for tumblr users to drag the author for not including trans women”. I even created a side blog for a day that was basically a rant about SJWs by mocking their behaviors. It’s still online, but didn’t catch anyone’s attention.

Anyway, I feel like this community is making me awfully hard on myself. Whenever I think something, I’ll have a second thought on SJW mode that’s just going to yell at the first thought pretty much. I felt like unfollowing people who spread these posts where people blow up at users for not being perfect in their opinions would help, but it didn’t. I even took the decision to unfollow two people I really enjoyed on my dash, one for spreading criticism on white people (that’s not how you fight against racism) and another one for constantly hating on white gays. (looks like even gay people can’t escape the bashing)

So... I’m sorry for everybody who liked the funny stuff I reblogged, I’m glad that many people enjoyed what I’ve been posting, but... I’m out. This website is making me hate myself for not thinking perfectly on the first try.