Sheys

Do I want to be the fast person? Person with goals and ambitions to chase and always on the clock or the slow one, with calm mornings, who wakes up each morning and waters her plants, who cleans her room every morning and makes coffee for herself just to open the windows and soak in the sun, who wants to read things and write things.

Body shaming is something that has been around since ages and people have been going through with it silently. In this time period though, this is actually getting the attention it should have been ages ago. Still we come across many many people who have an explanation for treating people who are overweight or underweight or just different than the ideal body type (which btw changes like every next year) badly, “it causes many health diseases” or “ i just want them to be healthy and look good”. While some may use this as an excuse to just put people down but there are people who actually are concerned and they say these things too, to them I would just say, it’s of no use.

The truth is that it will do them no good, the only thing it will do is that their self confidence will detoriate almost immediately, they will become so self conscious that it may result in severe mental and physical consequences that will only hurt them. Unless and until it’s them who want to change for good, for themselves, anybody else telling them won’t do any good.

Speaking from my personal experience, i gained 10 plus kgs during lockdown and before that i used to be underweight and I didn’t care about it but after that i started seeing changes in how people perceived me. Comment sections and my messages were now filled with “you look fat” or “did you gain weight?” or the best of all “you looked prettier before”. As if this was not enough people around me would put a phrase or two saying “i think this much food is enough” or “go do some exercise , you don’t look good” or simply “lose some weight”. It did me no good.

Nobody gets it, altleast the ones who have never really faced it. I realised it then, even i used to do the same. Not intentionally but commenting on body was the only kind of joke we have seen around that kids make on others.

All of these comments though seem very small and irrelevant but these were the reason i stopped going out of my house, stopped eating (max 300 calories a day), I would not buy clothes, cry for hours because i used to get so intimidated by the people around me, all of this for an entire year. Traces of these are still in my behaviour but much better.

I love watching the sky, well many people do but sometimes i wonder if the love for watching the sky can be compared. You have seen people write poems and songs about the sky, beauty of a person is compared to the beauty of the sky but not everyone does that. Not everyone uses heavy words to describe it’s beauty. There are many admirers, some like to describe and some just find peace, they find peace just looking at the sky with no thoughts in their head, no rush, no worries, just the pretty pink sky and the moving clouds.