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If you find your mind frequently latching onto thoughts or ideas that disturb or upset you, especially if you do things to try to alleviate those thoughts (like unplugging devices unnecessarily because you think a fire will start if you don't), please please please look into OCD. That includes obsessive thoughts about whether you're a good person, whether you're unintentionally abusive, past memories that make you feel stressed or anxious, the idea that you could hurt or kill someone, etc.

It is entirely possible to have sub-clinical symptoms, or to have an inclination toward using control to cope with anxiety, and then to develop debilitating OCD after a period of high stress or a few too many traumatic situations.

I will love you like the ashes in my cigarette box

And if you're fine with that

You can be mine

If you're fine with that

But I am not a vessel for your good intent

I will only break your pretty things 

I will only wring you dry of everything 

And if you're fine with that

Oh, I will ruin you

Desperation will erase the fact

I'm keeping all

Of the answers in my cigarette box

Yeah, the answer's in the second before the other shoe drops

And if you're blind to that

About the girl I could have been, my dear

'Cause in the night I know you burn with feelings

I cannot return, my dear

But I am not a vessel for your good intent

I will only break your pretty things 

I will only wring you dry of everything 

And if you're fine with that

It's all that I can give to you, my dear

And when you come in quick to steal a kiss