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It's a fucking sad life I live

Honestly just keep ending up back in the same situation and it breaks my heart... I feel like there is something wrong with me, that I can never be loved and that it's my fault but no one will tell me what it is that I'm doing wrong. I know how I want to be treated, and I know I shouldn't settle for any less but how can't I, when all I've ever had is half-hearted feelings from people who are just obviously not that into me? I have started to believe that for me, there is no such person as a match, which is horrific as I am so, so dependent on the idea that this next person, whoever it may be, will be that match. I recently felt loved and secure, like everything was falling into place and now I've just been pushed right back again into believing I have done wrong and am not worthy of love. I am finding it so hard to believe I am worthy of anything at all, and it's because of these people I'm so dependent on. I wish I could stop and be my own person for once.

Boys are really, really harsh...

Hoping I don't crash and burn

I don't enjoy dating at all, it's so not my thing - I can never talk to more than one guy at once, I get feelings too quick... It's really not for me and I ought to stay away from it. However, I don't like sleeping alone

It is just happening over and over and over again